[purc] - 3EN JAN 2ND

Hol on yeah hol on yea-
I be doin lotsa drugs pop all kind of those uh huh
I be doin lotsa drugs pop all kind of those 
And I’m doin lotsa drugs we pop all kinds of those okay huh
Hold on yeah and they aint gotta know
Hold on yeah yeah
Hold on yeah and they aint gotta know
they aint gonna reach my lows you wouldnt ever know
Nah you wouldnt reach this low, you know how far I go
I been poppin since a kid swear these bitches slow
I dont ever need to close my lid you know how I go
Reminisce bout lotsa shit I did thats the final blow
‘Nother tell tale heart hold on call me edgar allan poe
I came from the bottom from the start and I still got no dough
Know nobody that went through all the pain I had to undergo
Back then this shit was fine but I’ll never be the same
We will never be the same you aint got nun on my name
Lately I been suicidal hol on in my empty lane
Life was never picture perfect put it in a frame-
 I been
By myself myself these bitches lame-
 I been
Talkin talkin to myself got vocal range-
 I been
Hatin on myself look what I became-
 I been
Beatin up my health set my soul aflame-
 I been 


I been doin lotsa drugs pop all kind of those 
I been doin lotsa drugs- pop all- mm pop all-
I been doin lotsa drugs lotsa drugs drugs
And they aint gotta know
They aint gotta know
No you aint reach my lows you wouldnt ever know
No you wouldnt reach this low
You know how far i go

Third Eye Nihilism

painwav

​painwav

3EN - track 9 - [yungmexic$nbih]

I do what I can 
I be on the drugs on the drugs
 think ill never land
I do i do what i can
I was 14 15 totin off the xans
We some fiends we some fiends we did what we can
We did what we could shit but we was never good
Shit I shoulda left for good
Shit I shoulda left these streets
Just as fucked up as I was but now I rap on beats
I got-
I got PTSD low-high self esteem I. got-
Seen a lotta shit. Shit i shouldnt seen I aint-
Trippin over bitches i trip over me. Im on-
Gabapentin and I really have to wean. I been-
Countin pills and shit this shit been bad for me
It been yeah-
I do what I can hold on
I do what I I do what I
I do what I can
hol on I do what I can okay
I do what I can okay 
I do what I can okay 
I do what I can okay
I do what I can do what I can.

what i can

​what ​i ​can

3EN - track 6 - [sunsetzer0]

Hold on yeah yeah hold on yeah hold on
Always been this way so whats the difference whats th- yeah yeah
Always been this way so whats the difference whats th- yeah yeah
Always been this way so whats the difference whats th- yeah yeah
Always been this always been this hold on yeah yeah
Always been this way I always been this hold on yeah yeah
Always been this way so whats the difference hold on yeah yeah
Always been this way so whats the difference whats the-
Hold on yea 

Always been this way I always been this hold on yeah yeah
Always felt this way nah always felt this hold on
Smokin all the strains drugs done got me like they cupid hold on
Get mad at my brain I done felt like I went stupid hold on
I be on my movement with the drugs I’m way too fluent hold on
If the drugs I lose em nah I swear to god I’ll lose it hold on
Get caught lackin in my cloud never said I’d never do it
I been feelin safe and sound and I be ight like well shit lets do it

Put me in the ground drugs gon put me in the yeah yeah
Put me in the ground yeah yeah dare em to do it hold on
Used to hit the ground now its just my mind thats stoopin nah
I be actin way too high too much they like I knew it 
Never said such and such the drugs I knew I’d do em
Needles never shoot em nah the needles never yeah yeah

Shit im losin im just too afraid to go- 
hold on yeah

Shit I’m losin im just too afraid to go lose it hold on

Shit I’m lucid drugs dont wan refuse it hold on
Shit been through it through it but its not no less confusin
Get in squabbles with myself over my own music
Everything in life been feelin too diluted
And I know I got my problems yeah I got my problem yeah
And I know I got my problems yeah come on spot em
I aint never felt included aint never felt in- yeah 
and my mind polluted yeah my mind been way too- yeah hold on
Screws been ready loosened nah my screws been hold on yeah huh

I been doin lotsa drugs lotsa-
I been doin lotsa drugs lotsa-
I been doin lotsa drugs lotsa-
I’m on lotsa drugs pop all kind of those
Kinda those
We doin lotsa drugs pop all- pop all- 
huh yeah
Doin lotsa drugs pop all kind of those
Doin lotsa drugs pop all- pop all yeah yeah

difference

​difference

3EN - track 2 - [yungmexic$nbih]

Talk about my future fuck it get it gone
Talk about my future fuck it get it gone
Talk about my future it do not belong

I been high as hell high as hell high as-
Told em might as well might as-
Ion never feel
Might as well just keep it real
And ion never think ill heal
Shit i’m guilty of it
Shit I’m guilty of it still
I admit so whats the deal
Ion hide my future
And I know it aint ideal
Nah nah I keep it real too much yeah I reveal
Nah nah I keep it real too much yeah I reveal

