Consistency

Christmas Kinda Lonely (Jingle Bells)

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed/Mastered by @niko-rain
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"Flourish (Best Life)" is Track 7 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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[Verse]
I'm tryna live my best life
Looking my best life
Maybe a better version of me
I think it's crazy
I think of you daily
With everything that happening
Deep down, I still love ya
But I have to let go
So I can be happy
Gotta learn to love me
Cuz I ain't perfect
And that's my reality

[Pre-Chorus]
Ooh yeah I'm grateful for the times
I got to spend with you
Ooh you're the one that I thought
Would love me through and through
But we're through

[Chorus]
So I'mma live my life to find the real me
By facing life's uncertainty
Tryna see my life for what it's meant to be
To live consistently
I know you won't stay by side
but i think i'll just be alright today
I'm now okay
Wanna learn to love myself lovingly
My Time to start flourishing

[Verse]
I know it's not easy
Waking up each morning
In a world without you by my side
But life has its reasons
It's my chance to believe in
A future where I'm more than alright
I'm forever grateful
Grateful you were with me
Through the thick and thin
But it's time to let go
And pursue my end goal
And fight my demons within

[Pre-Chorus]
Ooh falling out is the
Best thing that we could do
Ooh I don't need an ETA
To heal from you,
Cuz I'm through

[Chorus]
So I'mma live my life to find the real me
By facing life's uncertainty
Tryna see my life for what it's meant to be
to live consistently
I know you won't stay by side
But i think i'll just be alright today
I'm now okay
Wanna learn to love myself lovingly
My Time to start flourishing

Flourish (Best Life)

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed by @niko-rain
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"Deep Down" is Track 6 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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[Verse 1]
I thought by now I'll be over
Of all the things that we've been through
Thought my Heart could just erase
All the pain that I've been through
I know what I've seen
It ain't meant to be
That's just reality

[Verse 2]
But yet, I still try to be
The one who hung over of the memories we had
Oh, I wish there are things I could take back
I know this feeling inside
Wish I could put it aside
And someday realize that

[Chorus]
Deep down, I know
Deep down, I know
I'm better off without you
I'm better off without you
Everything in life shows,
All my life I've known,
That it'll be me that makes me happy
Don't need you to make me happy

[Verse 3]
Searched for answers
Of why you left me behind
All the hatred I've built up
When you come to mind
I resent that I loved you
(I resent that I loved you)
I resent that I miss you
(I resent that I miss you)
I hate we have issues but
(I hate we have issues) 

[Chorus]
Deep down, I know
Deep down, I know
I'm better off without you
I know I'm better off without you
Everything in life shows,
All my life I've known,
That it'll be me that makes me happy
Don't need you to make me happy

[Chorus]
Deep down, I know
Deep down, I know
I'm better off without you
I know I'm better off without you

[Instrumental]

Deep Down,
I know I must let you go
Before I go mad
From the heartache you bestowed
I know it'll still hurt me
But it's better than keeping hope
I have to learn to love me
So I'mma let you go
Let you go from my life
Deep Down,
I'll be alright
I’m better off, better off without you
Without You

Deep Down

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed by @niko-rain
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"ETA" is Track 5 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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[Verse 1]
Gimme a ETA when I'm no longer broken
Riding this race now, 
TBH, feel like slow motion
Don't wanna rely on anyone else
Because I'm just another burden in your eyes

[Verse 2]
Honestly, IDK where I am going
FYI, my path to life ain't really showing
But I can't rely on anyone else
Cuz I'll be another burden in their eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
All these dates and TBAs feel so useless
Don't wanna say I'm okay
But I'm just used to it
Oh what a shame, can't complain
When life's a big commotion
I'm not okay, not okay

[Chorus]
Wake up
All my dreams are just not meant to be
Sadly, it seems
I'm stuck with the little things
That's on my mind
Escaping time
Cuz nothing really matters to me
Hiccups are kinda like my speciality
Ain't fun when I'm constantly bickering
With all my doubts
That's on my mind
Yeah I'm just not happy

[Verse 3]
Gimme a ETA when I'm no longer broken
Tryna save face, TBF, I'm a disappointment
I'm done relying on anyone else
Because I'm still another burden in yall's eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
All these dates and TBAs feel so useless
Don't wanna say I'm okay
But I'm just used to it
Oh what a shame, can't complain
When life's a big commotion
I'm not okay, not okay

