I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me

stream; lnkfi.re/Xh7wRoxA
bandcamp; https://pawprinted.bandcamp.com/album/the-little-steps
song breakdowns; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uP_36jeVNvY
extras (instrumentals, scrapped songs, demos..);  https://on.soundcloud.com/WhJfCSZZUF67utHSPd

i really put my heart into this project, and it contains some of my most vulnerable and personal writing. i hope it resonates with you, and if not, then i hope you at least enjoy the music.

big inspirations for these songs were very talented artists such as keshi, hanuel, starfall, etc. i was also really moved by other music like paramore, hey monday, the 1975 (these are artists / bands i actually listen to!! 😭 unlike diary sry guys)

thank you again for all of the support, i'll see you soon <3

the little steps

u still stuck in the past saying u still miss the dead old meeee

past w/perfume8

~ red Ribbons ~
p. me..

all plats + lyric vid; https://lnkfi.re/yhnfbRK5
~

fucked up

it's fucked up

i rely on you too much

even though i don't make a sound

just know i'm there
just talk to me when u need

or when u please

sometimes i don't think i deserve u
anymore like--

well first of all, i stumble all over my words like--
why are u so goddamn understanding??

Youre Being waaay too nice to me

sry, i'm shy, i can't look u in ur eyes
no, my heartbeats gone awry
i don't wanna say goodbye

darling, i'm sad
spending all my days just yearning for u 

you put in work
there's just no way that i could ignore u

cause i know!

we're hopeless now
darling i hope you don't count me out

i don't know how you can bring yourself to tolerate           the shit i do
annoying, ugly, overbearing
you say things that aren't true..

i guess if you wanted to , we can try it .. maybe?
had all these pent up feelings, now? think i'll spill them bby

red Ribbons

~ stay Strong ~
produced by me

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/track/1px5p7PkJFxUrOphiuXsoa?si=65bd5c50c2b94d1a
lyric vid; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDyIEYN9wtU

♡♡
i lied, you know that
that night, i felt that
my heart, it felt that
darling no please don't go back

you're mine, u know that
i'm fine, don't feel bad :/

i'm just waiting and waiting for u to come home

everyday; it's the same, "gotta stay strong"..? (marry me ecco2k)
look in your eyes, yea my feelings start to get too strong

darling i hope, after this that we can stay as friends
somehow i doubt, i can't bring myself to make amends

you lied? thats ok..
just please.. don't mistake
mah love, for u babe
as something i will betray

i'm fine..! i'm ok!!
ill sleep, the next day

just know coz.. 
just know coz..-
u and i

we're never gonna-
we're never gonna separate
even though we make mistakes.. "stay strong"..

i lied, you know that
that night, i felt that
my heart, it felt that
darling no please don't go back

you're mine, u know that
i'm fine, don't feel bad :/

i'm just waiting and waiting for u to come home

everyday; it's the same, "gotta stay strong"..?
look in your eyes, yea my feelings start to get too strong

darling i hope, after this that we can stay as friends
somehow i doubt, i can't bring myself to make amends

stay Strong

~ it's always been you ~
produced by me ..

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/track/1uZxZxiTLA30LymPebBerm?si=6efa9765bff94c7c
lyric vid; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfj-G6VFRDE

♡♡
I've been waiting
and waiting
impatient
i'm pacing
god it's grating
it's grating
bae come on
i'm fading

god it's too much to handle
i'll melt; like candles
girl i'm fading! i'm fading
my heart can't take this any-

you say it's not enough
i gave you everything
all of your empty words come out
bae like what that mean?

i feel so lost & so betrayed
how do u live w/ urself?
i think it over on the train
i don't wanna live w/ myself

i can't take this constant beating
the signs have been there from the start
i'm tired of the old repeating
ya i tried and tried with all my heart

no i can't defend it anymore
how's it not just getting old?
u had me wrapped around Ur finger
morphed into what u would mold

god the things that u have done to me
i don't have a clue
ig these things were just meant to be
so do what u do..

it's always been you

~ cravings ~
prod meeee..... LOL THESE R THE WORST AND MOST CONTRADICTORY LYRICS I'VE EVER WRITTEN

woof

lyric vid; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8UIhR9E4as
spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/2A5AEOHGwtCBD1Mfpd4GEu?si=jtS45oCQT3GjHD8GNB7wtw

i need you here Rn
Girl i need you next to me
IK things haven't been the best
but can we fix it please?

you make my knees weak
let's our do our best .. given circumstances,,
but There's just not enough timee D:

Like/ now
Idk what i wnna say

Think out loud:
Do U just see me as a game.......?????

