I am Miss self destruction 
I feel so confused
 what if my madness is all self induced 
I am Miss self destruction 
I need to be loved, but I'm lost n' lonely
Please look after me and be my one and only 
I am Miss self destruction 
and these pills are all I got 
and I forget what I forgot 
I am Miss self destruction 
and which path do I take 
to make the same mistake 
I am Miss self destruction 
Solace in mutilation 
I've got no better salvation 
I am Miss self destruction 
When did I get these tattered wilting wings?
I'd still be unhappy with a thousand golden rings 
I am Miss self destruction 
I've always been this way
fragmented words with nothing much to say 
I am Miss self destruction 
 I always take the blame 
While I burn out my own flame 
I am Miss self destruction 
My solutions all are problems 
I wear them as an emblem 
I am Miss self destruction 
psychosis in seduction 
I am Miss self destruction

Miss Self Destruction

Sun Gaze

Democracy is an illusion of choice
 Electing strangers no-one wants
Taxes wasted on military
Blue blood’s biscuits, cups of tea
 There’s no land that’s really free 
We’ve ruined the world, who agrees?
 This can’t go on, I won’t go on,
I can’t get along no I won’t get along
 No I won’t get along today
 We all have free will
 So I’ll swallow any pill
I’m afraid of CCTV 
Everywhere I go their watching me
 Police don’t care about the people
Were just numbers, victimized
worthless shallow statistics
Never there when you need ‘em
 This can’t go on, I won’t go on,
I can’t get along no I won’t get along
 No I won’t get along today
 Hospitals rot and children starve
While soulless glassy buildings grow
Grey is London all around
From the sky to the people to ground
 Making money on misery
Monsanto monstrosity
No beauty in light pollution
No Rock n Roll revolution
 I’ve missed the time where I belong
I resent the future it’s all gone wrong
Maybe I’ll live to see
The down  fall of technology
Teargas, drones and GMO
 Drug cartels is Mexico
Their afraid of what we’ll find
When we open all our minds
 

Not If You Were The Last Tory On Earth

Cover of Jeffrey Lewis The Last Time I Did Acid I went insane

The Last Time I Did Acid I Went Insane (Jeffrey Lewis Cover)

Slacker

Cover of Spiritualized song "Death Take Your Fiddle" from Songs from A&E

Death Take Your Fiddle (Spiritualized Cover)

Cabin Fever (Brian Jonestown Massarce Cover)

The Twelve Steps (Violent Femmes Cover)

Emancipate, invigorate intense imagination 
Educate, obliterate impulsive mutilation 
Incomplete obsolete ingrained manipulation
Indiscreet, Far offbeat stained hallucination 

I'm bored of blacking out
I just can't get a grip
I'm bored of blacking out
My life's just been a trip

Far away, here to stay, my consideration 
Drown decay, thoughts astray, back to alienation 
Full ashtray in early May, what's this suffocation 
replay the railway the train stuck in the station

I'm bored of blacking out
I just can't get a grip
I'm bored of blacking out
My life's just been a trip

barflies and butterflies miscommunication 
Mystify and justify  turn back to addiction 
Electricify and  terrify  ill intoxication 
Simplifiy and amplify crave my creation          
Memorize your disguise trapped in isolation 
Despise your snake eyes stuck in sedation 
Highs die at sunrise we give into temptation 
Recognise and realise this lifeless liberation 

 I'm bored of blacking out
I just can't get a grip
I'm bored of blacking out
My life's just been a trip

BlacKout

Bittersweet love song about Special K 
Produced by Walid Moon 

I got the ketamine blues
It's the life I choose 
Why can't I try and see 
Be happy in reality 

One more line 
Makes me feel fine 
It's all I got that's mine 

I got the ketamine blues
It's the life I choose 
Why can't I try and see 
Be happy in reality 

Delirium 
And halcyon 
I don't care about the sun 

I got the ketamine blues
It's the life I choose 
Why can't I try and see 
Be happy in reality 

Lose control 
Inside that hole 
with darkness to my soul

I got the ketamine blues
It's the life I choose 
Why can't I try and see 
Be happy in reality 

Wonky walks 
and wavy talks 
I tripped I was a horse 
Trade despair for paranoia 
Stay inside 'cus I'd annoy ya 

I got the ketamine blues
It's the life I choose 
Why can't I try and see 
Be happy in reality 

I start to gag 
While I zig-zag
Into a hurling hag 

I got the ketamine blues
It's the life I choose 
Why can't I try and see 
Be happy in reality 


Ketamine Blues

I'm a mermaid man 
I don't who I am 
I'm a mermaid man 
I'm a mermaid man 

One for sorrow, two for joy 
Why was I not born a boy? 

