The love that I had was so mad it was livid 
The image of what we had it was so vivid 
The distance Id travel for you there’s no limit 
Just send your location id do more than pin it
The time came and past and it happened so fast I can’t blink without thinkin bout when we were children
Over a decade but even though that was near half of our life it still felt like a minute 
 In my time of need I was grieving you leavin I wrote a new chapter and you were not in it 
Haunted by what could be my missing puzzle piece I tried to force it but you didn’t fit it 
You said that you loved me 
Your heart wasn’t in it 
And it never was 
because that we are finished 
You were me Queen,,
as if we were British 
If I was Popeye 
then you were spinach 

I guess I should leave memories in the past 
Love at full speed and then that’s when we crashed 
I’m sailing the seas in a boat with no mast 
As I’m fighting the waves on my own in a raft 

A change of direction that shipped me away
No return for me now like a ring bought at Kay 
Opportunity knocks I no longer delay 
The Sun will still shine above clouds when it’s grey  

Facing the future without you is strange 
The next time I see you we both will have changed 
Our physical features 
Reflective of age
And our stories we now write on seperate page 

When I look at the moon it reminds me of you
As I think about nights when we shared the same view 
And the memories made only you and I knew 
But the only one missing is saying I do

I was going to text you, so I made this instead

I would never tell a story that ain’t mine 
And I only spit the truth in each line 
If you want a vivid picture let me paint mine
Went from slow mo livin watchin paint dry 
 Suicide drills on the baseline 
To Reinvent the vision of a date night 
fuckin two bad bitches at the same time
Taking turns gripping on their waistline 
And you could hear that shit from a mile away 
It was not no whisper though the grape vine 
They do the Harlem shake you tell um walk a plank 
But they never do it walking in a straight line 
They could a rob a bank in an armored tank and get a whole lotta money in the late night 
And I could cash out now like a cash cow venom of a snake bite jaws of a great white 

I could spit some psycho bars like Jason weaven cleavers if you wanna slow it down then I can sing it like I’m Bieber.
I got a fever sick of snakes I had to leave her 
And I placed a brand new face in place of that golden deceiver 
Felt like going deep I hit my side receiver 
And I moved on from the old thing she’s a trapper not a keeper

Hannibal lectur 
I bite the hand that feeds me 
you don’t need me 
Like a jester to a king without a crown or scepter  

A twisted youth
Getting pissed inside a picture booth 
I misconstrue the truth cuz I’m alone but I still picture you 

But the picture frame is broken
I take your things you left behind and throw them in the ocean
Don’t need to keep a secret cuz the truth is in the open
Sadness turned anger after every word is spoken

I’m feelin hopeless
And they don’t know what dope is
Cook what’s in the kitchen
Stick the tip inside my favorite hostess
 
Minimal focus 
my mind is in a different place
I had a vision, lost it 
Now my concentrations broken 

No longer jokin
My words become too thought provoking 
world run by the devil 
Need a baptismal bath to soak in 

I’m not a rapper
But I’ll fake it till I make it
I set the bar so high I try to touch the moon while on the pavement 

Lost in translation
Your mind’s a valuable thing that’s wasted
Like an alcoholic racin
far behind and constant chasen 

I got that blanco 
chopped up butcher like I’m Benny
Catch me at your local dennys pancakes drippin dipped in henny 

Looking for a way to end this song I couldn’t think of any 
so I’ll keep on rambling until the beats complete I hope at least I was successful in my quest to beat defeat

painting pictures

waiting

I’m like Gretzky with the stick talk 
Or nipsey with the crip walk 
I’m Pluto when it comes to fuckin in the Gucci flip flops 


DeRozan with the middie
Buzzer beater like I’m giddy
As I fade away like dame grabbing the mic yellin rip city  *

I’ll leave a bleeding heart behind on holiday like Al Capone
Defend the house and fortify like Kevin did while home alone 

A cowboy over crowd noise like I’m Dak and screaming here we go 
diabetic J Lorenzo with a fear of sugared cereal 
the one between the six and nine like highlight reel mysterio *

The revolutions ruthless like when China was imperial 

The captain of the ship I’m with some misfits like I’m Johnny depp 

I’m tapt in like I’m too short in oracle yellin bitch at refs *

A season full of sadness like season tickets to see the jets 
Or overspending everything like owners of the New York Mets 

 Cassius clay in Tampa bay boxing no gloves like vita vea 

I bite off more than I can chew mick foley eatin frito lays 

MJ with the moonwalk
Or cheech and Chong with  moonrocks 
I’m Samuel l Jackson off the gin and rum on boondocks 

Tread lightly like I’m Walter white
I’m Tyson with an overbite 
Ozuna from the Braves I can’t behave myself on sober night 

I’m RG3 with better knees 
I’m tomlin with the killer bees 
I’m Purdy in the jersey as I’m aiming down what kittle sees 

Conseco with the needle
Or McGwire with the hgh 
Like yoko to the Beatles 
I’m like Kendrick’s summer break with Drake 

I’m Shaq beneath the back board or I’m Kobe while in isolation
Illusionists with trap doors
Or I’m Lennon with imagination 

You’re prince without the purple reign
Or undertaker without Kane
Like Batman with no Michael canes advice while face to face with bane 

I’m urkle when the family matters
Kershaw with the curve for batters
Ja Morant with elevation praise him for his shoots and ladders

A butterfly from caterpillar
First to last like mac to miller 
Kill the kitty often so they callin me the coffin filler 

I can do this any day and any time with eyes closed 
Stevie wonder to the beat I’m rappin in a blindfold 

In a 49er diner mining gold in red attire
Like the merchant of death to the beat and you’re just britnney griner 

I’m a needle in a haystack you’re a nail inside a punctured tire 
Paul Pierce of the backboard callin game right as the clock expires 