But when my heart beats Like This
i know that You're around
IDC how it sounds
I'll stay with u without a Doubt

it's been a long time coming
i hope it lasts forever
would you like that Too ??

lately I've been doubting if it's evn real
it's fucked up .... !!!!!!!!!
i know lately you've been craving to feel 
Something that you're not used to

it's OK, so am I
so let's go through this together

cravings

~ valorie ~
all tracks Prod me •ﻌ•

--when i'm in the make the most generic soundcloud digicore competition and my opponent is myself

what you think? about me when u up

i feel stupid saying this shit again 
I've been thinking abt leaving if i can
fuck that shit i'll just leave it in the past

try new things, but they don't ever last
all these ppl around me feeling like i'm outclassed
fuck that shit i won't make myself an outcast

outcast

~ valorie ~
all tracks Prod me •ﻌ•

i'm hurting right now
don't touch me right now
look at the time now
fuck— i need a light now

i'm hurting right now
don't touch me right now
look at the time now
fuck— i need a light now

so just let go of those memories that we made
they're so painful to think of but too late to change
god— it makes me feel awful, do you feel the same?
i'm so backwards, confused— I've been feeling so strange

I've been trying for the past years of my life
it's all useless, but liek i'll never know why
I've been caught up in the wrong things, my wrong mind
it's not healthy, but like no i'll try to stay fine

so don't worry about me, do your own thing
like i'll worry about me, & my own pain
and even if it's hard, i'll try to stay sane
-so please just go on, live on; i'll be okay

so please just go on, live on; i'll be okay
i was never really up in the first place
press rewind again, back to the first day
i was never gonna win keeping that pace

so please just go on, listen close to your heart
i'm going way back to the start

i'll be okay

~ valorie ~
all tracks Prod me •ﻌ•

don't want to let u go
just want u here right now
i'm kind of nervous though
so please just hear me out

you know i can't forget
the words you said that day
i know i'm fucked again
.. so pls just stay away /

i do it all because of u
i know i shouldn't 
i reach out one last time to keep you
but i couldn't

just want to hear you say you love me but i'm Stupid
i wana fade into the bg— normal student

i'd die to feel your touch
but it's not good for me
you know I hate to crush
but you're a part of me

i know i said goodbye
but i keep coming back
there's something wrong with me
but i'm okay w/ that

i know yeah
i know you'rehurting 
You're   hurting
tell me— Just tell me
what i Can Do 
To hel pyou



tell me

~ valorie ~
all tracks Prod me •ﻌ•

tonight, i'd like it if it'd be quiet
just one more time
in spite of differences
coz god it stings, all those things; tonight

you're so pretty it makes me want to give up & die
u can't expect me keep composure with those hazel eyes
all that teasing and the torture makes me wana cry
don't wanna talk to your friends girl like ya u know i'm shy

u know i'm shy ya
it's so crippling
i feel liek no one understands i'm on a downwards swing
or it's like no one really cares that's more likely

so pls don't ever stoop so low where you're like me

so pls don't ever stoop so low where you're like me
you know i'd understand if you said that you hate me

coz u r the last thing i need to fix me
and that's kind of scary
so take it slow
so take it slow



woof

~bandages~
produced by mee..
hihi hello what's up ~ the other day i slipped while playing w my cat so i had to record this with a bandage on my chin .. LOL .. so.. there's the lore for the title,

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/1DV7LAv4rKpByhk6bIkabZ?si=Lv02BZaNSO-02wGwbMVwBA
lyric vid; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVwUhqV64G0

♡♡
like these feelings
they're kind of scary
but i'll stay quiet
misunderstand me

ya

i can't talk now
or else i'll relapse
hesitant
don't want u see where my hearts attttttt

everyday now
just wna be near u
my heart it beats fast
—& it's all for u

coz of this love
you've got my guard down
hesitant
don't want u see where my hearts attttttt

mark me— let them know i'm all yours ya
kiss me— let me know i'm not a chore ya
own me— make me fall in love & want to stay here
i wna stay here..
.//..i wanna stay here..

touch me, bite me, tell me that u love me
i need validation; always from the ones above me
scold me, harm me, idc it's something..
i need a reminder of my place or i'll be nothing ;/

https://linktr.ee/pawprinted

bandages

~clumsy~
produced by @saykirani & mee..

