i see a long and distant future ahead
it's looking at me with piercing cold eyes
i look back at it from the comfort of my bed
and i give it, oh i give it a big wide stare

a warmness encompasses me 
a shiver and tremor of doubt 
hope begins to blind me 
i can only hope that im right

all of you with arms stretched out to me
i should feel nothing but your embrace
but theres still a stagnant coldness lasting here
one of you, yeah one of you wants to see me fall

but i swear i know its real
yeah, good things come for me 
i have to look into those eyes
and think of what's to be

listless v1.1

my old songs 
make me think of you 
taking over the past 
got me feelin blue
for what reason now
this I wonder 
will I lose more tomorrow? 
Id hate to make waste

stuck in my brain and I haven't got a clue
about how to go back with you 

I go from place to place
memories get saved
always stuck here now
wonder what could've been
if I start to forget, 
that is not me
I'll look again tomorrow
to see if she's there

stuck in my brain and I haven't got a clue
about how to go back with you

stuck in my brain and I haven't got a clue
about how to go back with you

stuck in my brain and I haven't got a clue
about how to go back to you

view

I have my arm out reachin (please take my hand, somehow..)
for the only thing I see (you are all i can see)
I look ahead searching (i want to find anything else)
for anything in front of me (but there is nothing here)
my own eyes (i cant bear to handle..)
stare back at me (..the truth)
my own hands (and yet..)
push me down (.. i keep trying to my own detriment)

a black void (your heart)
devoid (without empathy)
it's your heart  (yet you dont care about me)
I can't feel it beating (youre truly heartless)
a dark hole (im sucked in helpless)
endless (and you dont care about it)
I can feel your soul
but are you even there (you may as well have none)
why am i trapped here (you want me here right?)
can I go (i ask myself)
i wish you were there (i wish you had a heart)

it isn't fair (cant i be like the others)
im pure, i swear (im just as good as them)

its just not fair (why do you hate me)
youre here, i swear (i swear you didnt used to)

gone are the days I sat there
thinkin i was getting somewhere (in your heart)
gone are those days I stood alone (when i alone was worth your time)
feeling I was getting inside (your life)
my problems (i care too much about you)
keep me on the ground (it ultimately only hurts me)
the hard truth (that you truly dislike me)
that shoots my heart (because i can't bear to hear it)

I know how it is now (as much as i dont want to admit it)
I know how it's set up (that you want me to feel terrible)
it always ends with me here (alone and franticly trying to get your attention)
surrounded by the void (but ignored by you aggressively)
do you know where i am (im sure you do)
do you know im stuck here? (im sure you do)
cant i go? (i ask myself)
i wish i was there (i wish i was any of the others)

cycles

ironclad v1.01

I wish you'd stay so far away
I should hate you
Although our time spent meant so much
I can't escape you

You set fire to hopes and dreams
Tell me why?
You who stole them all from me
Please don't lie.

I wish you'd stay so far away
I can't make you.
And so, you take all I care about
I think I hate you.

雨 2023

Snowman / Winters (Mother / Earthbound/Mother 2)(Elsyne Cover/Mix) Final

I wonder what is wrong with me
I can move corners from one end to the other
one day there, one day here, it all stays the same
loads of problems and its just me to blame

neither here nor there w1

Bein' Friends (Earthbound Beginnings/Mother -  Cover)

i missed you then
i miss you now
but where have you gone my love?
i wonder where you are

it was for real
forever now
but now i've gone looking for you
i can't find out how

existing as a topic of more songs than none
have you ever thought to check if im not having fun
at what point with this do i hit my hard stop
ive hurt for you
ive bled for you
yet you i just cant drop
im sick of it all
so ill have to call it here
the you that i miss died years ago i fear
wont let myself fall for whoever you are right now
ive lasted this long
i just have to wonder how

hurt so many people just to stay alive with you
just want to be happy and ive held this idea true
sifting through garbage will always take a massive toll
dragging others through fire
blazes scorching my soul

how do i keep it from happening again?
i saw it all approaching but i could never defend
i think you feel this too but youre just too scared to say
even when our problems will shine as bright as day

i wanted you to change for me just a little bit
i contorted myself to you just to make me fit
when you compromise yourself then youre the one who loses
i tried to cope but the methods ran out of their uses

put an end to pain 
and hurting those beside me
who was hurt the most in this?
its not plain to say

a shame to take it down, all this that weve built
so what will this do now to help me deal with all my guilt?

