Based on the entirely new cover art. I'm guessing this is its own album project? :)

Nice vocal mixing. I like those brighter, airier moments. Gives it a dream-like vibe.

this is just an incredible song in every regard

like this piano playing very much and the compression at the end

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A Cave in the Inside

In the context of the HMKV exhibition “Fiona Banner aka The Vanity Press: Pranayama Typhoon Soft Parts Wing Flap Fin” an exhibition talk with artist Fiona Banner, author Tom McCarthy and curator Inke Arns took place at the HMKV on 20 October 2022.

More info here: https://www.hmkv.de/events/events-details/exhibition-talk-with-fiona-banner.html

Event sound & recording: Martin Brauer

Image: Exhibition Talk with Fiona Banner aka The Vanity Press, Tom McCarthy & Inke Arns, 20. October 2022 at the HMKV, at the Dortmunder U Level 3. Photo Emine Ercihan.
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Timestamps:

00:00 Introduction by Inke Arns
 
08:50 Fiona Banner and Tom McCarthy discussing language and fullstops
 
21:05 Vanity Press, Vanity Publishing
 
25:20 “Pranayama Organ” – Backgrounds and thoughts about the film
 
34:00 “Dear Bathos” – Believe, Disbelieve, (including excursus: The Storming of the Winter Palace)
 
50:43 The Play “The Woods Decay, The Woods Decoy and Fall” – Explanations & Reading
 
56:30 Open discussion with the audience

Exhibition Talk with Fiona Banner aka The Vanity Press, Tom McCarthy & Inke Arns

Cette version longue est plutôt destinée à un temps de relaxation profonde allongée ou de massage en institut.

DeepZen (Version Longue)

The Smile - Wall Of Eyes (SpeakOf Remix)

Happy Friday everyone. :)

Silly story behind this song name. My family can get a little snarky at times (surprise, surprise); and the title is definitely a running joke around the household... following the adoption of our first dog ever. 

Needless to say, we've determined these frightening, bite-sized culinary experiments gone wrong are your furry little friend's worst nightmare. So if you spot one wandering your neighborhood while out on walkies... do not engage. o.o

I hope you enjoy my first actual 2024 offering (completed on January 15th; and also destined for my upcoming album), a dangerous little delicacy called 'Chocolate Covered Garlic Grapes'. :D

Paradox?

Chocolate Covered Garlic Grapes

Greetings and good afternoon to my SC friends. This is the 10th and final song intended for my upcoming album ‘What Color Is Your Paradox’. It is also my 7th mind-blowing collaboration with our dear friend Carlos Vivanco (https://soundcloud.com/carlosvivanco-1, https://carlosvivanco1.bandcamp.com). 

This piece was highly entertaining and challenging to work on. We started with clearly defined regions (mine being the more techno sounding stuff… Carlos building the traditional instrument sections). I then mangled the whole thing, and tried to blur the lines more as the song progresses, until both worlds felt fully merged by the end. At least, that was the goal. I’ll let you decide if the structure succeeds in that regard. :)

The title is also quite significant to me at this point in my life; based on the idea of ‘masking’, and our growing inability to do so. 

If you aren’t familiar with the term ‘masking’, one Mental Health Care website I found defines it this way: “Masking often involves suppressing or hiding true emotions, which can lead to a buildup of unresolved feelings and contribute to increased stress, anxiety, and emotional turmoil in the long-term. In the context of mental health and neurodivergence, masking refers to the actions or coping strategies that individuals use to conceal their genuine thoughts, emotions, or challenges.”

It didn’t really occur to me at first that I was masking when I was younger. I guess that idea doesn’t resonate when you’re deeply lost in the illusion; at least, until something makes it obvious. But in hindsight, I’ve worn many masks over the course of my life (Art Director, Technician, Pre-Press Specialist and Graphic Artist would be some of my professional masks. And I would even go so far as to include Husband, Father and Son, since I was on auto-pilot during the earliest stages of those as well). 

