Shit  i  like

back n forth

asphalt w/ ancr [+speedlmt x hireath]

i cannot compete for bitches man you’re just the saddest bunch
i got them sitting in their bedroom they’re feeling mad as fuck

i used to be so embarrassing
nowadays i don’t say shit
everybody hates everyone but they’re too afraid to say it

i’m just not better than anybody 
i get distracted by pretty bodies 
maybe if i had just taken my time i wouldn’t be trapped in this melancholy 

i watched my friends become enemies
i guess they just weren’t feeling me
look through the rubble of everything
i guess that shit wasn’t meant for me

i love every leaf that grows after me
look down the branch they still mad at me
they think that my grass is greener it didn’t come naturally
they think that my fruit is sweet but they’re never taking a bite of me

dammit i’m living what i wrote 
god dammit i’m living what i wrote

seems i made my heart to mince meat
i just miss the feel when you kiss me
cry in front of my friends in the backseat
i’m so tired it’s not that hard to see

i’ll never know when it’s my turn
search for the feeling that i yearn
won’t be a stone i leave unturned
light all the bridges i’ll let them burn

not sure if it’s fine to still cry about things that i thought i was over with
and you aren’t mine i still wish i could call you and get this pain over with
cause every time that i see you on my phone don’t know if you’re missing me
one thing’s for certain the one thing that matters is you’re not forgetting me

cause i told you that i love you first
nowadays i’ve been feeling the worst
i’m sorry the thought of you doesn’t hurt
just missing the feeling you would return
salt in the wound guess i’ll let it burn
i need my penance there’s more to learn

i’ll never know when it’s my turn

i’m one with the birds again
i’m one with the woods again
i know it’s better off that,
that i did it myself again

penance

walking out ur door (prod. irby x jolst)

ft. @lilnarnia & @anxietyattackss

prod @youngburial x @noahmadethiss x @anxietyattackss

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3K5kafrQyso&ab_channel=%E3%83%87%E3%83%BC%E3%83%A2%E3%83%B3Astari

lyrics: 
i just shed a tear while sitting slump in the car--

wish i had a moment left to waste
tightening my skin and prepare to brace
open all i am for you to see
take the things that you want to keep

not another night on the edge
i just shed a tear while sitting slump in the car
yeah i'll drink another, i won't think anymore
yeah i'll black my lungs and watch me fall to the floor
die all night and then feel like shit again

yeah the truth it always hurts when it comes to light
i saw ur hand but i don't really show mine
by myself in a new place
nothing really feels right, tripping now i'm tongue tied

another night on the edge w/ lil narnia & anxiety attacks!

Yeah
Back in class
They used to look at me and laugh
Got suspended from my school
And I never went back
Parent's all up in my ear
"you going down the wrong path"
I'm chasin' my dreams
Can't get side tracked

Used to think you were the one
I was so dumb
So naïve, I was just young
Sick of wasting my time
Acting like it's all fine
(Acting like it's alright)

See all the shit I went through
Only made me strong
Burned my whole world down
Then I fucking moved on
Yeah I know the saying's true
They gon' miss me when I'm gone
For now I let em hate
I know I'll prove em wrong

I been flexing and finessing
On the daily
Fuck all that talking
Boy let's do it
Why you scary?
I know you mad
Got you saying that you hate me
Cause your bitch tellin' me
I'm far from ordinary

Far from ordinary
Imma visionary
I got 4K, HD
I can see it all baby
Me and my team play for keeps
And we all crazy

Just some loose screws
What's new?
Yeah we do this all day
So high can't move
I can't feel my heart rate

Yeah
Back in class
They used to look at me and laugh
Got suspended from my school
And I never went back
Parent's all up in my ear
"you going down the wrong path"
I'm chasin' my dreams
Can't get side tracked

Used to think you were the one
I was so dumb
So naïve, I was just young
Sick of wasting my time
Acting like it's all fine
(Acting like it's alright)

ordinary (prod. roxa)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LAfKbg9Re8

Got a feeling that I can't fight
If it's wrong I don't wanna be right
And I don't wanna hear any advice
Don't wanna talk I don't wanna play nice
Posted with my dogs, yeah we all K-9's
Double-cross us must be out your mind
If you got a problem then we all frontline
If it ain't bout a bag don't waste my time

