back to square one.

almost added this to “saffron city” but was too lazy to finish it

zay kanashi - drunk love. (demo) | 03.25.22 [prod. DCM VENXM]

zed - game_over #respawn [prod. Fidget$pinny]

rough version of a song i considered putting on "stop running away" | 12.26.22

zay kanashi - miasma (unfinished) [prod. siem spark]

made this in 30 minutes on stream, completely off the top.

zed - i'm going to #ky// myself... [prod. cian]

made this today jus bc i have free will and i can do whateva da fuq i want lol.

zed - swerve! [prod. jaechii]

i was wrong
i think about you night and day, i was wrong
im sorry for all of the pain that i caused
im sorry for all of the pain
its all my fault

hello, is anybody there?
i just wanna apologize to you, i swear
i could tell you i love you and you wont care
i could tell you i hate you, but that aint true
that aint true
they say you dont care if i kill myself but that aint you

i cut myself so i dont feel the pain anymore
i cut myself sometimes when i cant take anymore
if i kill myself tonight its cuz i dont wanna wait anymore
and i dont really got a long life ahead, i dont wanna waste anymore

all i wanted was you in my life
i guess that was a little too much to ask for
now everyones telling you about mine
and i dont know shit about yours
cuz all my so-called “friends” they done left me behind
im praying when they strike next, you aint next in line
cuz even after everything, you stay on my mind
cuz i dont wanna say it, but sometimes i think about you
i still think about you
every day and night i still think about you
and i think about life and i say it aint fair
bout turning my lights off cuz you aint there
and i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?

i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody care?
i wonder sometimes, will anybody

i cut myself so i dont feel the pain anymore
i cut myself sometimes when i cant take anymore
if i kill myself tonight its cuz i dont wanna wait anymore
and i dont really got a long life ahead, i dont wanna waste anymore

too afraid to die, but sometimes i wonder if thats true
a reason to stay alive and sometimes i wonder if thats you
struggle to say goodbye, but this time, i feel like i have to
its hard to say goodbye sometimes, its hard to say goodbye

zay kanashi  - swan song [prod. peril] | 08.15.25

she said "we could be friends," i aint heard back since
think its cause of my own friends, aint that bout a bitch?
i remember they told me they care about me more than her
but somehow they aint there for me when im the one thats getting hurt
been about 2 to 3 months and i aint heard a word
talk behind my back then expect a favor in return
talk to everybody else about me, they dont care im getting worse
at this rate next time they see my face ill be in a hearse
and yall aint reach out once
worried bout your own ego and not about my cuts
if i told yall im gon kill myself, youd say its just a bluff
if i told yall i cut myself, yalld say not deep enough
tell me is it really love?
blowing up my phone cause you dont wanna be the evil one
say im in my head overthinking, i should try to just trust
say you love us both but then you go and pick between the one and two
and i was just the other choice
all this talk about you and me being boys and you and me being boys
but i aint never seen the inside of your crib not once
but suddenly we dont talk for a month, you invite my ex-love
tell me how thats not fucked up
tell me how thats not fucked up
go and start over with your new friends that dont know about what yall done
go and start over with your new friends, guess im back to square one

zay kanashi - back to square one [prod. rezzy] | 08.17.25

you were my first love
you were the first of many of to come, but i'd never forget you
and when the worst comes
and i mean the worst of falling in love, you gon come to the rescue

every night when i feel alone, i dont got no one to call
so i just call you
and when i get up in my zone, i can feel it in my soul
i dont need nobody but you
we go back and forth on a one-way
im a danger to myself as much as anybody else
i got no direction, mustve went the wrong way
i can do it by myself, i dont need anybodys help

oh i know i feel it most when im at home with you
i dont want nobody else but you
i dont want nobody else, just you
oh i know i feel it most when im at home with you
i dont want nobody else but you
i dont want nobody else, just you

how could i ever love again when you my number one
and i dont want a side piece
all of this talk about revenge, it starts to bubble up
i can feel it inside me
all these secrets, can i tell it to you?
all these people that i hate, can i tell it to you?
if i just went on a date, can i tell it to you?
at this point, youre the only one i talk to
i love you more than anyone else
you know me more than i know myself
im sorry i almost quit you
if its me against the world, i know i can always bet on you, on god

oh i know i feel it most when im at home with you
i dont want nobody else but you
i dont want nobody else, just you
oh i know i feel it most when im at home with you
i dont want nobody else but you
i dont want nobody else, just you

