Lilac Sage Dever

aurora - blood in the wine (slowed)

The Fruits - Paris Paloma (On Spotify)

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Music Production - BOIA
Music Composition- BOIA & Simon Griffen 
Mixed by - BOIA 
Mastered by- REDDHAWT 

© 2022 Kaia Jette
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Lyrics: 
There’s nights where I feel like my 
Life’s spinning round through my mind 
I can’t escape this rollercoaster of mine
My hands are shaking and I 
Can’t help but breaking inside
This ride is like a nightmare I can’t seem to wake 

Up from this gravity oh  
Up from this insanity oh
Up from this reality 
Where I can’t seem to wake 
Up from this gravity oh  
Up from this insanity oh
Up from this reality 
Where I can’t seem to wake 
 
Some days it starts to feel like 
Lightning is waiting to strike 
When I’m exactly in the right place paralyzed 
In fear of shaping what I’m
Slowly escaping inside
I’m lucid dreaming in a nightmare I can’t wake 
 
Up from this gravity oh  
Up from this insanity oh
Up from this reality 
Where I can’t seem to wake 
Up from this gravity oh  
Up from this insanity oh
Up from this reality 
Where I can’t seem to wake 
 
Chills run down my spine 
Looking up to find 
The horizon line 
But all I see 
Is the devil standing right in front of me 
Fighting my mind to break this nightmare I can’t wake 

Up from this gravity oh  
Up from this insanity oh
Up from this reality 
Where I can’t seem to wake 
Up from this gravity oh  
Up from this insanity oh
Up from this reality 
Where I can’t seem to wake

Nightmare

cemeteries and socials

mulled wine

the last beautiful thing I saw is the thing that blinded me

the last beautiful thing I saw is the thing that blinded me (feat. Bailey Pickles & Beth B)

what have I done?

forsaken

Us and Pigs

yeti

yeti (feat. Old Sea Brigade)

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written and composed by madilyn mei
produced and mixed by scrawny
mastered by joe hutchinson
artwork by kris putter

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Lyrics:
Met you at the cemetery
We caught frogs and moths and beetles
We discussed our deepest fears
Yours are ghosts, mine is people

If I had a heart it’d beat right out my chest
Right now I think I
Have something to tell you
Just promise me one thing

I have something to tell you
Promise you won't scream

But would you be my friend
If I told you that I died years ago?
Would you be my friend if I never told a lie?
Some things hard to hear though

Would it be better if we didn’t?
If you never knew the truth of my existence?
Would you ever be friends with a ghost?

Saw you sitting on a gravestone
Crossing through on my way home
I said “hi” and you looked shocked

“Wait, you can see me?"

“Ah so it talks!"

Catching bugs and chasing toads

“They were frogs"

"What's the difference?"

I said I’m afraid of ghosts
You're afraid of our existence

Would you be my friend
If I told you that I died years ago?
Would you be my friend if I
Never told a lie?
Some things hard to hear though

Would it be better if we didn’t?
If you never knew the truth of my existence?
Would you ever be friends with a ghost?

I don't want you to know a single thing about me
But I wanna know all there's to know about you

I don't want you to know a single thing about me
But I wanna know all there's to know about you

Met you at the cemetery
We caught bugs and frogs and feelings

“Wait did i just say that? Sorry!”

“Yeah you should be!
We caught bugs and toads and feelings!”

I would be your friend
No matter dead or alive
Losing my mind going mad

I'll be around
Til the day that I die
You and I can’t forget
Don’t regret what we had

Would it be better if we never
Met each other, never stayed together?
Would you stick around with all that you know?

