Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Mamoru &1kurane 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow, angelsofsorrows, & JoshIGuess 
Mastered by: @joshiguess 
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow 

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

[Post-Chorus]
Spending all my time 
Tryna make him mine
But my smile never shines
Because I'm too shy 
To tell him the truth

[Verse]
I'm making songs 
So I don't end it 
Starting a new wave 
But I know I'm gonna bend it
(Bend it)
If it's a new style 
I gotta blend it
Masking my feelings 
To hide the truth but

[Bridge]
I feel butterflies
When I see him
I wanna look 
Cute for him

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
Oh Oh Oh
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

I Wanna Look, Cute For Him (Prod. Mamoru & 1kurane)

DIRTY NACHOS

PLAYER IN ME

Yeah, shoutout master splinter
Jumpin' out the subway 
yeah, starving for so damn long
But I still got that weight, doing lines off of plates 
Don't know why I did it in the first place

Baby girl lets skip past the first base 
I need your love yeah just a taste 
I got pills all on my face
I pop one more I hope it's laced

Suicde notes that I scribbled and I ripped out 
Everybody really think that they got it all figured out (yeah)
In my lyrics yea no doubt 
Prolly about to end it all right now 
All right now, yea all right now (yea)
Maybe that would change if I only had one call
From anyone at all
(yeah) jump up off that bridge and see how far I fall 

I don't end it cause I need to help the gang
Can't die till I get a lil bit of fame 
Another legend going out dying in vain
But I feel the drugs circling through my veins 
Something feels off, something feels strange
I can feel my heart start to race 
I can't feel my face
I pop pills and hope they laced

Crashing through the atmosphere, coming back down to earth 
Poison in my veins girl you know it hurts 
Said you also wanna die, told me go first
I'm out of time cause my heart just burst
Diggin up my grave just to jump in head first
Every single day it's just getting worse
Free me of this curse 
My hearts gonna burst

Laced (Suicide Note No.1)

hey bry?
yea? 
how come you have a gun?
Idk.
It's just weird you know I mean, your the last person anybody would expect to have a gun.
Why have it if your not gonna use it? 
Look, I really don't wanna talk about this with you Stewie. 
I keep it in case... I ever wanna commit suicide.. ok
But why Brian?
I don't know um.. sometimes.. it's all, just too much..

Hole in my chest
So I gotta wear a vest
I needed you to know I loved you more than less
All these suicidal notes are making me depressed 
I'm gonna take my life from the rest 
I can't take this anxiety and stress
Beat me up, I'm used and oppressed
I'm one usless fucking depressed -
Piece of shit arrogant, that's to say the less

Poppin' one more pill
Hope that it's the last one 
I'm at my limit
Then I went and add one 
Why would he do that
Guess the lyrics were exact 
I tried multiple times yea, that a fact
He's never coming back 
Never again 
Never coming back no 
Never again
Hardest part is saying goodbye my friends 
Sorry my friends I gotta go
Cuz' this bottle's getting full - 

I don't know it- sometimes it's, it's all too much.
What is? 
Life, everything. 
I-I-I don't quite understand why your so unhappy?
Yesterday when you said I don't live with purpose.. 
You were right, I don't.
And that bottle of scotch? 
I was- saving it for my last drink..
I don't know what to say, wanting to kill yourself-

Why would he do that
Guess the lyrics were exact 
I tried multiple times yea, that a fact
He's never coming back 
Never again 
Never coming back no 
Never again
Hardest part is saying goodbye my friends 
Sorry my friends I gotta go
Cuz' this bottle's getting full -

Suicide note no.2

Written by: Kurumi Violet
Produced by: drma & 80root
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Sample from: https://youtu.be/GaT1GftoqV0?si=nkKyBWjEugnmGMFH
Artwork by: Scaramouche40 from Pinterest
Artwork Edited by: Kurumi Violet

[Intro]
Breaking free of the chains
I'm sick of bleeding for experiments sake
All the blood they take 

[Chorus]
Leaves me craving the taste of blood
I'm a psychopath 
I'm a Phantom 
I'm a deadly sin 
Wrath is taking over me
I win this battle 
But I'll lose the war

[Verse]
Changes to my core
Leaves me suffering in silence 
What have I truly become
A monster or something much worse?
Either way I just wanna understand 
What I have become 
WHAT HAVE I BECOME 

[Chorus]
Leaves me craving the taste of blood
I'm a psychopath 
I'm a Phantom 
I'm a deadly sin 
Wrath is taking over me
I win this battle 
But I'll lose the war

[Outro: Phainon trailer "Coronal Radiance" Honkai Star Rail]
Phainon:
Why did you....?
TAKE THEM ALL AWAY
FROM ME

