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These are the songs cut from the inkwell album. Enjoy!

Inkwell Cuts

This song was recorded out of pure spite.

In The Hands Of An Angry God (Making A Fist)

My submissions for February Album Writing Month 2022. Will add to the playlist as the songs get finished!

And so it goes, dropped from the sky likes seeds crows sow,
And now we know,  no one knows just how far this hole go,
Rock bottom, and a thousand miles to go,
Rock bottom, and a thousand miles to go,

But when you free fall, there’s time to let it go,
When your Mind’s all empty, there’s time left to grow,
Just Fall in with the sands of time,
Embrace the flow, free your mind,
There’s No ground, only echo,
There’s No ground, only echo,

I’m not afraid of gravity, the weight of the fall,
It's the way of the world
Orbiting the point of it all,

Push and pull in equal turn
And we capsize,
Until we learn
We're baptized
In the downwards turn
Just Let us fall,
Until all that remains
Is who we are,
When gravity takes the reins
It's who we are
When theres
No ground only echo
No ground only echo

So let’s go,
Where we know
We can let go
Of Ego,
And just flow,
Where there is no ground
Only Echo

Only Echo

This maybe the weirdest but also most fun song I've written. Weird merging of Genres or something.

Lyrics:
It’s long walk,
A arduous hike up this hill
And it’s nonstop
No rest, until I’ve had my fill
And you can join the climb or wait behind,
No sign of breaking, haven’t got the time,
It’s all pushes us to find
Something we haven’t ever heard,
Each song us farther,
Determined and Undeterred

I don't know what I'm doing anymore,
Funny how I thought I had it figure out before,
But I'm just scripting out performance art for 4,
Myself, my wife, my brother, and Lenore,
Quothe the raven,
Nevermore,
Quothe the bastards at the door,
I'm an artist with a quill laid out on the floor,
Raptured at the art but convinced I'm a bore,
So I fiddle with the settings trying to make something more
But it's the same four chords as before
Nevermore,

It’s long walk,
A arduous hike up this hill
And it’s nonstop
No rest, until I’ve had my fill
And you can join the climb or wait behind,
No sign of breaking, haven’t got the time,
It's a long walk,
An arduous hike up this hill


I'm a screw up and burning out
Sculpting shit out of clay in a drought
I think I'm something new, but I doubt,
Is anyone anywhere know what I'm about, 
Cause I'm pushing this boulder up St Helens and spout
maybe I shoulda left it with Sisaphyus and bow out
Cause everyone everywhere has seemed to find their pace and then left,
And I've been sprinting in place with no rest,
So I'm gonna take a second to collapse on the floor
Cause this song is a gasp for air and nothing more,


And if we lose our way, fall off the path,
We can trust each other to bring us back,
It’s honor of thieves, stealing the hearts of man,
No cost too steep, No goal too far,
No laws to keep, No crossing stars
Just a band of bards, who demand all the lands,

It’s long walk,
A arduous hike up this hill
And it’s nonstop
No rest, until I’ve had my fill
And you can join the climb or wait behind,
No sign of breaking, haven’t got the time,
It's a long walk,
An arduous hike up this hill

Sisaphyus (demo)

Everything's Ok

Breathe

Fully explicit aggressive dance music.

Lyrics:
Be prepared, what follows is not made for kids,
It's cannot be monetized on youtube for explicit content, 
For strong language and blatant disrespect for family valued,
This is not recommended for children, the religious, or members of the authority, 

And I watched my tongue for many years and it was fucking boring, 
Got no plans on holding back now,  there's no more filters on this story, 
This content is unmoderated, don't change the channel 
Parental advisory, this explicit Release might get gory,

The faint of heart might want to turn away, but this might get tantalizing, 
It's uncensored and raw, skin-imax just started broadcasting
This is banned in many countries and canceled in the rest,
But I haven't made a living before, so I'll just get this off my chest

God Damn this Motherfucking Bullshit fuck
This bitchass fucking ass shitface bitch
Jesus fucking christ fuck this dumn fucking bullshit
fucking dumbfuck bitchass dipshit fuck

