TAPEWORM!!!!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i ate tapeworms
they are in my tummy

i ate tapeowrms
they are in my tummy
now i feel so funny
tape worms in belly
now i feel so funny
tape worms in belly

tape worms everywhere
all i feel is sick
think that ill throw up
i gotta take a shit

im a parasite
makes me feel alive
makes me wanna die
at the very same time

how much can i swallow
before i throw up
how much can i have
before ive had enough

before you give up
give up on the me
thats sucking all your blood
call me a mosquito
that wont stop their buzz

i'm a tapeworm
tapeworm in your heart
tapeworm in your head
and you gave me my start
and you gave me my start
and you gave me my start
tapeworm in your heart

i ate tapeowrms
they are in my tummy
now i feel so funny
tape worms in belly

i ate tapeowrms
they are in my tummy
now i feel so funny
tape worms in belly

tape worms everywhere
tape worms everywhere
tape worms everywhere
all i feel is sick
think that ill throw up
gotta take a shit

TAPEWORMS!!!!! prod. fallenang4lx

this is not my best but it was fun :) i might remake this soon.
lyrics written by me and inspired by will stetsons version in some spots!!

people talking all about 'my' life
people talking about "someones" life
every now and then and now and again
i guess that they make the right judgements
the sun shines again but its so dreary
heavy feelings, i succumb to being
the only thing i rely on is the rain
How do i survive the thundering?

even love and hate slowly fall away
even love and hate slowly fall away
how do you manage to take what you say
and continuing smiling anyway
all the words you said were really vague
all the words you said were really vague
due to your vague and hazy ways
the trust i had in you seems to decay
collecting all the scraps of dreams that never came
hey, wait, hey wait
seems it all was my mistake

ah
"now and then"
"now and then"
"ive stumbled into the"
"its cold x5
so cold so cold
you push me away again
ah
seems your voice
seems your voice
is drowned by all the noise
so far far far far
so far far far far
so far far far
please dont hurt me anymore
however important i am i dont care
as long as you can find me there somewhere

i held all the promises really tight
i held all the promises really tight
all of the mistakes that ive made tonight
if only i could swallow them and die
even love and hate slowly fall away
even love and hate slowly fall away
how do you manage to take what you say
and continuing smiling anyway
two small little flowers that have begun to bloom
its true, its true
there was nothing left to do

ahhh distant dreams they all seemed
to run away from me
away away away away away
i try to catch up but i
cant throwing these childish dreams and leaving them behind
anger and rage and rage and rage
is there no forgiveness left?

ah, still i hoped every wish
would somehow still come true
it wont it wont it wont it wont it wont
dont come any closer
just, on repeat, to the beat, speak the words you used to
its cold its cold
so cold so cold

im begging you for mercy
however important i am i dont care
as long as you can find me there somewhere

Girl A | vocaloid english cover | siinamota

just something i did in like 15 minutes for fun

FIRST DATE OF MY LIFE!!! (prod. taymxru)

i wanna be your girlfriend!! (taymxru)

i produced this, drums r thanks to @prod-lustri

this body cannot be mine
this body cannot be mine 

my hands, my chest and my face
my arms my legs and my waist
everythibng just feel misplaced
i dont belong in this place

i dont belong in this space
the space between u and i
i think that id rather cry
this body cannot be mine.

this body cannot be mine. (pupsies + lustri)

the attention seekers' suicide note
(the beat i made was too shit for my main acc but i like the lyrics so yeah)

i been feeling fucked up!
always die
always wanna cry
and i hate being alive

mommy says im dumb
and daddy calls me selfish
"the onlyt hing ur goodat
,being manipulative"

i honestly dont care
i honestly say fuck it
i end up dead either way
so u can go and shove it

ur words come from ur ass
u make me wanna puke
i wish that u were dead
i dont know what to do

i dont know what to say
cus youll view me anyway
as a piece of shit
a stupid bitch
just garbage that u wanna throw away

im gonna cut my wrists again
if u dont stop the yelling
i wanna feel the pain and see the blood and see the swelling

so go aehad and test me
cus im just attention seeking
seeking till its over and im hanging from the ceiling

so go ahead
say it again
u hate my guts
i have no friends

i wawnna die
i wanna cut
i cant take this
ive hada enough

so go ahead
say it again
u hate my guts
i have no friends

the attention seekers suicide note - prod. pupsies

you're just a boy, you are no man.
and NOBODY you know will understand.