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/77UcsxO6RKAJkKiDYtmmQM?si=L_1UBYKoTUa55RdEfpkbhA

i need more umamusume friends who’s ur favorite uma guys mine is super creek mwehehe

♡♡
so say what u wna say
idk what i want okk??
go be w ur friends all day
leave me in the dust bae i'm not okay

so say what u wna say
idk what i want okk?
go be w ur friends all day
leave me in the dust bae i'm not okay

my puppet strings pull me back
still l find a way to u
with everything sinking down.,.
i could never lie to u (guess what this is referencing..)

so please will u hold me close?
go ahead, have ur way w/ me 
my brain used to hold me back
but nowadays i feel so free

fight until it's ovr liek an angel w a shotgun
for a sliver of ur lov i'll still find a way to catch up
idc if i hurts- just want to be the one for u

the one for uu
the one for u

just know i can't promise much
but i can swear that i'll try
i'm kind of clumsy,.. you know?
-so embarrassing i'll die ysfsdfgsgbxdf

no, u don't get to say
how i'll live my life
that's all for me to choose
that's all for me to choose
-& that's from me to uu

i wish i was smart enough like tachyon 𓃗
once a gifted child
now so mediocre

i can see it in their faces, they don't like me 
that's how it seems, anyway: they dislike me

ya "goodbye" got stuck in my throat
it's okay?
now i'm withering away in ur mind ,. 
oh god fuck no (ily back number))

the thought of it terrifies me
not much but i'm hanging on
i just want u right beside me
it's fucked up; no i can't move on

it's fucked up; no i can't move on
what'd u do to make me liek that?
it's fucked up; no i can't move on
all these days u treat me liek that?

but i can't help myself, i'll always come right back to u
it's not healthy but u tell me what i need to do

so say what u wna say
idk what i want okk??
go be w ur friends all day
leave me in the dust bae i'm not okay

so say what u wna say
idk what i want okk?
go be w ur friends all day
leave me in the dust bae i'm not okay

my puppet strings pull me back
still l find a way to u
with everything sinking down;
i could never lie to u

so please will u hold me close?
go ahead, have ur way w/ me 
my own brain used to hold me back
but nowadays i feel so free

https://linktr.ee/pawprinted

clumsy (kirani + me)

~lift my bangs~
@lintukoto

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4J4VN0ylZ8qFEuSrmgn2MZ?si=RSyCsQYsQYanhdB5CfxGlw

heyhihihi what's up ty for all of the love recently it's been really motivating.. (..kind of overwhelming too but in a good way) so let's all have a good upcoming autumn ૮ • ﻌ - ა

♡♡
would u tell me that u love me even if i'm kind of awkward?
it's so hard to say goodbye i don't wanna make this hurt that bad

u say i care too much?
well obv it wasn't enough
hoping u don't call my bluff
fuck it don't add no fluff 

u 
like u never realized 
my true feelings
ig that's not ur fault cos

i'm just so terrified
scared of that look in ur eyes
promise me that you'll be alright
still.. i'm hoping to rely on the lies

so you sweep my bangs
& touch my forehead
cos i'm feeling kind of hot

so i rest my head
in both my, my palms
and admire from afar
admire from afar

it's so frustrating that u 
never just never just never just notice

but i'm too scared to say .. so
i'll just stay like this until u come home 

I've been in bed all day
overthinking every word i say
i'm sry, u just can't relate
just wna sit outside w/ the rain

u say i care too much
..well obv it wasn't enough
hoping u don't call my bluff
fuck it don't add no fluff 

you called it bittersweet
there's no need for talk like that
just say it how it is
it'll hurt but i like it like that

u say i care too much
..well obv it wasn't enough
hoping u don't call my bluff
fuck it don't add no fluff 

so you sweep my bangs
& touch my forehead
cos i'm feeling kind of hot

so i rest my head
in both my, my palms
and admire from afar
admire from afar

it's so frustrating that u 
never just never just never just notice

but i'm too scared to say .. so
i'll just stay like this until u come home 
https://linktr.ee/pawprinted

lift my bangs (anka)

love this song smm
original song by sleeping with sirens

♡♡
Stay for tonight if you want to
I can show you what my dreams are made of
As I'm dreamin' of your face

I've been away for a long time
Such a long time, and I miss you there
I can't imagine bein' anywhere else
I can't imagine bein' anywhere else but here

How the hell did you ever pick me?
Honestly, I could sing you a song
But I don't think words can express your beauty
It's singing to me

