First day out and the freedom tastes like magic
I’m crying tears of joy cause I get to sit in traffic 
And I can’t imagine slippin into my own bed

Bringing in my job applications 
The boss asks me where I had my graduation 
I can’t write “cult” on a resume
So I say it’s an alternative place

They told me I’d be saved
And have all the answers
If I just caved to my captors

I was 18 on my first day free
18 knowing everything 
Except how to sort the recycling, 
Drive a car or open the door without asking
Think I’m still learning

13 months in isolation
Told I was there for the sake of my salvation
A phone call was a special treat monitored by the authority
I fought back the first few months till punishments made me adjust
Learned I’d only be released if I complied 
At the very least

They told me I’d be saved
And have all the answers
If I just caved to my captors

I was 18 on my first day free
18 knowing everything 
Except what the hell is normalcy
When I hadn’t held a dollar bill since 2016
Ooh, it’s the little things 
Like who to tell and how to be
Now that I know I don’t know anything

They told me I’d be saved
And have all the answers
If I just caved to my captors

I was 18 knowing everything
Except how to be back in society
I’d been saved and I was free
But the darkness wouldn’t stop chasing me

Think I’m still learning 
I’m still learning.

everything at 18 [demo]

ps i don’t actually play piano i just use a keyboard to write sometimes :)

the lonliest girl [demo]

wolf [demo]

maybe i’m heartless [demo]

poison [demo]

undone [demo]

welcome to my arsenal of glorified voice memos

Rae du Soleil

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