Written and performed by fijiplus & etai s0 (@etaiso)
Produced by 1darko & cr1sis
Mastered by etai s0 
Released September 19th, 2025

BLACK ICE 2002 (@blackice2002)

[Chorus, fijiplus]

hardly conscious while I throw back liquor
fisticuffs to bring my high down quicker
numb enough that I don’t feel the blisters
pour another come on make me sicker

let’s go, couple glass shards on the floor
I did my time inside a k hole
got nothing intact but my own soul
and I’ve been drowning in it all

[Verse 1, fijiplus]:

Ive been drowning in it, I’ve been bleeding digits 
I been chilling all alone at the edge of living
fuck your contradictions, I’m not here to listen
started thinking on my own then I saw your demons

put the noose around my neck, 
ima go and jump the bridge
get an audience with god 
tell him hes a fucking pig

how you leave us on our own
with a book on how to live
everything’s been burning
ever since I popped open my lid

ever since I popped open my lid and saw that hope was vacant 
drowning in soup of misery so long I’ve become wasted

[Chorus, fijiplus]

[Verse 2, etai s0]:

what is it you want from me? i can't tell
i been chillin, but im killing hella brain cells
off a substance, you cant even touch this

and im smoking something toxic
big blunt to the lung, flying in a cock pit
smoking durban poison, im with my boys and
me and fiji plus got the ketty crushed 
now we frozen

im in a k hole i don't do no yay bro
im in a k hole i don't do no yayo

i been wondering when the grind gon pay off man its loading
i just wanna wake up and see my music exploding
that's all i ever wanted, i'm on it
mark my words, imma make it, i promise 

imma make these haters understand 
imma do what they said i can't do, i'm the man
back then remember doing hella xans
lowkey i miss em need a couple milligrams

K HOLE (1darko + cr1sis)

oh well

i still see you in my head (prod. kojo, recyclebin)

starstruck

NOTHING RIGHT (popstarbills + fijimar) [prod. deadat18]

NOS (prod @moonnstones @1skyboyy)

RIDE TO THE BANK FT. 9THGRADOR (prod @moonnstones @1skyboyy)

@51five and @cassiidy produced the beat.


only fly alone

prod me

lyrics:

when i feel ur skin
forget what’s all around me
don’t let me drown
when i breathe ur air
the world collapses round me
enough to keep me down

we never got to make our scrapbooks
at eldorado park

and i don’t mean to make u sad, look
i just wanted some time apart

but when i look at ur face
it brings me back to a place
where i was happier at least in the moment

i let u rip out my throat
bite marks all over my clothes
u bring me up i tear it down when im hopeless

oh i jus want to feel
your head
against my halo

i find it hard to heal
when i’m stuck in tornadoes

of my mind
and of my eyes
i stay disguised

please don’t hide
and never lie
i’m here to die

eldorado park

if i belong [deadyami]

You ask me if I’m happy and I say yeah cause I mean that but I wonder what you wouldn’t do if I had told you no
Every path is different but it reaches to an end so I make a bag then blow it then have nothing to show

While you have it you cherish that cause you won’t get it back
I take the blame for the future I’m not afraid of my past
Turn my hate into something great I picked up all the slack
I took the weight off of my shoulder and put it all on my back
I’m tryna change my life, no, I can’t ever go back
You gotta take life as it is cause you can’t ever go back
I’m not wasting my time, but the days are moving so fast
Abandon my regret, I watch it fall through the cracks

I try so hard
end of the day, I can’t force it
On my brother, damn, I try so hard

I Do everything I can to make sure I’m at my best
You helped me out of my worst
That shit was my biggest test
Took me out of my misery but I struggle to rest
It’s all repeating in cycles I gotta take it in steps

How can I move forward when everything was traumatic
Got my organs on my sleeve I found a place to attach it 
Close the door on what held me back but there’s nothing to latch it
It goes up and comes back down and you might not ever catch it


While you have it you should cherish that cause you won’t get it back
I take the blame for the future I’m not afraid of my past
Turn my hate into something great I picked up all the slack
I took the weight off of my shoulder and put it all on my back
I’m tryna change my life, no, I can’t ever go back
You gotta take life as it is cause you can’t ever go back
I’m not wasting my time but the days are moving so fast
Abandon my regret I watched it fall through the cracks

You ask me if I’m happy and I say yeah cause I mean that but I wonder what you wouldn’t do if I had told you no
Every path is different but it reaches to an end so I make a bag then blow it then have nothing to show

luckyy

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com

luckyy

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