Alone (ft. Valious)

produced by @chillsebs
mixed/mastered by me 

lyrics: 

life burning down into ashes
they hate on me for reactions
if they never liked me anyway
then why they asking me why i’m stagnant?

to me 
hands on my neck cant breathe 
don’t say a word when they want me to leave 
want me to grieve 
yes i’m here if you need 

im playing the part while i fall of the edge 
but to me death isn’t final

these hardships to deal with, i went self destructive and i fell in love with the spiral

i try to say my hopes and dreams
then i get hit with an eye roll

they don’t take me serious, i’m just curious, how i’m still going viral

i hate everything except for what i’ve become 
unique in a way, like im one of one
no more back and forth now that im done
you can say those words to my gun

its dark in my eyes and i can’t see the sun
dealing with everything that i have done 
what would you take me for, thinking id run?
i think i was born to overcome

most people dealing with this would be the type to quit.
i grew up myself, and i aint raise a bitch
i don’t like to blink cus the time moves quick 
and they can’t feature me cus the rhyme too sick

now i’m stuck on my own, and im too independent 
yeah aint nun really changed but the weather 

far from a clone, prolly why he want a segment 
but the acapella sounds better

i’m just doing me, and i say what i feel
and i won’t sell my soul but the devil wanna deal
and i don’t want the money, yeah i just wanna feel
and i erase the lyrics if it gets too real

and they still got the nerve to say i won’t make it 
i never heard hate from a winner
i once had a heart, but i love how she breaks it
shorty turned me to a sinner

i hate everything except for what i’ve become 
unique in a way, like im one of one
no more back and forth now that im done
you can say those words to my gun

dark in my eyes and i can’t see the sun
dealing with everything that i have done 
what you take me for, thinking that id run?
i think i was born to overcome

Overcome (Prod. Chill Sebs)

I wrote this song about feeling like an outcast because of my perception of life.

seb rapped his ass of and alex cooked the beat :)

lyrics:

i am a bit off a misfit 
more than an instance 
i shouldn’t have to change

can’t name a soul that would miss this 
craving the distance 
sad that i have to stay

my mind is a cage that i can’t get out of 
sadly i don’t wanna find the key

the time keeps passing, memories don’t
and i find peace in the irony

i’m better when im out of on control 
much less when im out of my zone
i’m tryna get out of the box 
that i keep going in 
and i’m to scared of the outcome 
wondering how come 
it gotta be like this?
how can i swim in a sea like this?
they’re boxed in, couldn’t dream like this
and you don’t want smoke with a beam like this

or who am i kidding 
my mind isn’t winning and violence is sinning 
life is a race but the time is indifferent 
oh i wanna know what it’s like to be winning 

see i wanna work for the things that i want 
and then talk about them with apostrophes

but she didn’t want anything i could give 
of all of my efforts she’s making a mockery

(Verse 2: Performed by 40hz)

everyone telling me im a misfit
probably better than ever
but i was different
got my head up for once
but i wouldnt listen
baby it didnt start maybe im finished
bite when i didnt bark guess i never fit in

and i had to believe
i was the only one baby
like we adam and eve
but that one aint me
not used to different angles
when she back on her knees
it happened to me
but actually
im going back to the basics
baby bad habits been patient with me
got ash in the making
8 in a day 8 days of the week
8 changes daily like my face on the beat

keep praying
on my downfall
keep saying
im an outlaw
keep preying
like it was the chow hall
i been creative and baby
i found all of your secrets
if i keep it
feel like anyway its getting shared
with a demon 
maybe im leaving
finally found something we dont agree with
little me is getting mean
monkey in the middle
see(c) it is me
and im the epitome of invisibility
cant riddle me this riddle me that
cause im finna be pissed finna be mad
wrote a trilogy its instantly bad

broke and youd never know this
never focus never notice
cant coast in the ocean
you wont ever really float in it
just a hoax id know i dont need to breathe
cause i been in the depths below

slowly climbing
over time im drowned out by potent silence
opened minded
closed tonight on soundcloud
cant show my mindset

Misfit (ft.40hz)

I did this in one take off the dome and didn't even stutter. pretty cool stuff

Intro Freestyle (w/autrioly)

I wrote this song about only feeling bad emotions in short stints rather than consistently.

im done crying in doses 
violent emotions 
wanna break out that’s why i control em
my mind is the most violent of oceans 
hard to live free while you’re dying and hopeless 
lying and broken 
why would i show this?
you were the one that i woulda grown with 
mine then you’re ghosted 
ashes to roses 
you were the one that i need the most its, 
hard for me to move on ever since i left you
kinda corny but i loved you since i met you 
im not saying that i miss it its just harder to forget you
i bet you would have done me worse if i woulda let you

now i’m moving back to the past 
where sun still shines and there’s dew on the grass
but you ruining that 
ironic that you left me, i guess you really wanna stay true to your dad

(Verse 2, 40hz)
(really thought it was gonna work)
i been crying in doses
you lied say im broken
never know that never know this
never know anything that i said
that i remember like its yesterday
forgetting all my friends
except the one
i remember the day you said you hate

but maybe everything changes
im kinda flipping through the pages
just forgetting theyre phases
different stages of my life
i just pretend never made it onto the paper
with the pen by which my life was created
and then you ripped it away from me

not one to be guilt tripping
but 500 days where we waited so patiently
for all of it to end up make believe
man i couldnt pay to be broke so painfully
going insane im just open you take a seat
probably took em all
took advantage while you had it
but i couldnt fall
i would panic but shes mad
and i dont look involved

In Doses (ft.40hz)

Are You Okay?