Boss of the family so they do what I say pronto 
If I tell them sing they turn to bono in soprano 
Got love across the globe if they know me then, they are a fan of,
The world is yours from here to France
From nice, back to Montana 

Sippin on orange liquor mixin vodka with the Fanta
While im clockin in for someone else Tim Allen turned to Santa 

Sebastian janakowski with the boot until I hang it up 
I’m paranoid like Smokey in the back seat smokin angel dust 

Weight up on my shoulders bolder chasen Indiana jones 
Undefeated with an asterisk while I’m crashing out like Jonny bones 


The world will keep on turning on a pivot like it’s Kyrie Irving 
serving up some sting rays on a platter just for Steven erwin  

Stuck inside a chamber of reflection of me 
No mirror mirror on the wall there’s nothing left to see 

I just picked a beat for challenge this was nothing to me 
This was practice and I’m actin like I’m Ai gbt 

I just snapped like ebt
If you my dog you eat for free 

I’m like Cena to anxiety cuz it ain’t seein me 

Hannibal to danimals a yogurt slurpin canibal   
Batista bomb the freaks inside the sheets cuz I’m an animal 

An Irishmen on pattys day McGregor with the uppercut 
I pirate on Somalian bay with loot to find I’m on the hunt 

Feeling like I’m Floyd in this Mayweather with the fisticuffs 

I gave myself three minutes now I’m finished cuz my limits up

3 minute drill

Initial meeting it had happened by chance
The night was ending and I had no other plans 
Decided one more drink and then it’s time to go 
That’s when I saw you cross the bar and everything was movin slow 
The type of girl I swear I’d seen before
And if I did it ain’t enough Cuz now I needed more 
I heard you smoke I asked if I could get a drag
And I don’t even smoke I was just tryin bag 
Well it turns out that I played my cards right
Cuz before I knew it I was stayin the night 
Woke up in the morning to a beautiful sight 
Is this for good? 
Not quite cuz

There’s no time
I’m always on the mo oo oove
There’s no time 
No time left for you ou ou o 

It might have been too good to be true and I shoulda known
I was living in what seemed to be fiction in your home 
Your playlist was made up of songs I’d see on my phone 
Smoking weed and laying next to me got me in my zone 

It was the highlight of my time in the city
And I was hoping that you’d want to spend another night with me 
And we would make some plans you’d change um because you were too busy
I said I understand things happen but it sure is a pity 

I hope we get to meet again somewhere down the line 
Right now I’m back to where I started everything will be fine 
Cuz now I have memories of you and you were one of a kind 
I wish i could make you mine but

There’s no time
I’m always on the mo oo oove
There’s no time 
No time left for you ou ou o

no time

I always feel like there's a reason to stay

But she never feels the same 

I set the bar too high then I go insane 

And I'm the only one too blame 


Why is it 

That I'm too quick on commitment 

She tells me bout her dream and I do all I can to gift it 

I'm too much too quick 
Overdose on Loving and it makes her sick 

And maybe that's why she walks away. 

I always tell my story just for her to flip the page 
That's when she gets vague 

About what she wants vs what she needs
I'm too up front 
She's behind the scenes 

intentions never mentioned built up tension when she's too discrete 

And that's the biggest issue for me 

Now I'm a misfit 
flannel that was thrifted 
Sittin at the bar and wishin

Close out sign the check 
leave a tip 
then I sip 
til theres not a drop left 

I don't know whats next 
But I hope to forget 
All the plans from the past that I know ill never get 


Its a fog and a haze
As the time flies by and the memories fade


Why can't it just be easy
Wishing You could see me
These days 
only see your face on screens like tv 

If life is a movie its a shame because
 I'm missing scenes

And I don't even know if you're missing me

I reach out and you have nothing to say

walk away

You were the flame
 I was a match 
relationship burned as we turned into ash. 

Smoking and driving
We’d try not to crash

Wasting our day away 
days of the past 

Checking the time
Watching it pass

Turning the music up 
Letting it blast

Your feet on the dash as I'm making you laugh

Clueless that that moment would be our last

Loving is pain
But pain can be beautiful 
Cupid was knocking and tryna get through to you
I tried to stall him 
He gave up on shooting you 
Handed your arrow to me and said you can choose 

Do you keep shooting at targets with consequence
 or do you man up move on and use common sense 
I think that I'm starting to see what the problem is
She's killing your happiness hope and your confidence 

But you continue to feed into lies
You've given her chances unlimited tries 
Forget shooting arrows its time to cut ties
Stop reaching out and tell her goodbye

She was a memory made to remind you
That love can be made but can be put behind you 
Don't chase after love 
when its meant it will find you 
Just focus on growing let destiny guide you 

My sister taught me a valuable lesson 
If it doesn't work out it might be a blessing 
Not every encounter is meant to be special 
They're stepping stones meant to protect your best efforts 

Take a good moment and make it a memory 
Always reciprocate positive energy
Never on bad terms and never you're dead to me
Thank you for sharing the time that you lent to me

I'll see you later it's never goodbye
But I'll move on if it doesn't work on first try
I won't send a text if there is no reply
I aimed for the clouds but I flew way to high
And now I'm seeing stars as I float through the sky

arrows

I wrote this verse in 5 minutes 
Just had to let my mind go
I guess ive just been livin in my head 
walkin a tight rope

Now

Sittin thinkin wishin that the past it could have changed 
In a different universe it could have worked you would have stayed 

I’ve grown so cold alone but I’m bolder now so I thank you 

Because you were a stepping stone for me to skip away to 
Live

A life that I did not know could exist 
I had to go through that in order to make my way to this 

And I ask myself sometimes why do I focus on the ugly 
Instead of given full focus to all of those who love me 
And how can I erase the pain appreciate the journey 
That I’m taking on my own 
I’m not behind if im still learning 

