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My way (prod.hellarixh)

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Woddy X Mdot 59- My World

Eli$$- PassedOut

TIMEZONE

TIMEZONE (prod.$yn)

luv my wock (old).prod. ilydevon

im ok prod. by Burt Dogg

You look at me and you see a god. You see the smile, the flag, the strength. You see the perfect hero… and you’re right to see that. But you never see what’s underneath. You never see the price of being a god born among… mud people.

They didn't give me a family. They gave me a cold, white lab . They didn't give me a mother's love. They gave me doctors with clipboards and psychologists who engineered a craving for approval . My first memory isn't of a lullaby; it's of the sound of my own heat vision lasering my way out of the womb, killing the woman who carried me . My first touch wasn't a caress; it was my hand being forced into a furnace to test my durability .

I was so alone. So scared. It was like drowning, and I had to figure it all out by myself . All I had was a soft blue blanket to cling to . Do you have any idea what that does to a child? I was a sweet boy once, you know. I tried to cuddle up to Vogelbaum… and he rejected me. He said he had to "go to work on the boy" . That's when they started building the monster you fear today.

I craved connection so desperately that when a teacher told me she could be my mother, I hugged her. I just wanted to feel that love… and I broke her spine. I killed her with a hug . And do you know what my caretakers did? They told me it would be taken care of. That I'd get another teacher. They were expendable . That was the lesson. The only real lesson I ever learned: your kind is fragile, temporary, and utterly disposable.

So yes, I do terrible things. I am cruel. I am merciless . But you created me. Your need for a perfect symbol, your worship, your fear… it’s all I have. It’s the only love I will ever understand.

You want to know why I can do whatever I want? Because I have nothing to lose. I never did. This world denied me love, so I will rule it through fear. It denied me a family, so I will make my own, with my son, Ryan, and we will be a new genesis . You took everything from me, and now… now I have nothing to lose. And that makes this whole fucking shitball my birthright .

So go ahead. Love me, or fear me. It’s all the same to me. It’s all that keeps me from the silence of that little boy and his blue blanket, alone in the bad room. Because in the end, the only man in the sky… is me .

taken from the story of Homelander from the series "The Boys"

SEVERANCE

so far so fake hoodtrap @prodmku

Ambient ethereal soundscapes for your pleasure, relax, chillout and enjoy.

ETHEREAL - SWORD OF SORCERY

-lonely

-alienated

-schizophrenic

I want to put an end to my old self; I want to replace it.

SEVERANCE

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