things to do alex g cover sped up

this is NOT my genre. HTIS IS A SHITPOST!!!

do u think if i play my cards right
baby
do u think that i can see u tonight?
maybe
we could make things work
i dont wanna jump the gun
fuckin braincells gone to shit
like i dont even know
said we gna die by 20
so we keep it on the low
i love u like a dog
love u like im gna die
when i see u in the grave
boy dont make me say goodbye

all i ever wanted was ur fuckin love
wrote a suicide note let me know when u fuckin go
got the gun right up ur throat
and it hurts to watch u choke
least let  me hold ur hand
let me know 'for u go

gotta play ur cards right
gotta turn a new deck
got a knife to ur neck
dont do shit that ull regret

playin games with my heart
since u wanna see my cry
cus u hate urself so much
u cant even see why

gotta play ur cards right
gotta turn a new deck
got a knife to ur neck
dont do shit that ull regret

gotta play ur cards right
gotta turn a new deck
got a knife to ur neck
dont do shit that ull regret

since the small ass age o 12
u was fucked up from the start
and it wasnt ur fault
but the streets aint got heart

so u aint got any time
and u aint gnna go far
u dont have to reach te finish line, just running is enough
so u call it as it is, and i know that its real tough
but u gotta tough it out cus the love is all ur luck

and i love u like a dog
cus i know ur gna die
when i see u in the grave
boy dont make me say goodbye

goodbye (prod. prodvices)

another day, im throwing hands
throwing bands but nothin stands
in the sand
something new
something gold
and you could do
show the way
lead the blind
so i got shit in my eye?
yea u wanna make me cry
tell me how im gonna die
with a gun right up my throat
take some pills and overdose
no one has to know
tell me where we fuckin go
just cus god dont answer
dont mean he isnt there
whatever higher power
show her in her final hour

now her glasses fogged
her breath is fuckin hot
spit runnin down her mouth
didnt want it to go south

so her moms in the room
screams 'whatd you fuckin do'
the bathroom floor is cold
and everybody knows

i dint wanna die
i didnt wanna see
i didnt wanna know
didnt wanna be me

i didnt wanna die
but here i fuckin am
and now im throwing up
bury me in the sand

so u can hold my hand
watch me as i move on
im sorry, love you mom
know that, even when im gone

so yo ucan hold my hand
i dont wanna be alone
tell me that you love me
so i know before i go

letter to my mother (prod.vinogradov)

i know im not really okay
i need you to say that youll stay
i know im not really okay
i need you to say that youll stay

i take so many pills and come to the same conclusions
life is living life and you just gotta get through it
i dont know what to do, and i dont what im doin
but i know that i love you so dont leave me in this moment

dont leave me here to cry 
dont leave me here to die
i know you feel what i feel so i try to wear a smile
but even if i cant please hold on for a little while
just hold on a little while longer

if i loved me like i loved you, but love cant make me happy
i'm sorry that i'm sad so much, dont mean to make this sappy
but lets just stay strong for each other, maybe we'll take turns?
im trying to be better cus i dont want you to hurt

i know im not really okay
i need you to say that youll stay

oh...

conclusion (neverforever)

guys respect all religions idc what u believe this js relfective of mine and other ppls personal epxeirence with spiriutality and other shit lol pls dont kill me 

ohhhh noooo
where am i supposed to go

the lows get lower
i cant go forward
i know its over
i'm nowhere closer

so all my goals are
just things i cant have
wont try hard enough
thats just the plain fact

and in my plain face
cant stand to look back
i wished for so much
theres so much i lack

having a good heart
wont get you nowhere
this world is just cruel
and nothing is fair

there are no handouts
im telling you now
you should go all out
go ahead and shout

don't sit there and beg
climb your way to god
and tell him 'fuck off'
dont care bout your cross