I say I’m doin better now 
Sometimes i just don’t know 
But I’ll fake it till I make it it’s the only way to go 

So I’ll gooooo oh 
Life is moving fast even when it feels slow 

So I’ll inhale 
And exhale 
I’ll celebrate success until the next fail 
Gotta inhale and exhale 
Sometimes it feels like I might never stop losing no no 

Gotta I’ll inhale 
And exhale 
I’ll celebrate success until the next fail 
Gotta inhale and exhale 
Sometimes it feels like I might never stop losing no no no no 

I wrote so many songs and I deleted them 
I realized I was writing them for you but you weren’t seein them 

So am I busy cryin out for help 
To a person that deserted me and focused on themselves

I thought about it often and I realized maybe yes I am 
You made me think I couldn’t do it
Now I realize yes I can  

Forgetting stress of yesterday I’m blessed today and blessed again 
The day after the next and all the rest I will be blessed again

So I’ll control my time and focus on the moment 
I finally realize that the world is mine and I can own it 

It’s in the palm of my hand 
And I’m a whole different man
I opened my eyes 
Imma stick to the plan 

Tomorrow isn’t promised and the future isn’t written yet 
I’m sittin on a comet watchin sunrise after moon has set 

No longer cry about a woman that ain’t worthy of tears
Because she hurt me I put up with the pain for so many years 

You might think you know it all
But you really know nothing yet 
It’s something to be proud of when you leave and you ain’t coming back 

And set your sights ahead instead of dwellin on the past 
 Cuz even when it’s feeling slow life’s passin by real fast 

I’m givin up decisions that would fill me with confused regret 
And getting rid of memories that filled my head with mental debt

inhale

I tried to stay 
But you let me leave 
I wanted you 
More than you wanted me
No longer think about what we could be
I have been doing so good since you let me leave

Why does it happen every time
These girls have no heart so they try to take mine 
Treat me like some laundry when they leave me out to dry 
Convince me to go fast 
But they cut the break line

Always feeling like a steep climb 
Overlooking each sign 
Voice inside my head always sayin that it will be fine 

I'm fallen behind 
And don't know what to do

Cuz the second that I close my eyes I only see you 

That's why I never go to sleep
A write another letter when I should be counting sheep 

I might be doing better if I let you go forever but I told you that my heart was yours forever to keep

So I'll keep having day dreams 
Even though it may seem 
I should wipe the slate clean 
Move on and erase the

Empty feeling of not being with you 
You let me go so I guess I should let you go too 

I fell asleep and had a dream
With you and me in it 

A bit confused
 I haven’t thought of you in a minute 

So what could be the reason 
That I saw you last night 

I guess I'm more at peace since we had our last fight 


We slow danced as the world crashed around us 
Holding you while faces of your family surround us 

It felt safe even though the world was ending 
I'm still tryna figure out the message it was sending 

Holding on to my yesterday could be
The reason that I miss out on whats really meant for me 

Holding on to you was a temporary fix
And a permanent reminder that we couldn't coexist

I'm moving on to better days
Time heals wounds but the scars remain 
they serve as reminders of what I overcame
I don't think about what could have been if I would have stayed

let me leave

Her loves so special to me
No correctin her reflection
She's a blessing to see
Checking for imperfections 
Looking back in my direction 

she can tell that I've been checking 
Out the view in front me 

Not tryna be dramatic you're the only one for me 
And ill put you on top even if you're under me 

I could stay close or I can give you space 
But if you hit the road guarantee that I will chase cuz 

I know your love is one of one
The thought of losing you like staring down the barrel of a gun 

And I care enough to cherish you from night to morning sun 

But I'll respect your time cuz I know girls wanna have fun 

And you deserve everything in this life 
Might Have forever but we'll never get to live a moment twice
So I'll roll the dice and gamble on the price to pay to stay the night 
A gentlemen to you Ill treat you right and I will be polite 


You're the tv I’m the static 
I'll pay for you like pay per view 
I'll have you living lavish 
You're the drug and I'm the addict 
Cuz I hit it once and ever since I've been feinin to have it 

So I guess that I'm addicted to you 
But that's dramatic so ill cap it at I'm just so into you 
A day or two without you got me constant thinking bout you 
Cuz it feels like forever tryna cope but don't know how to 


So I’ll take my time 
I never wanna end up saying that the girl WAS mine
Never in the past tense 
Take you over seas and we can be the ones with accents 
She’s the lighter or a match stick 
Igniting the fire of my desire with her absence 

im in the dog house til the day that you come home

Its puppy love if you're the dog ill be the bone

so into you

Sometimes I wish a had another moment with you
The ignorance brought bliss and it was guarding the truth 
So unaware the love was fair like weather in June
And whether it was fair or not for me to assume
That you’d get swept away 
some other place 
Before we could jump the broom
Now our history is missed to me
And mysteries loom
About what’s next
 You left the nest you spread your wings and you flew
And honestly I’m still confused and I don’t know what to do
All the memories you lent to me I will never lose 
But the path you want to take in life ain’t for me to choose 
The drug I called your love it gets no longer abused
Ready to erupt like fireworks with lit fuse 
The 8th wonder of the world that girl was my favorite view 
The complexion of her skin I swear was my favorite hue 
Then our last time turned to past time and alone we both grew 
But a house don’t feel like home when I don’t come home to you 

If I could just leave my regrets on monday
I bet that I could chase my dreams by Sunday
The moons out in space and it’s a risky trip to make 
But ima take a break from life buy a one way
Do you think we could make it 
Aiming for the stars with a Rocket in the basement

I’m starting to accept the past and focus on the future 
They say that life’s a movie well I guess im my producer 
And there is no perfect movie they all have a couple bloopers
You don’t always have to focus on opinions of the viewers

In our movie you would have been casted as the queen
You would be the star you were my favorite scene
I won’t forget the times that lovin you felt like a dream
You made me feel complete you were an ultralight beam 

