what if I lived a different life
had no scars never cried
never flew

what I had
wasn’t fine 
wasn’t fair
but was mine
what if I knew

i’d have never of learned
all the lessons that brought me to you

if I had it better
never cried
never fought for my life
i’d be through

I’ve tried to quit so many times
you see the surface of my life
what I’m going through

but it lead me to learn
all the lessons that brought me to you

I’d have never of learned
all the lessons that brought me to you

running circles in my mind
sing the same words every time 
you see right through me

but I sing them loud 
even when it hurts
if theres no fire
I’ll make it burn
pour on the gasoline

I will die by those words
and the lessons that brought me to you
I’d have never of learned
all the lessons that brought me to you

Victory

Worth It

Wish This Was Home

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Evr! - Disentangle

widescreen problems 
portrait lives
canvas stretched tight
right on the cover of your
drip feed comfort
paradise
charades brought to life

it’s raining
your paint stained the air I breathe

some die young
while few will thrive
make up your mind
I bet if I said I was
8 feet tall and
never lied
the paint would never dry

you made me
I envy the life you see

I’ll see this through to the end
so I can live again

brain stem fried on
power lines

you made me
I envy the life you see

it’s fading
your paint stained the air I breathe

the race that never ends
bad start, turn two
they wave the checkered flag
what am I supposed to do?
I’ll write my own end
front page and center spread
cover your paint with my pen
so I can live again 

(I so badly
wanted you to see
what I couldn't be

well grab a seat
failure is about to repeat)

you made me
I envy the life you see

It’s fading
your paint stained the air I breathe

Left Handshake

collection of works from 2020-2022. lush soundscapes for your listening pleasure.

Find You

The Beginning

Lift Me Up

I have a question 
you can’t answer
I won’t tell you,
it’s for the better
the way I learned was nights
regretting my whole life
coyotes call
high desert sunrise
I fly so far
just to kill the time
a silent war
is loudest in my mind
why can’t I just live with the past
and change my life


gods forgive me
I am the reason
I can’t promise
things will be different
my odds are paper thin
this is my penance
to be the keeper 
of all my mistakes
and feelings

There’s a voice outside your window
With the same face that you lied to
The cause of all that isn’t right
Was something beyond the point that you would’ve recognized

A numbness rippled up and down
The shafts of light won’t hide it now
Your hands all stained with shades of red
You weren’t in control and now it weighs upon your head

Gods forgive me I know the reason
I understand that this time will be different
Had tunnel vision for 20 years so
It’s only now that I learned to let go

I wanted to love you but maybe I didn’t
I guess that the distance you made was deliberate
Did I misunderstand when you wanted to be close
Cause if I was wrong tell me how the hell would I know

Penance

from album "Guerra Entre Hermanos"  (War Between Brothers)

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Wish This Was Home

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