Don't

Don't

Don't waste it
Walking round
When the streets all vacant
Mixing molly in my drink I taste it
Can you see it in my eyes?
I'm faded

Can you see it?
Like I see it
Baby you're the one
I wanna be with
Yeah you're the sun
In my sky
Call me anytime
I won't ask why

Can you feel it?
Like I feel it
If you give me your heart
Imma steal it
Yeah, running off
Like a ransom
Fouling out for your love
Bitch and 1

You know Imma do the most
When I'm on the court
Imma break the backboard
Imma up the score
Do this shit with a passion
It's all I live for
I just want a crib
With some marble on the floor

And I just want a whip
With some suicide doors
Don't involve me with no drama
This life too short
Yeah you've heard it before but
This world's all yours
Gotta crawl out your shell to explore

Got a feeling that I can't fight
If it's wrong I don't wanna be right
And I don't wanna hear any advice
Don't wanna talk I don't wanna play nice
Posted with my dogs, yeah we all K-9's
Double-cross us must be out your mind
If you got a problem then we all frontline
If it ain't bout a bag don't waste my time

Don't

Don't

Don't waste it
Walking round
When the streets all vacant
Mixing molly in my drink I taste it
Can you see it in my eyes?
I'm faded

Can you see me?
Like I see you
Swear the room lights up
When you walk through
Make a grey sky
Turn light blue
Make my dreams
All come true

They all real
Can't stay still
Off this pill I can't feel
I can't fight
This feeling
Your love's my only reason

music video

can you see it? (prod. oliver_01) video in description*

notion

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

Video - https://youtu.be/UzKzr_uSyWY

cuts on ur thigh
where my eyes been lately
i've been feeling down
but i shouldn't be
i've been working hard
hope ur proud of me
lately,
i just wanna distance
whats been killing me

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

substance on substance
till i'm dead asleep
please silence the demon
that's inside of me

using book cover's as a headpiece
i miss being young having dirty feet
years go slow repeating history
lies grow mold and drift in the breeze

so lately
i've been careful when i need to breathe

and lately
i'm just not sure about anything

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

(lately i've been drinking too much x4)

6SPEED

if my dad saw he'd be mad at me..

shinigami - boyz don't cri :'( // prod. 5v [nitecore]

{prod wstdyth}

lyrics:

we don’t make a sound 
all this pain i’m around really brings me down 
do u feel the ground shake when i’m walking out 
i see the door to another realm 

i’m so overwhelmed 
am i catching ur subliminals 
i can’t tell 
all this weed makes a bad smell
i’ve been walking in the dark casting bad spells 

i’m covered in armor to the neck 
yeah i can’t fucking rest 
i’m tired of this feeling in my chest 
leaving me wanting less 
i’m living in the clouds 
but in the ocean tear my stitches open 
i don’t have to say it now 
my blood is writing words unspoken 

i’ve been with the witches in the forest 
i’m loudest without a chorus 
how long till they don’t ignore us 
in the sky it’s like i’m Horus
i bring winter when i walk 
don’t look me in the eyes 
pouring blood into the river 
i can’t take off my disguise 

what do u think when u see me like that 
i wonder if u think i’m that bad 
or do u just want me to come back 
do u just want me to come back 

i protect myself from every thing u say 
but i don’t like it that way 
i just need to smoke some propane 
ashes burning up my face 
oh my god do we have to hang at my place? 

seeing u in passing isn’t easy 
i wish u could read me 
please don’t say goodbye cuz i’m not leaving 
need to do some cleaning 
i wish i could wake up in the morning 
but for night i’m yearning 
make all the mistakes i did before 
like why am i not learning 

i’m covered in armor to the neck 
yeah i can’t fucking rest 
I’m tired of this feeling in my chest 
leaving me wanting less 
i’m living in the clouds 
but in the ocean tear my stitches open 
i don’t have to say it now 
my blood is writing words unspoken 

i’ve been with the witches in the forest 
i’m loudest without a chorus 
how long till they don’t ignore us 
in the sky it’s like i’m Horus
i bring winter when i walk 
don’t look me in the eyes 
pouring blood into the river 
i can’t take off my disguise

with the witches

stranger

ft. @josslockwood
guitar by @kayzelledagum
mixing by me & @nathan_dagum
cover art by @destructionmanual on instagram

time w/ joss lockwood (st jimmy + kayzelle)

