this song reminds me of askal freedom planet don't ask why

sleepyish songs

botted at 8k :-(

guitars by @fish_narc, @blackwinterwells and me
produced, backing vocals, mixed and mastered by @blackwinterwells
art by oldsmobile1994: https://www.instagram.com/oldsmobile1994

holes in my walls from pulling out thumbtacks
i hate everything i loved six months back
pls dont look at me im sick and so sad
i can breathe as long as u dont know that

u dont really ask how i am so its easy
i dont really care if u dont want to see me
honestly im finding my face hard to look at
i dont wanna try cause im tired of the pushback

things can feel exactly right and go bad
i need to remember, need to know that
i can't move, i'm so scared to be shown it
again and again
i don't have any friends from when i was a kid and i'm so glad

i haven't seen anybody i've known for a long time
in a long time, in a long time

i'll never see me through your eyes again, it hurts too much

southview  +fish narc (blackwinterwells)

production, mixing and backing vocals by @blackwinterwells
<3 <3 <3

breathe close to me
i wanna know it's not a dream
cause it feels so much better than anything
and u see what i am when u look at me

but i can't see u the way i mean to
ur pixelated
baby come just a little closer to the barricade
i press my face to the glass and all i pray for and ask
gets just as close as it can then i am pulled away
some hypothetical force changes the keys to the door
i keep on wanting u more
i hope u feel the same
i think the world's gonna end
i wish someone would say when
cause i would run to u then
i don't think i'd complain

all the tears i've cried could cause an ice age if they froze
if i get through the winter i'll swim to ur home
when the glacial melt claims everything that we know
here i go now with my doomsaying
i see u waiting
and it's ok
it'll be ok
i'd give all i am
i'm a hologram but as long as you'll have me i'll stay

..i want u every day
somehow i doubt that'll change
i just wish that were something i could substantiate
i think the world's gonna end
i hope they let me know when
cause i will run to u then
i know i won't complain

seer

seer (blackwinterwells)

produced by and featuring @oakscreen
outro by @blackwinterwells

purgatory
it's not easy for me either here
but i'll be right here
purgatory
it's not easy for me either here
but i'll be right here when you're leaving

i wanna run away too
we're from the same cave
wanna hang out in graveyards
fake little ravestar
dance in the basement
everything changes and goes away

ur angry now and i get it
i get it
do u wish u had never met me
i'm just hoping u say goodbye

[leave me in the nether 
so i can finally be alone
choking on the weather 
never visit our gravestone
never had any ties here
disappear in my bed
keeping all of my friends close 
as i run away in my head

compartmentalize everything
every soul in your attic
they stole your happiness
and i promise i didn't have it
and i swear i did my best
and i never talk about you
but i write songs about this
and i feel fine without you]

purgatory

purgatory +oakscreen (oakscreen)

production, mixing and backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

come pick me up i'll pay for gas
there's nowhere that i want to be
and you'll drive fast and i won't ask
to pick the music or the street
and we can talk about whatever and pretend that we won't tell
even pretending to ourselves

u think it's easy where it's darker 
and i like to feel my heart
speed up with my eyes shut
and feel we're doing something we should not
so for a time i spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
just trying to guess when we'll get caught

this place is suffocating
i'll still be here in five years
like i promise i won't through the wind in your ears
but nothing feels as urgent
and these nights are still important
and there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

every time i feel alive it will feel just like this
i'll get the things u did 
forget the boy i kissed
by the hangar and you'll both be strangers to me

tonight it matters how i'm not a person who u want to see
cause i like to talk about the hospital and go when i don't need it
just to show the world i feel it
i only ever did it once
and it was selfish it was dumb
but i can't bring myself to

hate me for wanting a break
i'll still be here in five years
where i made every mistake
sixteen trying to disappear
for one week and a half
you know it's all an act
cause there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

hangar

hangar (blackwinterwells)

written+singed by me and @pincode8485
piano by @tddybrr
guitar by @telebasher
art by @pincode8485
helix