On hikes I would take pictures but only of you
The only thing I’d look at you were my favorite view 

We watched our final sunset and we didn’t have a clue


Because I didn’t think the sun would ever set on you 

If I could just leave my regrets on monday
I bet that I could chase my dreams by Sunday
The moons out in space and it’s a risky trip to make 
But ima take a break from life buy a one way
Do you think we could make it 
Aiming for the stars with a Rocket in the basement

funny papers

Her love is hollow
first instinct to weep and wallow 
if you think that this is tough then I got a pill you could swallow
When I see you tomorrow

And just like that she was a memory
Memories of all the things that she had ever said to me
In the moment I just tried to let them go
News years asked if you in love and she responded I don’t know 

Woah

I didn’t see it comin 
how could I be so naive

I gave you loyalty 
And I wore my heart on my sleeve

You said I was too much and needed space so you could breath 

Countless excuses til the truth finally made me believe 

You were plotting and schemin
Til you were crawling and pleading
And now your heart is in pieces as a result of the grieving 
You never thought he would leave and now that you gave him a reason
You traded in until forever for just the rest of a season 


Her love is hollow
first instinct to weep and wallow 
if you think that this is tough then I got a pill you could swallow
When I see you tomorrow

Verse 2
I never thought that I would see this other side of you
We crashed and burned but we both
Learned what foolish pride could do  

You never know exactly who a person is, although I’ve known you for forever ever since we were just kids 

You changed and maybe that was meant to be

It’s like a message in a bottle with my destiny was sent to me

Although I value the real love that you  once leant to me
I won’t forgive the things you did or give you sympathy 

It wasn’t meant to be

It wasn’t meant to be

I hope you get what’s meant for you, but you weren’t meant for me

Her love is hollow
first instinct to weep and wallow 
if you think that this is tough then I got a pill you could swallow
When I see you tomorrow

see you tomorrow

Finding solace in my solitude of days that I want to end 

I tell myself that life is beautiful but often it’s all pretend 

The man that’s in the mirror he appears to be my only friend 

He can hold a conversation but his voice is only in my head 

I find that my imagination is alive but my dreams are dead

Or maybe I’m just overthinking all the things that should be left unsaid  

Chapters of stories that forever will be left unread 

Dreams are meant for sleeping so I’ll put this mess to bed 


And maybe life is directing me in the direction of what’s meant to be 

The day that you eat the fruit is not the same day you plant the seed 

I know exactly what I want in life, 
But Im overlooking what I need 

But I appreciate every little message that is sent to me 

I compare my path to others and I feel like I’m way behind 


There is a light at the end of the tunnel but it is hard to find 


Walking down the street 



On the night we met you were wearing your cowgirl hat 

I handed you tequila, took a pull then you handed it back

The first time that I heard your laugh in the back seat where we sat 
Thinking to myself I’ve never met a girl like that 

Everything is temporary anything can be missed

We shared a moment in the evening
By the morning it won’t exist

Then you had to leave and I’ve been counting shooting stars ever since 

And asking for just another day with you is my only wish 

And maybe when the time is right,
 we can try again

I don’t know what is meant for me or where I will be in the end 

But I will hold onto the dream of 
More time that we can spend

And as for now I will be my only friend

lua (only friend)

I stay steady rapping with a passion 
Ready to collapse after everything that’s happened 
Tryna count the eggs in my basket but they hatchen 
I say I’m on my way but I always lose traction
Map in a backpack acting like a captain 
Tryna lead a faction to payday but we’re crashing 
Tomorrow isn’t promised and today is what I’m trapped in
One foot in the grave so I’m always high fashion 


Put in work since my moment of birth

And I’ll continue til the day that I’m chauffeured in a hearse. 
From the hearse into that grave until I’m dirt in the earth 
Until I’m living in a box it’s a blessing and a curse 
Cuz what’s worst than feeling that you are forever alone
Until the second that alone is now a permanent home
No longer question and second guessing the mess and stressing over what’s next and forgetting blessings when you focus on the message if there isn’t time left 
you’re no longer a guest 
you can have eternal rest 
 close your eyes and decompress

Decomposing in the ground
 I’m composing my own sound 
So my voice can live forever on the days I’m not around 
I’m an underground king but I never gotta crown 
Two faces of a clown
Every smile has a frown 
And I’m crying out to save me reaching out before I drown 
But I’m 6 feet deep so you never hear a sound

I stay steady rapping with emotion
The window of opportunitys open but it’s closing
I’m frozen in snow
And I have no where to go
When the time is moving slow
And I’m going through the motions 
Commotion stays on the rainiest days and I’m tryna ride a wave
Like water to the ocean 
Unsettled young fella no umbrella and I’m soaken
The weight that it takes for a heart to be broken 
I’m hoping to make new memories of gold and I’m holding the fate of my feelings in the open 
on everything I want and I need I’m out spoken 
Because you took everything from me and I’m still coping 
 And so I choose to share my story with the world
I guess it’s therapy to me to share my story of a girl 
Taking back control of my life and embracing 
That she was just a snake with split tongue and two faces
Looking for love in the club of all places
When I put you above since before you had braces
And you’re love was a drug and I didn’t know you laced it
Let’s face it I wasn’t born to live a life basic 
In amazement as I’m gazing at constellations 
This is all mine for the taking so I’ll take it 
The best is yet to come but I’m young and impatient
Decisions I’ve made are dumb just like the risks I’ve been taking
I see the path to of freedom in the distance and I chase it
I’ve been boxed in but the walls have been breaking
Cuz now I see the enemy of loving is greed 
I couldn’t read all the signs cuz they were foreign to me 
It ain’t a thing I spread my wings cuz now I’m soaring and free 
Forget the history and write a brand new story for me 
Cuz I’m enlisted on a mission to be all I can be 
And it’s time to wake um up cuz they’ve been snorin on me

