Ladies and gentlemen, 
My first ever Lo-Fi track.

I really hope you guys like it because this took me two hours straight to make nonstop lol

The song is called Pondering because I thought of a situation where you're just left at home by yourself and it's raining hard and the only thing you have in front of you is a bunch of cassette tapes and your cassette player. This whole scenario gives you time to ponder who you really are, what you want in life, and how you're going to deal with all of the obstacles that are thrown at you.

Idk it's just a thought process that became a lo-fi track lol

Pondering

The word for sad and lonely is either さびしい (SABISHII) or さみしい (SAMISHII). Both of them are correct. The kanji 寂しい is basically pronounced さびしい (SABISHII).

さみしい

va·ca·tion
/vāˈkāSH(ə)n,vəˈkāSH(ə)n/

1: a period spent away from home or business in travel or recreation
had a restful vacation at the beach

2a: a scheduled period during which activity (as of a court or school) is suspended
2b: a period of exemption from work granted to an employee

3: a respite or a time of respite from something : INTERMISSION

4: an act or an instance of vacating

Vacation

un·wind
/ˌənˈwīnd/
verb

relax after a period of work or tension.
"the Grand Hotel is a superb place to unwind"

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