[Chorus]
Wake up
All my dreams are just not meant to be
Sadly, it seems
I'm stuck with the little things
That's on my mind
Escaping time
Cuz nothing really matters to me
Hiccups are kinda like my speciality
Ain't fun when I'm constantly bickering
With all my doubts
That's on my mind
Yeah I'm just not happy

[Solo/Outro]

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed by @niko-rain
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"Chance" is Track 4 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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What's this hurt that I am feeling?
Is it true you had your doubts?
I thought our love had no amount
I know you think that I am broken
In a world thats full of shit
I think our love should still exist

Ooh, can we fight for what we're feeling?
Is there a chance to make us right?
A chance to end this fight?
Ooh, Promise to make you feel at home
To remind us where our love came from
And remind that you're not alone

I know I did things that weren't amazing
But everyone has their own flaws
And I'll still love you at no cost
I know you're not that happy
But I'll still stick by your side
And make you happy till I die

Ooh, can we fight for what we're feeling?
Is there a chance to make us right?
A chance to end this fight?
Ooh, Promise to make you feel at home
To remind us where our love came from
And remind that you're not alone

Ooh, I'm not ready to let go
All the memories of our fun
I question what have I done?
Ooh,  I hope in your heart
you'll find some hope
Ill fight for us no matter what
I still love you, that's no doubt








Is there Chance to make this right?
A chance to end this fight?
A chance to love you more?
Cuz it's you that I adore
A chance to fight for us?
A chance to make me yours?
A chance to make you happy?
Without you, I get real crappy

Is there a chance?
Is there a chance?
Is there a chance?
Please give me a chance

Chance

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed by @niko-rain
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"You Won't" is Track 3 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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[Verse]
I wasn't sure what type of guy
That I was looking for
But you came along and showed me love
Like no one did before
You gave me new life
To the dark world of mine
You said "I'm never gonna leave ya"
But you left me to cry
When I wanted to die
From all the pain that I was feelin'

[Pre-Chorus]
It ended up with a tweet
When I felt so obsolete
When you didn't want me no more
I was angry at you
But I was angry at me
For believing a lie that
You promised from the start
That this gloomy heart
Wasn't alone anymore
Now, all I really know is

[Chorus]
You won't stay with me
You won't lay with me
You won't help me and forget the past
But you lied to me
And said we're meant to be
Just for you to treat me like trash anyways

[Verse]
Back then, it was hard
For me to open to anyone
Yet you were the guy
I decided I would lean on

[Pre-Chorus]
It ended up with a tweet
When I felt so obsolete
When you didn't want me no more
I was angry at you
But I was angry at me
For believing a lie that
You promised from the start 
That this gloomy heart
Wasn't alone anymore
Now, all I really know is

[Chorus]
You won't stay with me
You won't lay with me
You won't help me and forget the past
But you lied to me
And said we're meant to be
Just for you to treat me like trash anyways

You Won't

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed by @niko-rain
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Consistency (Reimagined) is Track 2 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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[Verse]
If Consistency is what you're looking for
I promise I can't give you more
A future all decided
Cuz I'm lost and still searching for
A reason for my insanity
A reason why this is happening
I know life ain't perfect
Tryna see if it's all worth it
Navigating around a town
That's nothing but deserted
I need to understand
Why this hurts so freakin' bad

[Chorus]
Why bother thinking hard
When you're hardly ever thinking of me
I know I've come so far
Yet I'm still stuck in the beginning
I wish that things could stay the same
And stop this endless stupid game
Of life, I'm tryna find my place
But I wish I could forget your name

[Instrumental] 

[Verse]
If Consistency is what you're looking for
I promise I can't give you more
A future all decided
Cuz I'm lost and still searching for
A reason for my insanity
A reason why this is happening
I know life ain't perfect
Tryna see if it's all worth it
Navigating around a town
That's nothing but deserted
I need to understand
Why this hurts so fucking bad

[Chorus]
Why bother thinking hard
When you're hardly ever thinking of me
I know I've come so far
Yet I'm still stuck in the beginning
I wish that things could stay the same
And stop this endless stupid game
Of life, I'm tryna find my place
But I wish I could forget your name

[Bridge]
I know I'm wasting my time
When you're still on my mind
You want a better me
I said Fuck Consistency

