When I asked the goneness if it could see me...

L-O-V-E-S-E-E-S-A-L-L

There comes a time for everything in existence that rebirth is the only way forward. Transmission explores the reforging of beliefs and ideas through drones and darker ambient textures.

I have explored a much wider sonic palette with the release. Straight synthesis, field recordings, sampling and resampling, along with both new and old equipment have pushed me to find new ways to express myself.

Instruments Used:
ASM Hydrasynth
JD800
Deepmind
MPC One
Pigments
Vital
Zebralette 3


They're Coming For Us

Impeccable Deities

Lo-fi and atmospheric twanger. Dedicated to David Lynch.

Like Regular Chickens

heavily inspired by HTDC & unworn. dark ambient vibes

between heaven and hell

OP IDR 01

drums are from ableton played on laptop keyboard, thought i probably looked pretty silly but i like how off-kilter it all is

hitting my keyboard (and autotuned guitar)

Why is an anchor
Why is death impossible
Why is something ending
Why is within us
Why distintegrates
Why listens

Y Disintegrates

Rhythmic bass heavy synth driven ambient track

Bass-Ment Chile

last time hearing

A remembrance in sound

Psych Ward Victory is more than a collection of songs — it's a reflection, a rebellion, and ultimately, a redemption.

This album remembers a painful betrayal that spiraled into an involuntary commitment, silenced psychiatry abuse, and a long period of hidden struggle. It’s a sonic memoir of surviving manipulation, isolation, and institutional abuse — but it’s also about the quiet, powerful moments of hope and the people who bring light in the darkest hours.

At the heart of this remembrance is Mariya, a Russian American medical nurse whose kindness and courage carried me through what felt like impossible times. Some said she wasn't real — “too good to be true,” or "Where is this hospital?" they said. Only Rev. Nigel, another very important person in my life, ever met her face-to-face. But whether real, imagined for others, Mariya's presence changed my life. And really, what matters is not what’s “real” for others, but what brings us healing.

The tracks on this informal album come from many old pieces I never thought would see the light. They blend individual harmonies from an arrangement called Ikanaide, emotional echoes from an old original piece called La Vie en Hors de Prix, and electronic textures that carry pain, rebellion, and eventual peace. This isn’t a clean story — it’s a collage, just like memory, just like recovery.

It’s not about labeling people as good or bad, or untangling intentions. What matters is to remember those beautiful moments, the ones where unexpected people offered help in times of chaos — and that sometimes, the most real things are those we cannot explain. 

I will write more in my future blog...

Conflicting Statements

ambient synth + shortwave theohauntology experiments

Y Disintegrates

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