It feels fucking great loosing this thing on the world
Loose tongue shouting obscene things at the motherfucking bedroom wall
Shit, I feel like a new soul, bursting out like a fucking star
And all by cursing like a sailor lost their shit at the goddamn bar

There's been too much goddamn bullshit on this mother fucking earth,
Fucking asshole leaders add fuck-all to the goddamn verse
And it's all just bullshit anyways and it's all goddamn insane
So for the rest of this goddamn album, I'm doing things my fucking way,

Explicit Catharsis (explicit lyrics)

CatharsisHappy

I'm 
Masked and suffocating
I am 
Trapped inside the hating
I am
Looking for salvation
And I, I I'm 
so close
Look and see

I am
Troubled and frustrated, 
Im Caged
By self-righteous indoctrination 
Shamed
By my life
My skin
They call sin
But
It's everything that I am

I am an abomination according to your scripture,
Hated by an all loving God, 
acceptance is not in your picture,
You picket outside joyful gatherings,
Call us names claiming
Self-righteous right mutterings, 
Bigoted blighted Sputtering 
With rage you call grace,
Inner pain you call faith,
Quoting words that have lost all their meaning,
I'll translate the prose to which you are clinging,
And stick to the love that still wants us breathing


The God I saw when I lost the will to fight,
The God that can pull darkness into light,
The God that can make The deaf to hear,
Dwells within the love we hold dear,
The God that told me I am loved,
The god that does not dwell In heaven above,
The God that is personal, private, and Pristine, 
The God that hold no conditions over me

As I am
perfectly redeemed,
I'm
Loved as Im seen,
broken but
held together in God's hands
As I am
As I am
I am
A child not a slave,
I am 
Crowned
I am remade,,
Holy love
Without restraint,
So they say I'm depraved, 
But I am held in God's name


I am recommending your surrender, 
To this peace, where love is your mender, 
The hate you feel is the true pretender,
Cause if God is love, then hate is a cold December, 
it is Lonely under a cross that is still bleeding,
In a church where love is fleeting,
With a pulpit stained with scheming, 
Greed leaking from the ceiling, 
Where Satan is real and constantly stealing, 
Hearts away from a God uncaring,
Constantly inconsistent,  pointing and glaring,
Judging you for sins already paid for,
Is it freeing to keep your bruised knees glued to the floor?

Do you seek peace and love unending?
Do you seek a home where you can stop pretending?
Stop raging against those god called blameless,
Love with a passion pure and shameless,
In Love you find God,
Cause God is Love,
Is kind
Is pure
And faultless,
God is love
is good
Is mighty
Is endless,
God is love
Is truth
Is peace
Is timeless
God is live
Is hope
Is home
Is hateless
Is love

As I Am

Inspiration

Communion

Dollar For Good Graces

Dissonance Is Proof

Dissatisfaction

LifeLines

Mimic!!!

Disneyland of Fools (Inkwell park Demo)

1990 Illinois, 
First breath,
First noise,
First move, 
to Missouri, 
And I learned
Who a man should be,
Forced underwater
To be made clean,
It wouldn’t stick,
I blamed me
Broke the tension
Repeatedly,

I felt sick,
In pain,
Like I was walking on nails
Rust in my veins
Exhale innocence
Breathe in shame

New millennium 
Same ghost
Quiet pastor kid
Brain sick
Don’t diagnose 
Never let them know why they’re in pain,
So I learned quick,
The transcript,
I parroted prayers in play,
And smiled the holy smile
To scare the cares away,

I’ll never know what I did
To deserve such punishment for my sins
I don’t know what went wrong
That I still hear the fathers voice in my song

Don't tell what your life is like,
Act as if everything is OK,
Don't say anything,
If you think that you'll break,
Only take what you need,
Leave nothing of yourself behind,
You home is the back seat
Don’t talk back to me
Sell them the lie 

It's growing up,
Led at the end of the Bible belt,
Wrapped tightly around my throat,
Where evictions are normalized,
And God provides,
A scapegoat for your sin
And I Was caught and falling
Once Again

I Was told that the end is coming, 
And though God is loving, 
He will not save me, 
I will stay here and lonely 
With this hole below me
No faith in what my fate would be
Cause I’m a queer abomination
And I was taught the cost is obliteration
And not even disbelief can shake that memory, 

