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Music by Anilyst performing Going Numb. © 2015
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ANILYST - Going Numb

Damaged

[Chorus]

I’m writin’ you this letter just to prove that I’m still here,
Every thought I never said is spillin’ out from fear.
If the world won’t hear me, maybe future me will stand,
’Cause I’m tryin’ not to vanish while I’m reachin’ out my hand.

⸻

【verse】

Dear future me—
I hope you don’t mind the length, but this time I gotta write it all,
Every rise, every fall, every “almost” I recall.

I was twelve when the cracks in the walls felt louder than voices,
Home shakin’ like the universe couldn’t make up its choices.
Dad gone for days, mom prayin’ for grace,
And I kept runnin’ a marathon inside the same place.

I used to hide my notebook under floorboards with dust,
’Cause if they found what I wrote, I knew they’d crush my trust.
But that pen moved fast—
Fast enough to make me feel like time couldn’t catch me,
Fast enough to drown out the fear that always tracked me.

Fifteen came colder than the winter I remember,
Basement air thin, like breath from a dying ember.
I rapped to the pipes, kicked beats off the wall,
Only stage I ever had was that concrete hall.

Kids laughed,
Said my voice was weird, said I’d never stand tall.
Funny—
Those same jokes became gasoline when I stalled.

Seventeen had me boxed-in, shadow-punched, nervous,
Heart racin’ like it owed someone money, always feelin’ worthless.
But the mic was a doorway, a shortcut to surface,
And every rhyme kept me from dippin’ under on purpose.

Then I turned twenty—
And adulthood ain’t the freedom they swear you get,
It was two jobs, late buses, obligations in debt.
Boss barkin’ orders like he needed to place a bet
On whether I’d break first or whether I’d reset.

I recorded at midnight, beat bleedin’ through the plaster,
Tryna turn failure into something comin’ faster.
Neighbors complained, said I needed a “real life.”
But my whole life felt real only when the beat cut like a knife.

By twenty-four, pressure sat heavy on my lungs,
Like every unpaid bill added two more tons.
I kept hearin’ the younger me whisper, “Don’t fold,”
So I rapped through the cold even when my confidence sold.

Some nights I swore my reflection grew faint,
Not gone—just… thin, like a half-finished paint.
But the notebook from twelve kept callin’ me back,
Sayin’ “Even broken lines can still stay on track.”

Now I’m twenty-seven writin’ this one long chapter,
No breaks, no cuts, just everything I’m after.
I ain’t famous, ain’t flawless, ain’t close to a master—
But every year I’ve survived has been movin’ me faster.

If you’re older reading this—
I hope you turned the noise into somethin’ worth keepin’,
Hope your purpose ain’t a ghost you’re forever chasin’ or sweepin’.
Hope the kid in the basement would look at you and say,
“You didn’t quit. You lived enough to write another day.”

And if you’re younger readin’ this somehow—
Know the pain didn’t last, but the lessons did.
Know the mic didn’t save me—
But the words I wrote as a kid
Carried me through every crack that the darkness hid.

This letter ain’t perfect. It ain’t polished or planned.
But future me—take it, hold it, understand:
I wrote all of this so I wouldn’t disappear,
So the quiet in my chest wouldn’t swallow the year,
So the boy in the basement could finally see clear
That the man he becomes didn’t vanish in fear.

⸻

[Chorus]

I’m writin’ you this letter just to prove that I’m still here,
Every thought I never said is spillin’ out from fear.
If the world won’t hear me, maybe future me will stand—
I’m just tryin’ not to vanish while I’m reachin’ out my hand.

And if tomorrow never answers, I still know one thing:
Every line that kept me breathin’ taught my heartbeat how to sing.

not to disappear

A smooth, melodic rap track with a chill vibe — perfect for relaxing, cruising, or just vibing out. Laid-back beats and emotive vocals make it an easy listen anytime.

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ANGEL Vs DEMON (Part 2)

Problematic - Angel Vs Demon (Part 2)

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Beat Produced By: Jurrivh 
Mixed and Mastered by: Adam Lewis
Cover Art: Blacksmyth Productions
Edited by: Nathan Carter
Directed By: Nathan Carter & Problematic

Angel Vs Demon (Part 2) (Lyrics In Description)

Verse 1: 

Forget the past forget the present
All this talk that life’s a blessing 
Think that when you die 
Your soul is actually gon’ go to heaven 
No more tears and no more problems
I am here to finally solve em’
Mask your pain you hideaway 
It’s clear you’re sinking to the bottom
Yeah Im living with regrets 
My mind won’t ever seem to rest
Im asking for forgiveness 
Praying on my knees don’t need to stress
God has got me I don’t worry
Even though my vision blurry
Even though I contemplated Suicide 
I know Im worthy
Know your worthy? Who’s you kidding?!
You’ve been lying to yourself
Probably do this for attention
Come with me and I can help!
It’s obvious your desperado 
Always waiting for tomorrow 
Pull the trigger end your life
I promise there will be no sorrow 

Chorus:

These demons keep lurking
They won’t ever seem to go away
But Ima keep on fighting 
Even though Im falling
Know that Ima find a way
You wish that you could stop me
But the feeling’s way too hard to break
They won’t miss you when you’re gone
It is time that you move on
I think you should end it all today

Verse 2:

You want the fortune? Want the fame?
But do you know the price you’ll pay?
Just look at Chester look at Williams 
What more do I need to say?!
Behind the scenes is dark and gloom
Depressive state will kill you soon
There is no hope there’s no escape
You lock yourself inside your room
I asked for this the road to greatness
Lots of hatred lots of patience 
I am ready no debating 
For this moment I’ve been waiting 
I know you want a stranglehold  
But I won’t let you take my soul 
Go f*ck yourself cause I am stronger
Ima do this on my own
You won’t survive this epidemic 
Let me pick apart your brain
There’s evil deep inside of you
And slowly you’ve been losing faith
You lost your friends there’s no-one left 
Tell me is it really worth it?
If you’re never happy 
Then that kinda does defeat the purpose

Verse 3:

Success is just around the corner
I don’t have no time to waste
I know I’m here to serve a purpose 
Always stand by what I say
Im saving lives and spread awareness
Here to be the voice for many 
Won’t condone your act of violence
No more days of feeling empty
Family loves me know it’s true
Thats such a lie man don’t be fooled! (Demon)
I give a week a bit of grief 
They’ll realize never needed you
The fact is that ya’ll barely speak
Your distant I can tell you’re weak
Look in the mirror you hate yourself
You’re paranoid can’t get to sleep
Ok admit it! Far from perfect
Why you make me feel so worthless?
Why you toy with my emotions?!
Honestly I don’t deserve it 
Here’s a gun I kept it hidden 
Knew that it would come in handy
Ease the pain just pull the trigger 
You’re the one that understands me

Angel Vs Demon (Part 2)

It is a first EP of MatihitaM, "Problematic Anxiety" is released on March 28th, 2020. This mini album consists of 6 tracks.

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