wonder why my life is like this sometimes, wonder why i might slit my wrists at night, 

cause i gotta keep fighting these demons, 
by myself, in the end they gon' leave me
lose my mind just to find on my meaning, kill myself till my heart isn't beating

sometimes i feel suicidal, cause i know everybody just dies in the end
suicidal, suicidal, you and i we gon' die in the end 
x2
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i don't wanna live like this anymore,
i been living in fear for too long,
hope that God gon' forgive all my wrongs, 
there's some shit i can't forget that i've done, 

won't lie i still think about you girl, 
drugs and feelings inside now my stomach gon' turn, 
but i can't fw you girl cause you tryna play me, 
wanted to give you the world and then maybe some babies, but now i'm heartless again
no i don't want your love, it's all pretend
tryna play with my heart, ventriloquist 
tryna break on my heart, already dead, already been
i might fuck on you hoe and all your friends, 
to get revenge on every bitch i done fucked with before,
cause they done switched, when my fan got shit they don't benefit
so i keep moving on tryna get better things, tryna better myself again
i don't fw no friends, don't wanna depend on nobody not even a mfkn pen, 
i be rolling again, rolling that loud up, 
cause sometimes in my mind it be crowded up, 
when there's no one around who love ya, 
take these drugs but they not enough ya, 
just like the way you be making feel, everytime i be tryna show you my feelings 
girl when i tell you i love you i mean it, see in your eyes that you do not believe me 

baby just promise you won't leave me, you won't leave me, won't leave me
if you leave me, then the drugs is the promise that i'm keeping, cause they gon' keep me up
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wonder why my life is like this sometimes, wonder why i might slit my wrists at night, 

cause i gotta keep fighting these demons, 
by myself, in the end they gon' leave me
lose my mind just to find on my meaning, kill myself till my heart isn't beating

sometimes i feel suicidal, cause i know everybody just dies in the end
suicidal, suicidal, you and i we gon' die in the end 
x2
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I HOPE I CAN NUMB THE PAIN EVEN FOR A MOMENT 


SUICIDAL

ALTERNATIVE ROCK/PUNKSTAR/NEW WAVE HIP-HOP/SUICIDAL WAV/DARKOWAV... the rain ambience is real time rain while i was producing this record... 

SKYFALL777

6UCKETLIST!.wav

(hook)
i feel alone, been on my own
leave me alone, keep to my own
i feel alone, been on my own
leave me alone, keep to my own

(verse)
i been feelin alone in this cold world,
but i found me a home i got my own girl
and it started off slow we couldn't converse,
society did that my anxiety got worse
aye, 
and when i showed her my soul she knew i'd been hurt,
and i've been trying to grow cause i'm dirt
and now i'm feelin so broken, like injured,
no wonder i pop pills sobriety don't work
when i'm in my zone i write the right words,
hope i make it work 
before i'm in a hearse
my mood swings change like clothes, yeah they change like shirts
i'm odd as fuck so you know i'm coming first

(hook)
i feel alone, been on my own
leave me alone, keep to my own
i feel alone, been on my own
leave me alone, keep to my own

(outro)
you know the mirror broke,
when my reflection showed
and when i'm feelin low,
is when i do the most
and you can't trust a soul,
except the one you own
cause you can never know,
what happens when you're gone
it's like a pencil broke,
there's not a point to life
and i've been trying to cope,
so i been getting high
stuck up in my mind,
thinking fuck my life
who the fuck am i?
i just wanna die, i just wanna...

Alone

Alone (Prod. Xtravulous)

this was written 18/06/19

inspirations that influenced me coming up with this vibe are Lil Peep Part One by Lil Peep, 17 by XXXTENTACION and THERAPY by Clover Carter 💔 🌌 #LLJ #GBC

ALONE PT.2

ALONE II (prod. Muck)

PAIN

NOT LIKE THE USUAL (prod. YeNn Beats)