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/optic_core and https://soundcloud.com/dazegxd GOAT PRODS :00

lyrics:

i just built a brikwall N slammed U right againsT it
N i hope that u stick cus i aint tryna clean the image
n honestly its kinda funny how i look @ all tha physics
Think i modded real life cus .. u werent spos'd to stick it

ian talkin 2 deez bitches ! im talkin 2 tha screenZ\
they can see my energy yea they can see tha GREEn
and they can see the bullets that'll B resting in ur spleen
U werent spos'd to talk but u did it 4 ur E(go) guess U shoulda stay'D clean


Look.  i dont wna talk cus if i talk ima hav 2 run it back for all the demons
N i donT wna do it
Look. U been talkin lotZ up on ur blog, N we been boxin w tha joX actin stupid.. 
I lUV tha laste of fluid
Look.. I just seen a kid get blown up out his spotCUS he was actin super convoluted.
N yal kn0 that we ruthless 
Look.. I dont wana b the one to tell U bad news but ur bout 2 get ruined. 
Itz feeling kinda humid

S: "Mr. stark?"
T: "what the fuck do u want?"
S: "i dont feel so good" 
T: "spidey, ima be honest, I dont give a FUCK"
S; "ughghhdh"
T: "goddamnit! fuck this kid! he'z so fucking annoying!" 


wake up! ecstasy still on my tastebudz!
U dont wna test me, if u test me, there is nO makeupz
Gotta folder on U wit some dates just like a paystub
got30 in this uzi but u cant copy my cadence

automatic grade huh 
dont bring dat K up
cus if u pull it out uh. 
ima leave U laid up
U say u got a lotta drip 
U in tha waves huh.
actually thts false ur in the lake we left U face UP !


Look.  i dont wna talk cus if i talk ima hav 2 run it back for all the demons
N i donT wna do it
Look. U been talkin lotZ up on ur blog, N we been boxin w tha joX actin stupid.. 
I lUV tha laste of fluid
Look.. I just seen a kid get blown up out his spotCUS he was actin super convoluted.
N yal kn0 that we ruthless 
Look.. I dont wana b the one to tell U bad news but ur bout 2 get ruined. 
Itz feeling kinda humid


S: "Mr. Stark im back!"
T: " what the actual fuk.."
S: "havn't U missed me @ all??"
T:  "NO! i havnt! it was SO good without u. it was perfect without U here"
S; "U deadass? U serious?? BRUHHH BRUHHH"

brick wall (dazegxd + optic::core)

prod. phixel
lead guitar sample : dynastic
mixed/mastered by phixel

editors notes: this one has a LOT of lunamatic inspiration, specifically from their song on the ballsgiving collective album which i love so much :0 this uses a guitar sample that dynastic originally sent as a wip song in the gendergrind server, but she let me use it for this which is good and cool
theres a lot of other cool factoids about this song too;
1.) this song has my favorite lyrics on the album, my favorite lines are capitalized below
2.) i recorded this when my snowball was broken, so i used a shitty karaoke microphone from 2015 to record this, which kinda worked apparently
3.) mosts sounds in this besides the main guitar sample was made by me, i didnt use a lot of outside kits for this
ok thats it enjoy this song

lyrics:
i am just so inconsolable
lying thru your teeth to all your friends, they gullible
and i wish you werent so horrible
you are never ever welcome thru my door at all
YOU ARE DOING NOTHING WITH UR LIFE!!!
OVERSHARING TRAUMA ON TWITTER LIKE ALL THE TIME
whens the last time that you went outside
its the perfect day to get up to some real crime

think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see

arent you tired of making beep boops on your spare time?
makin hyperpop "music" that barely even rhymes
arent u tired of making that bird app your whole life?
tellin kids to get some bands but u dont have a dime!!!
TAKE THAT CHAIN EMOJI OUT UR NAME, UR FAR FROM EVIL
U POST FEMBOY PICS WITH CAPTIONS LIKE 'MY GOD I NEED HIM'
AND UR WONDERING WHY UR STILL SINGLE?
TALKIN HUMBLE BUT U STARVE FOR DRAMA, YEA UR SEE-THROUGH

think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see

theres a whole world out there
and its ready to destroy but u dont even care
its a whole world out there 
but u just dont seem to wanna get up out your chair

think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
*various vocal glitches im not gonna transcribe lol i just slapped portal on it*

lemonade

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com

penance

polearm

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