remember from within
existence will cleanse me from my sin
i ask myself like, "where do i begin?"
i might teach myself to jump out of my skin

so busy and numb
i guess it's better than down bad
the realest shit that i wrote was a moment that i had
i'm where the gold outflows, where's the exposure at?
you got those sold out shows, so where your owners at?

you cannot speak on the addict
you think you're better than me, okay
can't you see me how i'm laughin'?
fuck all the powers that be, okay
i like to think i do magic
i like to think i do magic
i like to think i do magic

i'm tryna do more with less
fall turned to wintertime, you said "i'm ride or die"
i put that shit to the test
on the clock all the time and i'm not stopping
you'd think i'm not getting my rest
i'm really not getting my rest
not until i get all my respect
he was looking like me and i blocked out the memory
i know that i was a wreck

i go to sleep before everything all starts making sense
i shoulder the weight, oh my god, the pressure's so immense
i'm fighting the ache, all of the pain is so intense
every song i'm creating is only at my expense

magic

it's nothing new when i tell you that i've been stuck in my mind
where am i
i couldn't turn away the pain when i got stuck on a rhyme
i can't hide

and the bills are stacking as of late but everything is still fine
at least i won't die
who's gonna be there till the end when everything is alright
something i can't find

and there's been countless times i've been cast aside and replaced
i never noticed how my brain took those and tapped erase
and i can't see my growth i think i'm stuck inside my ways
feels like i'm never good enough but that won't ever change

i guess the truth was right in front of me
then it came packaged in my fate
and my whole life i tried to run away
and my whole life i tried to run away
and my whole life i tried to run away

it's nothing new when i tell you that i've been stuck in my mind
where am i
i couldn't turn away the pain when i got stuck on a rhyme
i can't hide

and the bills are stacking as of late but everything is still fine
at least i won't die
who's gonna be there till the end when everything is alright
something i can't find

HIDE

i waited to see if you would text me first 
you never did, but i expected that
you could still have me back
was it cause of me, what was it that i lack?
i could still treat you better
and i’d stick with the plan

and i denied myself of everything fun
hide in my bunker till the first of the month
why build it up if i’ll just leave it and run?

cause too much energy is required
i’m so empty and tired
there’s nothing i desire
with every feeling expired

the first mistake was made when you went straight through my phone
i had every intention of leaving my ex alone
i couldn’t defend myself that’s when you sent me home
i guess mistakes are just another way to grow
it hurts to say you shut me down when i get passionate

EMPTY

and i can’t do this by the book
they tried to bring me down but i just left them shook 
i’ve gotten my respect, but i’m still overlooked

how can i catch a fall from grace?
i know i can’t predict the change
why could i channel only hate?
what will i gain from my mistake?

like everybody else i’m only tryna make the rent 
and i can’t even imagine all of the money that i spent
all the moments i’m spending stuck in one place like i’m cement 

when my confidence had bested me
i’m what you want but you’re not what i need
put any other organ on my sleeve

when my confidence had bested me
i’m what you want but you’re not what i need
put any other organ on my sleeve

how can i catch a fall from grace?
i know i can’t predict the change
why could i channel only hate?
what will i gain from my mistake?

and i can’t do this by the book
they tried to bring me down but i just left them shook 
i’ve gotten my respect, but i’m still overlooked

ORGANS

i feel like it fell into pieces without any reason
i think summer that we moved in was my favorite season

i feel like it’s wrong like i don’t pray for this
cemented in my ways and there’s no changing it
i might change my life, no, i won’t wait for it
if you could change your life what would you stake for it?

i dropped the book, and i lost the page
embarked on my journey, carried the weight
i think it’s time i’m let in, they tell me “wait at the gate”
i can’t watch all the paint while still expecting change

alone again, in a new context
you could try to break me but i won’t ever bend
i try to break the cycle but it won’t ever end
deny myself a feeling when i hit unsend

and i swear you’re my everything
but it’s also why i gotta go
and i swear you’re my everything 
yeah you took my heart but can you free my soul?

i just hate the fact i cannot come home 
made the choice and now i walk down the road
can’t be the man i thought i was when we first met
it’s just another quiet night all alone
my self-respect was severed down to the bone
felt undeserving of the things that i own
work everyday to show myself that i’ve grown
tell me god how do i hide what i’ve shown 

i know you know they tried to break us
tried to separate us
i wake up and watch the trees change
god, they’ve done betrayed us

i feel like it’s wrong like i don’t pray for this
cemented in my ways and there’s no changing it
i might change my life, no, i won’t wait for it
if you could change your life what would you stake for it?

i dropped the book, and i lost the page
embarked on my journey, carried the weight
i think it’s time i’m let in, they tell me “wait at the gate”
i can’t watch all the paint while still expecting change

alone again, in a new context
you could try to break me but i won’t ever bend
i try to break the cycle but it won’t ever end
deny myself a feeling when i hit unsend

and i swear you’re my everything
but it’s also why i gotta go
and i swear you’re my everything 
yeah you took my heart but can you free my soul?