I carry fear in my footsteps,
They leave tracks behind me,
You can follow them back
A scar road to locked away memories,
I tattooed the brand into my chest,
Now it can never leave me,
Right above my heart
I bled out ink to halt the breaking

I smiled the holy smile,
The plastic mask across my face,
Into the private school I joined
In hopes my truth was fake,
Make The jagged teeth in grim delight,
My only true visage,
But the marble maw of god I saw,
Was only a mirage, (faux image)



I clung to the sinking ship,
Playing my guitar to percussive waves,
The preachers in their yachts,
Are Telling me that all will be OK,
I will be saved,
I smile as I sink, 
So much water
Not a drop to drink,
the holy ones only
watch me drown
As the water climbs
I can only think

I’ll never know what I did
To deserve such punishment for my sins
I'll never know what went wrong
I still hear the fathers voice in every song

Rust In My Veins

Lyric:

I seems I’m trapped on a Coaster of unwell
The further I climb, the further that I fell
You signify that I should disembark 
But there’s no stopping this shit once it starts

Hallelujah I’m going down in flames,
Dragged down by all the hell I raised
No chute to pull, cause I'm the fool 
I'll accept my fall unfazed 

This theme park is just the aspect of my soul
I left my heart abandoned in the tunnel of the cold,
You’ll find me handcuffed to the tracks,
And I'm running me down, in a loving act
Of attrition,
I'll never be one to follow the mission,

It's suicide by inches, Self righteous emissions, 
Throwing hatred in the airwaves,
Conspiratorial suspicions,
Just listen
I'm no stranger to childhood reenactments, 
But I tire of giving time to those that don't care enough to pay attention
So I'll leave them in suspension


Coaster of Unwell

Lyrics:

Hi dad,
It's your kid,
It's been 3 years since I asked if you were proud oh me,
It's been a second but I think I've made sense of the dichotomy 
It's been 2 years since the Dear Simmons letter,
And i have since spilled out my truth in many phases,
Seeking ways of getting better
I put the mimic in his place, 
And contemplated my own extinction
I am taking stock of the gifts you gave me,
To mark each one for deletion

I said, I'm OK,
But really i'm not,
But I've been perfectly rent
And forcefully tied in knots
And I’m Trying to accept, 
As I unpack another box,
I have been imitating you,
No matter how much I fought,

Your sketches, poems,
And lyrics are still wrapped up in my sound
Like 5 lines of darkest night linking
The Em, G, walk down 
It still taunts me to this day,
As I try to sift the wheat from the chaff,
to achieve something competent
Or at least palatable in halves,
the dissonance is proof, 
It’s trauma laid bare,
the sum of what you have left,
I am the Remnent’s tear,

I was 15 years old,
Watching my siblings in the mirror
contemplating why they hate me,
My dissipating zen the accompanying voice,
Guiding towards the darkness in waiting,
I felt packed up, shipped off,
With the last of our things,
I felt a part of me die in delavan,
As you took the corpse to st augustine,

I followed you, like a shadow,
To every god’s plan,
As you gave our last dollars to good graces,
With promised prosperity for the righteous Man. 
I believed every word as pharisees tore into me with glee
to remold me to the image of a good son I was supposed to be,
I hope you were proud,
As I fell in the rubble of who I once was,
I hope the screams were loud
I hope you had your hallelujahs
You handed me the promise 
That I would never be the same
You put upon me your hopes and dreams
And then you gave me my shame,

I thought it was my mask,
I thought it was for protection,
I thought I had to wear it,
To conform to its corrections,
I thought it was required,
I thought it held my name,
I thought it was meant for more
Than providing me my pain


Hi, Dad

Lyrics:

I am sorry
You just missed me,
I left early, I am fleeting,
I’m not here, I lost my mind,
I left for shelter, I will not find,

I’m lost in what I found,
A heart, frayed, 
I've come unwound,
I tried to pick apart the pieces.
But tore apart the sound,

No suture to my aesthetic, 
No antiseptic for my wounds,,
I let it fester til it’s toxic,
It’s self-inflicted,
This abuse,