A twist of fate occurred quick 
you jumped ship and caused damage 
Put an iceberg on your finger and we sunk like titanic 
In a panic as I paddle through the Atlantic
The asteroid that hit me in the heart was gigantic 
Im in a spaceship fully equipped to move planets 
Im tryna beat the curve and never be the one stranded 
The last man standing and an army of one 
You can’t harm me now the rabbit is the one with the gun 
I handle the damage and my flag has been planted 

I got 99 problems and I wish I could solve um
But I’m not able to and maybe that’s my 100th problem 
I got numbers in my phone and now I can’t even call um 
I could write a story bout um put it all in a column   
All the memories i shared with people over the years 
All the lesson learned 
While livin in a life full of fear 
I had to go though of all of that
 just to make it here 
I’m focused on the present and the future that’s near 
And I’m just waitin for my moment 
Tony Montana the world is mine and imma own it 

Shootin for the stars with a rocket in a back pack

buried alive

And im daydreaming with my eyes closed 
In a blindfold
While I balance out on a tight rope
High hopes when it comes to skiing on the white slopes 
I’m brushing off the powder that is showered over my clothes

And I know 
Overthinking turns to panic
But my life unproblematic 
As I’m sitting in a hammock 
Ain’t no need to get dramatic 
It’s not like I’m stuck in traffic
In no rush to say I have it 
 There’s no lightning without static so

I would never say I’m jumping the gun 
Remain patient as I wait until my luck has begun 
Until then I’ll just keep pacing while I’m sippin on rum 
And I’ll keep spittin what is written killin time just for fun 

This is just a backyard freestyle 
A free trial until I have a record deal on speed dial 

As for now I’m just a diamond in the rough 
It gets tough to keep on going when I think I’ve had enough 
Given up on life but every time I go and call my bluff
Because I think about it twice I find a joint and take a puff 

I continue waking up inside a home that isn’t mine 
Feeling stuck and in a rut but yet this life is so Devine
Because I think I’m out of luck but I get lucky every time 
still hurt while I couch surf at least I have a couch to find 

There’s no recipe for greatness it’s not easily defined 
Why compare myself to others 
When it just isn’t my time 


Continue going through the motions 
Yet I know that I’m worth so much more
Life is just a game but too much pain right now for keeping score
Can’t be for sure bout nothing 
Turning my pain into something  
Cuz I started making songs I checked the streams I guess they love it 

Getting love across the globe 
And this is new I didn’t know 
that every dog could have is day and as they say I’m best in show 
I could be the next to blow but as for now I’ll take it slow
Because the beauties in the struggle 
When success is at a low 

I’ll get a one way ticket haven’t picked a destination
Imma close my eyes and vibe while I enjoy the ride I’m taken 
Because tomorrow isn’t promised and the future I might never know 
Instead of filling my own head with problems I’ll just let um go 

I’m sittin in a hammock pondering life
Planes in the sky sonder sharp as a knife 
Wonder where they’re going does the pilot have a wife
If so does he know what she’s doing tonight?

thoughts from the hammock

I saw a shooting star
I guess somebody saw it first and made their wish before I made mine 
My memory is bruised and scarred 
I guess recovery won’t happen overnight it’s gonna take time 
And I don't know who you are 
I guess the image I created in my head it really ain't mine 
Pieces of my foolish heart 
I guess you swept them up heard that you’re doin better through the grapevine 

The journey that I'm taking ain't a straight line 
I tell you I'm okay but in reality I ain't fine 
Lost inside of every little memory that can’t find 
Hoping I can relive all the happy moments one time 

A drum line goes off in my chest 
When I think about the fact that we don’t have time left 
The only thing I have left is regret 
Because there is so much that we haven't done yet 

And now we never will 
There's a void and it can't be filled 
An invoice and it can't be billed because your address changed and our train derailed 

I saw a shooting star 
And I just keep wishing that decisions could have changed in the late night 

Sun goes down and the moon comes up 
And Im stuck star gazing with my eyes wide shut 
Because I’m still thinking bout the lives I've touched and the lies you told had me so fucked up 
But 
I'm moving on to better days
Time heals wounds but the scars remain 
they serve as reminders of what I overcame
I don't think about what could have been if I would have stayed

shooting star

I miss the Lazy days 
Crazy days 
The what if and the maybe days 

The days that we would contemplate maybe having a baby days 

And maybe if we did have a kid there’d be no rainy days 

It pains me to say it but our love will never remain the same 

Ashamed we couldn’t make it but that’s just the way the game is played 

The blueprint for forever but we couldn’t get foundation laid 

I tried to make it work but it ain’t worth it tryna make you stay 

Supposed to grow old with our wrinkled faces 
Hair with shades of grey 


And maybe I just miss the idea
But that won’t change the memories of chasing you through ikea 
Or making our breakfast while we both sing to Aaliyah 
We were connected at the hip you were my world my Pangea 

Until the day we drifted apart
But that’s the circle of life 
Because things end the way they start 
First you didn’t then you did have full control of my heart. 
And now we’re back to square one and I don’t know who you are.  

But I still miss all of the moments only you and I will ever know 
I know that what is best is if I move on and just let it go 
You say you’re doin good well that’s okay I’m doing better though 
But what could be better than holding you and never letting go 


I miss us folding clothes 
Watching shows
Picking roses
Blowing O’s

Taking late night shots or eating a row of Oreos 
Taking late walks and talking bout some things that no one knows 
Was busy thinking what we had could last forever 
had so much to go 

But sometimes dreams are only meant for sleeping yeah or so it goes

I miss the days id wake up still believing we could do the most 

Now I close my eyes and visualize you only as a ghost 
Youre only real inside my head and I’m still learning how to cope 

This is a toast for every love that didn’t make it Hope you hear me 

That love might have just been part of your burnt toast theory

burnt toast theory

mine for the taking

im busy living life in a way I couldn’t imagine 
I got up out the dungeon now im tryna chase that dragon 
My dreams are coming true it got me feeling like Alladen
The only thing that’s left is that I find my princess Jasmin 

And I know that’s she’s out there waitin for me
So I’m tryna flip the page until the day she’s in my story 

But she’s a chapter away 
And so our happily ever after is forced to delay. 