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FALLING UP +8485 (wells+teddybear)

produced, mixed and mastered by blackwinterwells
art photographed by phillip ly
thank you for everything, everyone

i/o +blackwinterwells

@buffalobang

why cant i ever just do what i say so
ill do it this time baby just stay close
i stayed 10 toes down in this stronghold
hoping no one gets close
getting by on bare bones
often, dissatisfied too often
it always falls apart when
i think its looking up and
i cant take it again
often, dissatisfied too often
it always falls apart when
i think its looking up and
i cant take it again

keep me safe
we'll find our way
take me in
and let me stay

i- i said ill try my best
took the first step and skipped the rest
and its hard to do the basic things
but i swear ive tried like everything

why cant i ever just do what i say so
ill do it this time baby just stay close
i stayed 10 toes down in this stronghold
hoping no one gets close
getting by on bare bones
often, dissatisfied too often
it always falls apart when
i think its looking up and
i cant take it again
often, dissatisfied too often
it always falls apart when
i think its looking up and
i cant take it again

buffalobang - catharsis (prod. krampus_)

ft. @mezhaa + @mayh3mp
prod me
www.instagram.com/kidsnrlax
www.instagram.com/mmezhaa
www.instagram.com/mayh3mp

saw her look at me now she wnna tear out my heart
bby u look pretty when ur posted wit a SCAR-L
hold me down my luv u kno ur my only fucking star
everytime i think abt u i jus tear myself apart
i can feel u from a far because i kno where u are
hold onto me bby because i been way 2 fcn scarred
i do not wnna b harmed i got ice all on my arms
yea u drive me crazy cus idk wtf we are

hold me down w/ mezha + mayh3mp

prod @troinerr x baiori

Music video
https://youtu.be/eM5ZDyzeRIY?si=oPkTqVerJpY_wVfH

https://youtu.be/eM5ZDyzeRIY?si=oPkTqVerJpY_wVfH

https://youtu.be/eM5ZDyzeRIY?si=oPkTqVerJpY_wVfH

Lyrics
all the music that im making is just so hard 
I just wanna know if we can go far
all the Xanax that im taking is just soo barred
so im staying high af like ima star

can u crush that shit again I rlly need more
im off two pills but ill take two more
I have a gift for you and that's just what that's for
so plz don't worry about the drugs ill just get more

like a poké ball ill catch u in the right mood
u can always hold my hand when the clouds loom
& the life im construing is just so rude 
all the love that I have is my gift for you

like a star prod troiner x baiori *MV IN DESC*

𝔥8 𝔪𝔢 𝔰𝔲𝔪𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔰 (ಥ_ಥ)
prod @powerdolls
mixing @blackwinterwells

skinz 〚powerdoll 𝑥 wells〛

prod. @shlaks x @keyblayde808
~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~
u know i gotta make it thru 
no matter the cost
when we were kissing in the backseat
falling in love

i knew u were the 1
ive had me just about enough
where u think u know me from 
bro something is off..

girl i dont mean2 make u mad whenever i go missing
its just im not used2 ppl knowing the difference
but now that i got everybodys attention
i promise iwont ever go back 2 the mudd

i have been losing my mind since the day that i met u 
but its cool its a mood its actually kinda nice
who does my life even have an impact on
stupid thoughts always taking up space wasting time

u put me under ur spell and now im about to cast mine
now ifeel like me n u could take over the whole world
ive been posted up hanging out like a stalactite
going dummy spending money bro its never enuf

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fabric softener [shlaks x keyblayde808]

prod. @dyzphoria
mixing and outro by @blackwinterwells

DURESS (dyzphoria)

prod @degenerate69 and @blackwinterwells
mixed by @blackwinterwells

there was a time once i thought i could be like you
you should have seen it
all of the meaning in all of what i can't do anymore

there was a time once that i believed in you
thought you would keep me safe from my weaknesses when i'd speak to you

burn it out in the sun alone
fix my body fix my soul
pour the fever from my pores
oh i'm better on my own
cause i know what i'm like on the inside
i should know the way i can make it right
but i don't and i'm warm and terrified
it just feels like a bad dream

and i don't know what's happening
and i don't know what happened to me
and i don't know how i can be clean again
think the dirt settled in way too deep
let it into the rest of me
and i give all the best of me too
i don't like what is left of me
i don't know what is left here to do

..and i don't know what happened to me
no i don't know what happened to me
there was a time once that i believed in you

pure (dgen + blackwinterwells)

cool video
https://youtu.be/2eD8q28Kmrg

i did not write thsi song

https://limeboiler.bandcamp.com/album/covered-up

that song we sang walking back from the park [video in description] [ ALBUM OUT ]

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ya im free now 
frm demons tht i keep out
u need help baby reach out
and ill b there to meet u

n do u mean it
when u describe the feeling
i feel like i am dreaming
im trying to believe it

im playin on my xbox
they play me on their ipod
u play me grl like nonstop
ill let u win again

time stops
when u looked up our eyes locked
the sun has set but i watch
the stars beneath ur skin

had a look outside the window at the sky n it was red
maybe its a sign i wonder wat is coming next
i dnt come around but i might come down again
learning how to say whats in my head

planted in the dark where the seeds dont grow
i know tht its hard baby please dont go
always wna tlk to me abt where my problems at 
please dont ask

seer (blackwinterwells)

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