I'm scarred
Tarred and feathered
For my betrayal,
I am ashamed,
I've taken medicine 
To treat this
But I still can't keep the hate away,

So I left the cycle
Disassociate and fade,
Call me if you need me,
I'll be stumbling from the haze

I'll be running from the quiet,
I sit idly beside,
I can't handle all the silence,
In the ambience of strife

call me later, 
I left to plunder,
What my wonder 
Left behind,
No wonder
I underestimate
My dissipating light,


I'm Sorry

Lyrics:

You Will be the target of my aggression, 
You have no hold over me
There will be no self-righteous confession
You have become my worst enemy,
You are the wall between me and my resurrection 
You made me celebrate my own secession 
I have removed you from the question

This is not a reconstruction, 
This is demolition, 
I will leave only scorch earth below me,
Your extinction is my mission
You will not be held in submission
I owe you no favors
you were the anchor to my condition,
 you were no savior

You wore my face, but I will not be you,
You've been replaced,  I made me new,
You've had a taste, but I will not be moved
I've taken your place, and enjoy the view

I bled all you gave me dry ten years ago,
And you made sure it was difficult let you go,
But I left Stockholm for Venice, buried all love at dusk,
I hope you enjoyed the show, I'm sure you must,

With all the times you left me wanting,
I'm sure my pain is entertainment,
You were late to bring me peace,
You'll be late to your arraignment,
I hope you got what you needed from our arrangement, 
But I have broke from containment,
Prepared for our engagement, 
All this burning bridges will be your payment,


My Worst Enemy

Lyrics:

1990 Illinois, 
First breath,
First noise,
First move, 
to Missouri, 
And I learned
Who a man should be,
Forced underwater
To be made clean,
It wouldn’t stick,
I blamed me
Broke the tension
Repeatedly,

I felt sick,
In pain,
Like I was walking on nails
Rust in my veins
Exhale innocence
Breathe in shame

New millennium 
Same ghost
Quiet pastor kid
Brain sick
Don’t diagnose 
Never let them know why they’re in pain,
So I learned quick,
The transcript,
I parroted prayers in play,
And smiled the holy smile
To scare the cares away,

I’ll never know what I did
To deserve such punishment for my sins
I don’t know what went wrong
That I still hear the fathers voice in my song

Don't tell what your life is like,
Act as if everything is OK,
Don't say anything,
If you think that you'll break,
Only take what you need,
Leave nothing of yourself behind,
You home is the back seat
Don’t talk back to me
Sell them the lie 

It's growing up,
Led at the end of the Bible belt,
Wrapped tightly around my throat,
Where evictions are normalized,
And God provides,
A scapegoat for your sin
And I Was caught and falling
Once Again

I Was told that the end is coming, 
And though God is loving, 
He will not save me, 
I will stay here and lonely 
With this hole below me
No faith in what my fate would be
Cause I’m a queer abomination
And I was taught the cost is obliteration
And not even disbelief can shake that memory, 

I carry fear in my footsteps,
They leave tracks behind me,
You can follow them back
A scar road to locked away memories,
I tattooed the brand into my chest,
Now it can never leave me,
Right above my heart
I bled out ink to halt the breaking

I smiled the holy smile,
The plastic mask across my face,
Into the private school I joined
In hopes my truth was fake,
Make The jagged teeth in grim delight,
My only true visage,
But the marble maw of god I saw,
Was only a mirage, (faux image)



I clung to the sinking ship,
Playing my guitar to percussive waves,
The preachers in their yachts,
Are Telling me that all will be OK,
I will be saved,
I smile as I sink, 
So much water
Not a drop to drink,
the holy ones only
watch me drown
As the water climbs
I can only think

I’ll never know what I did
To deserve such punishment for my sins
I'll never know what went wrong
I still hear the fathers voice in every song


Rust in my Veins

One day,
I’ll play,
The last four chords,
BeFore I hit the hay,
Lights out,
Last Shout,
I only hope they stick to you
Before they send  me out,
But I still have my doubts,

I haven’t crafted an ear worm,
Nor a sticky tune that hangs on you,
I only know how to write my mind,
And hope it’s something that speaks to you,
It’s only costed a band or two,