How the hell did we end up like this?
You bring out the beast in me
I fell in love from the moment we kissed
Since then, we've been history

They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need (it's all that I need)
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave (I will never leave)
Please stay forever with me

It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are
What my dreams are made of
Can't fall asleep, can't fall asleep
I lie in my bed awake, in my bed awake at night
As I dream of you

I'll fall in love, you'll fall in love
It could mean everything, everything to me
I can't imagine bein' anywhere else

They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need (it's all that I need)
Please stay as long as you need

Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave (I will never leave)
Please stay forever with me

The way that we are is the reason I stay

As long as you're here with me, I know I'll be okay
The way that we are is the reason I stay
As long as you're here with me, I know I'll be okay
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need (it's all that I need)

Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave (I will never leave)
Please stay forever with me
They say that love is forever
(I was created to love just one, baby) Your forever is all that I need
(I couldn't love just anyone)
(I was created to love just one girl) Please stay as long as you need
(I couldn't love just anyone) Can't promise that things won't be broken
(I was created to love just one, baby) But I swear that I will never leave
(I couldn't love just anyone)
(I was created to love just one girl) Please stay forever with me

if i'm james dean, you're audrey hepburn (cover)

i would say i relate to this song but i have mommy issues instead so
original song by sleeping with sirens

♡♡
Father, father, tell me where have you been?
It's been hell not having you here
I've been missing you so bad
And you don't seem to care

When I go to sleep at night, you're not there
When I go to sleep at night, do you care?

Do you even miss us?
Your bottles and mistress (i kid u not i thought it was "ur bottles ur mistress" for the longest time. that's even what i sung in this cover. omfg)
I need to know, I need to know

Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake? 'Cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?

I will try to understand
Father, father, tell me, where are you now?
It's been hell not having you
Last thing I heard, you were fed up, you're skipping town
With no note telling where

When I go to sleep at night, you're not there
When I go to sleep at night, do you care?
I need to know, I need to know

Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake 'cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain

I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
Why are you running away?
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?

Why are you running away?
Tell me please, tell me please, I need to know

Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?

It's been seven years wishing that you'd drop a line (is this what you call a family?)
But I carry the thought along with you in my mind (is this what you call a family?)

Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?

(no screaming here sorryyy :/)

Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake 'cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?

Why are you running away?
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
Why are you running away?
Tell me please, tell me please, I need to know

Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?

a trophy fathers trophy son (cover)

~like a lost dog~
@adrienciel + @yconi

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/track/2KTJNjyI9xwGBfaM8R0tA1?si=0e1768e24b484ccf

i promise a self prod song is coming soooon i miss itt 😭 (lov this beat sm though srsly)

♡♡
u say that i get on ur nerves
walked out, u forgot ur purse
no my hearts shut, you'll just make things worse

u thought i could be rose-coloured?
turns out u don't know abt me
fucked up, u gonna miss your shirt?

i'll follow like a lost dog looking for a home
i know there's no clear finish line but i won't give up my hope
atp i don't think i can live like this
but idkk

like that (x5) day
the words u said were so fake (x5) 
but i turn my head the other way(x5)

but u don't seem to care
hands in my hair 
(these 2 bars are from one of my older older (like probably almost 2 years old) songs but i literally just can't remember which.. PLEASE HELP MEE)

you said that you have changed
i guess
i'll believe u

i know that i'm naive
but i 
wanna see u

i know there's not much to talk abt
nowadays
,,stay w/ meee

there's only so much more in me
yeah you're under the impression i don't see
all those lies
pass by ur teeth

but i'll stay
until ur tired of me

.. well at least that i got ur shirt
so i have something to remember you by
you never once asked "how hurt?"
but u deteriorate my mind

i've not really interested in running away
but for the first time,
..but for the first time..

..its got its appeals about it
i think u can relate to that too 
we could go be so lost together
i think i would like that new

life 
w/ u

..oh.. ok

i'm sry for dreaming..
https://linktr.ee/pawprinted

like a lost dog (adrienciel + yconi)

~the quiet boy and the distant girl~
produced by me ..

told u a self prod song was comingg~ i've been foaming out of the mouth to release this so i hope u liek it •ﻌ•
(ending sample; ふんわりSlowly, by Super Creek (erm .. the goat))