My Moana 
Cinderella 
Mulan 
Or my Tianna  

Looking for my Princess with a face of Rihanna 

Igniting my love with a passion cuz she’s hot as a sauna 

She really is the whole package and never comes with no drama 

But what’s a fairy tale love without some conflict and a quest 
 
I’m her knight in shining armor 
I’m Prince Charming in the flesh 

She’s been searching for better well id be sure to give her best 

I could write her a letter and my love is what id confess 


So I guess this is the letter that im sending her

Through trials and tribulations guerentte id be defending her 

In sickness and through health like no one I’d always tend to her 

My love feels like a dream and it would all seem so pretend to her 

She is the melody of everything beautiful 
Far from the usual I feel so delusion 

Don’t even know her name but I will know it in time
And before you know it might go ahead and give her mine

jasmine

thoughts from your balcony

Baby, letting go of you was not an option 
Bought a ring and kept it in my pocket  
Held you closer to my heart than portrait art inside a necklace locket  
Remember when we moved away to college
Living in your dorm and sharing knowledge 
Making love to take away the stress of fallin , God damn
You could say that it was puppy love
Then we got a puppy just because 
You and I would take a bath so long and fog glass up in the tub 


Memories of you and I darlin 
Thinking back on how it all started 
You was there when we would go to target but couldn't leave because the Taurus wasn't starting 
But then we got our own apartment,
You would never check the mail 
I would always get the groceries 
All alone but didn't care. 
And each mornin' you'd wake naked without fail 
Id always try to smash 
You say make it fast
I'd try to make it last without fail
I'm like, "Oh well, you could throw me in jail” 
If wanting you is wrong then I guess in wrong as hell 
Id call your phone when I'm alone, like I'm in my own cell
And there I go once again collecting your voice mail"
Well, became a jealous type
I wanted better you to be a better wife 
But in that pussy, it's a better life
The perfect way to end the night. 
I had a chance you turned out the light.

congratulations

I've had some long days
 and some really lonely nights, 
wishing you were by my side, 
but you're not even in sight. 
I've been living in dark
 cause you were my only light. 

. Should have put up more of a fight, and if I did, maybe you might have. 

stayed inside the picture, but you're way out the frame, and when they ask I say, I miss her. 
should have held your hand  when I had the chance I didn't mean to diss you, 

But I was in my own head didn't think it would be an issue. 

Even though I have your number, it's not often I hit you. 

This is the part I get emotional so I'm gonna grab a tissue. 

I dry my eyes and wonder why I never get the same reply i used to get way back in time when I was yours and you were mine 

I say that everything is fine 
But when I do I’m really lying 
Because I still remember when I held you close when you cried 

Late at night we’d take a drive 
That’s when you’d make me feel alive 
As long as you were by my side
Id wanna run away and hide 
And hold you til forever 
Because nothing could be better 
But we had to go our seperate ways 
I wish I could go get her back 

I miss her smile 
Miss her laugh 
Wish we could get back on track 
Without her I’m incomplete because she was my other half

baby, I miss all those little details and all the love that we felt, but maybe we weren't meant to be in, that's okay, that's just the way it goes. Guess we’re better off alone


I didn’t think that what we had 
could come to an end 

But it’s hard not to pretend I wasnt in over my head

When I’m laying in my bed 
Think of all the words you said 

All the things I didn’t tell you now I’m stuck with this regret 

I can’t forget about the stuff we did in all the time we’d spend

I wrote a song about the way I felt and called it Perfect Blend 
 
And now I listen and I wish that I could play that song for you 

But I’ve come to grips accepted that my time with you is through 

In a perfect world way down the line we’d rekindle that flame 

But even if it happened what we had won’t be the same

Id walk a thousand miles for you freezing in the rain 

I could be your Superman you be my Louis lane

Or I could be your spider man you’d  be my Mary Jane 

wish I had a super power to take away the pain 

I miss you every day and wonder if you miss me too 

You were meant to be but turns out I’m not meant for you

details

Although I fell from your family tree 
The people that raised me will always be family to me 

Ending things with you has been a tough one to digest 
cuz now I’m sitting in your family room but only as a guest 

This is a family affair 
And nothing else matters long as the family is there 

You handed me a plate and so I pulled up a chair 
The food you made I’ve tried to replicate but never compares 
I sat and ate and thanked you for the time you could share  

And I caught your line of vision every time you would stare 


We locked eyes to my surprise 
And neither one of us was shy 
Felt like the only thing that was missing between us was the time 

That we can’t get back but 
we can’t back track now 

Until the cows come home we gotta milk that cash cow

For everything it’s worth now life is peaceful far from perfect 
But I’m workin on dissolving my problems behind the curtain 

It’s uncertain why it happened but with every loss I’m learning 

And I’m earning every single ounce of peace that I’ve been yearning for 

Turn over the leaf and I can see that life has meaning 
Ain’t no time for me to grieve when I can take the path to freedom more 

Life is just a game but ain’t no reason to be keeping score 
When I can chase my dreams and can get everything I’m hoping for 

Open doors that lead me to peaks of mountains Or fountains on the beach when i am ten toes deep in sand out on the Cali shore 