tomorrow is a joke
the nights take my hope
and now i sit waiting for you
but you never show

we shared our dreams cause we lived for each other
you told me how i was never truly a bother

four years ago i saw it all 
i saw my fall
because i have nothing she has
truly called it all

i missed you then
i miss you now
but where have you gone my love?
i wonder where you are

looking back V4

Not yours anymore 
and I don't know where you've gone
sick of trying to find you 
through a sea of other arms

I can't help you
I can't help you
I can't help you
I can't help you

My eyes were opened today, 
just to see the dark you bring
I thought you were my light
If you shined I was kept away

All my joy was left behind when you came into view
the day I knew was sure to come but never thought it true

you won't help me
you won't help me
you won't help me
you won't help me

not yours anymore
and you won't know where ive gone
now you're in the darkness but im sure youll be fine in time
my eyes will burn today just to see the fire ahead
flaming lust for the past
dipped in a thought of hope

all my joy was left behind when you came into view
you always told me i was wrong but i knew it was true

you wont help me
you wont help me
i cant help you
i wont help you

giving up

And here I thought I was done with it last time! Nope. Second verse >:3



i saw you there at the shore
waiting for someone to come
wanting, wishing out to the world
it all shines within your eyes    

a light so bright it blinds me
sparked by all you are
i look ahead to tomorrow (the day i see you on my own)
that spark will come again

good morning, angel of my eye (it is so nice waking up next to you)
it's bright and clear today 
let's go change the lives of those
who have lost their way

all my joy returned to me
brought back by your hand
i never thought that someone
could show me what i lost

starlit sunshine (v2)

every day that passes is a sign of it all
i knew i was right from the start
only i saw you pullin at all the strings
no one believed me
what could i do?

i swear that i tried
i swear it took so much
who she is to each of us
could never end up the same

give me back my hopes
yeah i, i hate you, i hate you

thief of joy and life and caused my strife
you liar, you liar

saw it coming for ages
felt that coldness a mile away

the world would be better
if you never smiled again

give me back my dreams
yeah i, i hate you, i hate you

thief of joy and life and caused my strife
you liar, you liar

waiting for the inevitable v1

EXTREMELY small volume edit after opening the track not at 4 am

a demon in demon's clothes that we can clearly see
got you bound by promises, you dont want to be freed
the chain tugs the other way, with help you could escape
you close the noose yourself; sit in your hellscape

like a demon yourself, youre proud of your evil,
call yourself an angel, but let me tell you
seen an angel myself, and i can truly see
where you are, and where that leaves me

the depths to which you have fallen
a demon in demon's clothes

sitting there, reveling, basking in chaos
a demon in demon's clothes

cant make you
cant force you
shouting from above to try to convince you
said you were stubborn; at least that was true

could help you
could steer you
what can i do to have you follow my words
there's more to life than living with a demon

hurt, cry, cut, burn,
a demon in demon's clothes
blood, sweat, spit, tears,
a demon in demon's clothes

demon in demons clothes w1.1

a time and place so dear
i thought that i was here
but those days which i want
i hope that they draw near

a spark, a sign, a place to be
showing all you people what you mean to me
living like this had ever been allowed
with a push or shove you'll find me on the ground

scratch, bite, grab, hit, mark, hurt, blood, and knife
who were you to tell me what to do with my life
give a kid a poison and tell me what they do
cause i know what i did , make you see its true

now a grudge is all i have that cannot be released
with the raging feelings here ill never be in peace

what do you depend on?
what do you depend on?
shouting in my mind to find a place, to end on

what do you depend on?
what do you depend on?
certain paths of mine you know i'll, never budge on

can tell you all the things that i cannot escape from
looping, repeating, maze-like paragraphs
called that box a prison and this is just like that
only from the outside in can you see that im trapped

Elsyne

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