Hits me hard

[VERSE 1]
When every thought brings so much pain.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna feel anything.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna change.
Something in my brain,
Telling me to hate.
All I ever say,
I don't wanna change.
Something In my brain,
Won't go away.

[CHORUS]
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
Lay in it.
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
Ill lay in it.

[VERSE 2]
Backpacked on my own,
rather be fucked up all alone,
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
But I know that...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
Matter of fact,
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
I got off track,
Don't wanna do it by myself,
But I don't want no help,
The only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.

[SPOKEN WORD]
Made a promise that I'd love myself
And a promise that I'd break it.
Made a promise that I'd get better 
And a promise that I'd fake it.
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
Give up everything you hated.
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.

[CHORUS X3]

deathbed

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-ほぼそこに-

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red light (prod. by hateful)

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//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

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https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

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//私の時間は終わった//

doormat

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

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guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

produced by @beatzera

cover art found at https://vskyevaz.tumblr.com/

lyrics:

i been tryna switch up my lyrics
and fixing my mixing sometimes u cant even hear it
im hit with a blessing sometimes i cant even see it
i smoke so much potent i swear i practically breath it
i should take it easy
i choose not to
coat the blunt with keef u see me dip it like some fondue
i could sing a song and tell u everything is possible
but i dont want to
im not even fucking done yet
how im spose to say that when i aint even blow up yet
it didnt fucking happen so u couldnt say it does yet
u say tomorrows sunny but u cant even see the sun yet
fuck im kindov upset
i see how we acting and i think we better off dead
fuck it ill go first just put the bullet up in my head
i could clear my thoughts with just a little bit of meds
or i could clear it all and take a lesson from the lead

everything i make is fucking shit
i mean how cool can multiple voices really get
every single drop is always just what u except
9tails making music just for crying in ur bed

bitch im making fucking music bout the thoughts inside my head
tired of my problems u should drop a track instead
i make all my shit for me im barely getting bread
get the fuck out of my messages with all the disrepect

u know i really dont deserve it
as for all the lyrics bitch i hope u fucking learn this
and i dont need the fame and fuck the tours this aint purpose
this aint  no small loan of one million bitch i earned this

i hope u heard this
i fucking earned this

ill try to explain (prod. beatz era)

@hkfiftyone  [prod. HKFiftyOne]
Lying on the floor
Slamming on my door
Yeah i used to love you i dont love you anymore

Lying on the floor
And im staring at the ceiling
Guess i never noticed no one cares about my feelings

You’re not on my mind cuz im thinking bout the money
Feeling like im pretty but my pretty feels ugly
Getting real tired of girls who wanna fuck me
Im not searching for you i wont find someone to love me

Flow so nice they like who is that
Hit me on my line be like who is that
If you copycat i think you is whack
If you got my back then i got you back

I just wanna burn a fuckin louis bag
How you broke but say that you be poppin tags
I been spending time you been spending racks
Even when im rich i will not fuck with that

Now I been losing all my friends
Saying that they real but they pretend
Now i dont give about fuck them
Only give a fuck about the ends

And when they see you coming up
They gon hit you up like you the plug
Then when you see your phone blow up
You gon laugh cuz you dont give a fuck


Lying on the floor
Slamming on my door
Yeah i used to love you i dont love you anymore

Lying on the floor
And im staring at the ceiling
Guess i never noticed no one cares about my feelings

You’re not on my mind cuz im thinking bout the money
Feeling like im pretty but my pretty feels ugly
Getting real tired of girls who wanna fuck me
Im not searching for you i wont find someone to love me

Lying On The Floor

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Ekali – Babylon ft. Denzel Curry (sober rob & oshi remix)

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I love you all so much <3

Lyrics- 
Yung van:
you said you'd always have my back
i said we're never going back
fell hard and you held me in your arms
protect me and never do me harm 

now we're fighting and shit
but you cannot help all this pain that I'm in,
knowing your distant, my heart's feeling this distance 
i think i'm better off dead
can't live with the things that you've said
but even in death
i know I'll never be dead

yesterday:
i saw this coming from a far 
she'll say that im so insecure 
don't blame me for the love i give 
you saved me like a burnt out cigarette 
i don't even care what you say 
2 blunts in the back of the lake 
just us, no time in our way 
bring it back to the self centered days 
when id be dying just to see your face 
now its like “can i take that back?” 
like i wrote down something that i hate 
or “do you wanna go back to my place?”

