Sometimes you get stuck in a downward spiral, but that feels like where you’re comfortable, and where you belong. And you’re not exactly sure where the bottom is. Are you going to find it?

02 What I Deserve

It’s about weakness. How there’s no way to apologize for being too weak to function. How someone can hide it for so long until it becomes unbearable. How it puts strain on others that have to keep you strong. And how maybe they’re all better off without you.

05 I'm Sorry

This is about how internal wounds can change who you are as a person. Loss, grief, and depression, especially when left unacknowledged and untreated can fester. I feel like I’ve lost some of the best, most vibrant parts of myself to these struggles, and when that happens, it’s hard to recognize yourself

04 Left With Pieces

Sometimes it’s a LOT easier to just pretend that life isn’t real, and you’re happier living in a peaceful landscape of dreams and memories. And sometimes the allure of a different, albeit “pretend”, reality is too strong to resist. 

03 Pretend

This is the same story from two opposite viewpoints. It’s when you’re so broken, you come to the conclusion you can’t be fixed. And those who are closest to you, who have been trying to help, finally arrive at the same conclusion that you can’t be fixed. And it all comes to a head in the chorus conversation. You’re both lost, helpless, and resigned to a fate of helplessness.

01 You Can't Fix Me

This song is a trip through a downward spiral. Dealing with depression on a regular basis, but a new wave comes that’s more powerful than the last. But you’ve dealt with it for so long that you ignore the warning signs, and you’re lulled into a false sense of security thinking “I’ve pulled through this before, I can pull through it again”. This time is different, but you’re naively unaware. Slowly but surely, you’re lead down a path of withdrawing from the life around you, and by the time you realize how far down you’ve gone, it’s too late.

06 Waiting for Death to Begin

Scared to Ask

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Blame Me
"Disconnected: Special Edition"
© Copyright 2017

-Lyrics-
(Verse 1)
I see a face I don't recognize::..
Calloused by your mask of lies::..
I've come to expect the worst::..
Don't tell me you'll put me first::..
I'm terrified but not backing down::..
Overthrow your tainted crown::..
I tried everything to make it work::..
When I leave you I hope it hurts::..
(Chorus)
I see the lightning in your eyes::..
I feel it haunt me every time::..
That you blame me::..
You blame me tonight::..
(Verse 2)
I turn around and what do I see::..
Hallowed eyes stare back at me::..
I used to think I'd get out alive::..
Even with your twisted knife::..
No I can't take this anymore::..
You've always done this before::..
I need you to remove::..
This blade from me::..
(Chorus)
(Bridge)
I won't need you anymore::..
I won't believe you::..
(Chorus)

Disconnected: Special Edition

Blame Me

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Live Forever
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
Will you smile through the pain, frozen by shadows that await?
We weave the patterns of our ways to be blindsided by the pace
decreasing number of our days. Go numb, my mind is empty.

[Chorus]
This wound is mine to cauterize. I feel in time it’ll break me
I live my life believing if love could keep you alive you would’ve lived forever. 
You would’ve lived forever.

I was breaking my back so you could feel the same
I was hoping and praying that we could share the pain you had been going through. 
I tried everything. I wasn’t ready. I couldn’t let you go. 
We weave the patterns of our ways to be blindsided by the pace
Decreasing number of our days. Go numb, my mind is empty.

[Chorus x 2]

Kenopsia

Live Forever

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War On Falling Stars
"Disconnected: Special Edition"
© Copyright 2017

The way it surrounds us, no light to graze your skin again. The way it has bound us, like a clock, our time is winding thin.

[pre chorus] I don't want to live my life by your beliefs. I don't want to be caught up in vanity. I don't want to swallow pills you offer me. I just need to suppress these memories.

[chorus] I think I've already lost you now, every trace disappeared somehow. I think I've already lost you to the war on falling stars. 

Embracing the darkness, telling you that it'll be ok. But it's more than harmless. This disease will rip your soul away.

[pre chorus]

[chorus] 

I know there's no escape from these allies becoming enemies. I know there's no redemption, 'cause I've already lost, I think I've already lost you now. 