most of what's real is translucent, 
can't no one see what they doing?//
anarchy in motion,
commotion causing,
they think we're the fools,
but you should be cautious there's consciousness in the movement, 
the chaos already started at school//
breaking them chains and them rules like they were some promises dude//
smoking some dope where we shouldn't,
staying so woke when it's crucial//
and when we spoke they say "shhhhhhh",
can't let them know that their lives already been programmed,
remotely controlling all of the moments you thought you owned, you're controlled//
that's all the knowledge you know and you only know what you're told,
i'd tell you all that i know but there's not enough i could know
i know my crew gon' keep me a float cause relationships don't//
i've come to know the music has chose me,
it's destiny, my home,
my Odyssey of how Epic i paint a picture with poems//
i also know that me and you we're almost nothing alike,
you niggas lie on the mic, 
but me i'm woke i never sleep anytime//
move on the low like your intelligence quotient, 
but i'm floating from these spliffs that i lit up//
don't got no kids so adopting these flows ain't shit to a nigga,
i'm even raising my middle finger for loathers and haters//
The Road Not Taken is where i'm going, no insta, don't follow,
no Robert Frost, but i'm colder than most when poems in motion//
i only cypher these verses in codes for minds that are open,
but either ways you're just breaking your nails scratching the surface,
you cannot get any further, you cannot get any further//
i get my genitals working up in your mental just hoping that i can urge you to notice that we just part of a herd,
that's been brainwashed, but mine is too dirty to even soak//
cause my third eye is open, that's holy trinity homie//
abstract in all my thoughts i cannot ignore em, 
the spirit molecule triggered my hidden optical, 
thinking beyond is not even optional
still wearing blinkers? that comical, 
just a wall i be talking to//

ANARCHY (prod. Serge Crown)

RUCKUS (prod. saveme)

ILL (prod. Chris Wheeler)

i obvs wrote this, just fuckin around ya know lol, just didn't know what else to call it, oh, also, hate myself, sometimes im numb to it tho lol, also hate the matrix lol ⛮

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ANGST
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i am a contradiction, not a person//
this fucking depression inside of mental is why i'm the illest, think i need a nurse//
duality, mind's a blessing and a curse//
a spirit existing perpetually, only inhabit a vessel just to serve my purpose //
and i never fit in, i guess i'm a dick i go hard on these pussy nigga little virgins/
venomous spitting serpent salivating sixteens, call that shit premeditated murder//
soon as i'm in it, i'm killing, im only beginning, im driven in a tinted hearse//
i'm rapping like Christmas
that means that it's winter but present im gifted// 
and im only needing sixty seconds
and it's settled
coming first i never second guess it//
i'm the sickest pencil anywhere, swear i need to be the first to sign a deal with Staedtler//
i tower over anyone
and over power them
my flow a shower felt the pressure 
from my presence 
from my first impression //
pressing buttons, leave a mark
every single letter that i send a message and it's stamped//
fuck a gun my flow coldest cleanest cut, Katana, fuck around with me
you could wear your armour, but you still dead//
a nigga done started from down down bad
was a down lad filled with doubts then i thought fuck whatever happens//
never panic, i got more bars than a cannister of xanax
so niggas do know ima pop like an addict//
so many flows that they countless in fact they just one? or they none? //
that's the lesson my son, i don't do those
static or those manikin flows
never constant i go with the motions//
you'd think that i planned it or time traveled, 
fast forwarded, 
planted these letters before i could pen em //
my pen outta planet, and motive to maul all your favourites//
my flow split an ocean like Moses, it's dangerous//
i won't ever falter, me and the game we done walk to the altar, i knocked her up im a father, im farther
i gotta surpass all this amateur status, becoming legend
im probably possessed by some demons but what i possess it be greater than evil
potential and passion to end every rapper im better than bet at my best i could batter whoever no matter, mental over matter //

that's body to body, i am a God in a body who wanna body somebody on top of bodies i bodied//
i pile up bodies until there's nobody left i could body //

DOWNBAD FREESTYLE

DOWNBAD FREESTYLE LOL </3

WDTKAM?

Hiko Yuichi - WDTKAM?</3 [Raw] (ft. Phathonks)

i have to return some videotapes.

Artist: Phathonks
Production: Sixaxes

MANSION FREESTYLE

i have to return some videotapes.

Artist: Phathonks
Production: Phathonks

ALONE IV

i have to return some videotapes.

Artists : Sixaxes, Phathonks, Nigel The Ripper
Production: Ian Malfoy/TMRWDIED, Sixaxes

S!N!ST3R #IHATEPEOPLE #IHATEMEDIA

MUJAMBO

STICKSOUTHISASS

IF I

DLS DEMO 2 - D.H.D

SOUNDSOEXPENSIVE

sixaxes inspired me to rage too, alternative rap, alternative hip-hop, alternative rock, screamo, rage, bars

YASHIRO WAV

ACAPELLA (RAIN)

SHINE (NODIEMONDS)

PAINIGEL

ADHD

FUCKEDUP

NOBUNJY

INTERQUAALUDE

EVOL BILLY

MUFFIA

FUCKOUT

MANDELA EFFECT

FUCKFEDS

PIERRE

"where i'm from you can't trust nobody </3"
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