Man,

this is the life that i chose 
Buried in concrete 
From the cracks I rose 

And since were all drinking I think I’d like to give a toast 

A toast to your father for being such a gracious host 

And one for your mother for always doing the most 

And another for your brother cuz he’s growing like a weed

I saw his ultrasound back when he was the size of a seed 

Now life is moving way to fast wish I could go slow down the speed 

Because the next time that I see him he might be as tall as me 

Or he might find someone to love and add a branch to the family tree 

Cuz he’s becoming a man 
It’s getting hard to understand 
How all the time has come and gone 
So long to all of you again 

I don’t know when I’ll see you but I’ll see you when I do 
And you can play those last two words when you wish you could say them too

family tree

Okay the weed I roll is gnarly 

I’m partying with Chris Farley 
Up in heaven on cloud 7 
Confessing sins to a reverend 
And I’m ready willing and able to pick a horse out the stable
And set some food on the table 
While checking what’s on the cable 
I’m trying to solve my problems I cover them up like maybelline 
While drowning my sorrows in the bottle or while I face the green 
But if you have a secret I’ll keep it it will be safe with me 
I’ll never double cross you a snitch is what I would hate to be 
Don’t wollow like a toddle cuz a bitch is what I hate to see 
And appreciate my time because you’ll find you should be thanking me 

Because I started from the bottom 
Was sittin on the bench until they figured they should start em 
Scoring while I ran a post as if it’s  partem 
Now I’m going postal mentally to dark thoughts I’m a martyr 

So put me in Coach Carter 
So long to flying coach
I prefer to ride charter 

Open up the window and I touch clouds around me 
You thought I was lost but in euphoria you found me 


I’m having night terrors with night vision 
My minds missing 
Tryna hit your phone but I’m alone and we don’t talk no more 

You’re my addiction
I need you like a prescription
But I haven’t had a hit in a while so now I’m itchin 
Food in the kitchen
But it never tastes as good as you 
All the drugs in the world what you’ve done to me they couldn’t do 
The cons outweigh the pros and so I know you’re what I shouldn’t do 
But quitting you cold turkey is certainly what I wouldn’t do 

You’re my obsession 
Raising my dopamine
And lowing my depression 
Everything I want and need 
So I might get possessive 

You raise my temperature until I get to sweating 
Unconventional dimension of loven oven convection 
Got me heating up I’m eating up every ounce that I’m left with 

You’re like my kryptonyte
So I’ll make the most of the night cuz I will not live it twice 
Love was up for sale and I guess my sole was the bidding price 
Hoping that it’s worth it life ain’t perfect but I’ll get it right 

And I know nobody’s perfect
But I’m certain that with you I’m flirting with the perfect person 

Cuz you’re my stars in the sky 
And I feel like I can touch them girl when you get me high 
I’m rollin up your lovin when I’m touching your thighs 
A single hit of you is my favorite way to get by 

So if you’re down just let me know 
Even though I know the high will never be worth every low 
And it won’t be a surprise when in due time you let me go
Because I look you in your eyes and you’re somebody I don’t know 
And so I’m turning the page 
Because I’m acting my shoe size and forgetting my age
I guess it might be from the trance that you got me stuck in a maze
And I feel like I am a prisoner to you locked in a cage. 
But I’m just tryna be free
From you cuz you’re my biggest vice despite the permanent fee
That you’re collectin I’m in debt but you’re a burden to me
so I’m invested in suppression all the pain you bring to me
And not given you my time in space as seemed to be the key

obsession freestyle

You crossed my path 
In just the nick of time

Two ships that passed
Under dimly moonlit sky

Amazing  
Your timing was divine 
If wanting you is crazy then I think I lost my mind 

You’re one of a kind 
To me
I hate the days that you’re away 
I’ll stay behind and find my peace 
Perfection 
That is all I see 
Whenever I’m with you it feels like I’m in a dream 

But she’s a dream that I never wanna leave 
Might love too much 
Wear my heart on my sleeve 
What’s wrong with a love bomb 
Maybe it’s too strong 
Too long since a girls gotten to me 
Clocks stop tickin when she’s talkin to me 
The time slows down when she’s walking with me 
She’s the best thing that I never knew I needed 
It’s a death race for her heart and I’m speeding 
Goin fast and I’m dodging on coming traffic 
If her love is a drug then I’m her number one addict 
I’m passionate about much more than her looks
She’s intelligent benevolent 
can clean and cook 
But so can I
So if she’s hungry I’ll feed her 
Those golden eyes 
Get me high when I see her 
I’m there for she 
And she’s here when I need her 
If she loves me then I swear I'll never leave her 
My therapy 
My clarity 
Our similarities 
Are so strong and I’m eager 
To see the path we take 
Because she made me a believer 
In love at first sight 
The first night that I would meet her 

Cuz I've been hurt 
And so have you 

And neither of us knew that fairy tales could be true 
But I changed my mind the second that I met you 
Who would have guessed through all of this Id have the chance to get you 

Giving me a reason to give life another try 
You're the sun and the moon and the stars in the sky 

You're brightest spotlight on the grandest of stages

The book of love and you're the words on my favorite pages 

Sharper than tequila shots when there's nothing to chase with 

runnin through my mind and all the time my heart is racing

A blessing built from pressure baby you're a real diamond 

Through everything we met and I call that divine timing 

You’re one of a kind
To me 

And there’s no star that can outshine 
Her kind
She’s divine 
In due time 
She’ll be mine she’ll be mine
And then she will be mine forever 
Will be mine forever. 