I'm a mermaid man 
I don't who I am 
I'm a mermaid man 
I'm a mermaid man 

Get me off the binary 
Defined by society 

I'm a mermaid man 
I don't who I am 
I'm a mermaid man  
I'm a mermaid man 

I know I'm filled with fear 
From being genderqueer 

I'm a mermaid man 
I don't who I am 
I'm a mermaid man 
I'm a mermaid man 
  
I'll drink my pain away 
Until you call me they 

I'm a mermaid man 
I don't who I am 
I'm a mermaid man 
I'm a mermaid man 

I'm a mermaid man 
I don't who I am 
I'm a mermaid man 
I'm a mermaid man 


Mermaid

Jonesing

Put me in a K-hole 
So I don't have to feel 
Save me alcohol 
I'm a savage animal 

Will I pay death's price 
So I can keep my vice
I got the cold turkey blues 
With nothing left to use

Now puking blood
I blame all the drugs
but being sober sucks 
I'd rather be fucked up

I miss you Valium 
more than any human
Blissful illusion 
Shattered and ruined 

I think that I'm crazy
I know I need saving 
From all these cravings
Slave to the substance 

It's time to say goodbye 
'Cus I don't want to die 
From slow suicide 
Euthenize my mind 


Cold Turkey Blues

Sick City (Charles Manson Cover)

I ain't had a drink for two months straight
but the Lord sure knows I'm thirsty
I've been clean now for 60 days 
But I sure miss being dirty 

Lord help me through 
I'll give myself to you 
Free me of temptation 
Show me salvation 

Guide me through my day
Find me a better way 
Grant me serenity 
Give me a lobotomy 

I ain't had a drink for two months straight
but the Lord sure knows I'm thirsty
I've been clean now for 60 days 
But I sure miss being dirty 

Retrieve my sanity 
Stop my apathy 
Cure my agony 
Please don't abandon me 

I'll give you my life 
if you shine a light on me
I promise no more lines 
I'll even stop my lies

I ain't had a drink for two months straight
but the Lord sure knows I'm thirsty
I've been clean now for 60 days 
But I sure miss being dirty 


Sixty Days

Medication (Spritualized Cover)

Hegel

Borderline

Blue cross can suck my cock x

Sell me sickness let me bleed 
Got me wired on prescription speed 

Blue cross can suck my cock x4

Don't care about my condition 
Don't give a fuck about my transition 

Blue cross can suck my cock x4

a hundred dollars for beta blockers 
doctors, coppers they are monsters 

Blue cross can suck my cock x4

Insurance ain't no reassurance 
I'm furious with endurance 

Blue cross can suck my cock x4


Blue Cross Can Suck My Cock

One Day At A Time

Jonesing (take 2)

Mania

Too rich to know right from wrong 
With enough money you can break the rules 
Incarceration is for the poor
 You still say there's no class war 

Killed four people at the age of sixteen
Affluenza ain't a real disease 

Consequence  ain't rehab 
This is way we shout ACAB 
What a surprise he broke probation 
Just more media mastubation 

Killed four people at the age of sixteen
Affluenza ain't a real disease 

Mommy took him to mexico 
Thought they had nowhere to go 
Only 120 days in prision 
guess he'll never learn his lesson 

Killed four people at the age of sixteen
Affluenza ain't a real disease 


Affluenza

All I wanted was sobriety 
I asked God for serenity 
But all I got was the grief of clarity 

I've done this many times before
and every time I'm still not sure
Say I want it bad 
With a bottle in my hand 

All I wanted was sobriety 
I asked God for serenity 
But all I got was the grief of clarity

Wound up in hospital 
my mind i can't handle
I take 9 pills a day
'cus the doctors say that I'm insane 


Grief Of Clarity

everything is meaningless
Stuck in the same old mess
I'm just waiting for death

Monotony 
Is not for me 
It's not getting better
I'm just more bitter
I hate myself
I hate everyone
I hate the world
I want to feel something else
Same bad habit 
follow the rabbit down a bleak black hole

everything is meaningless
I'm stuck in the same old mess
I'm just waiting for death

It hurts so bad
I've tried everything
nothing works
I'm the same 
Years in bed
can't get out 
aching bones
broken mind 
can't even go 
outside 
try a little harder
falling faster 

Everything Is Meaningless

Damnnation

burn down the liquor store and smash it up with bricks
burn down the liquor store and smash it up with bricks

Intoxication culture is such a drag
I sit here in disdain while I smoke a pack of fags

can't avoid it it's everywhere you go 
you think you are rebelin' but you support the status quo 

burn down the liquor store and smash it up with bricks
burn down the liquor store and smash it up with bricks

I'm an alcoholic so don't think I don't get it 
don't paint me as a prohibitionist

I know it's tough to face reality 
corporate sponsors for your misery

burn down the liquor store and smash it up with bricks
burn down the liquor store and smash it up with bricks

refusing queer workers but profit from pride
laughing in our face while we all die 
 
I want you to do what you what works for you 
but I don't want booze to help me through 

Burn Down The Liquor Store

Man is the devil and the devil is man
Man is the devil and the devil is man
Monsters are real, they live in my head
Man is the devil and the devil is man
 
Nature’s illegal what else will they ban?
Nature’s illegal what else will they ban?
Hey man, I said I do what I can
Nature’s illegall what else will they ban?