As my life progressed, I felt more and more insincere in those roles. I felt something was wrong. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Then COVID (something that actually required us to wear real masks. What irony!) came along, and miraculously changed that for all of us. We gained the necessary space we needed, to finally see the illusion more clearly. Now, that illusion grows more fragile and transparent by the day. So while I’m still in the early stages of trying to figure out the new paradigm… I suspect the really critical takeaway at this point is just recognizing when we’re being our genuine selves, and when we’re lost in a role; especially if that role is debilitating to our personal growth and well being.

Another thing I’m thinking a lot on these days…. Society is dependent on me playing those roles. And society doesn’t really care whether I’m happy or not (as long as I keep paying my bills, and buying their products, and believing their lies). So maybe, just maybe, society doesn’t have my best interests at heart (as I had originally hoped). Maybe… just maybe… we’re going to need to redefine who we are personally, as we stop playing along with this globally unconscious and ultimately destructive agenda.

Thick and chunky topic, I know. But that’s the way the world feels to me these days… like we needed a brisk slap across the face to wake us all up. COVID was that slap (and probably just the first of many still to come). It’s time to prioritize our own self interests; because if we don’t, they certainly won’t. So rip off those masks, and let your freak flag fly. It’s our life, and we’ll be the ones sitting on our deathbed, asking ourselves if we lived life true to ourselves…. or if we just fulfilled the role demanded by this illusion.

We hope you enjoy “Cracks In The Surface”; and it inspires you to think about what aspects of your reality are cracking. Keep in mind… if you still have a pulse, there is always time to change things up. :)

Cracks In The Surface | Carlos Vivanco & GrevusAnjl

Original music and mix, arrangement and playing all instrument J.J. Terrell
Electric guitars and final mix by Neno J.
Check out J.J. Terrel on SoundCloud: @j-j-terrell

Passion (Collab with J.J. Terrell)

Wastin’ time is all we know
Let us lay down, let us lay low

We all chased a fallen ghost, far beneath the tide
Let us lay down

Let us lay down

I need to rest in a terminal, isolated and ephemeral

Tranquilizers in my blood
Eradicate all my thoughts
Don't tell me how to be you
When your common sense is love

Love is going to be eternal
With it's sedating chemicals
Without logic, we are animals
Attention seeking cannibals

(Cannibals...)

Tranquilizers in my blood
Eradicate all my thoughts
Don't tell me how to be you
When your common sense is love

Trying my best to be bearable
Ordinary yet abnormal
Injecting myself tofranil
Because i want to have morals

(Have morals...)

(Have morals...)

Can't walk straight with virtual knives in my heart
Can't think straight with tranquilizer in my veins
Can't talk, my mind overflowing with thoughts
Can't blink my mind overworking on the pain

Love is going to be eternal
With it's sedating chemicals
Without logic, we are animals
Attention seeking cannibals

Trying my best to be bearable
Ordinary yet abnormal
Injecting myself tofranil
Because i want to have morals

(Have morals...)

TRANQUILIZER

I am incredibly grateful to work with Wildsilences, in her beautiful track, I am the. Original song and music written by Wildsilences
 https://on.soundcloud.com/wiikSkMWG3baAw5o9

Lyrics by Wildsilences 

“i'm you
and i'm the voice in your head
telling you, 'no'
i'm the addiction
but you can't stop
i'm the love and i'm the lie
i'm the dark and i'm the light
i'm you
i'm the shadow
i'm the dream, nightmare
i'm the life
i'm the hurt
i'm the loneliness
i'm the cold night, walking home
i am the scream
i'm your surrender
and i am the quiet
i am..."

Wildsilences on SolaceStreet - I am the

With A Y

From 'A Cave In The Inside' 
Releasedate: 26/01/2018

Musicvideo: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0hYnQShwHIs

Viola on Nightwalk by: Maria Grigoryeva

A Cave in the inside

Nightwalk

Magical Twist

Masquerade

Good Wind

A Cave In The Inside

Black Coats

The music project "Present Paradox" by Dortmund-based David Kleinekottmann provides insights into the often opaque nature of the present. The result is a fusion of melancholic and danceable elements, expansive and intimate at the same time, diverse and yet familiar. Since 2013, Kleinekottmann has been regularly releasing LPs/EPs that move between indie, experimental rock and electronica.

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