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/track/4vWkh1qH7B12V6o1cImX7Z?si=d03cf0b1c1164a06

https://linktr.ee/pawprinted
♡♡
he's been running and running away
..& he's hiding his blushing face

but she doesn't care to look his way
but he'll stay quiet in his safer place

his notebook is filled w/ all those scribbles he thinks
that it is stupid that he can't seem to let her go

all he really wanted was comfort now
she whispers so softly now
and he loves her without any doubts
..he'll never say that (x2)

so the days, they all just roll on by
..they're not getting any younger, you know..
he'll live in this hell he's created
and she'll live on so carefree

so he'll write in his diary abt her
he thought getting it out would help
but in reality it made things worse

so he crunches the paper
that's stained with all of his tears
his hands so shaky and hot
but he just can't help but think:

"how would it be to go and live life with her?"
wake up in the coldest sweat, her voice calms all his nerves
to him that's foreign. that kind of comfort
but it remains a daydream (x2)

cos he's
too shy

for his own sake
he'll distance himself from her
but he will never forget the day
they met now

don't ever forget
the things that made you that way


.. i'm gonna go to sleep now, okay ?!?!?

the quiet boy and the distant girl

I'M LATEE

hihi hey whats up ~~ i've learned a lot this summer .. so let's learn even more this autumn .. new vocal music this friday btw hehe
(some of these are a bit older, but we don't talk about that .. okay ?!)

if interested in purchasing any of these, please contact on instagram @_pawprinted
https://www.instagram.com/_pawprinted

or discord; gyaruwojak

♡♡ 
(i'm the ultimate uma ermm .. apologist idk i can't think of anything that starts with the letter u)

0:00 - still in love (this song sounds so much better in a lower key LOL)
0:28 - seiun sky
0:52 - silence suzuka
1:29 - el condor pasa
2:05 - narita brian
2:38 - mejiro maaaackqueeen (w/ kirani)
3:02 - haru urara
3:25 - gold ship (w/ kirani)
3:53 - maruzensky
4:15 - loves only you (sample; glowing snow, deltarune)
4:32 - hishi amazon
4:54 - vodka
5:14 - rice shower
5:43 - fuji kiseki
6:09 - oguri cap
6:45 - tamamo cross
7:16 - grass wonder
7:40 - biwa hayahide
8:03 - manhattan cafe
8:27 - mayano top gun
8:46 - mihono bourbon
9:14 - agnes tachyon
9:31 - curren bouquetd'or
10:04 - gentildonna
10:37 - meisho doto
11:09 - SUPER CREEEEEEK

the characters i assigned to each beat were carefully analyzed and revised multiple times. only real uma-freaks know how accurate my picks are

speaking of .. gonna start reading cinderella gray soon, i've been holding off bc i've been so busy irl wahh so freaking excited

..since you're still reading go listen to this; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nP7tkwgmuSA .. about to replay lies of p for the 7th or 8th time idk i've lost count .. need that sequel neowiz .. tick tock .. no pun intended

..& even so ✧˖°. 2025 summer clips

hii it's me again , hope you don't mind these little side songs being uploaded here a bit .. i like this one but i didn't really know where to put it

what a rly weird past month and a halfish .. both good and bad !! i've met some rly cool ppl lately ;D but i've been rly busy irl with things that make me wana scream hh

hmm .. i wanna mention this too .. i'm kind of getting tired of making diary (or whatever i've been making can be labelled as)😭would u guys hate it if i were to start making different kind of music? (albeit spiritually similar to my older stuff) i haven't really felt a sense of improvement in a while .. 

also if u didn't notice, i'm in the process of changing my name .. i've been elixio since like 2017 and it has some rough memories attached to it .. so safe to say i'm ready for something new

if we've collabed, no need to recredit or anything ! just in the future i'd really appreciate it if you would credit this new name from now on <3

i originally made this song almost a year ago , and i still like it but it definitely could use a makeover so .. here's this hehe

new vocal music soon i thinkk

original https://on.soundcloud.com/rvqP04igSRafAHAvLH
https://linktr.ee/pawprinted

.. i totally didn't use this song as an excuse to talk my head off

curl up and cry

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about jealousy

produced by .. guess who .. meee 
spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4UMATmyGZ7motTjHbkiHcV?si=yZTT8S5DQymEJDItc2cLQA
heavily ib distance by bixby <3

hiihi hi this is very very different from some of my previous vocal stuff .. but i hope you're willing to give it a shot ;D pls let me know if you'd like to see more of this kind of stuff .. i'm still learning (and trying not to be so derivative) but it was rly fun to produce and record .. even if i think this mix could be bit cleaner hahah

linktr.ee/pawprinted
♡♡

I've been thinking for way too long
of ways i can make you mine
while not making myself look dumb in the process

i know you take pity on me
but trust me that ends tonight

well i'd like to say that .. 