[chorus]

War On Falling Stars

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Dirt On Your Grave
"Disconnected"
© Copyright 2017

Lyrics

"Rest in peace", the preacher concludes his speech as you lay out of reach. One by one, the dirt your loved ones held in their hands is released. 

[pre chorus] So many things I wish I could say. but you can't hear them when you're so far away. I can't accept the fact that you're gone.

[chorus] I will commit the act that conveys my choice to admit that you're not here today. Dirt clenched in my fist, I face away. I will not submit and put the dirt on your grave.

It's been eight weeks, and I'm sorry I haven't come to talk things out with you. Living life without your perfect smile has been difficult to do. 

[pre chorus]

[chorus]

Your scent still lingers where I lay my head to sleep. I can almost feel your fingers, but they're just beyond my reach. And I still hear you laughing...at least that's how it seems. And I still see you, but it's only in my dreams. Your ghost, it hovers over me. I need my sanity.

I will commit the act that conveys my choice to believe that I'll see you again. Dirt clenched in my fist, standing in the rain, I'll finally submit and put the dirt on your grave.

Dirt On Your Grave

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Fight
"Disconnected: Special Edition"
© Copyright 2017

-Lyrics-

Living in your own shattered dreams that nobody sees, I can't shake the irony of moving on to better things. You know what it brings. Does he answer violently?

(you gotta fight)

Don't be afraid to break away and fight to breathe another day.

Pulling back the shroud to reveal things time couldn't heal, you can show your scars to me. Let me take you up to a place where we can erase all this negativity.

(you gotta fight)

Don't be afraid to break away and fight to breathe another day.

Living under all the pressure. Break me down, I cannot let you.

Don't be afraid to break away and fight to breathe another day.

Fight

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Everything You Hate
"Disconnected: Special Edition"
© Copyright 2017

-Lyrics-
Looks like the time has come to pull the plug on the weak. Your independence gone, control is not what it seems. It's time to rise up and take it into the streets. The life support is cut, the transformation complete.

[pre chorus] My actions don't seem so clean. You're out there pulling the strings.
Anything in a cage that couldn't hold has escaped and it's out of your control. Everything you ever hoped that you could be only exists in a fake reality.

[chorus] You and I are one in the same. One reflection bound by different names. Recognize that you have become everything you hate, everything you hate.

Master manipulate, I'm nothing more than a slave. I must capitulate and start to dig my own grave. It's time to die and be the person you've come to hate. I have come to see the futility of the brave. 

[pre chorus]

[chorus]

Cut the cords, cut the cords (that bind you)...
cut the cords and be free.

[chorus]

Cut the cords, cut the cords (that bind you)...
cut the cords and be free.

Everything You Hate

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Never Let Her Go
"Disconnected: Special Edition"
© Copyright 2017

-Lyrics-
Missing dawn, I’m feeling like a piece of me is gone. 
Feigning strong. Let the past burn in the light of all that went wrong

[Chorus] If you ever find the one you think you love, don’t ever let her go, no never let her go.
And if you can decide she’s the one you’re dreaming of, don’t ever let her go, no never let her go.

Close the wound. No way to start again now that I’ve seen this side of you.
The pain that grew made me fall apart and what I want is slipping through

[Chorus]

No, do not ever let her go. Don’t ever, no never, don’t ever let her go.

[Chorus]

Never Let Her Go

Blame Me (Acoustic)

War On Falling Stars (Acoustic)

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Delude Yourself
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
Revealing the violence hidden up your sleeve, I sit in the silence just to watch you leave
A comfortable sadist only wants to be in control of their victim, and to watch them bleed

(so face away)

[Chorus] 
So face away when you’re breaking me down again
Delude yourself to think your demons are your friends
You’re destroying my soul again
Delude yourself to think you’re happy in the end

Concealing the cries that you don’t want to hear, a plea for assistance falls on deaf ears
Annihilative demons want you to lead a life in denial in the world they made 

[Chorus]

You can’t decide what’s in your head, you will not overcome
You can’t defend from hopelessness, you will be overrun… So run

You can’t decide what will live inside of your head, you will not overcome.

[Chorus]

Delude Yourself

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Watch You Leave
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
[Chorus]
I’m gonna fall. I’m gonna let you down.
I’ll lose it all. I’m tired of reaching out for somebody else other than me.
I’m gonna let you down, I’m gonna watch you leave.

