I can't explain what I'm feeling
but I'm glad you're having fun 
And I get so jealous it loses its meaning 
And I want to be done. 

And I kept your letter, 
And I bet you thought I wouldn't read it twice 
sometimes it makes me feel better 
sometimes your picture covers me in vice 

and I wish I wasn't so 
connected to something that was never there.
You make me not wanna go home 
Live under the sheets of my temporary bed.

Having Fun

The world has lost both its sting and warmth. 
Its loosing its grip on me. 
I clean and laugh and I stay alone, 
Just as easily.

To think at one point, I knew how to be 
Something more than me
I carried too much, for someone else
Why’s it gotta be
Why’s it gotta be.

Something More Than Me

idontwannabeyouanymore cover

There are some mistakes but I like doing things in one go. Just capturing what I’m feeling at the moment

i was a fool to care cover

A song about realizing the things you miss when someone has died. This hit me when I realized I was now the age of someone I know who died. I wish I could bring them into the now, but everything I know about them is forever locked in the past.

You died in 2015.
I never truly comprehended what that really means.
It means no more birthday parties where I can hold you tight.
I can't buy you the sweater in the window that you'd like. 
I've seen every moment of you lingering on my front porch. 
Your favorite song's from 2012 and there can't be anymore.
Every moment I live for the rest of my life

you are left behind.

Raineu