urgency.
prod. takeyouthere

ashwagandha
i'm hoping the pain will soften
downing a couple pills
be glad I don't do this often

overcome with regret
i'm desolate and upset
reminding me that I'm human
just hurry and take effect

my chest hurting, i'm coughing
I feel like a walking coffin
struggling in my room
when you step in, proceed with caution
tears flooding my face

i'm finally out of options

i'm human. i know

emptiness.
prod. phansyphish

promise you'll wait at the gate
I can go now, you're finally safe
what I'm saying is not a mistake
from this point on, imma leave it to fate

I'm trying so hard to climb of the hole
a typical being that's drained of its soul
emotions are null, spend countless days 
being pulled by strings, I don't feel in control

yeah, my hands are a mess
kept biting my fingers and clutching my chest
I smile and laugh, but I'm always depressed
I'm just so tired of playing pretend

I'm so tired of playing pretend
tryna say I'm ok when I'm out with my friends

it's constant regression
you wrapped me up and then left me to spoil
can't move, can't see, can't breathe
this may be the way that I become food for the soil

subconsciously, making distractions
my soul is in question in spite of my actions
spirit is gone, been aimlessly wandering
shackled by all my attachments

til i'm skin n bones

complexity.
prod. 10fold

why now?
looking down at my phone
red hue starts to cover my eyes
as I'm wearing a frown
spent countless nights trying to drown you out
too sudden, you're showing up now
did a hard reset on my brain
now I'm feeling a way that's unusual now
need to set this pace right here
just wondering how

this anger, regret
and bitterness mixed up with sadness
I'm lighting a flame inside of the void
tryna guide myself through all this madness
this pain, it's subtle
just noticed a rise of insurance
there's venom injected throughout each word
with doses of care and assurance (x2)

already went through the stages
so why am I feeling this way?
nothing has practically changed
but this feeling is nowhere the same
can't say that I don't feel scared
my heart sinks at the thought of that day
in a melting pot of emotions
there's so much shit that I wanted to say

this anger, regret
and bitterness mixed up with sadness
I'm lighting a flame inside of the void
tryna guide myself through all this madness
this pain, it's subtle
just noticed a rise of insurance
there's venom injected throughout each word
with doses of care and assurance (x2)

why now?

conflict.
prod. qaeru

go tell your mother bout why you been beefin'
with niggas that lifted you up
don't tell your father bout what you been doin'
you said that it's up then it's stuck
we called you a brother, you left us behind
being petty and dumb, well good luck
you spat in my face then gon say it's all love
bitch, it's not, now I don't give a fuck

your project of passion
increasing detachment
I'm taking the reigns so don't ask me for shit
I'm taken aback
tried to make some requests
after dippin' without even telling us shit
got me all spiteful and added yo opp
what the fuck you gon do?
we crossing paths, just know I ain't shaking yo hand
I'm throwing some hands for the fam
that's something yo ass wouldn't do

forsakened yo ties
having them fighting yo battles
audacious to think that you're tough
don't talk about trust
you said the shit that you said
you tried to go out in cuffs
should've just had a discussion
you left us hangin to dry like we laundry
or better, your cousin
something inside of yo mental can't function
that goes for you and yo bitch
both are crash dummies for dumb shit

better just pray you don't fail like yo dad did
he'd put yo ass in the dirt for this shit
so don't tell him bout where all your friends been
he'd turn yo family to ashes
it's really just sad cuz you can't just accept that you acting like him
you're just overly negative
stuck in your head all the time
but it's fine, bro, I get it, but you gotta quit it
you know we're right but you stuck in the mind
that you better than us
you're really not, man, I'll admit it
you wanna die on this hill
don't go out saying you lonely
when you pushed your friends down the hill
all the support that you had was from us
spit in my face, I'll throw acid in yours,
be mad at me, bitch boy, I don't give a fuck

prick

desire.
prod. qaeru

flesh stuck between your teeth, it left reminders
heart racing cuz you're shackled by a timer
you wanted help with fulfilling your desires
still staring at the ceiling up at night 
endless notions in the dome got you soaking thru the fibers
nails digging in the skin, many ears, pipe down
don't need people tryna peak through the blinders

eyes rolled back
you're too good for me
manifesting thoughts
don't you hide 'em from me
wanna keep this secret
feeling so indecent
anytime you want
you can come to me

eyes rolled back
you're too good for me
manifesting thoughts
don't you hide 'em from me
wanna keep this secret
feeling so indecent
I know that you craved
the thought of f*cking me

pull my hair, grab my ass
thought of marking up my body to my neck
just do anything you want with me
pin me down into the mattress
my legs wrapped around
take your hand and shut my mouth
while you c-

boytoy

bittersweet soliloquies
ig: prtoftheproblem

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