Spotify <3

even when i hold you, i can't feel you w/ yesterday (Prod. catvlyst)

produced by @idealismus

this track is completely non-profit

lyrics:

the comedown
nothing good happens in the come down

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

life just didnt work out that way

slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked
u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok

homie wake up at four
10 alarms said 8
but i been up all night and soon enough ill be up all day
working hard no pay
i dont care it feels great
accomplishments im glad i made

living the dream and the dream way too lucid
all of my fans said they knew i would do it
im never stopping so dont get it twisted
im sorry but music is over the mrs

808 earthquake
am i always sad no way
sacrifices by drake
hell nah i feel great

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

the comedown (prod. idealism)

produced by @idealismus

cover art by SirC at https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

i been feeling kind of lonely
maybe i should try and find somebody decent for me
i dont need no one to hold me
just that some of these ideas i have need to reach somebody elses ears
falling out with my peers
i dont enjoy nobody elses company and im scared
nobody really knows me
well enough to say whats wrong with me
and the people there that try deserve the deepest of apologies

took me 6 months
but i blew past
miss my medication
got brain zaps
looking at the scene
i dont reflect rap
im a skinny freckled kid
with no face tats

i live the life
if u minus all the ammunition
bitch i do the drugs
but i never wanna go to prison
my own blood turn on me
to see that shit is sickening
but i thank em for my lyrics
cause they fueled the feelings

blueberry og straight out the deal
my exes tell me im cold and i should learn how to feel
i dont feel no love because i know its never real
every girl i meet just want mcdonalds fries and a pill

i cant connect with them
the only one i liked wont respond again
id love to prove that ive evolved from then
ill never be back in that apartment

sap (prod. idealism)

occam's razor

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

baby it's alright with me
kill me here i'm on my knees
don't make me say pretty please
so fucked up lost everything

i'm feeling like a love lost fuck up
i know i never made much progress on us
i know i never fucking focus
i guess
i guess i'm just so fucking hopeless at best

caught me in a bad place,
bad mood, bad year
i still hear your name
yeah, it's ringing in my ear
shoot me through the heart
hunt me down, please my dear
baby kill me now
please girl let me die here

bury my dreams beneath these screams
abandon hope and let me bleed
i called your phone
you called it off
you're at your peak
i'm at a loss
i was so weak
all along
i will admit though
i was wrong

caught me in a bad place,
bad mood, bad year
i still hear your name
yeah, it's ringing in my ear
shoot me through the heart
hunt me down, please my dear
baby kill me now
please girl let me die here

bury my dreams, bury my dreams
just let me bleed, just let me bleed

baby it's alright with me
kill me here i'm on my knees
don't make me say pretty please
so fucked up lost everything

caught me in a bad place,
bad mood, bad year
i still hear your name
yeah, it's ringing in my ear
shoot me through the heart
hunt me down, please my dear
baby kill me now
please girl let me die here

//
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bad mood, bad year

me and @pivot1 made this song together, and we hope you enjoy <3 
make sure to go check him out & have a brilliant day!

