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momma crying make me the same way
everybody dying make the pain stay
day is done im feeling guilty
i step on you i make it filthy
i swear im tryna make a plan for it
i swear to you im ever thankful
got no scruples saying fuck them
by my lonesome i dont trust  them

i feel like everything i have
is slowly fading into black
i been trying to make it change
but now im weighed down by these chains

filth

thread

https://soundcloud.com/losgrowlurs/i-hope-she-loves-me

who am i

§1.183-2(b)

regular

thats just how it goes with me 
always got a dose in me
is that what you want

i feel like im drowning
lost way too much to count
i got no clue what its costing me

where my love
you was buying drugs
then i never heard
another thing from them
i was a bad kid
with a package
went and earned
me some big money
 
can’t get no love from me 
swear its harder for me to feel shit
i put these drugs in my body
so im never feeling the real thing
what im supposed to be
feels like nothing that i can reach now
wanted to be somebody
its a futile thing to believe now

i been waiting for this shit
for this turn around for me
i been thinking that
i might not be around for it
stuck inside my head
about what’s next
cause i been doubtful

can’t get no love from me 
swear its harder for me to feel shit
i put these drugs in my body
so im never feeling the real thing
what im supposed to be
feels like nothing that i can reach now
wanted to be somebody
its a futile thing to believe now

real

incandescent

要你

empty

@oddnatural

working on a lot of music.

if you are interested in buying beats (incandescent/要你 direct lease downloads included):
http://traktrain.com/qin

coultre w/ oddnatural

fluoxetine

you fell in my fell in my arms
you took away all of my scars
you took all my sadness and pushed it away and took all the pain out of my heart

i don’t know where we gone go now
i love how this feels please don’t slow down
so much to say i don’t know how
i think that I’m finally home now

i just been looking for something
i think i finally found it
the feel of your hand it just numbs me
you make me happy i used to feel nothing

i feel no pain when i touch you
all of these feelings keep running through
forever and ever i’ll hold you
i think i think i love you

too many feelings inside of me
i can’t get past all this fucking anxiety
i just thank god that you went and said hi to me
hope that you know that i love you entirely

i feel no pain when i touch you
all of these feelings keep running through
forever and ever i’ll hold you
i think i think i love you

i finally found you

i miss all the times when i held on your hands
you going through something i can't understand 
i want to love you again but i can't 
im tired of life i'm too scared and too sad 

after all that we had im alone now
i don't get shit on my phone now 
i took these pills i can't calm down
need you again i can't cope now 

i just get lost in my mind
everyday i get high 
i think that i wanna die now
tears pouring out of my eyes 

someday i'll wake up with a noose on my neck or i'll OD and die off of all of these meds cause i can't get these thoughts to get out of my head when i'm lying awake all alone in my bed

heavyheart

blood w/ oddnatural

i made this in 2016
to any who read this, i have a lot of music ive made on a hard drive and on my computer. i share very little but plan on releasing more songs with a new style ive been settling into with more of a focus on vocals. thank you to anyone that listens to me

nowhere

imbalance

i just wanna leave
make all shit get behind me
i don’t know what i’m dreaming
i don’t know how to hide it
living like this is awful
waking up feeling hopeless
smoking my marijuana
always taking the doses 

i dont know where i’m going
stumbling down the sidewalk
drugs in me got me floating
shipping shit with the mylar
where the fuck are my friends
i don’t see anybody
wish all this shit could end
i don’t have anybody

this shit never changes
everyday is the same thing
seeing all of the faces
i don’t think i can take it
do this on my own
feel like i’m not enough
lately i’m feeling lonely
falling back on the drugs

i dont feel like i’m really here when i’m staring at the sky
i don’t like how i’m feeling spending everyday  getting high
waking up take my pills and i hate i how feel again
facing this pain im feeling is ripping me down to shreds

shreds

isolated

i been on my own stuck in the background
can’t pick up the phone cause i been passed out
going through withdrawals i might just act out
i aint moving on stuck in the past now   

dont tell me to me change cause i been tried that
showing them my pain they never like that
you aint seen the places down where i am
got some drugs to take then ill be right back

why dont anyone give me a chance
feel like this shit is all that i have
keep pulling the blades out of my back
when im up i know it never last

hate this this shit im looking for the meaning
i been up all night fighting my demons
stuck inside my room all through the weekend
i been sad but i dont know the reason

i been on my own stuck in the background
can’t pick up the phone cause i been passed out
going through withdrawals i might just act out
i aint moving on stuck in the past now

qin

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