[Chorus]
Why bother thinking hard
When you're hardly ever thinking of me
Yet I'm still stuck in the beginning 
I wish that things could stay the same
And stop this endless stupid game
Of life, I'm tryna find my place
But I wish I could forget your name

Consistency (Reimagined)

Production/Lyrics/Vocals by: @pavfaz
Mixed by @niko-rain
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Falling out is Track 1 of pav's debut album, "Floresence."
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[Chorus]
Falling out, I'm closer
To Reaching out, not sober
Can’t decide what to really say
I can't explain, my thoughts' astray
Oh Baby, ooh, I just want to talk
You, and tell you all of my big news
But you're no longer in my life

[Verse]
Our falling out
Got me thinking could be temporary for now
So Imma just improve myself somehow
So you don't think I'm toxic
Just person who's down
Give me four weeks till I get better
Then we can get back together
Cuz I keep messing up
I gotta clean my messes up

[Pre-Chorus]
I can't just change the past
So let me make up to you by being better

[Chorus]
(Oh babe, we're still meant to be)
Falling out, I'm closer
(I'm falling into pieces)
To reaching out, not sober
(But I will still redeem me)
Can't decide what to really say
(so come back to me)
I can't explain, my thoughts' astray
Oh baby, ooh, I just want to talk
You, and tell you all of my big news
But you're no longer in my life
I know it's all just temporary

Falling Out

Cover for WuChang Masquerade
Original Song by @saintnoelle & @niko-rain
Mixed by @niko-rain

Lyrics:
It was the first time you saw me
as every thing you wanted
stood underneath your front porch lights
and it was the last time I felt as if
I wasn't wasting my energy trying to lock your eyes

and cause I showed up on your doorstep out the blue
caught you when you needed me, I always needed you
said you got some shit that you gotta get to
so just cancel don’t know when I’ll get this moment again just

hush, I don’t wanna waste it
don’t wanna waste this
we could make it last awhile
hush, if you don’t wanna admit
you don’t wanna be hostile
we could make this last awhile

hush, I don’t wanna waste it
don’t wanna waste this
we could make it last awhile
hush, if you don’t wanna admit
you don’t wanna be hostile
we could make this last awhile

Emi Ko - ONE MINUTE (Saint Noelle & Niko Rain Cover)

Produced/Written by pav
Mixed/Master by @lukedimond

[Verse 1]
Wish I could live another life
I Wish I didn't always cry
Wish i really didn't have to hide
With the mask that I wear
To the ones I care

Can’t help myself but question more
Why the ones we love hurt us most?
Conflicted, don't know which way to go
Wanna swallow my pride
And say I'm not fine

[Hook]
I can’t help but feel this way
No one to open my heart
Alone, some help just seems so far
I don't wanna think this way
My insecurities and doubts
Just gets the best of me when I am down
So I’ll mask it away
So I’ll mask it away

[Verse 2]
Picture Perfect Life is all you want
Expectations High, cant hold them on
Tryna be someone that I am not
I'm tired of being someone not me

[Hook]
I can’t help but feel this way
No one to open my heart
Alone, some help just seems so far
I don't wanna think this way
My insecurities and doubts
Just gets the best of me when I am down

[Tag]
So I’ll mask it away
So I’ll mask it away

[Bridge]
I’m so afraid
Of what you have to say
Wanna be that someone
You can lean on any day
Why its so damn easier
To wear this other face
While I'm going through it,
feeling like a big disgrace

[Tag]
So I’ll mask it away
So I’ll mask it away

MASK

Born and raised in Houston, TX, pav (also known as Emi Ko on NoPixel GTA RP ) is a Filipina singer-songwriter who strives for emotional transparency through her bedroom pop music. 

After being diagnosed with depression and anxiety, pav turned to songwriting as a coping mechanism. Navigating through the challenges of mental health, pav released her debut album, “Florescence,” on February 24, 2023, based on the Stages of Grief. pav brings her audience along her journey of healing as she sings about the different stages of her own heartbreak/mental health experiences. As a musician, pav’s goal is to connect with her audience through her music to bring a sense of healing and companionship. 

pav is currently working on her debut EP, “INTROSPECTIVE,” featuring her latest Single, “MASK” as the Lead Single. This EP will continue her journey of dealing with the different aspects of her life and mental illness

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