fading out the memories
im writing my own melodies
i cut down too deep and now im draining out my energy 

a piece of me is broken
you cant fix it 
leave it open

i’m a wound
i’m fucking hopeless
i’m so rude but they don’t notice

i just wanna die at the right time
need to come up with a good lie

doing anything to ruin my life
maybe i should just do it tonight

maybe i can’t finish the fight
scratch and bite cus i dont mind
recklessly control my life

i just wanna feel
something not painful 
but it all feels the same
carve it out until it feels numb
am i insane

can't fix it [hero]

cause i know that this season for you baby it can be a trigger
cause i know that this season for you baby it can be a trigger
so we said we'd give this another shot
on the condition that we'd both fucked up
but i'm the only one that's in the dog house
and i'm not strong enough for the both of us
you've packed your things into your car
i've begged and cried in parking lots
we've done this several times this month
but i don't want to call it off
cause i know this season is a trigger 
let's just blame it on the weather 
cause i don't want to sleep one night
without you this December
December, December
lets just blame it on the weather
cause i know that this season for you baby it can be a trigger
December, December
lets just blame it on the weather
cause i don't want to sleep one night
without you this December
December, December
cause i know that this season for you baby it can be a trigger
December, December
cause i know that this season for you baby it can be a trigger
so we said we'd give this another shot
on the condition that we'd both fucked up
but i'm the only one that's in the dog house
and i'm not strong enough for the both of us
you've packed your things into your car
i've begged and cried in parking lots
we've done this several times this month
but i don't want to call it off
cause i know this season is a trigger 
let's just blame it on the weather 
cause i don't want to sleep one night
without you this December
December, December
lets just blame it on the weather
cause i know that this season for you baby it can be a trigger
December, December
lets just blame it on the weather
cause i don't want to sleep one night
without you this December

i know this season is a trigger (dash)

bloodshot

semtex (prod. daruis)

hugmark (harvest + starshower + atrxyu)

deadwood collective

Lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t even wanna go outside
I just wanna stay right here in my room
A thousand chemicals
Consuming everything I do
I try to show it’s all for you
But these intentions never prove
I have my back up to the wall
And I can feel it falling through

Into the quick sand
Feel it like a sixth sense
I’ve been feeling sick since
You said that you miss me
Plucking the six string
I’m feeling misery
Tryna find a melody
To show you what you did to me
Anxiousness a tendency
That tends to get the best of me
I bite this fucking tongue until it splits upon my bloodied teeth

I don’t even wanna go outside

Nah I’ma keep that shit right here
Stabbing my back u don’t fight fair
No time shared
Like why care
Flippin the script and I’m taking a rip from
I don’t know
I don’t care
You don’t even care when I’m right here
Like right here
I’m right here
Girl can’t you hear me I’m right here

I'll die in this room (prod. wraithontheporch)

produced by @prod-dash
thank you for being here.
be as well as you can be
x

sat in the frozen
tundra of olden
letting it go, but
it want me stolen
fevered yet cold
don't see me walk in
somehow they saw me through the door

it ain't that funny
how's it the people i once put above
amass into nothing
so wrong, to think they could help
subconsciously knew they ain't know me that well
to compel every notion that i've ever felt
enough to be something

thirty minutes is the best i can do
now i'm back with a dome full of hate
can't wait on a sky that'll pass up the day
gotta make this borderless brain unrestrained
i don't sound the same; know if i could i would
put out a piece that could wipe out the rain
shambled in vain
this ain't a life for the vivid
guised in a coat, low is gold for the wicked
i get exposed and the core creates distance
the water is calm, you just gotta listen
gouging the doubt with a sleight word of mouth
from the kid who was taught to bestow this forgiveness

but i'm hittin licks, just a young hypocrite
false bliss to the lip;
ain't trip, won't fold
i'm in my room with the gloom i consume
with a tune that restore all of which that i know

i ain't felt trust like i do,
the ghost of her presence can soothe
forced into wrath, yet was taken aback
apparitions that witness the horror in view
crude to the vision, although to begin with
a soul wouldn't visit this misaligned tomb

won't sleep a wink
'cause the potion i breathe's
about all that i need to replace with a snooze

unamusing that the news is
always brewing something stupid
i rebuke this, got me puking
lacking prudence where the truth is

i couldn't be your anything
i couldn't be your anything
my temper, enamored
and plastered, in glamour
dismembered and shattered
he's scattered in laughter
the after won't seem to take him,
this plothole's been forsakened,
left stagnant and stuck waiting
burnt charcoals for the basin

bites
getting bit up in the night
anomalies pleading "arise"
indifferent to those who recline, i
know we coulda been so good
now i'm kneeling deep into soot
sight aligned where she had stood
idealism misunderstood

rainbreaker (dash)

baby i know (prod. killedmyself)

I Should Leave Now

ᴅᴇᴀᴅᴡᴏᴏᴅ

prod. web

yeah i blame it on the drugs but it must be something else
writing lyrics bout my life with a gun on top my shelf
i dont got no one talk to man i really need some help
i just dont wanna put my feelings all on top of someone else

everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss

I guess I’ll sit up in my car
Puffing loud in rerolled cigars
When you look back, is it ever fondly?
I get cold and nights just get long
I get sick of making these songs
When nothing hits the way that I want
Nothing feels the way that it was
I don’t think I’m fit for the part

everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss

You know
Everything about me
And you pick me
All apart
I’ll go
Everywhere that you go
Until you burn it
All to tar


everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss
(2x)

I said to stay away because I can’t give what u take
I’m compressing and my head thinks maybe we just need a break
Okay?
I gave it all away
I tend to face the flames
I never bend, I break
So say it’s all okay
I guess you found the fucking cracks up in this armor
I harbor all the hatred you have given for a whole year straight
Yet you negotiate
The price upon my fate
I’d trade it all for heaven
But you will never take


clearing my head

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I Should Leave Now

dash

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