WEIGHT

every day i wake up wondering if something’s wrong with me
i tried to manifest my prominence they said it was petty
i tried to manifest my confidence they said it’s not ready
i held the problems of many 
if only it wasn’t heavy

but i cannot lay around
i gotta get paid for this sound
i think i went way too deep you’re dragging me into the ground
like what is it you want from me?
it’s all that i think about

i’m just devolving back into to the very thing i hate
another dumb mistake
and i might not pump the brakes
drop the beat, blow off some steam, that’s only all it takes 

like why can’t we just go out?
then tell me what keeps you down
can’t seem to find the reason why that you cannot leave your house

i tried to manifest my prominence they said it was petty
i tried to manifest my confidence they said it’s not ready
i held the problems of many 
if only it wasn’t heavy

but i cannot lay around
i gotta get paid for this sound
i think i went way too deep you’re dragging me into the ground
like what is it you want from me?
it’s all that i think about

HEAVY

like who’s driving the whip?
i done gave up on that shit
change my mind, i’m such a hypocrite,
cause you’re something that i’ll never quit

and nothing matters when i’m not somebody to you
somebody to anybody, nobody to you
i’ve done given up on loving you
but i still find myself pining for you
though we’ve never spoken

i tried to make sense of the lie but i just let it run
cause who am i to ruin all of the fun?
who am i to deny —
i changed my mind halfway through writing the verse
and i could give you everything but only better or worse

and i’m still going through some shit, i can’t say i love you back
meanwhile i’m checking my phone to see if *** hits me back

like who’s driving the whip?
i done gave up on that shit
change my mind, i’m such a hypocrite,
cause you’re something that i’ll never quit

QUIT

(never again)
(never again)
never again, god i'm hanging by a thread
all my life another night on the edge
i'll say goodbye now
you can cry your eyes out
i'll be alright while you're alone
tell me when, god i'm hanging by a thread
all my life another night on the edge
i don't think you get it
god you're so pathetic
crying out the exit all alone

can you tell me that you cared
every night i've been impaired
but deep down i'm so scared

i got drunk
hit a bump
why am i feeling so slump
i've been losing my shit
and i haven't slept in months
quitting weed made me dream
and i don't like it one bit
(this life's not what it seems)

i hit a blunt, i hit a bag, now what's the move
when i wake up, i don't need drugs, i just need you
woah
i just spent another night out
now i'm back inside your house
i've been so turnt up tryna fight the urge to sleep
but it's been a couple days and it's more than i can take
but i'll find a way
there's something 'bout the way that you make me feel
which path do i take
throw it all away or bury my heart

and i can't believe you actually made me bury my beliefs
i gave it all of me and sacrificed my unity
the tragic path to you and me
it's always something that's not up to you or me
it's in my head but it's not something i can see
it's only something that is slightly out of reach
it's something out a eulogy

i got drunk
hit a bump
why am i feeling so slump
i've been losing my shit
and i haven't slept in months
quitting weed made me dream
and i don't like it one bit
(this life's not what it seems)

never again, god i'm hanging by a thread
all my life another night on the edge
i'll say goodbye now
you can cry your eyes out
i'll be alright while you're alone

can you tell me that you cared
every night i've been impaired
but deep down i'm so scared

THREAD w/ lil narnia, fats’e, anxiety attacks!

replaying our discussions, i toss and turn about
and i can’t make any deductions without some burning doubt
and i can’t make any assumptions of how it’s turning out
i can’t worry now

i just gotta keep it moving cause there’s no burning out
i just gotta keep improving like the world keeps turning round
and my friend turned his back me when he thought he was earning clout
he wanted me to stay in second place, but i think i learned his route
that’s not what i’m concerned about 

there’s no room for stupid gimmicks i’m never copping out 
gotta get this money moving cause there’s no stopping now

replaying our discussions, i toss and turn about
and i can’t make any deductions without some burning doubt
and i can’t make any assumptions of how it’s turning out
i can’t worry now

DOUBT

i was at the bar they played a song that you would play
i was in the car i found a bracelet that you made
almost lost my mind when i woke up on a tuesday
and i still think about you how is your toothache? 
i’ll still forgive you for the mistakes that you’ve made
just give me time and i can change in a new way
just give me time and i can change in a new way

i’m waiting in the cold
it’s only what i get for being so bold
did the faint idea of me already get old?
it’s another night surrounded by stone

so what mistake has left me dead & alone?
just give me time and i can shape to the mold
i chase the fawn but i can’t take me a hold
then i came upon another sight to behold 

i then imagine something that couldn’t be 
a situation with some room to breathe
i had to fight it with my whole body
now i come home to time alone with nobody
i guess my own mistakes were made to ruin me

no communication came fluently
i wish i could deny every human need
maybe i’d learn of being alone in peace
i’d stare at my screen, compose melodies
inside the note, my memories
stare at my phone, it humored me
then it ruined me
it ruined me

i was at the bar they played a song that you would play
i was in the car i found a bracelet that you made
almost lost my mind when i woke up on a tuesday
and i still think about you how is your toothache? 
i’ll still forgive you for the mistakes that you’ve made
just give me time and i can change in a new way 
just give me time and i can change in a new way

ORGANS

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