There’s nobody to walk out on me 
There’s nobody to walk out on me
Does that mean I’m lonely or free?
There’s nobody to walk out on me

Man is the devil and the devil is man
Man is the devil and the devil is man
Monsters are real, they live in my head
Man is the devil and the devil is man
 
Growing older, but none the wiser
Growing older, but none the wiser
I can no longer – Mesmerise
Growing older but none the wiser 

Wish for freedom and stay strong
Wish for freedom and stay strong
If it was easy we’d all get along
Wish for freedom and stay strong

Man is the devil and the devil is man
Man is the devil and the devil is man
Monsters are real, they live in my head
Man is the devil and the devil is man
 
 Drugs, they got a hold on me 
Drugs, they got a hold on me
I never wanted to say no 
Drugs, they got a hold on me 

If I’d done things differently 
If I’d done things differently 
Would I be happy?
If I’d done things differently 

 Man is the devil and the devil is man
Man is the devil and the devil is man
Monsters are real, they live in my head
Man is the devil and the devil is man


Man is the Devil

 Glorify insanity to
Escape bleak reality
Illness is identity 
 No normality 
Self inflict isolate 
Backfire alienate 
Outcast hallucinate 
Sleep in fire dilate 

It’s my sick satisfaction from being fucked up 
Oh, my suffering heroes 
It’s my sick satisfaction in being fucked up 
Oh, my suffering heroes 

My flaws I’ve realized 
The suicide I’ve fantasized 
 I hate being criticized
 The pain that I’ve glamorized  
That everyone knows
When I’m feeling low
It’s a subconscious show
Won’t go with the flow 

It’s my sick satisfaction from being fucked up 
Oh my suffering heroes
It’s my sick satisfaction in being fucked up 
Oh my suffering heroes  

 But I despise this psychosis 
The paralyzed hypnosis 
That’s caused by neurosis
Don’t diagnose this 
Disturbed and all alone
Paradise was overgrown
It’s worse than I’ve ever known 
 I’m hollow to the bone 

It’s my sick satisfaction from being fucked up 
Oh my suffering heroes
It’s my sick satisfaction in being fucked up 
Oh my suffering heroes 





How much anxiety 
Comes from society? 
 It’s worse in sobriety
 Face my notoriety 
My brains a vacant mess
 I’m sorry I depress 
And won’t feel happiness 
Inside this emptiness 

It’s my sick satisfaction from being fucked up 
Oh, my suffering heroes..
It’s my sick satisfaction from being fucked up 
Oh my suffering

My Suffering Hero

If I hear another voice
I’ll listen and lose control 
I hear all of my failures 
And I hear all of my flaws
And I can’t take this anymore
I could never handle love 
Or anything at all 
And any peak you reach
You know you bound to fall”
There’s a downside to every great thing in life 
 I’ve been bitten and stung in the summertime 
After all my favourite nights 
It’s always been the same 
Wake up savaged by sickness and shame
I’ve been razed by the lows after the highs 
Ragged and ruined when the suns on the rise
And the red sky in the morning 
Is the ancient Shepard’s warning 
The radiance is riveting 
But the rains a-coming  
And rains in the sky and it rains through my eyes 
I try to see right inside myself 
I think, I think a lot but it’s mostly ‘bout how I feel 
Trying to decipher what is real 
When I’m soaring 
Or when I’m falling 
Both ways I’m delusional 
Sex is never pleasurable
Leaves me used and vulnerable
Annulated by the voices 
That have made make destructive choices 
And disconnecting me
 From this raw reality 
It’s not like when I was child 
And had imaginary friends 
In a made up land 
Where turquoise trees grew in rainbow sand
 And we climbed and talked and laughed
But maybe it’s the same people 
And parallel to the life that’s left me 
 Have somehow turned them all against me 
Desolate winds blow through harrowing trees
Give me plastic surgery 
For my personality 
‘Cus there’s a thousand thoughts inside my head
There’s dreams of when I’m finally dead 
All I can remember 
Is all the harsh words that’s been said 
To my face and behind my back
Each and every time 
That I’ve been knocked down
It gets harder to swim and eas y to drown
What’s the reason I’ve fucked my mind?
No salvation only self abuse
For years that was my only use
Frail psyche going stale
Can’t even function without plants to inhale


Razed, Ragged and Ruined

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