damn daddy 💔 i'd die for a time machine at 88mph so bad rn omfg t whatever happened inside the love we had more certainty in the thick af strength of it was naturally NEVER  EVEN SEEN it would be here without a significant reason for such a brutal drastically cold change in every possible way like this is all TEARING me up inside and my heart strings in shreds >.< sooo lost idek how to make sense of the loss of us baby and sequoia our angel... how tf could life be in such a painful wreck of our worst nightmares 😫😒 oh baby *softly sighs* miss you unbearably alone and the memories eternally in my heart precious forever as ever before ✨️ (sadness vibes carry me out of our relationship because you don't have me in your best interest like you use to) ~~~ ventilation ☆ミ

this goes crazy why am I just now listening to this

skele went off how have I not heard this lol

autotune <3

they say boys dont cry ft. jstnprks & kennedyxoxo *kt3lly*

tear gas (sunlight + xmichaelwarren)

juggernog +noahmadethiss (xmichaelwarren)

self produced
follow decks: @decksmusic
cover art taken by decks
lyrics

getting back to my feet standing up again
guess i wasnt ready for the fight that u brought again
said i was the one that u want can u want again
im been trying hard but im ending up distraught again
guess i wasnt ready for the battle to be fought again
guess im just relearning all the lessons ive been taught again
i can only take so much that ur throwing at me
when ur angry it feels like 100 degrees

decks:
when ur mad no i can’t take the heat
i just back down fallin onto my knees
i dont wanna be a problem babe im beggin please
im retracing all my steps and now its hard to breathe

so i fucked up
pass time cuz im done up
second chances arent free but i could earn em
suns up
wake up early cuz the funs up
out of time baby im not what u wantttt

100 degrees w/ decks

this is a song about a boy getting drafted to war

postcard (noahmadethiss)

u see death arnd the corner bitch ive looked him in da eyes :P

count ur blessings<3 (noahmadethiss+jolst)

(: <3 lyrics below

I know you see me
You check up on me now and then we're stuck in repeat
One week we're fine the next we're not you love to break me
I don't feel good right now ooo
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now
But baby ill put it behind me
She just pulled up to the party and i'm in the corner where no one can find me
I'd rather would keep to myself
I'm not the type to be following blindly
I don't need anyones help
Fuck it I lied man i'm practically dying
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now I hate it by myself
And my mom is telling me that I should get some help
Couple pills to start I learned to play the part
And lately I been thinking I might break apart
And I know he never cared
He was all that I needed and i'm just taking the bleeding and I
Wanted to tell you it ain't fair
I hope it hurts when you see me
I won't be there when you need me and I

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

spotify

i dont feel good

i dont feel good (feat. kennedyxoxo & skele) [p. irby]

may 23 2021
official file <3 found by me
lyrics: 

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are
She is a fallen angel
I think she lost her halo
Could u tell me ur name again
Ill keep it confidential
I could see the patterns in her lies I work it out
It won’t work the second time around
Guide me to good give me a pill to take
Deep in the rut she gifted me sudden faith
Feather toes I didn’t wanna go im sorry
I promise ill be back in the morning

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

Talk is cheap but ive no more funding
The waves crash I cant believe I aint seen it coming
Break my bones and ill repair them and ill come back
Id let it happen again if u would like that
Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down
This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

rubbing alcohol (splashgvng x ayoleybeats)

bby im an earthquake, nobody can stop me :P

earthquake +blackwinterwells (noahmadethiss)

love u all <3
vocals by harvest & @hammy
production by @memoryroseishere @gonetoofar @morgnbates & harvest
art/mix/master by harvest

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6ivVlTzoSvE6xLDtLdHp6g?si=bcafbe00735c440c

lyrics:
(hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

got a spark in my heart
i got smoke in my lungs
should’ve known from the start
you were never the one

im not the one that you want
why you put up a front
playing me like im dumb
make me feel like a dub

baby im done
yeah im movin on
you can call my phone
but i’m already gone

yeah im already ghost
i can’t let you close
no i don’t know
so my heart stay closed
no i don’t know
i just can’t tell
fucked up in the head
i can’t trust
one minute im cool
then the next im manic
crushing scripts up
under plastic

rolling spliffs up
i can’t feel shit
when i can’t think
that’s my favorite
when you kissed me
i just lost it
wishing i could’ve told
what it costed

(harvest & hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

(harvest)
you don’t even know what happened
I don’t want to fix it all
seeing through our glass it’s cracking 
hourglass, not filled at all

ill never know your passions
cause we’re in a late stage, we’re in a late stage 
i’m breaking down i’m crashing
not on the same page, not on the same page

i want you to be here, a main stay 
one day I wanna play on the main stage 
it’s just the same shit, said a different way
I’ll cough it up, I’m feeling grey 

i want to be in the nosebleed, know me, everything is better when you hold me
or scold me
im slowly 
finding somewhere to hide like brody

knowing that you’ll never know me gives me piece of mind 
i hope you know im lonely like all of the time

i start to realise that I won’t come to my senses
I hope when I leave this place I go on to the next thing

never knew feat. hamilton (prod. memoryrose, toofargone, homesick & harvest)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

i dont feel good (feat. kennedyxoxo & skele) [p. irby]

love jai

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