Girl from trailer:
May this world never again need a deliver 

Phantom (Prod. drma & 80root)

i didn't lose, i jus ain't wont yet!
produced by buggy

sh3d! (+buggy)

i know this a bad idea
shouldn't make another song
but i want to cus what else am i gon do bruh
rot?
nothing i can do is gonna slow this down
death coming i cant do shit but js sit and take it bro
this not fair do you think i really wanna do this bro?
why the fuck am i the person dealing with this shit?
maybe someone else has gone thru it but im just a kid
yeah im barely 21 and im calling it quits
i dont know what to do except sit and be a bitch
oh..
like i said i shouldn't do this
making myself worry and ill probably make my hearing worse
MAKE MY HEARING BURST
DONT KNOW WHAT IM WORTH
GOD PUT ME ON EARTH
SO I COULD WATCH AND LEARN
BUT I NEVER LEARN
I MAKE MYSELF WORSE
EVERYDAY IT HURTS
SHOULD I PUT IN WORK?
why am i asking anyway? not gonna do anything
ill always think i deserve my pain
BECAUSE I DO!
i start fights online just because im bored...
i call people online "poor"...

maybe i need god to strike me down
maybe i should quit my fucking streak of being a fucking clown
so many people online dont know how they tough it out
why dont they deal with what i do? im gon crash out.

i know this a bad idea
you such an idiot...
shouldn't make another song
but i want to cus what else am i gon do bruh
hypochondriac check my fucking back 
cause i think im finna stab it, myself
why the hell am i making songggggs?????
for no one to listen to em.. ?
no ones gonna be there when i die
im a DEAF SERAPH i dont know why i try
what chu sayin? you dont try.
i stay up every night
one meals enough, right??? :')
i dont feel alive
i wonder what im gonna do next to fucking cooope
for the next TEN YEARS like ive done my whole damn road
neglecting every part of my body till im BROKE
so i could watch and learn
but i never learn
i make myself worse
everyday it hurts
at this point i wanna call it quits to stop HURTING.

hypochondriac! prod @guidocaramelli

I can't open up
Open up my -
eyes

Girl you fucking caught-
Me 
In your web of liessss
In your web of lies

I still feel your love when I- 
Close my eyes
I'll just stare at your disguise
You won't let me in 
But your words are weaponized
When you speak I'm petrified
Turn to stone when we meeting eyes
Hope I'll see you on heavens side

Stuck up in your web for the rest of my life
Stuck up in your web
Stuck up in my head
Think I'd rather be dead
Then to be stuck in this liar-
Liar, Liars web 
Wouldn't you rather me dead

Instead, doubled down 
Thicken your thread
I'll never break free from this liars web

I still feel your love when I- 
Close my eyes
I'll just stare at your disguise
You won't let me in 
But your words are weaponized
When you speak I'm petrified
Turn to stone when we meeting eyes
Hope I'll see you on heavens side

Stuck up in your web for the rest of my life
Stuck up in your web
Stuck up in my head
Think I'd rather be dead
Then to be stuck in this liar-
Liar, Liars web 
Wouldn't you rather me dead

Instead, doubled down 
Thicken your thread
I'll never break free from this liars web

liars web (when i close my eyes) prod michael harrison

White Lily - Kāishǐ Feat. prod. deaf

produced by prod.deaf !!!!!!!

lyrics:

Reset my processors,
Put me to sleep.
This caffeine and bad temper's
All that I need.
Wolves in my head
Wearing skins of the sheep 
I count undeserving,
Then rinse and repeat.

Snakes in the grass
Of the garden
I'm guarding. 
Serpent eyes
In the mirror
Every morning. 
Heads of spies
To use as a warning, 
"Round up the troops
And ready your army."

Hear the signal 
And shoot on my word. 
Some will leave, some will stay,
Some will turn. 
Leave the man with your name
In the dirt,
Watch the life that you lived
As it burns. 

Don't feel safe,
The words you say
Just feel like bombs droppin'.
I've been bloodied,
I've beaten,
But I'm not stoppin'.
Say you're fine
From behind 
Enemy lines.
Initiate 
Your protocol,
Its about time

You leave 
Me here
So sick,
And in fear.
While piece 
By piece
The image 
Clears.
And your voice
In my head
Turns a pain
In the neck.
And the picture 
We painted 
Changes 
And fast.

Snakes in the grass
Of the garden
I'm guarding. 
Serpent eyes
In the mirror
Every morning. 
Heads of spies
To use as a warning, 
"Round up the troops
And ready your army."

Reset my processors,
Put me to sleep.
This caffeine and bad temper's
All that I need.
Wolves in my head
Wearing skins of the sheep 
I count undeserving,
Then rinse and repeat.


sleeper in the sleeper cell (+deaf)

Written by: Kurama Violet 
Produced by: taymxru
Mixed & Mastered by: Kurama Violet 
Artwork From: Horimiya 
Artwork Edited by: Kurama Violet 

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
My brother you made me laugh 
You make me happy
Brothers forever 
It will always be forever

[Bridge]
Everyone tryna switch on you 
But just know I'm here for you bro
You're one of the few 
That understands me the most
& I won't let you go
No matter what 

[Verse]
I'm not tryna boast just want you to know 
That I care about you 
People leaving you over crocodile tears 
When there's no evidence to even prove it
3 years have passed 
& You've made my life better 
By being in it 

[Chorus]
My brother you made me laugh 
You made me cry
& You make me happy
Brothers forever 
It will always be forever

[Outro]
Thank you for your presence 
Thank you for everything 
You've done for me
Whether it be helping me with my songs
Or helping me with having someone there to listen 
I'll always be here for you 
My brother Angel 

hypochondriac! prod @guidocaramelli

prod. deaf

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