i cannot compete for bitches man you’re just the saddest bunch
i got them sitting in their bedroom they’re feeling mad as fuck

i used to be so embarrassing
nowadays i don’t say shit
everybody hates everyone but they’re too afraid to say it

i’m just not better than anybody 
i get distracted by pretty bodies 
maybe if i had just taken my time i wouldn’t be trapped in this melancholy 

i watched my friends become enemies
i guess they just weren’t feeling me
look through the rubble of everything
i guess that shit wasn’t meant for me

i love every leaf that grows after me
look down the branch they still mad at me
they think that my grass is greener it didn’t come naturally
they think that my fruit is sweet but they’re never taking a bite of me

dammit i’m living what i wrote 
god dammit i’m living what i wrote

seems i made my heart to mince meat
i just miss the feel when you kiss me
cry in front of my friends in the backseat
i’m so tired it’s not that hard to see

i’ll never know when it’s my turn
search for the feeling that i yearn
won’t be a stone i leave unturned
light all the bridges i’ll let them burn

not sure if it’s fine to still cry about things that i thought i was over with
and you aren’t mine i still wish i could call you and get this pain over with
cause every time that i see you on my phone don’t know if you’re missing me
one thing’s for certain the one thing that matters is you’re not forgetting me

cause i told you that i love you first
nowadays i’ve been feeling the worst
i’m sorry the thought of you doesn’t hurt
just missing the feeling you would return
salt in the wound guess i’ll let it burn
i need my penance there’s more to learn

i’ll never know when it’s my turn

i’m one with the birds again
i’m one with the woods again
i know it’s better off that,
that i did it myself again

penance

help
https://www.gate.fm/tsGGhX
(chorus 2x)
mama said be honest boy and tell em how you feel 
i fucking lost my best friend and my house thats how i feel 
i feel like the main character and this shit isnt real
feels like im in a movie and im glitching on the reel 
(verse)
i been sailing for a minute boy they better listen up 
ill take my life in a instant just to see my boys go up 
feels like my mind is imprisoned and these bars are welded shut
im the outcome of some tough love no excuse i toughened up
i think my father hates my guts and my mother still on drugs
she fucking left me and my sister for her new man who's a thug 
promised god i wont give up feels like im the chosen one 
promised god i wont give up feels like im the chosen one

ALL PLATFORMS

main character (dercept) (all platforms) (music video out now)

feeling like i’m 6 feet under better ring the bell 

it’s just another thing you didn’t mention
i guess that was enough to feel out our connection
you can’t ever tell me what it’s like to be a loner
i just wish that i could say that it’s over 

far away from perfect
you know i’m no angel
i’ll be what you need just show me everything that’s painful
i don’t have a purpose
i just watch the days go
you can waste your time again but i can’t ever stay tho

i guess i just didn’t excite you
i guess you don’t want me beside you
all the worst ways that i see myself, they come true
and i can’t do this if it’s gonna be without you


just let me stay with you in portland
take me to the forest forget 'bout your boyfriend
ask me what is wrong i’ll always lie and say it’s nothing
i just can’t relax for you i know it’s always something
it's always something

i feel less hungry on my stomach
toss and turn there’s nothing left to burn 
i put out the match the shadows start to turn
forgot my fucking question when i got my answer

there’s nothing there for me
and i’ve been crying in the shower no ones hearing me
when you burn inside there’s nothing there to snuff it
take a grain of salt cause i can tell you’re bluffin'

portland

life goes on [prod. shinju]

i found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
i can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
there's so many things that i wish i could say
i guess i only wonder if you're playing it safe
everything was meant only to be, just not as long as it seemed

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than us going steady

it's such a shame how the times have changed
i renounce it all and let the feeling remain
another day, dead and gone to waste

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song

all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
and i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy

show me mercy

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than

i spent my days trying to be multifaceted
in some years i'd try to tally up the damages
i can't hope you'd take me back, i guess i'm past it
and like the other song goes, "i like to do magic"

fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
i still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
our different phases of life, i'll never blame
i light the spliff and hope the emotions fade

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song
all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

how can ever keep myself from harm?
running away to scream inside my car

MERCY

too deep in the moment or thinking too far to see
that if she’s falling back, falling back on me
or is she crawling back, crawling back to me
i thought you wanted to be like my enemy
and in my life i can’t tell who’s my frenemy
like is he plotting on, plotting the end of me 
is it only cause he’s afraid me?

i didn’t know that thoughts could make my body ache 
a blow like that, i’m not sure how much i can take 
i thought my skin was tough but this here wasn’t fate

i didn’t have the strength to call you back
what is so wrong with me?
maybe i’m the one that’s falling back
what if she’s onto me?
if i could travel time, i’d roll it back and do everything that you pleased
daily i could feel you pulling back
you still left me on my knees

i can’t see the gains throughout everything that i’ve been through
i pray i’m okay with bailing out and finding someone new
nowadays i think i’m missing you longer than how i knew 
nowadays i’m pacing hundreds of miles inside my room

but i don’t wanna fight the truth
it’s everything that i go through
my mistake was only learning something new
but every time i still think what’s the use?

FATE

sleepinthrutheparty w/ 93feetofsmoke

When we Die.

F*** you Jefe & CashFlow (prod @cashflow)

prod wastedyouth

lyrics:

i got a show
got some doobies
she pull up cuz she a groupie
i been faded
watch me do me
i been trippin on the goomies

fuck with me but u a goofy
yeah im medicated cuz im moody
i been fuckin with this new me
so why u actin like u knew me

rollin dope in the moonlight
yeah im comin up
wanna do it right
got a green laser when i set sights
never switch up cuz we air tight

and im in the mountains without u
baby i dont wanna doubt u
imma hit u back
ill be out soon
yeah im makin pacts on the bloodmoon

keep me sane
she keep me sane and im in love with that
she be goin round my brain and i just want her bad
she my main im out this way and i be smokin pack
im in love with that
im in love with that

shes comin over and i feel like i dont know me
yeah i dont know me
i been so lonely
getting high and im fallin so slowly
i need u to hold me
i been so lonely

show u everything i mean
ill show u what i mean
baby if u stay with me
u got me bagging please
i been smokin with my team
ill make u be my queen
now that we're both 17
its harder than it seems

rollin dope in the moonlight
yeah im comin up
wanna do it right
got a green laser when i set sights
never switch up cuz we air tight

and im in the mountains without u
baby i dont wanna doubt u
imma hit u back
ill be out soon
yeah im makin pacts on the bloodmoon

show u everything i mean
ill show u what i mean
baby if u stay with me
u got me bagging please
i been smokin with my team
ill make u be my queen
now that we're both 17
its harder than it seems

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bloodmoon

clock in w/ wstdyth (+kurai)

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com