AMV by @80smbs: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGNC2noWvsY&t=63s

artwork by: http://tofuvi.tumblr.com

Allure w/ park bird

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rotting self consciously (prod. caspr)

https://youtu.be/Qf2BmNxwMaw
[prod. nonbruh]
prod nonbruh

World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are

World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are

Never trust a hoe shes not your friend (yuh yuh yuh)
She said that she miss me i said bet (yuh yuh yuh)
I cant fall in love no not again (yuh yuh yuh)
I been staying real you play pretend (yuh yuh yuh)

Everybody wanna talk yuh yuh
I dont wanna talk i just wanna get the gwop
And i know that you think im ok 
But im not ok when when you see me you gon say imma

World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are

World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are

Getting everything that i could want (yuh yuh yuh)
Making money but its not enough (yuh yuh yuh)
Licking on your bitch like shes a blunt (yuh yuh yuh)
Hate on me but i dont give a fuck (yuh yuh yuh)

If she wanna dump me its her loss (la la la)
She wouldnt if she knew that imma boss (la la la)
But i aint really tripping either way 
Gunning for the fame when they see me they gon say imma 

World star
What do you mean tho
I been playing hoes like a casino

Im a loser
Hope i lose you in the croud
They dont love you
They just leave you in the ground

Im sad that no one wants me around
But they’ll be sad that they slept on my sound 
My people tell me im the new wave
They gon know my name when they see me they gon say imma

World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are
World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are
World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are
World star
World star
I could be your world star
People walk up to the car
They know who the fuck we are

worldstar

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

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burden boy (prod. br//oken)

Production: me :)
Vocals: @lilxlotus
art: https://twitter.com/lexijohnstonx
Lyrics

I don't think that i'll be fine and I can't do this
It's a struggle every night just to get through it

Look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I can't get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Look me straight in the eye (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) I cant get you out of mind
I cant get you out of mind

(look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?)
My mind
(You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye)
My mind, makes me sick to my stomach I cant get you out of my mind

And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Out Of My Mind (ft. Lil Lotus)

thank you for all the love yall given me from when i started earlier this year, here's one last song before 2017 ends. i love yall, and i got hella plans for next year <3 
---
we both know i'm not the best at showing just how much i care 
but every word you've ever said, just know that i'm not unaware 

of all the little things you'd do, and everything that makes you cute 
cuz i'd give up the world in a heartbeat just to show that my love is true 

and i know it's been awhile, it's too late for me to say
that i still really love your smile, and i regret it everyday 

i lie awake, im stuck in bed,
thinkin of the words i never said 
i lie awake, can't leave my bed,
thinkin of the words i should've said to you
the words i should've said to you 
the words i should've said to you  

and i know it sounds cliche, i'm writing letters in my songs 
singing the same things over and over, like how i'm sorry i was wrong 

i know you hate when i apologize, and you hate that look inside my eyes 
you tell me it's alright, but i still hate it when you cry

i lie awake, im stuck in bed 
thinkin of the words i never said 
i lie awake, you're in my head 
thinkin of the words i should've said to you
words i should've said to you 
words i should've said to you  

and now i've gotchu you in my song, it's the least that i could do
anytime, just say the word; i'll do my best to make it up to you

cause there's nothing i wouldn't give to see you smile like you did
and there's nothing i wouldn't do, for one more chance to be with you

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the words i should've said

you’re telling me to
back down
go home
find another way out
but i know that is not what it’s really about
this town smoked out
got your head in the clouds
something’s got me feeling like we’re all going down

you wouldn’t like it if i was just like you
i don’t even like me and i’m nothing like you
i can’t just pretend
that this is time well spent

i try to sleep the day away and say i’m too busy for everything
and everyone cus i’m no fun
rather play roulette with a loaded gun

this is the town that stole my heart
this is the town that ripped it apart
these are the friends i won’t forget
even if they treat me like shit

you’re telling me to
back down
go home
find another way out
but i know that is not what it’s really about
this town washed out
got your head in the clouds
something’s got me feeling like we’re all going down

you wouldn’t like it if i was just like you
i don’t even like me and i’m nothing like you
i can’t just pretend
that this is time well spent
(repeat)

lights on
exposure burns
manipulated
by now i’ve learned
your words mean dirt
trading blows and now you’ll feel the hurt

tough luck
now you fucked up
put your hands up
shoot low
that’s a low blow
time to let go
tough luck
now you fucked up
call it tough love
put your hands up
let’s go
(repeat)

can’t bite the hand that feeds
when it beats out all your teeth
can’t bite the hand that feeds
when it beats out your teeth

Hits me hard

Lil'Goob