it's so hard to be myself
when you're around
'cause i don't wanna put you off
it gets exhausting

i know
there's no point in facades with you 
but you make me so helpless
i can't help but mask it 

i take one look at ur face
don't talk, it tells me everything
just the sight of u makes me sick

you're so indecisive, it gets on my nerves
one or the other, don't leave me hanging

it's so hard to be myself
when you're around
'cause i don't wanna put you off
it gets exhausting

i know
there's no point in facades with you 
but you make me so helpless..  

so take ur pick
bask in the silence with no one but me 
or go w/ him and be pushed around like an object

you're so indecisive, it gets on my nerves
one or the other, don't leave me hanging

it's so hard to be myself
when you're around
'cause i don't wanna put you off
it gets exhausting

i know
there's no point in facades with you 
but you make me so helpless..  

so take ur pick
bask in the silence with no one but me 
or go w/ him and be pushed around like an object

you're so indecisive, it gets on my nerves
one or the other, don't leave me hanging

indecisive

tysm @4aia for hopping on yayayaya
prod me

hihi what's up muaheheh iii eerm actually don't know what to say this time just listen i guess tyty <3

beat breakdown (emotional); https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mxo3KpSN_1A
spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/66vzr64dUvUunDAA0lEq02?si=YkjRZlaVRoyyfI-5sFXCRA

linktr.ee/pawprinted
♡♡

he plays with a loaded gun
stuck in his bedroom alone
he can't let himself know love
or else he'll get too attached to it

all the wasted time, oh dear, it haunts him
he lets it eat him up inside until it rots him

he just worries and worries like everyday
what if this happens or that happens?
he can't help but think

and as the sun sets low
he's left alone with his thoughts
and that's a fate that's worse than death

so he stumbles all over his words
can't make up his mind
if this is really best for him

he feels lost, so unloved
but he'll conform to the people 
the people who were supposed to care

but they didn't
so he has to restart all from scratch
from nothing
safe for a few scars
he just wishes that he could be in her arms

@4aia
oh his chest feels so tight
ah and theres this aching within
it feels like hes living life in somebody elses skin
he gave his all to be seen yea
and now its on loop in his head
hes stuck reliving this thought
why is it so hard to forget?

scrolling- 
scrolling thru old texts on his phone
just so he might feel a little less alone 
its the weight of love he cant forget
and just like every other night
he wept

@pawprinted
he plays with a loaded gun
stuck in his bedroom alone
he can't let himself know love
or else he'll get too attached to it

all the wasted time, oh dear, it haunts him
he lets it eat him up inside until it rots him

he just worries and worries like everyday
what if this happens or that happens?
he can't help but think

and as the sun sets low
he's left alone with his thoughts
and that's a fate that's worse than death

so he stumbles all over his words
can't make up his mind
if this is really best for him

he feels lost, so unloved
but he'll conform to the people 
the people who were supposed to care

but they didn't
so he has to restart all from scratch
from nothing
safe for a few scars
he just wishes that he could be in her arms

all i want is someone that understands me
but clearly
that's not you  
that's not you

did you ever feel that sting of guilt? not once?
i should have known
that you'd use me
throw me away in the trash

just forget about me

understand w/ kaia

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4UMATmyGZ7motTjHbkiHcV?si=yZTT8S5DQymEJDItc2cLQA

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about someone i no longer recognize

this is a letter that i'll never send
tears shed and shed, with this i hope it ends
my hope is gone now, you're too far lost
but i know that you will probably hear this song

as a little boy, you were my entire world
but as the world kept going on,

i saw you change and change
oh why, oh why?
maybe you were like this the entire time

i thought i could be myself around you
turns out i was oh so wrong
you're so hateful and oh so bitter
but i guess i'll be the model son

cause that's all that i am
that's all i'll ever be
i tried so hard for so long
but you never looked at me

so i'll fly
like a flower in a windy garden
far away from you
'cause i need that space to breathe

just know that you'll never see me again

this is a letter that i'll never send
tears shed and shed, with this i hope it ends
my hope is gone now, you're too far lost
but i know, but i know

as a little boy, you were my entire world
but as that world kept going on,

i saw you change and change
oh why, oh why?
maybe you were like this the entire time

i thought (oh, i thought)
turns out i was oh so wrong
you're so hateful and bitter
but i guess i'll be the model son

cause that's all that i am
that's all i'll ever be
i tried so hard for so long
but you never looked at me

i will fly
like a flower in a windy garden
far away from you
'cause i need that space to breathe

just know that you'll never see me-

like a flower

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4UMATmyGZ7motTjHbkiHcV?si=yZTT8S5DQymEJDItc2cLQA