Cause I can’t hide 
behind kind lines,
My mind is trapped in truths
I can’t find
A life that rhymes,
When I hide myself from you,

So Let’s Play
All Day,
Around the chords
That hold me as I fray,
No doubt,
I count,
Up the days Til I’ve said 
all there is to say,
So let’s play my cares away,

Way more tales, i’ve yet to begun
And i’ll keep at it as my bell gets rung
No matter what comes, I wont be done
Til i’ve rung out my worries with the songs i’ve sung,

I give it with the fury of a worn out punk,
Keep it all acoustic cause i’ve lost my funk,
To the preachers on the tv and the news i’ve drunk,
It’s all I can do with the depths they’ve sunk,
Their heinous exaltation of a racist fuck

It’s Ok to be sad
This whole world is going mad,
And if you can write
What’s in your mind,
Sing out what you can,

FAWM Song 1 - Sing Out What You Can

Lyrics
I am looking to belong,
Somewhere I can still stand strong
Confident in my own skin,
And who I am truely within

My skin is ill fitting,
My face betrays my age,
Euphoria is fleeting
leaving me inside my cage
It holds who I could be
Who I never hoped to be,
I only what acceptance
Who would take that from me?

I want what you have,
To be accepted as I am,
So simple a concept
So tragic a demand
I am not a threat
I just don't fit in my skin
But you turn the world against me
If I tell you who I am



FAWM Song 2 - A Threat

FAWM Song 3 - Give Us Our Monsters

I've been playing my role,
Paying my tolls
Hands to the grindstone
Sins to atone
I've played the good boy
Shared all my toys
But as they come for my home
They must Be warned
I might
Bite
And tear down all lies in my life
Give up my attempts to comply 
If you come to take what was mine
This old dog might bite

I was always one of the pacifists
Bred to see things to the end of it
Never one to buck the trend
Til the trend bucked back,
Thrown to the wolves
But these dogs bite back
Now I'm fed up playing the same  game,
The animals seem to be the ones playing straight,
And I've gone round the bend a few times with these fools,
Now I'm back to the start and ready to break rules

I bite




Fawm song 4 - Bite

Lyrics: 
This is the era of consequence 
Proof of these compounding schemes,
Oligarchs solidifying their investments,
Zealots manifesting dark dreams
aging figure heads decay along media streams,

And we the people outside the party lines,
Are Victims of mindless propagandizing drive-bys,
Executive orders justifying hate crimes,
The president is a TV villain normalized

Out of touch, out of time, 
We the people matter less
the less we comply
What we clutch can be denied
We the people coalesce,
Among our party lines,

And the party lies, as they are want to do,
It's a game of personal victories for the select few,
They may be tasked to represent but are beholden to the news,
to Their investors, stockholders with political Views,

This is politics commercialized, your favorite speaker bought and sold
To a media or tech giant for a pocket full of gold,
A seat on the ark, or house that costs your soul,
All it takes is a willingness to be a leader they can mold,

Out of touch, out of time, 
We the people matter less
the less we comply
What we clutch can be denied
We the people coalesce,
Among our party lines,

Maybe they are out of touch, or maybe they're Out of time,
Cause we the people aren't going to keep putting up with their lies,
That's why the career politicians aren't getting by,
And we keep throwing out our votes to the extremists on the side,

now we're paying the costs of what the politicians supplied,
A couple of rich fucks with no reason to Disguise
Their Blatant lack of humanity and rampant virulent greed,
Now is a violent restart what America needs?