Lately I been puttin in no effort in my own ordeal
All typa-
All typa yeah yeah 
And all typa delusions they behind us 
They be right behind us 
I know I got addictions why go out your way to remind us
I will let drugs suck my soul until I’m lifeless 
I aint tip toe on eggshells for all these hoes yeah they never liked it
Yeah yeah hold on
Yeah they never liked us
Yeah yeah hold on

talk about my future

​talk ​about ​my ​future

3EN - track 7 - [grief]

Got no time for you
I be tunnel vision on these drugs so i go hunnid proof
Hoenstly been wiggin i been jumpin off the roof yeah
Honestly been wiggin I been jumpin off the roof yeah

Why I even talk for 
They dont even want sumn
Put it on my dead body locked in and im on one
I be solitary silent people i dont got none
Feelin like it aint be life and im booted off these drugs
I aint takin your advice stay as what I always was
Im not tryna say it twice not even tryna say it once
But I repeat it outta spite and yes I ran all outta love
And I know I’ll pay my price but I ignore the bell that rung
Me myself man
me myself and I it’s a one on one

Swear the cat must got my-
Cat got my tongue
All these pills upon it nah nah its way too common
I know it’s real uncommon all these pills that I been poppin
Since I-
Was a kid in them circles I been walkin
feelings temporary we jus writin it in chalk
addiction sanctuary ion never wanna stop
Mind been goin in circles feelin like a broken clock
Mind been goin in circles feelin like a broken clock

Yeah yeah hold on
Got no time for you
I be tunnel vision on these drugs im like a hunnid hunnid
Honestly been wiggin I be jumpin jumpin roof- roof
Honestly been wiggin I be jumpin jumpin roof- roof

off the roof

​off ​the ​roof

3EN - track 10 - [999ines]

Hol on nah these bitches dumb yea
Nah these bitches dumb 
I said fuck bout from you from
Fuck bout where you from
I said I aint never kept no friends so ion talk to none
I said I aint never kept no friends so ion talk to none
I said jus leave em dead aint livin rent free over none
I said jus leave em dead aint livin rent free over none
Hol on yeah I aint livin rent free over none
Hol on yeah yeah I aint livin rent free over none

People gonna feel the need to talk jus let it happen 
To the drugs I been addicted now flip the act of trappin
use the drugs to numb myself because them dumbass always laughin
think they knowin me they dont my trust is always lackin
I aint never said I know you either I aint that too tapped in
All these people never wanted neither they be all band wagons
Motherfuckers act like lemmings all the drama that they wrapped in
Nah quit actin all these people actin I can see the gap in
I’m observant right behind my curtain stay reserved while workin
On my shit while they all on my dick nah swear to god they jerkin
Way them bitches think suburban swear to god that they aint worth it 
Tryna act tough to prove they tough cuz they was never certain
I can see through all the bullshit through all they different versions
Nah I cut through like a surgeon Imma cause a whole dispersion
Swear by sermons go hurt people and claim they the ones who hurtin
cant determine what excursion which to imma help myself
Puttin puttin in so much exertion swear I cant help myself

Nah these bitches dumb 
Hol on nah these bitches dumb 
I said fuck where you from 
Fuck bout where you from
I aint never kept no friends so ion talk to none

[HOOK]

real talk

​real ​talk

3EN - track 1 - [P.A + dreamincolors]

Hold on yeah
All my problems they provisional like uh huh
Told em nah imma get it though like uh huh
Told em nah ill get it though like uh huh
Told em nah imma get it though uh huh

Feel it sometimes
Visions realized
And real eyes realize
Fake ones disguises
They dont know how my life is
Say you been up in these shoes but you dont know the size is
I been without opiates been too full of surprises
Left with all my vices
Left to my devices
Ruining my life but keep on going all despite this
I’m angry all the time I’m sometimes is
Dont know if I even know what the fuck advice is
Thinkin I dont need me need me help hold on huh huh
I cant take nun for myself hold on huh huh
I can take it all on myself hold on
Sure I met a lotta people hol on hung me on a shelf
Information-
make my head swell
Call me airhead im fuckin up them drugs have me propelled
Damn huh

get it tho

​get ​it ​tho

3EN - track 3 - [daln]

Stay the fuck from me
Hold on stay the fuck hold on yeah
Why I gotta say stay the fuck from me
Hold on nah
Mm hold on nah you aint fuck wit me
Actin like they do when they dont fuck wit me

Judgin what I do every move
Walkin on eggshells cuz they assume
Why these bitches lie aint got a clue
Sayin I was doin meth when I was really on the blues
Nah these people dont know shit bout who I am or what I do

Nah these people dont know shit bout who I am or what I do
Dont know shit dont got a clue hold on yeah yeah
Really dont know shit got me amused got me hold on yeah
Never wanted friends friends, stuck in my taboos
And i dont blame em but I do because why they even choose
To be watchin what I do they fuckin weirdos they some losers
Barely got respect left but still some left for some producers
Rest yall talkin out ya neck
all be posers me it humor

Like I ready ready said we can talk about my future but
ion give no fucks cuz im still makin maneuvers
And im makin all the right decisions in my drugged up stupor
I will take most anything cuz beggars cant be choosers

And on the low yeah we all been some consumers
And on the low we all prolly dyin sooner yeah

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