I’m awake in a nightmare, paralyzed by a constant fear.
I’ve been waiting for so long to tell you…I’ve been waiting for so long to let you know I’ve let this go.

[Chorus]

Prototypical moment - it’s so visceral and surreal.
I’ve been waiting for so long to fail you. I’ve been waiting for so long to let you know I can’t let go.

[Chorus]

Have to make an attempt to see through colors spinning around inside your head.
I started making amends that lead to clarity of seeing red.

[Chorus]

Watch You Leave

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Calm Within the Storm
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
There’s a muted plea inside my mind to influence me to take back my life.
Give me strength to change what I can’t accept.
Distant memories clinging to the edge.

There is no warrant to grant me strength. I am the on who holds the pain.

[Chorus]
I’m running away, I’m running away from anything I thought I was before.
Go through every day, go through every day 
regretting that I never made the time I needed to take in everything and feel the calm within the storm.

Lay waste to the seeds of a desperate hope, watch what I believe go up in smoke
Helping me forget what I should recall. Distant memories screaming through the fall.

There is no warrant to grant me strength. I am the one who holds the pain.

[Chorus x 2]

Calm Within The Storm

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Ghost of Myself
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
Sitting here alone I am seeing just a ghost of myself (of myself)
Living as a shell I start feeling like I’ve lost someone else (someone else)

[Chorus]
You had me tearing down my walls for you. I’m finally breaking through all the destruction you left behind.
I built a fortress the mess you made. I learned to love the hate that was so prevalent in my life (in my life)

Burning in my own prison, I can’t escape. I know it hurts like hell (hurts like hell)
No escape I know I am trapped until this hell starts to freeze.

[Chorus]

You had no right to slowly tear me apart piece by piece.
The remnant left is only a ghost of myself haunting me (haunting me)

[Chorus]

Ghost of Myself

Ghost Of Myself

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Don't Feed The Dark
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
I close my eyes as you decompress. A look of anguish I can’t forget. I tried to save you, but there’s nothing left.
I died inside the landslide of your lies. So take a breath.

[Chorus]
Oh you can fight this, you’re hanging on by a thread. Don’t feed the dark that’s taking over.
Have you decided the demons aren’t in your head? Don’t feed the dark that’s taking over you.

It’s inexplicable, it’s haunting me, to watch the light inside you disappear.
Relinquish everything from what you see, ‘cause it’s what you see that I can’t believe.

[Chorus]

Don’t let the darkness take over. Don’t let the darkness take over. Don’t let the darkness take over. Don’t let the darkness take over you.

[Chorus]
(don’t let the darkness take over, don’t feed the dark) That’s taking over you (don’t let the darkness take over, don’t feed the dark). It’s taking over.

Don't Feed The Dark

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Crashing Down
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
I’m keeping watch as far as the eye can see
There’s warnings to heed, machines that you feed eventually.

Waiting for the moment, shaking hands with the unseen
One way conversation, what I wanted it to mean

[Chorus]
So just be careful how you pull at the strings or everything will come crashing down
I feel the thread of life is unraveling and everything has come crashing down around you now

Guided misdirection to befriending a machine
Listless imperfections would spell hopelessness to me

[Chorus]

You finally found your way when you turned the page
Never feeling safe from a mortal rage
Being face to face as death embraces you now

I’m keeping watch as far as the eye can see

[Chorus]

Crashing Down

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Isolated
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
Suffering from this lack of conscience
I will never break the silence in my head

[Chorus]
So isolated. Like it or not it’s not gonna stop for you
So isolated. I know I’m flawed, but it’s not gonna stop for you.

Dig through the ashes of another’s dream, turn a day into a memory.
My body’s moving but my mind is faded. Mimic the motions, get through the day.

[Chorus]

For you.

My body’s moving but my mind is faded.  Mimic the motions, get through the day.

[Chorus]

Isolated

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If I Could
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
I’ve suffered long enough and felt like giving up.
Abandoned my soul so deep in this hole
It’s getting tough to see the hope in front of me. Grip it tight, and set it free for good.

