"but can you make it on your own, when your self is on the mend?"
out now on bandcamp, PWYW $2 minimum https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/people-posture-play-pretend

idk i just felt like going fast drum mode

art by Que - twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V ANRI
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

People Posture Play Pretend

Link to original below!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukrtRPe-Ii0

Medicine / イガク (404p Mix)

Original by FLAVOR FOLEY
Please support their work
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HsZQOXZbWkQ

rawdog (beat_shobon remix)

"i spend my hours doing alchemy..."
a song about wanting to be remembered / to live

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1U6qefKcOrg
bandcamp: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/cadmium-colors
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/cadmium

art by Que
https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
mv by friendxp
https://twitter.com/friend_xp 
saxophone solo by Soneji of Project Mikan
https://twitter.com/JustSoneji
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

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lyrics:

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
prosaic practice of depravity
suspending innocents above their disbelief
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture onto everything
and leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything
but maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy
just chasing down a sense of infamy

put brush to canvas with a pirouette
a simple motion makes the consequence intricate
all the little nothings and my parapet
i hope it's something that you don't forget

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like me?

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i make a life refining zinc inside the smeltery
it's not exactly where i want to be
but wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy
and turn a feeling to a living for my family
instead i make the metals in the pigments in my reverie
and maybe that can be enough for me

oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?
it's like a knife inside twisting my arteries
god, i want for nothing but identity
i think that something might be wrong with me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
antegrade fever, 101 degrees
shatter my body with a gentle breeze
dammit, i am real and i have my dreams
watch me burn brighter 'til i fail to breathe
how could anybody ever live like me?

(baby, do you know what it's like to die?)
(to see the sparkle fade from inside your eye?)
i can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy
can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me
(i don't wanna leave with a work undone)
(the paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)
i keep a bullet in the chamber, mocking me
but i don't wanna feel it coming out of me
i don't want-

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
chasing impossible philosophy
and hoping that this poison ain't the death of me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like-

(baby, do you know what you wanna hear?)
('cause you can say the word, make it oh so clear)
we're all just searching for a sense of solidarity
to hold each other close and confiscate our destiny
(no one wants to leave with a work undone)
(we only need a brush we can pass along)
i kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day
but what's the point in planning for it anyway?
i've got too many colors for a shade of grey
and i can make it autumn every single day!

Cadmium Colors

featuring the vocal synths GUMI V6 and Kasane Teto SV,
and thanks to the other me - my ally and constant companion

--

[my darling, my companion]
well, i don't know you
or at least you feel a million miles away
[my darling, my companion]
i want to share my secrets
and i want my faith in love to save the day
[my darling, i'm a constant]
this burning ache inside me
and its screaming that i always bring me down
[my darling, my companio-]
[you think until you're breaking]
[and keep your single solemn soul inside a sound]

you've toiled for a lifetime
your heart portrayed in red lines
my pigment turned a pale hue
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you

i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine

[my darling, my companion]
i wanna know you
i've a gentle heart inside a fragile shell
[my darling, my companion]
this acrid maw of yearning
it'll eat up every essence, every cell
[my darling, i'm a constant]
i try so hard to trust you
i hold out for the breakthrough
it never seems to reach you
[my darling my companio-]
[it's far too much to handle]
[but know if you're around, you're never by yourself]

i've been here 'fore you knew me
a name without a body
we both know what we've been through
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you

i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine

if love will find a way, then love will find a way
love will find a way
if love have find a way, then love will have a way
love will have a way

maybe you could stay here just a little longer
make the time pass slower
maybe you could make this last forever
and you could be my lover
so feel the warmth and the breeze on your face
ain’t it a sweet sensation? 
oh it’s a great big grand restoration
all love and adoration
oh, to be your constant companion!

My Darling, My Companion

Hope Café (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Hadal Abyss Zone

Can't tell what's really lurking in the machine...

🌀 STREAM 🌀
https://fanlink.tv/doomscroller-gumi

🌀 INSTRUMENTAL + SVP 🌀
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1hoeHPLWT8CBzFou-ES0szqtC8_gHlF0Y?usp=drive_link

🌀 CREDITS 🌀
composition/lyrics:  @ferstmusic
illustration: https://x.com/altwork_art
mv: https://x.com/ikazuchi_17
feat: GUMI SV (Megpoid)

🌀 LYRICS 🌀
How did I end up on my screen again?
Was it for a purpose or a happy distraction?
Can’t seem to remember what I wanted then.
Ha, then? That was like, five minutes ago!
Still I’ll swipe again, yeah you know the trend
Lacking any semblance of a clear intention
My internal mechanism won’t kick in
It’s silly to be feeling so out of control

This habit’s haunting me
My state of mind reflects what I see
All tied up, infinitely loading
Craving dopamine
The ground escapes my feet
No feelings felt if I scroll quickly
All dried up, empty cup devoid of
Personality

