"Don't tell me that you're sorry when you were never there for me"

halfway to 10k already...once we get there, this song might go on spotify and i also might see if promoting sounds would like to promote my song 😁

teeth straight but my smile not w/ lxst boy (prod. raspy)

something simple | feat. mishaal (prod. apes prod)

Written by Senzu, Lxst Boy 
Produced by Heydium
Mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

Lyrics

Senzu
[Verse]
she was girl from july,
the type with light blue eyes,
the type that drew you close, and made you love her 
like the most
im so sorry i left
if i could do it again
id probably stay, but then id leave cus
the good things fade away

[Hook]
i, went through so many sleepless nights
just to make sure that you're alright, just to make sure
that you'd stay mine
i, did everything i tried
just to say you weren't defined,
by the lies i told to you

Lxst Boy
[Verse]
i told so many lies in the past, yeah
i dont wanna fight, wanna make it all right, yeah
everytime i speak, realize its bad timing
feel im drowning, these sleepless nights
got a hold of me again
lxst my future, lxst my friend
i wont ever sleep again
when i shut my eyes i see you with him

Sleepless Nights Ft Lxst Boy [Heydium]

cry me a river (prod. w00ds & Roiael)

Star

Today, I realized I've been letting myself down.

Jan 17 (Excuses)

(Cover by WOMBO]
little something i wrote in 5 minutes lol
enjoy <3
lyrics:
[Verse 1]
yeah, don't tell me that ur sorry when you were never there for me, don't tell me that ur sorry when you didn't notice me, never give apologies if you don't care about me, don't even hit up my phone if ur just gonna ghost me, just leave me be, stop trying to be friendly when all u are is mean, im just a lonely teen, writing sad songs behind a screen, quit acting tough or i'll pull out the beam, yeah.

[Verse 2]
yeah, im just a lonely teen, writing sad songs behind a screen, i wish i didn't have to rely on caffeine, i just miss the days when u were my queen, now im gonna end it all and overdose on codeine, yeah, im broken like a machine, started neglecting my health, im no longer clean, i am only 14 but i'll smoke up all of this green, all of ur words sting me like a vaccine.

Sorry [Prod. JUST A KID]

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

what am i hoping for
maybe an open door
a sign
an answer or something
i’m always fine and then i’m not
i never know when it’s coming
i’m out of touch with my senses
i got mistakes that replay in my mind
filled with anxiety built around time it don’t matter the tenses
it don’t matter the tenses
whether it’s past present or future i see it ending
i feel stupid
talk to my therapist you never cared n shit
i was the one that was there n shit
i never thought i could talk because pointing out flaws always felt like a heresy

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

when i blow up
when this shit done
imma be myself
not for anyone
but that old me
that you knew way back
well he not the same
now he bout this cash
imma bring it back
only for my fam
if you used to know me
then you just a fan
i don’t give a fuck
this ain’t no luck
i put in the work to get out the mud
i don’t give a fuck what you think
i can’t put my mind to it if i ain’t making bands with it
not too long fore i look at my wrist and diamonds dance with it
i been way too modest now i’m just being honest
pay attention to the profit
and now my new girl a goddess

my new girl a goddess
i feel like i'm dying
i feel like i'm dying

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion

apologies (prod. jabarionthebeat x shah x jelly x alek)

Lyrics

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

feature: matego // produced by: caps ctrl & xsus

my last goodbye w/ matego (Caps Ctrl & Xsus)

I never left that classroom
Your ankles on my shoulders
Bodies turning over
And over again
Pitting flesh against flesh
I could scream if you didn't take away my breath
While we were touching, teasing, tasting, taking
And I could already feel my heart break
And still I burnt out my lungs on words like "forever"
And now that I'm older I guess I know better

I gave you the very best parts of me
What little I had to offer
So you can go home 
And I'll get stoned
And we'll forget about the heart inside your locker

Neighbor

unreleased album coming soon......(@https://soundcloud.com/496records)

Sorry [Prod. JUST A KID]

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