This was the first Lofi song i ever wrote. No better place to release it than the outro of the first album

lyrics:
i’m talking to the moon
if you come over tonight, we could talk it through 
and i’m only doing this cus i am into you
i could think of you for days it’s just something that i do

we could hop skip and jump our way through this life
you are like a drug, keeping me alright
come over tonight, i could show you what it’s like
just come and take my hand we could try it if you’d like 

it’s like it’s something bout you that still can’t get over
you said you loved the pills but i only saw you sober
your hands around my head while i pull you in closer
i could keep you warm while the world is getting colder
we get colder, older
i could be you soldier
i could be the devil or the angel on your shoulder
your life is still a mess but i’m here to bring you closure
i would love to see you soon, but i feel my life is over

chorus

now i’m praying to the sky 
i could ask a thousand questions but i’m only asking why
why can’t i join the stars? why can’t i go and fly?
why did you have to lie? why i always wanna cry
 
but now it’s different 
you cut into my heart now i’m stuck with these incisions 
it’s why i make these bad decisions 
and why i never wanna listen
step into my life, where you’ll only find me tripping 
swear that this is different

i’m pill popping
not stopping 
if you find me then you’ll find me unconscious 
my body dropping 

cus death is better than living life that isn’t mine
wanna call me ill decline
try to save me ill be fine

cus i don’t have what you need 
but i don’t need what you have 
it’s like it’s all in my head
i just wish you listened to what i said 
but now that it’s over, we were better off dead

Talking to the Moon, Praying to the Sky

i should be more careful about what i wish for. 

Lyrics:
it’s all “be careful what you wish for” until i wish for her
tell me why’d i take it slow for it to end in a blur?
she ain’t end this for her 
we aren’t friends and it hurts 
i wrote her love songs now im amending the verse

i feel like there’s a lot im missing 
i ain’t nothing to her but a pot to piss in 
almost like it was my mission 
to show her what it should be like 
and watch as she goes missing 
another sad story where my feelings get diminished 
 
and then i throw it in a verse 
my heart is in a hearse
shes my little lucifer, my blessing and a curse
she found a way to bring me down when i was at my worst 
and then she had the nerve to say that i should go to church

it’s all this back and forth back and forth 
i can hardly tell what she was asking for 
i ain’t ask for much, would never see me ask for more 
but like it always goes im back to the drawing board 
back to the drawing board 

i sent her a picture of the sky because i know she likes it 
but she aint sending nothing back i guess ill nevermind it 
it’s violent, the way she left me with the tears going down my eyelids
i guess it’s my fault, and it’s hers
i’m  undecided 

when it comes to who’s to blame 
i don’t know what she took me for besides a game 
i took her as my motivation, a reason to change 
it used to be sunny, on my mind now there is rain 

i ain’t mad at you, i guess im just disappointed 
i would try again, but i don’t know what the point is
i knew that she would leave, i just didn’t know that it would be coldly
now there’s one thing i wish they would’ve told me
and it’s

What You Wish For (Prod. Chill Sebs)

I wrote this song about when you have nothing left and still give everything for someone else 

Lyrics

i give it my all 
get up then i fall 
when i wanna ill call 
but i won’t stand tall

and it ain’t hurt me 
ain’t no worries at all
ain’t in a hurry 
if you wanna i’ll stall 

now i’m lying through penmanship 
thinking your heaven sent 
and now it’s a wrap like the way that the presents get
and i hope that it ain’t true man 
ain’t talking bout a president
thinking that it’s prevalent, the precedent, everytime im messing with

the thoughts in my mind 
turn up on a dime 
like water to wine 
when i’m hitting rewind 
i’m wasting my time (beat cut)
you don’t wanna call, cus now i decline
you made it feel like sharing love was a crime 
now im nothing but a criminal, feelings too subliminal, my injuries are minimal 
you know you broke my heart i just hope it isn’t visible (hope it isn’t visible)

now it’s time for the second verse
thinking that i made it worse 
i’m living in a fantasy ain’t talking bout a metaverse 
i never said it never hurt 
i’m tryna find a better word 
you know i couldn’t do it now you’re onto better terms

i’m thinking that it’s it worth when it’s perfect 
when im living in a circus and im hurting 
if its time to pull the curtains then im certain 
if my living is a burden then im burning 
i don’t wanna build the bridges just to burn em 
but i burn em 
issa habit that i can’t help 
i’ll do you wrong but yk i mean well
issa sad story no this ain’t a fairytale
it’s like you don’t need heaven till you see hell

now i’m living in a story that i didn’t write
now i’m a bachelor what’s a wife 
i don’t need help i just want advice 
want it once or want twice 
fucking right 
i just want love cus this music it won’t suffice

Your Everything (Prod. Chill Sebs)

hopefully they’ll remember me

ig @prelxde

Prelude