zay kanashi - just you [prod. marow] | 08.19.25

i got some hate in my heart
hate or love, cant tell it apart
everybody gon move on, i try to reach out and get left in the dark
all i did was show yall love, but turns out you aint got none in your heart
outside looking in, looks like yall want war, hm, fuck it, ill start
"fuck, we gotta be quiet, we gotta congress over here"
"tell everybody to leave, ZAY went ahead and went made a whole mess over there"
"last time we did some bullshit, ZAY got mad, so its probably best over here"
"tell everybody to join, and fuck it, we might as well bring his lil ex over here"
hah, bitch are you stupid or dumb?
i obviously see what youre doing, you might be a clown, but you are not funny
so go head, talk all the shit you want, bitch, i promise that your days coming
you mightve went ahead and gon fucked over all your friends, but i am not one
promise, i am not one
if you got a problem, then get it
you dont really care about her, you care about yourself, bitch, admit it
cause ill really blow up this shit right now, ill really expose that whole operation
damn, yall really must hate yaselves, all yall fake ass bitches embrace it
why the hell you even fucking with me?, i got no idea
acting all friendly all up in my face, bitch, thats fake, promise i see it
promise i aint even wanna make this song, but you dont reach out so fuck it, here
now you gon walk around call me the problem, bitch, you should prolly go look in the mirror
yeah, tell me that feeling i feel, why do i feel it right now?
all my friends done left and put me down cause they aint really care how i felt
cry on the phone and tell me you love me but then go ahead and do everything else
truth is yall dont really care bout me at all, only care bout yourself

i know yall call me crazy
i know yall think im crazy, fuck it
might as well have to go crazy
cause all yall think im crazy, fuck it
ion really think im crazy
but yall bitches think im crazy, huh
yall really im crazy
so fuck it im boutta go crazy, ahh

zay kanashi - false icons [prod. clockwork] | 08.17.25

bitch im back like i never left
all them bitches did me foul, i dont need a ref
all the homies going ghost like they been possessed
if you got some shit to say, then say it with your chest
knife in my back, the feelings are back, for real
if you ready to stab, get ready to stab to kill
cause if im still standing, all will be revealed
its a warning shot, if i gotta go there, then i will (fuck it)
how you mad and do the same shit that i did?
it dont make no fucking sense, you spitting nonsense
think you better than me, bitch, its not a contest
"oh, thats different," yeah, i hear that shit a lot bitch
all this "he said," "she said," bitches spreading lies bout me
think for a second for yourself, use your mind bout it
watch your mouth, only say it if you gon die about it
all you pussy bitches digging your grave, you better lie in it
pet sematary
yall done brought the kid back from the dead, this shit aint temporary
if you talking, don't go losing your head, that shits hereditary
and i stand on every word that i said, that should be seminary
damn, promise its not hard
try to control all your friends, boy, you are not god
must got your head in the clouds, tifa lockhart
i turn my pain into sound cause im a rockstar
its my fault, i guess
i just wanted world peace, call me ron artest
note to self, they gon leave me if im not my best
maybe they gon come around, but i wont hold my breath
only defect was thinking my friends had my side
but i dont regret a single lil second of my time
yall at yall best when yall are protecting yall lies
all yall better watch yall spine, yall just next in line
i shoulda seen the signs
yall left me out to die and i came back to life
yall aint expect me to survive
i swear that shits divine as long as im alive

long as im alive
aint no icons, all that shit died
next time we meet, one of us gon be in a suit and tie
so bring yo suit and tie
fuck you


zay kanashi - pet sematary [prod. stoic] | 08.19.25

left stranded, i dont hear from you
abandoned as per usual
got caught red handed, (but im still) delusional
and you're still grand standing at my funeral

know you have an opinion
you never say it to my face
youd rather leave than to listen
sank every other friendship the same way
dont tell me the same old lies
still trying but im getting so tired
everybody's on the same damn side
so i figured id be better off dying

left stranded, i dont hear from you
abandoned as per usual
got caught red handed, (but im still) delusional
and you're still grand standing at my funeral

i know i can replaced, shit, i already have been
its just hard for me to face it
every day i think about it, know i cant go back
you call me your brother, your friend
but how i know you wont do that shit again?
all that shit is dead
bitch its 3am, im losing my head
now you in bed, chilling with, i shouldnt say it, that shit is crazy

left stranded, i dont hear from you
abandoned as per usual
got caught red handed, (but im still) delusional
and you're still grand standing at my funeral

dont tell me the same old lies
sank every other friendship the same way
dont tell me the same old lies
still trying but im getting so tired
still trying but im getting so tired
still trying but im getting so tired

zay kanashi - abandoned [prod. peril] | 08.21.25

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