Film score I composed for Guido Gatmaytan's short film: "Ang Yakap Ng Iyong Ina" (https://www.instagram.com/tv/CXyJvuuF7Q4/?utm_medium=copy_link)

Ang Yakap Ng Iyong Ina (Instrumental)

stay alive, everybody

lyrics:
on our feet
no place to go, no such reprieve
as we breathe little air
as our feet wear and tear
nowhere to sleep
nothing is sure, no guarantees
as we hold empty stares
as we say it’s unfair

there’s a light at the end
of our journey ahead
but as we walk towards we can’t help but ask

when can we come home
stop this running, stop this flight
when can we come home
out of darkness into light
eventually we’ll know
we will find some peace of mind
until then we’ll run
until then we’ll have to
stay alive, stay alive, stay alive

where do we go
is there a road nobody knows
as we aim to be found
maybe it’s ours to find out

there’s a light at the end
of our journey ahead
but as we walk towards we can’t help but ask

when can we come home
stop this running, stop this flight
when can we come home
out of darkness into light
eventually we’ll know
we will find some peace of mind
until then we’ll run
until then we’ll have to
stay alive, stay alive, stay alive

there’s a light at the end
of our journey ahead
and as we walk towards we can’t wait to say

we’ve finally come home
stopped this running, stopped this flight
we’ve finally come home
out of darkness into light
eventually we’ll know
now we have our peace of mind
all because we run
all because we chose to
stay alive, stay alive, stay alive

(written dec '21 - apr '23)

Stay Alive (demo)

on spotify! : https://open.spotify.com/track/5cnJo9x3NbimG6zmU914uf?si=34ZXz-hdR_eHaMRxMek82Q

*a song for those whose hearts are uneasy, for them to rest and sleep easy*

oh unstable heart, it’s time now to sleep
the moon will be watching over your dreams
oh unstable heart, it’s time now to rest
let today’s worries come to an end

oh unstable heart, you’ll be okay
someone will catch you if you fall today

oh unstable heart, it’s what you need
relax your mind and find clarity
oh unstable heart, look for your peace
to let you hold on, even without me

oh unstable heart, you'll be okay
maybe i'll catch you if you fall today
oh unstable heart, you'll be okay
maybe you'll catch you if you fall today
maybe you'll catch you if you fall today

(written feb 2019)

Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Rojo Mabilin, Redverb Studios

Sila-Sila OST, 2019

Originals

Unstable Heart

When you don't have anything left to say, or anything to say at all.

lyrics:
I can’t seem to collect my thoughts or try to catch my breath
Both heart and mind run when thoughts of you start running in my head
I’m stunned, I’m lost in space, and this goes on for quite a while
And all I seem to muster up is a quiet little smile

I’m sorry, but don’t blame me if I have nothing left to say
‘Cause no words can ever hold 
No words can ever hold what you mean to me

I’m terrified of screwing up and making a mistake
‘Cause when I talk about you, I can’t miss a single thing
I can’t seem to say anything without looking like a mess
But with you, I have no worries because somehow I’ll make sense

I’m sorry, but don’t blame me if I have nothing left to say
‘Cause no words can ever hold 
No words can ever hold what you mean to me

No words can ever hold you
No words can ever hold your love
No words can ever hold you, love

(written mar '20)

No Words (demo)

What if an angel came down to earth, just for you?

Lyrics:
Angel, sweet angel, why’d you come down for me?
I don’t think I deserve to be beside you, my dear

You could have taken your heart wherever it wanted to go
But you went to this earth, and settled for here
You could have flown so far with your wings that you hold
So dear, tell me why you decided to stay with me

I’m so amused and so confused on why you choose to stay
‘Cause I know you’d do anything for me, in any way

What good have I ever done to get you in my life?
What good do I have to do to keep you in my life?
Cause I can’t wrap my head around the fact that you’re here
I don’t think I deserve to be in your presence, my dear

Angel, sweet angel, why’d you come down for me?
I don’t think I deserve to be beside you, my dear

You could have conquered the world and taken it by storm
‘Cause you have everything they all need
You could have left me behind and gone for a better life
Oh dear, tell me why you decided to stay with me

I’m so amused and so confused on why you choose to stay
‘Cause I know you’re my everything, my love, in every way￼

(written jan '20)

Angel (demo)

For those who find themselves far away from their calm.

lyrics:
you’re so far away

I shouldn’t be afraid to reach out
but what can you do sometimes
it’s so easy to get taken over by your own mind
you’re lost with nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
and sometimes

waiting for the noise to die down
so I can have peace of mind
can’t really make a move if you’re troubled and tired
no chance to take a deep breath, take a step back
and sometimes

(written may '20)

So Far Away

kung hindi ka makahinga,

(lyrics)
huminga, huminga ka

huwag mong isipin na ika’y nag-iisa
huwag mong isipin na ‘di ka mahalaga
sumandal ka lang sa aking balikat
huminga ka lang

ipikit na ang mga mata
para ‘di makita ang gulo ng mundo
pwede bang itigil muna ang pag-ikot
kalimutan na lang muna’ng takot, pati na rin lungkot
huminga nang malalim

(written aug ’20)

Huminga

i am more human than i can ever be.

lyrics: 
i am
stronger than i think i am
kinder than i feel i am
able to believe 
i am more human than i can ever be

I am
better than i think i am
more than i can see i am
able to believe
i am more human that i can ever be

(experimenting sounds, pasensya na po)

raf bernardino

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