She told me get the fuck out
Gotta pull over
Lie in the grass
Gotta call off now
Will this ever pass?

Caught on the horns of a dilemma
Covered in vomit
Such a sick feeling
Crashing like a comet
take a breath and calm yourself

I could just drive forever
into the ocean, over a cliff
I don't feel anything, whatever

I wish I could make you happy,
but I'm a piece of shit
I wasn't born for anyone
I'm barely a person
I'm nothing at all
I didn't ask for any of this
I never wanted to exist
I wish I could make you happy,
but I know it's just a stupid myth

I wanna get better
but it's pulling too hard
I'm a slave to my urges
I never thought it'd go this far

But here I am now:
Dark mind and heavy heart
Pulling in a thousand directions
Never thought I'd make it this far

If you thought you could swim,
now would be the time
because everything that makes you you
is drowning in the climb

I wish I could make you happy,
but I'm a piece of shit
I wish I could make you happy,
but I don't believe in myths

A Thousand Directions

recorded drums on a sanyo cassette voice recorder, did the rest in Ableton, then recorded that to the cassette recorder and back into ableton. More tape per tape.

Sanyo Tape Project

Gaston Park Trio - what time is it

Gaston Park Trio - Lemme Hit Dat Wodka

Gaston Park Trio - I Dropped Me Weedy Pen in the Snow

Cell Regeneration

Jon Carrol and Phill song

ND drill press phill demo

big beautiful brother is watching you

powder keg

potential Neighbor Dan song: 
Cm11 --> Fm11 --> B♭maj7 --> Gm
Cm -- E♭maj7 --> G7 --> G7(♭9)

next progression

Cm11 -- Fm --  B♭  -- Gm
Cm -- E♭maj7 -- G7 -- G7sus2 (2measures) / G7(♭9) (2 measures)

cmin11 riffs thing

susriffs

Say Dada

Loud No Louder3

Guitar by Joel Smith, Sampled Vocals by Local Faggots.

Much Worse

Lyrics:
Don’t you know?
You’re just living 
An indeterminate animal life

It’s a perpetual process
Dancing in the thread of light
They say it’s unchangeable
You’re too damn critical
Drop all your insights

It’s a perpetual process
Swimming in the shit of life
They say it’s human nature
Competing for pieces of paper
Working until you die
Working until you die
Working until you die

Blind typhonic fire
Takes the world dead or alive
Titans will drown in their dreams of tomorrow
And I’ll just sigh

Ha Ha
   Ha Ha

Blind typhonic fire
Takes the world dead or alive
Titans will drown in their sorrows
And I’ll just get high

Ha Ha
    Ha Ha

Poisoned plastic water
Rising above your eyes
Myopic vision, dimly recall
The shrinking of time

Don’t you know?
You’re just living
An indeterminate animal life
Animal Life

Perpetual Process

Lyrics:

You ask yourself: How indeed?
Well, you know, we've got the answer
It's no joke-- flying down the road in a car with no driver
Everyone, according to the numbers, does it for a paycheck
To get out on the weekend
It's "supposed" to be compensation

You ask yourself: how indeed?
You can't speak about what has you seething.
It's a public secret

Public Secret

I record shit at Cradle of Philth Studios in Western PA.  I play guitar in Neighbor Dan. I played guitar in Old Accusers, bass in Severini, and a bunch of other non-memorable bands. Focusing on synth driven ambient music under the moniker Public Secrets.

Public Secrets

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