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about someone i see myself in

(Mm) she wakes up so numb
kill a cigarette or two, then she heads out the door
all the faces are blurs, 'cause she's convinced herself
that the world is against her, oh god
is she crazy, or what?

there's no prince coming to save you
do it yourself, or just find some help
that's all you need, right?
or are you that fucking gone that you can't even speak?

look, i get it, it's hard to take the first step
but once you do, the cathartic feeling that washes over you
it'll make this all worth it, so please hear me out
or not 

oh, the days, they pass you by
you're getting so old, the progress you've made will all be in vain
do you want that? do you want that? do you need that?
'cause you're honestly the most stubborn person that I've met
do you want to take the lead that badly to the point where you push away me 'cause i'm me?
i was there the whole time, ready to come help you
but you said that i should go

i gave up a long time ago, looks like you did too
how sad
but honestly, i'm not that surprised, you were never one for hurting
so i guess you just accepted your fate

"she can't commit to anything she tries."
too scared to even feel the burn of her eyes
tears fall down her red cheek, "why am i crying?"
"i guess that's what i get for simply just trying" 

so she'll do it herself
with no outsider help
what a foolish idea that was
'cause now her stomachs in knots (Mm) 
became someone that she's not  
but she'll do it all over again (Mm) 

"stupid and stubborn!"
"you're fucking stuck-up!"
"you never cared, bitch!"
"get over yourself!"
the words just pass her, it doesn't hurt anymore
if it means freedom, let them say it all they want

-- the idea for the writing of this song may or may not have started from this rough lies of p lisrim vocal cover i never finished ,, , , https://voca.ro/18oHXf46yLsS

a stubborn girl

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4UMATmyGZ7motTjHbkiHcV?si=yZTT8S5DQymEJDItc2cLQA

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about betrayal

my hands get so damn shaky when you call my name
& i hate myself for it
"we're better as friends"?

and so i'll sit back and watch as the summer days fade away
like my sense of normality when you're around

i used to gaze at you while my bangs kissed my glasses
it's such a bummer that i have to speak in past tense
like don't make it up
i know that you saw me

i know that you wanted me
i was just too blind to see it
and maybe just a little scared //
.. but we won't talk abt that  
you take what u want and some
how the fuck did you live like that ?

i know you don't care about bettering yourself
truthfully i do
and even if we're not a thing anymore
i still care
i still care

i remember this night like the back of my hand
like a stain on a t-shirt, it can't leave my mind
you had texted me on a friday, asking me to come by
i didn't know any better so i had obliged

my dreams made of porcelain
you shattered them so mercilessly
how'd you bring yourself to do that ?

i know
it's in the past, i should be over it
but i let it eat me up inside
until i feel like a different person

you told me long ago, "there's no point in taking it slow."
but now i know you lied, maybe if we did we'd be on the phone
and now that's done i feel so empty here without you though
but maybe, but maybe ..

don't you ever forget what you did that night
let it pry at your mind until you give up
restless, can't function
the day will haunt me

when you, oh, you
darling

porcelain dreams

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about yearning

tell me, do you like that? tell me what you want
my hands around your body? yeah, i'll tell you what i want:
(i'm right by you, love) i want you to be all mine now, girl, like come on, have some fun
yeah, i promise i'll be faithful, will you promise me that too?

'cause when i see you with other boys, god, it makes my skin crawl
they can all go rot in hell, as long as you're my one, love
(i'm right by you, love) i'd kill them if it meant that i see you one more time
so don't ever forget, don't ever forget you're mine

and my judgement is so faded
let you take control, i don't hate it
do you know what i did to be near you?
could be a song of its own, but i fear you

taste the wine against those lips that i yearn for
tip the glass in my mouth, "drink it all down."
aftertaste is so sweet, but there's something
in my chest that's a bit bitter, and it's longing

ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (i'm right by you, love)

if only you knew how real this is
the feeling that hits when you show up
the butterflies that just won't shut up
that deep, guttural feeling in my chest, ah

if only you knew how real this is
the feeling that hits when you show up
the butterflies that just won't shut up
that deep, guttural feeling in my chest, ah

tell me, do you like that? tell me what you want . . 
my hands around your body? yeah, i'll tell you what i want:
(i'm right by you, love) i want you to be all mine now, girl, like come on, have some fun
yeah, i promise i'll be faithful, will you promise me that too?