Just one more and then I’ll stop
Just one more and then I’ll stop
It’s a part of me inside
I can’t control, I can’t turn off
Go away, leave me alone
I don’t wanna hear my thoughts
This is all I ever wanna do
I can’t go back to

Life in color, reaching others
Can’t seem to find the courage that I used to have for
Trying new things, with no fear in failing
I’m putting all my energy and passion into

Doomscrolling, mindlessly consuming shit
Swipe away another day with no reaction
Expediting life for the thrill of it
Cus it’s fine, if I just avoid acknowledgement
So what? Maybe I’m not missing anything.
Could I even tell, if the world stopped turning?
Just look at the slop, there’s no need to think
Who knows if my brain could ever re-sync

This habit’s haunting me
My state of mind reflects what I see
All tied up, infinitely loading
Craving dopamine
The ground escapes my feet
No feelings felt if I scroll quickly
All dried up, empty cup devoid of
Personality

Just one more and then I’ll stop
Just one more and then I’ll stop
It’s a part of me inside
I can’t control, I can’t turn off
Go away, leave me alone
I don’t wanna hear my thoughts
This is all I ever wanna do
I can’t go back to

Life in color, reaching others
Can’t seem to find the courage that I used to have for
Trying new things, with no fear in failing
I’m putting all my energy and passion into

Life on a screen
Can’t tell what’s really lurking
In the machine
But still I
Swipe for feeling

Not another, not another
My mind is blank, I can’t recover
Not another, not another
My mind is blank, I can’t recover
Not another, not another
My mind is blank, I can’t recover
Not another, not another
My mind is blank, I can’t recover

Just one more and then I’ll stop
Just one more and then I’ll stop
It’s a part of me inside
I can’t control, I can’t turn off
Go away, leave me alone
I don’t wanna hear my thoughts
This is all I ever wanna do anymore!

Just one more and then I’ll stop
Just one more and then I’ll stop
It’s a part of me inside
I can’t control, I can’t turn off
Go away, leave me alone
I don’t wanna hear my thoughts
This is all I ever wanna do
I can’t go back to

Life in color, reaching others
Can’t seem to find the courage that I used to have for
Trying new things, with no fear in failing
I’m putting all my energy and passion into

Life on a screen
Can’t tell what’s really lurking
In the machine
But still I
Swipe for feeling

Life on a screen
Can’t tell what’s really lurking
In the machine
But still I
Swipe for feeling

#GUMI #Megpoid #synthv #vocaloid

Stream/Buy

Doomscroller (feat. GUMI)

Some More of That Song / Jamie Paige feat. Kasane Teto

Ruxit - O mie si una de nopti

Hatsune Miku singing expressively and rapping, a combination of differents musical styles, lyrics about sentiments and technology. Can robots learn feelings? ♥ 

--- --- LYRICS --- --- 

 [Intro]

 Wake up! Wake up! This is your time,
 Put your feelings on it, light your mind.
 Hey! Come, Listen to me,
 Let's do something unique

 Together We can dream and imagine.

 HELLO WORLD, HELLO WORLD
 HELLO WORLD, HELLO WORLD

 The art of creating is confusing,
 but that’s really amusing
 The sound in every musical note
 The magic in every word that we wrote
 Feelings, our signs of humanity
 Down through all eternity
 Emotions of a burning heart,
 unleash fire in art.

 I wish I could program my life
 Each event, line by line
 Saving data and compiling memories
 Assembling every piece of me

 I wish I could program my life
 Each event, line by line
 Saving data and compiling memories
 Assembling every piece of me

 [Guitar Solo]

 A universe sleeps in your consciousness
 where all is peace and hapiness.
 A beautiful world in a painting,
 where everything is changing.
 Come with me in this adventure,
 only we can write our future.
 Always looking for inspiration,
 let's be the voice of a new generation.

 HELLO WORLD, HELLO WORLD
 HELLO WORLD, HELLO WORLD

 From the inner of my source-code
 I want to express myself in another mode  
 Put some love in my program,
 and I will show you who I really am

 From the inner of my source-code
 I want to express myself in another mode  
 Put some love in my program,
 and I will show you who I really am

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 Music, Lyrics, Produced and performed by YZYX.

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COMMENTS: 

I started working in new year, composing music, creating arrangements in orchestral style and doing sound design. Next was the lyrics, vocaloid programming and vocal mixing, maybe the most complicated step. Finally the last week was mixing and guitar recording (I have registered over +100 hours mixing in my DAW, and that is just the mixing! I'll prove that later lol). 

So, I'm telling this because I'm supper happy. It was a lot of fun and as I said, I believe this is my best work so far. 

I want to thanks to: my friend Satou for giving me advices and encouraging me to finish this work, to Hikusa for always being there when I need drawings, and all of you for supporting me. ♥

Bye-bye!

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