the weight of your sins
will never wash off

weight of your sins (prod. yungspoiler)

idk i like this song
aimkid did the thumbnail

jack stauber - spring cleaning (but u got it from the dollar store)

nobodies gonna save me
Cus i know nobody can
Nobodies gonnba sace me
i will bleed out till i cant

they told me this was gonna end
i wished the best i took my meds 
i always wished to understand
but theres no end 

i realize now i was naive
i feel the the sickness in my teeth 
Ita sinking in and jt wont leave
I guess theres nothing else to see

save me. (prod.pelonn)

i did this rly quick like 30 min and threw sum preset on it i had yea its ok i guess

if id cut my wrist,
then you'd cut your thigh
if id pop these pills
u already wouldve died
and if i ever, even started to cry
id hear u fucking scream
and i wouldnt even try

if id cut my wrist,
then you'd cut your thigh
if id pop these pills
u alr wouldve died
and if i ever, even started to cry
id hear u fucking scream
and i wouldnt even try

one upped everytime,
its like all the pain i feel is
nothing--should be fine
but all that validation that i 
reach for, i wont try
never try again
cus i know that in the end
i wont ever have a friend

u tell me suffering is not some type of competition
but comparin and contrasting makes it obvious the difference
when i look at you and look at me 
its always so clear to see that
you're the worst, i should be fine
i dont know why i lose my mind

i dont know why i get so sick
in your absence, throw a fit
sometimes i think id kill myself
if u hate me if i felt like

nothings ever gonna change
u dont love me, stay the same
things will never go my way
u will always feel more pain

cus if i tried to kill myself
i see u at the hospital bed
crying over my body
maybe that would make u feel the

regret for not responding
god i know im sick in the head
someone make it go away
but anyway it always stays

wrist cutter (prod. t57thetank)

idk WTF this shit is . my mIX is Ass. (and so is the """""Beat"""""""""") BUT........ i wanted so badly to use this song in something.... even though i couldnt get the detuning quite right :(
https://open.spotify.com/track/7B5CYfz6s1J0kQxBTlSSe7?si=6615ecad7b33469f

luv is tuff (ft. desmi archive) <- sample

i love you is a phrase that i shouldnt ever say
i bastardize its meaning just bout every single day
when i ask if u will stay
but all i do's run away
i need you here
babyyyyyyy
tell me why
i cant
take it
any more
i cant stand this
tell me why
i need you to make it betterrrr
its so fucking hard being inside of my head
i just wish that i was...

itz so fuckin h4rd being insid3 of my he4d. (wh1tespace x jxzzytrip)

i've been getting scared
dont wanna manifest my fears
it feels like theres nothing here
like ur gone, should wipe my tears

i know that im overthinking
but it just hurts all the same
i know i shouldnt say things
but i just cant stand the pain

want to write a happy song
but the words all feel so wrong
like im putting on a face
havent felt good in so long

want ppl to see ill stand it
but i know i really cant
even when i try so hard
praying, wishing that i can


so ever since that moment i been feeling like ud leave me like you dont love me as much but i know thats really silly how to feel like its not true?

i know that its not,
asking if i really do? 

when im always hurt, 

hurt just like you said, 
i know its rly dumb, but 
it stays stuck in my head. 
didnt mean to make u hurt

 but that doesnt matter.

cus i did anyways, and my sorrys just a fake
and my sorrys just a fake

can you say it to my face
can you tell me that u love me
i wish id feel your embrace
can you tell me that u love me

i've been getting scared
dont wanna manifest my fears
it feels like theres nothing here
like ur gone, should wipe my tears

i know that im overthinking
but it just hurts all the same
i know i shouldnt say things
but i just cant stand the pain

want to write a happy song
but the words all feel so wrong
like im putting on a face
havent felt good in so long

want ppl to see ill stand it
but i know i really cant
even when i try so hard
praying, wishing that i can

tell me that u luv me. (@izukaonbeats)

idk ijsit wanted to sing but i suck at these kinds of songs idk im just not made for it even tho i wish i was ill stick to hyperpop

and she tried to shove in the back drawer
tried to hide it so that u wouldnt know
but its obvious when u look at her face
see the tear stains
see the tear stains