Oh if I could I’d take you everywhere, without you, life just cannot compare. 
Oh if I could I’d take you everywhere, without you, life just cannot compare. 
Oh if I could, if I could…

I can’t seem to move on and accept that you were wronged.
Betrayed by your god without a just cause. 
I’ll take it up with any other entity to take it back and let you breathe again.

Oh if I could I’d take you everywhere, without you, life just cannot compare. 
Oh if I could I’d shoulder all the pain. This life you lived will not be in vain. 
Oh if I could, if I could.

You disappeared in front of me, so why can’t they see that I’m not invincible. I am not invincible.
Oh I’m choking on the empathy expected of me but I’m not invincible. I am not invincible. 

If I could I’d take you everywhere. Without you, life cannot compare. 
Oh if I could I’d shoulder all the pain. This life you lead will not be in vain. 
Oh if I could I’d gladly sacrifice myself for you and trade you my life. 
Oh if I could I’d do it all again, even though I know how it ends. Oh if I could, then I would.

If I Could

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Rise Again
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
Helpless endeavor (give up, give in now)
Shackled and tethered (don’t cope, don’t reach out)

Caught up in the ways, stuck in a cage. 
Been twisted and maimed.
Try to escape before I break

[Chorus]
We’re battered and weakened, nearly defeated
We’ve taken our beatings so we can rise again.

It’s getting dim, the dusk approaches, and we’re losing hope (we’re losing hope)
It’s sinking in, we’re branded by the lies we’re told. Lies we’re told.
Struggles and failures, enduring abuse
A permanent reminder that we can’t take it back.

[Chorus]

Caught up in the ways, stuck in a cage
Been twisted and maimed
Try to escape before I break

[Chorus]

Rise Again

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Buried
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
I’ve been to hell and I’m not back yet. There’s things I’ve felt I can’t forget.
I feel them grip around my neck (it’s getting tighter, oh it’s getting tighter tighter)
It’s getting tighter, oh it’s getting tight around me. And breathing’s harder. Breathing’s getting harder when the lights go out, the lights go out on me. (just so you know, oh just so you know)

[Chorus]
That the hole I’m digging now is too deep, it’s too deep
And I’m never climbing out. I’m too weak, too weak.
And I’ll be buried, I’ll be buried underneath
I’ll be buried, I’ll be buried underneath the weight of my grief

I have those tears that burn my skin. I’m giving up on getting fixed.
I’m suffocating from within (it’s getting harder, oh it’s getting harder harder)
It’s getting harder, oh it’s getting harder to see. I’m fading farther, oh I’m fading farther when the lights go out, the lights go out on me (just so you know, oh just so you know)

[Chorus]

I’ve torn my heart right off my sleeve (I will not let you find me)
I will be buried underneath (I will not let you find me)
I will not let you find me

[Chorus]

Buried

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Reality
"Kenopsia"
© Copyright 2019

-Lyrics-
[Chorus]
Is this reality? ‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be nothing more than a terrifying dream.

Your breath is short, life is fleeting. I’m not ready for mine to take on a different meaning.
Discretion of death—indiscriminate and capricious, like saying fuck it, let’s give a vicious pull at the strings of a puppet that looks and acts and sounds like me, ‘cause I’m the creator, the actor, the animator. 
When everything in life gets harder, we’ll both suffer the fate of a stone dropped in water.

[Chorus]

Crafting a persona, putting on a new face. I’m taking back control of this inanimate case of something that used to smile, something that used to laugh, obsessed with a reality that I can’t go back
Down the hatch goes all the pain that ends up stuck in my throat. I want to push my fingers down inside to make me throw up all the hurt, up all the doubt,
You know it’s gotta come out. But the way we live this life is in pain.

[Chorus]

Vibrant in an instant, ghost adjacent the next. A photo captures life but ignores death’s effects. A spark in the eyes, a gleam in the smile, makes it seem like life might be normal for a while, but it’s not. The norm is now a fight and a struggle hidden behind a slight joke. It’s a juggling act between now and eventual like playing in the rain and the sun hits a puddle—it evaporates and dissipates. Turns out this life is nothing great without you. 

Everything ripped away
It’s harder every day
There’s nothing left to say
I need you with me

Is this reality?

Reality

Established in 2017. Project Vela creates heavy, emotional rock music bolstered by the use of electronic elements.

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