And she is cool calm and collected 
Was neglected disrespected 
Redirected all her energy cuz love became a weapon
And it hurt her more each time before 
I happened to walk through that door 
And show her a new meaning a new character new season 
I would share my time forever never give her rhyme or reason 
To believe that i wont treasure 
Every ounce of her
 in every way
 She's sunshine on a cloudy day 
A bright light in the nighttime 
I'd protect her til forever 
There's no limit on the price id pay 

To have her for life 
But I'm living in the moment 
So I cherish every night

Every sound every scent every touch every sight 

If I have one chance then I better get it right

Cuz once a moment ends 
It will only be a memory 
Hoping I'll remember you as more than just a friend to me 

Spending every second reflecting on who I tend to be 

With every girl that I get to close with 
Hoping that you might leave the door open 

To make a house a home
Time well spent is time well earned and you said from the jump that you want a slow burn

Given you all the space 
and time 
And when the times right 
I will make you mine 

I'm grateful for the pain that I had to go through 
 cuz if it wasn't for that 
I would never know you

divine timing

Another years gone by and I’m still talking to myself
Tears ran dry no longer cry tryna find help 
Switching my position and the way that I’m living because I couldn’t keep on going always feeling how I felt 

A candle slow dancing in a burning room might melt 
On house arrest inside my head my memories my cell
Always overthinking and pondering while I’m wandering no longer do I focus on the shitty cards I dealt 

Everything is temporary 
Heart getting colder than nights from November to February 
And it continues to get colder
Frozen in snow with nowhere to go
The weight of bolders
Get heavy on my shoulders
Doing my best to jump start a car without a motor 
I had to leave is what I told her
Making myself a priority as I get older
And it’s a never ending effort 
I had to change the scenery so I went to the desert 
Regretful memories all drifted like some tumble weeds
I left behind my baggage replaced it with faith of mustard seeds 

If life’s a dream it’s just pretend to me 
I’m battling demons and they’re screaming in my head endlessly. 

I know that saying is dramatic 

And it sounds worse than it is 
But I still relive all the damage 

I steer clear of things that got me here
Often fear is what veers it’s evil head instead of offering freedom from all those awful years

All those tears 
and every single ounce of me depleted by a treasonous distrustful lust filled narsaskstic demon 

I guess it’s just been on my mind 
Even with a head start my heart still lingers behind 

On days where I can see the finish line 
I’m living in a mental scrimmage images of clementine. 

My spotless mind begins to fade 
And all those moments I was holding onto start to wash away 

And I’ve thought about you enough times
Until you’re just another ray in my eternal sunshine 
And as the years keep passing by 
The well of tears has run dry 

Accepting I am only human 
That’s enough for one guy 

Mother Nature is crying
Disguised as poorin rain
Nobody gave her a child I guess that earths to blame 
Turns out the feeling between um wasnt the same
As one continues turning the other expresses pain

Ashamed they couldn’t make it but that’s just the way the game is played 
 One falls deep in love and didn’t ever think the light would fade
A price was paid when the one in love signed their life away 
I used to think about you often. Now it’s less than twice a day 

And in the daylight Nature sees the sun and is consumed 
Until the sun decides to vanish leaving nature with the moon. 

Although moon is often distant the conversations are deeper

The gravitational pull 
when moon is full makes her a keeper 

But is unaware without a care afraid that if I leave her 

I would miss out on forever consequences getting steeper 

Was it fate or misfortune that I was forced in just to meet her 

And I’m fortunate to remember the better times

But nowadays if she’s weeping then I might let her cry 

Making attempts to reconnect is what I’ll never try 

I’m not what she wanted yet she’ll never get a better guy 


No better pleasure than being birds of a feather together and thinking I wish that this love will last forever 

But it never seems to happen 
Cuz birds in a cage get trapped 
And I could cry out in a daze
 thinkin bout the days we were laughing

birds in a cage

engagement

I heard you got engaged and I felt a mix of emotions
Somebody else will watch you walk th isle while I’m alone and 
I thought I’d tell you how I feel I guess it’s just me coping 
But I’ll replace that with congrats tell you what I’m hoping 

I hope he loves you and you know what living lavish is
I hope he cuts the crust for you on all  your heart shaped sandwiches 
I hope he tells you jokes that always make you laugh
I hope he brings you fresh fruit 
while you’re taking a bath

He better kiss your forehead before bed and on his way to work 
And even after several years he better not forget to flirt 
Remind you that you’re special and no one can treat you better
Incase you might forget he better write a love letter
And leave it in a place that he knows that you’ll find it on your own
So you can always be reminded every time you make it home 
Cuz you’re a queen and you need proper treatment 
If he says his heart is yours to keep I really hope you keep it 
I hope he’s always honest with you never tells a lie
I hope he knows exactly what to say whenever you cry 
I hope he Holds you close and that he knows what makes you feel alive 
And opens every door for you before you ever step inside
Of any car or any room
I hope he makes the perfect groom 
I hope you really mean it when you tell him what he means to you
I hope he’s never mean to you 
And that you always feel spoiled
I hope that if your car needs tuning up that he can change your oil 
I hope he gets you coffee from Starbucks an gets your order right 
A matcha latte topped off with cold foam if I remember right  
I hope he picks your favorite flavors ordering a cider flight  

I hope he takes your brother in December to see Christmas lights

 hope he appreciates your mother because she is one of one
I hope that she approves enough to call him her son 
I hope your dad and him can get along 
Talk basketball and different songs
And if he hasn’t heard of an artist your dad will put him on 
I hope that when you’re married it feels like you’re still dating
The light in both your eyes remains bright and there’s no fading 
And makes you feel young even when you’re an old lady 
I hope that when the time is right you have a beautiful baby. 
I hope he has list of names already prepared
I had one too but I deleted the list of names that we shared 
But in another universe those names we liked were brought to life and we lived happily forever I was husband you were wife
But in this life it wasn’t meant to be 
our time was temporary but I cherish all the blessings sent to me

I hope you’re tears run dry
And your heart don’t hurt
And he’s your perfect guy 
And what you have always works 
I hope you’re happy 


I hope you’re happy where you’re at and love that you share is true 
I hope that he can be at least half in love as I was with you 

I hope you’re happy

Arlington

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