all she ever wanted was to feel your touch
all she ever wnated was to know all of your love
or so shed tell herself
but when she wakes up
sees herself
inside the mirror
never clearer
only wanna close her eyes
never have to see again
u held her cheek in ur hand
gentle thumb, a gentle man
didnt have to say a word
all you had to do was stand

all you had to do (prod. neverforever) (the goat)

be something 2 u (alex g)

my heart aches every time
and i guess its the cycle that e try to fight
e kno its a losing game but e try
am i holding onto the dream too damn tight?
cus i still cant get any sleep at night

no matter hat you do id forgive you
and i dont ho to make that change
ive held your hand and ive held the faith
u break my heart, but its my choice to make
to let you go but i kno that i cant
id rahter have u rip off allm yskin
i might thro up
and get it all on your shoes
ould you forgive me the same ?
the same ay i do for you? 

its a mystery, the ay i feel
i kno im hurt 
but i kno ill heal
so i ait for you
cus thats all i do
cus that all i do
cus thats all i do

and i ant you to tell me
to say that youl lstay
dont push me aay
i can push thru the pain

i dont need to be saved
cus i kno things can change
i odnt need to be saved
e all die anyays.

all your friends can think im sutpid, they can think that im insane
you can all say i need help, that i love all of the pain
u dont even kno the half of aht i feel, aht i beleive
cus im aiting for the change, thats all taht i anna see
and i kno thats its naive, but i call it optimistic
cus i really anna hope that happy endings arent some mystic thing that i cant have, a bullshit dream, theres gotta be, more than i see, im holdin out, please ait for me, please ait for me, please dont let go, please dont let go, dont make me leave

forgive you (prod. eve06)

aahh idk i needed to get my feelings out so this is shit and has my family and noise in the bg lol

i feel so dumb i feel lost
i dont know whats my problem
i could say sorry but i dont think that itd mean a thingg
i know its too mcuh for you i dont mean to intervene 
to be a problem, be a burden, for you to carryy
i wish i wasnt the way that i am, why cant u see?

i love you so much but it seems like i can never show it
i wish there were instructions
i wish i got a notice
i wish i knew the way to be more peaceful in your life
sometimes i wonder if the best way is to leave ur side?

all that i want, is to feel your touch-
can you hold me close
tell me im enough?
cus i love you so
i love you so much...

and im sorry that things r so tough..

notice (prod. 16kibo)

funbeat (1).wav
this song kind of reminds me of dying or being in a nice place after you die, i liked it so i want it to be here

it is nice to have fun sometimes :)

there's nothing i can say
i think that you forgot
the promises we made

i had always wanted to upload this lol

angel

babuchan - name to live
translyrics by me

if i could make one wish
just one
one single wish…
id ask
for just
a name

a name
thats made
for just me

just me

let me have one

just one

im begging

adorable
like everyones
as their own
begging please

oh please dear god
oh please dear god
please give me a
name of my own

noise, voices fill my head
but leave it empty as can be
yet still i’m  on the playground
as the shadow of that swing keeps swaying

oh a black bird in the sky
spreads its wings, blocking my eyes
visions of blue, green and clear skies
all have disappeared

with my own feet i would walk
to everyone, where they all are
by my
me, i
me and my own

oh please dear god
oh please dear god
please give me a
name of my own

oh please dear god
oh please dear god
i’ll say goodbye,
meet in the next life

the sun sets and the sky goes dark—day into midnight
wherever was my home i know ill never go


name to live - babuchan (english cover)

MALE MANIPULATOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bitch im not no fucking hood trap rapper gtfo of here i have new grills ok thats why i have a bad lisp. i got grills ok. stop judging jsu tbecaue im rich enoug ht oget grills and you arent!
--- LYRICS --- 

yall all be so typical
reciprocal, drinking from the same cup
shooting the same shit up
with a smile on ur faces
you never been outta luck

how many times u fucked?

u aint got no sickness
u a chipper
motherfucker
got that cheeky smile on ya
like u aren’t js like the others
spit it out
and say you love her
but u never told ur mother
u just let her
watch u vomit
do u feel sick?