FAWM song 5 - Out of Touch

Lyrics: 

In a word, I am confused,
I am gifted with a talent
that the world will not make use,
My voice cannot diffuse,
Along the oversaturated signals, 
it's stagnant and obtuse,
Distorted by the hymnals,
I write to hide from my abuse,
And it's running me in circles,
3 ring circus of this recluse,
I have no target for this frustration,
No solution can I deduce,
I only sing til I am worthy,
To be heard for who I am,
But i'm ragged and I am thirsty,
Can you hold me where I stand

I am singing
For you
Are you listening 
I am singing
For you
Are you listening

You put on this earth with a talent for the verse,
But as I write myself in knots I have to question if it's a curse,
To be beholden to the lyrics, to be captured by the song,
But to be left without the evidence that I am where I belong,
And so I do it again with vigor, I put myself on the page,
I bleed upon the strings in earnest, as I write as I age,
Grey upon the stubble, I stumble hurriedly along,
But as I wrap it all together, I'm further from where I belong,

I am singing
For you
Are you listening 
I am singing
For you
Are you listening

It all comes so easy yet it's so terribly Sublime,
Each one is uniquely special, even if it's obviously contrived,
And yet it's all I want to do, in the eternity of time,
I want to write every ballad that crosses in my mind,
I want to sing it to you in secret, in the center of the stage,
I want everyone to hear it, I want to scream it from my cage,
The lyrics are my language, the only one I know,
So when no one understands me, I feel terribly alone,





FAWM Song 6 - Are you listening

Lyrics
Watch out for what's falling above,
Keep your friends close
Cause Dark days are coming
Protect the ones you love
Keep your friends close
Cause dark days are coming

Keep eyes wide cause monsters are coming,
Easy lies hide truth from the hunted,
Keep composed, it’s too late for running,
but we are too tired to care

Darling get
Darling get down
All Weapons drawn
Darling get
Darling get down
Fire at will
Darling get
Darling get down
Darling get down

Signs raised high
The end is nigh
Weapons drawn
If you don't comply
So praise the one
They idolized
Wrapped in gold
Frankensteined 
So we say

Keep Watch out, the walls are crumbling 
Keep your friends close
The Revolution is stunning
Keep Watch out, the towers are tumblings,
We cant be too tired 

Heads raised high,
The end is nigh
But we won’t be left
Crucified
Defy the one,
They idolize,
The time has come
Weaponize,
So we say,
No


Fawm song 7 - Dark Days

Lyrics

It's all too much, 
everyday,
Overwhelmingly,
Commonplaced,
Constant conflict,
Disarray
Disillusionment
Our Disgrace,

Its Breaking news
A daily segment
Live at two,
Media harassment
Straight at you
From every angle
Every view

Post your opinion
In everyplace,
See what gets the clicks,
who gets to stay,
Keep it diegetic and keep opaque,
give them enough reach
To hear what you say

It's all too much
Everyday
Overwhelmingly
Commonplace
Repetitive aggression
Aggregate,
The numerous atrocities 
We must face,

Stay alert, 
constantly on edge,
Burn your candle 
From wicks on both ends,
Til you are burnt out and addled,
Aggressive and frazzled,
Fraid of every cloud, corner, and shadow,

But you have to stay in touch,
Have to stay aware,
Cause the chaos of atrocities,
They need you not to care,
They want you worn out,
They want you fed up,
Cause when the goal is the world,
Your Apathy is enough,

Kendrick said Turn off the TV,
Switchfoot said turn off this song,
And I can see what they seem to mean,
It's all coming on a bit too strong,

It’s too much, too long to read,
Too loud, too close, I have to scream,
Too crowded, it's too hard to breathe,
Can’t keep above water
With your nose up in the feed,

Too close, you will miss something,
Too brash, you gain nothing,
You crash, suffocating,
To last, you can’t keep on waiting,

You gotta get out, you’re in too deep,
Can’t see the forest for the trees burning,
Gotta Get clear of the noise to see the scene
It’s a media fire to hide the screams,






Fawm Song 8 - Commonplace

Despite the tornadoes and hurricanes,,
With you I'll always know my way
my shelter and my weather vane,
I hope for you I can be the same,

Cause it seems the world’s gone mad
And we can't leave the way we came,
so we'll travel hand in hand
My northern light and nightly flame

You are
My partner, lover, and closest friend,
You are
The one I want to the very end,
You are
The one I choose every night and day
You are
and I wouldn't have it any other way,

The turbulence will come as it has come before,
your sharp tongue will pierce me to my core,
But You wake me with a kiss
To a peace I never knew exists,

Cause it seems the world's Gone mad
And we can leave the way we came
So we'll travel hand in hand
My northern Light and nightly flame










Fawm song 9 - Weather Vane

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