'cause when i see you with other boys, god, you make my skin crawl
they can all go rot in hell, as long as you're my one, love
(i'm right by you, love) i'd kill them if it meant that i see you one more time
so don't ever forget, don't ever forget you're mine

(i'm right by you, love)
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (i'm right by you, love)

ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (i'm right by you, love)
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (i'm right by you, love)

if only you knew how real this is
the feeling that hits when you show up
the butterflies that just won't shut up
that deep, guttural feeling in my chest, ah

if only you knew how real this is
the feeling that hits when you show up
the butterflies that just won't shut up
that deep, guttural feeling in my chest, ah (i'm right by you, love)

(ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
(ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
(ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
(ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)

#YEARNING 24/7 YEARNING YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

wine stained lips

in another life i was destined to be a vocalist in a shitty post hardcore band that disbanded due to petty internal drama

anyway epic song so awesome, some of my longest sustains ever lol
original by pierce the veil (top 5 bands ever)
purely for fun and practice (srsly if u wana improve ur singing cover a song like this) O_O ep soon i hope (i've been endlessly revisiting and scrapping songs somone pls help)

cover art x.com/2uaiueo/status/1982076365089464440

this is also the first song in months where i didn't pitch it up in post savor it
xoxo (this will probably be the norm from now on anyway lol)

Bury me in the bedroom where I
I can sing you to sleep all night
Put me next to the open window, promise me a second time
'Cause I don't wanna leave without you buried by my side
I'd rather kill the one responsible
For falling stars at night
'Cause they fall all around me
The night can be deadly
And they'll never take us alive
(Can you chase away the darkness?)
To live in love and die
Last night, she recited every reason she's fine
So if we're heading there together at the same time
You sing while I drive
Move like a fugitive tonight
(Dance on the ambulance) 
Because I would rather spend my life vacations in bed
With you like drunken summer kites
And this is only a test
Sober and scaring me to death
They'll never take us alive
To live in love and die
And I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're contagious
I would kiss you even if you were dead
Would somebody make me go blind for the rest of my life?
'Cause I'd do anything to hold your hand
And I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're contagious
Oh, no
Would somebody make me go blind for the rest of my life?
'Cause I'd do anything, anything, anything
They'll never take us alive
'Cause I'll chase away the darkness
I'll live in love and die
I joined the party for the recently blind
So if we're heading there together, you can sing all night
I'm gonna tear out the thread one by one from your skin
'Till your bones feel embarrassed from all the attention
Kiss me while I drive

i don't care if you're contagious (cover)

(cw; blood, abuse, knives (obviously))
produced by me

spotify (+instrumental):  https://open.spotify.com/album/2hKBRGgkC5r0itC1OKVD0P?si=e9yp0UulT8q2NysvLwabcw

hihi everyonee it's me again :D i made this song for the little steps (EP that i released not too long ago go lsiten :o) i  never finished it until now bc i thought it was too similar to indecisive (another song by me) but a few friends rly enjoyed it so.. still more of a throwaway though

there are a few nods to a certain band in this song try to find them muaahhaha

♡♡
-and darling, i know you look down on me but
I've accepted that fact will never change
and if you look at me like that i might just die
so cut it out now (heh)

you pick up your blade and get ready for the day
where i say: "i don't really want this no more"
"i'm not really happy no more"

-and the way you hold a knife does something to me
yeah, you scare me half to death, but i like it
and I think you've won me over just like that
so take advantage of my psyche just like that

"i'll put your body to the test with mine"
just 'cause i'm shy, yeah, you think you can push me 'round like an object
so make me lick up my own blood all off your blade
it's kind of sour, but for you i won't mind the taste

(the- the taste)

and she said:
"you can think of the blood as your confession"
"never cross me or come next time there'll be more shed"
just a bleeding little blue boy waiting for his day

so make me kiss your knife
because i love the way it tastes on my tongue
i want it all, please give me more
i will never get enough of you and your knife that gleams so-

so take your pick
yeah, the clean knife or me?
my gut already knows what you will say
she's such a lover of the blood
and i'm never one to judge (judge, judge)  
so use your knife on me

make me kiss your knife

woof | discord; gyaruwojak
@lightgardennn

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