do you feel it yet?

the way that ur friends all look at u?
with a smirk smeared on their face-s

got it in your nails
yea your words are kinda tasteless

do you even know 
the last time that you were held
in somebodies arms


looking at your own,
“she shouldn’t be alarmed”
okay good, thats so much better
cus why would u ever lie?
why’d u cheat
and why’d u fight
why’d you take somebodies life?

oh..
right..

but you haven’t done that yet,
so you’re fine, okay good
doing everything you should
got a message in a bottle
does it even hit ur head
do you feel the glass yet
if i dug it in your forearm
dont believe you wouldn’t let me
you’ve got no self preservation
you need helping
something more
yea you never had the answers
fill the holes
of all your whores

does it make you feel much better?
your insignificant life?
… at least you’re alive
all the times your mother cried
can you tell her that you tried?
and if you say you did, could you even tell me why?

“p-p-p-put it in my cup”
..
thats your only love
..
your life has no room for people, 
grow up, get a grip, or we will.


“sh-sh-shut all that shit up”

tell me who you’re talking to?

u look fucking dumb

s-s-sucking on your thumb

bet you wish that you were deaf
so you wouldn’t have to hear the cries of your mom when you left
i don’t think that you were listening

youre so hypocritical,
typical
and expected
you never leave no one guessing
games are all you’re ever good at 
but this shit is overplayed,
man-made
do you like the artificial happiness
that it gave you?

yall all be so typical
reciprocal, drinking from the same cup
shooting the same shit up
with a smile on ur faces
you never been outta luck

how many times u fucked?


who will be there at your death bed?

you won’t outlive all your friends
but all friendships have to end
when you need a representative for God, who will you send?

you can’t save yourself
no, nobody can





P-P-PUT IT IN MY CUP! (prod. by vinogradov)

cover @ bierhut2 on pinterest
if i can get my special friend to do the rap part insteas and colllab on this i will ad ill post it as a remix w him :3
i did this rly quick as a joke to see if icould sing it LOL

I wake up to the sounds of the silence that allows
For my mind to run around with my ear up to the ground
I’m searching to behold the stories that are told
When my back is to the world that was smiling when I turned

Tell you you’re the greatest
But once you turn they hate us

Oh, the misery
Everybody wants to be my enemy
Spare the sympathy
Everybody wants to be my enemy
(Look out for yourself)
My enemy (look, look, look, look)
(Look out for yourself)
But I’m ready

Your words up on the wall as you’re praying for my fall
And the laughter in the halls and the names that I’ve been called
I stack it in my mind and I’m waiting for the time
When I show you what it’s like to be words spit in a mic

Tell you you’re the greatest
But once you turn they hate us (huh)

Oh, the misery
Everybody wants to be my enemy
Spare the sympathy
Everybody wants to be
My enemy (look, look, look, look)
(Look out for yourself)
My enemy (look, look, look, look)
(Look out for yourself)

Uh, look
Okay, I’m hoping that somebody pray for me
I’m praying that somebody hope for me
I’m staying where nobody ‘posed to be
P-P-Posted, being a wreck of emotions
Ready to go whenever, just let me know
The road is long, so put the pedal into the floor
The enemy on my trail, my energy unavailable
I’ma tell ’em hasta luego
They wanna plot on my trot to the top
I’ve been outta shape, thinkin’ out the box, I’m an astronaut
I blasted off the planet rock to cause catastrophe
And it matters more because I had it not
Had I thought about wreaking havoc on an opposition
Kinda shocking they wanted static with precision, I’m automatic
Quarterback, I ain’t talkin’ sacking
Pack it, pack it up, I don’t panic
Batter, batter up, who the baddest?
It don’t matter ’cause we at ya throat

Everybody wants to be my enemy
Spare the sympathy
Everybody wants to be
My enemy

Oh, the misery
Everybody wants to be my enemy
Spare the sympathy
Everybody wants to be my enemy

Pray it away, I swear
I’ll never be a saint, no way
My enemy
Pray it away, I swear
I’ll never be a saint

ENEMY - ARCANE (NIGHTCORE VERSION COVER!!)

jolly ass finished the game type beat i made lol
me try to make a normal beat challenge (impossible)


this beat WILL make you smile and laugh and feel joy

guys idk i made this beat and didn't mix it cus it sounds like ass but i already wrote lyrics to it so i had to at least record the lyrics or i was gonna be madder

>_< i’m so trap core nettspend omygosh!

ok fine
it’s my fault
caught me staring at the wall
caught me thinking that you loved me 
caught me thinking, fcking dumb
i dont think i can escape 
…this cycle i keep taking
making, up for all the karma
must’ve done some shit

killed a fucking angel
spit right in the face of god
told him hes a fucking fraud
tell me what mistake i made
cus i’m trying to make up for everything i didn’t do
what ‘bout you?
yall dont know all of the things i could’ve done…

take for granted that i try my best to keep inside the lines
try to keep from ever crying
try to keep my friends from dying
try to hold you, push you through the darkness 
blind leading the blind
feeling reckless
might just blow my brains
it’s all in God’s design

ok fine
it’s my fault
caught me staring at the wall
caught me thinking that you loved me 
caught me thinking, fcking dumb

what a cunt
that i am
knocking at the door , like bam!
sometimes when i hold a knife i think about cutting again

ok fine
it’s my fault
caught me staring at the wall
caught me thinking that you loved me 
caught me thinking, fcking dumb
i dont think i can escape 
…this cycle i keep taking
making, up for all the karma
my souls vacant

ok fine
it’s my fault
caught me staring at the wall
caught me thinking that you loved me 
caught me thinking, fcking dumb
i dont think i can escape 
…this cycle i keep taking
making, up for all the karma
my souls vacant

i’ll kill a fucking angel
spit right in the face of god
tell him hes a fucking fraud
tell me what mistake i made
cus i’m done trying to make up for everything i didn’t do
what ‘bout you?
had my second chance, and i fucking blew it.


ok fine
it’s my fault
caught me staring at the wall
caught me thinking that you loved me 
caught me thinking, fcking dumb

ok fine
it’s my fault
caught me staring at the wall
caught me thinking that you loved me..
i’m fucking dumb.

okfine (prod pupsies)

idk sum quick cus i got bored. not rly the best.. im running out of uploads on this account so i might start another one. i wanna make songs kinda like this vibe but ehhhhh i just dont fit it well

"boy you wanna hold me down, tell me that you love me?
boy you know that i have really never loved nobody but you."

trash magic (cover) - lana del rey

i couldn't mix the vocals good enough and i was too tired to rerecord the lines i lost breath on bc i wouldn't record in chopped segments so ... idk. wtv. cringey lyrics anywys

[vm]

no one could have me around 
i know the end is nearing now
i watch the final sunrise set
i wait to die, am i dead yet?

i think ill throw up first
they said it doesn’t have to hurt
they said it won’t be that bad
they said it cant get any worse

living was too much
i couldn’t love i couldn’t trust…
u didn’t know the real myself
you thought of me as someone else

you thought the good outweighed the bad
but i know where you stand now…
i cant wait to …get out…
i cant wait to get… outtt..

hold ur arms and then ill pout
do you love me, even now?
will you love me when you see my coffin
flowers, dying down..

will you love me once i make sure all the bad parts disappear
but i know that it stems from me so i wont let myself stay near…

furiously vomiting my guts
body rattles, wont shut up
i gasp for air
gargle on bile
even yet, can’t help but smile

even yet, cant help but smile
more happy than i’ve been —  a while
more happy than i’ve been —  a while….
…a while more
and ill be gone
ill never do anyone wrong
i left my debts — all unpaid
sorry, what i didn’t say
i just wanna get away
i am doing you the favor,

(should’ve rerecorded here)

you’re a coward, just like me
so ill finally set u free..

(4 bars…)
aahhhh…..

you dont care?
that’s my fault
i know what im worth
just shut up
is that god
no one will save you
i just wanted
to be loved too….


neverending (prod. traumaticbonds & ‪@onyxx.3990)

bleh i could never quit music
october 17th <3
they dont know me!!!!!
@pupsies

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