(Nice to meet you
Taking your time
I think I’m a sheep in wolf’s clothing
Time is fleeting
Knew I’d never grow old
Seasons change)

I don't want you to know a single thing about me
But I wanna know all there's to know about you

I don't want you to know a single thing about me
But I wanna know all there's to know about you

At The Cemetery

Listen

At The Cemetery feat. cloudkissed

My 'Promise You Won't Scream' (EP) is out now → https://linktr.ee/madilynmei

Catch me on TOUR 👉 www.madilynmei.com/tour-dates

MERCH: www.hellomerch.com/collections/madilyn-mei

written and composed by madilyn mei
produced and mixed by scrawny
mastered by joe hutchinson
artwork by kris putter

www.madilynmei.com
www.instagram.com/madilynmei/
tiktok.com/@madilynmei
Other links: linktr.ee/madilynmei

Lyrics:
When you’re gone I feel alone again
The voices cannot hold my hand
They keep me company at very best
Distract me from my loneliness

Maybe I’m just an anomaly
Even my demons have their families
Truly something must be wrong with me
To need you as much as I do

I was never meant to win
I was never meant to win
I was never meant to win

Shut up!

Here’s the reigns
Take ahold of me
Please don’t let me go

You do the talking
Sew up my mouth if I can’t keep it closed

There’s a dog barking right around the block
And a big ol’ whistle blow

Run for it
I’ll keep em occupied for you
Cause I love you, I love you so

Left me hangin at the station
But you’ll be back for me soon

I’m ‘bout to die
Yet the only thing I find i'm worried about is you

Something tells me you aren’t coming
Guess that I’m truly doomed

I’m 'bout to die
Yet the only thing I find I’m worried about is you
I’m 'bout to die
Yet the thing on my mind seems to nearly be nothing but you

I overhear your brain when it’s close to mine
Oh, I know that we’re not the same
My heart’s on the line

I’m just a pawn in your game
Not your partner in crime

And you’re slowly killing me
Taking your time
You’re slowly killing me
Taking your time

You’re slowly killing me
Taking your- (I was never meant to win)
You’re slowly killing me
Taking your- (I was never meant to win)

You’re slowly killing me
And yet I don’t mind (You were never meant to win)
You’re slowly killing me
But please take your time

Partner in Crime

SPILT MILK

arms length

Can’t Catch Me Now

Can’t Catch Me Now (from The Hunger Games: The Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes)


Lyrics:

I've thrown aside my worries
But the cares they bite me back
I'm taking twenty vitamins a day
For the iron I lack

I don't need food I don't need sleep
Don't tell me that I'm wrong
I don't know what I'm doing
But can you please just play along

My head is made of flowers
And my body made of steel
Cause I can't think
Can't hear can't feel

They say
A picture's worth a thousand words
But I disagree
I can't imagine anything
Cause I can't see

I won't break the ice though what else
Is there to do
Cause suffering in silence is better
Than suffering with you

So I jumped out with a parachute
But the ground caught me off guard
Karma for the rules I break
The ones I disregard

I can feel the tension rising
What fate is worse than this
Stuck between the ones I love
And the ones I miss

My head is made of shrubbery
And my body made of stone
Cause I can't for the life of me
Reap what I have sown

They say
A picture's worth a thousand words
But I disagree
I can't imagine anything
Cause I can't see

I won't break the ice though what else
Is there to do
Cause suffering in silence is better
Than suffering with you

I try to sink and never float
Cause my head is underwater
I'm here by choice by my own hand
I'm a lamb sent into slaughter

I'm aware of my own body
I can feel beneath my skin
I can wash away my insecurities
But can't wash away my sin

They say
A picture's worth a thousand words
But I disagree
I can't imagine anything
Cause I can't see

I won't break the ice though what else
Is there to do
Cause suffering in silence is better
Than suffering with you

suffering - Amélie Farren

boys, bugs and men

04 - Predator - The Crane Wives - Beyond Beyond Beyond

03 - Higher Ground - The Crane Wives - Beyond Beyond Beyond

Emilee petersmark, ripped from YouTube from Ramona because I wanted a SoundCloud upload. if either tell me to take it down I will!!



fuck me up (Emilee petersmark)

This was ripped from the Earthwork Harvest Gathering 2020 recording on YouTube. If anyone reaches out to tell me to take it down I will! 

(I had to manually transcribe these)
LYRICS: 

The walls are bare
I threw all our pictures away
I couldn't stand to see the smiles
getting tighter on
The pictures in their frames

The funny thing,
there are shadows where the pictures used to hang
So the memories are never too far away

I wanna forget this part of my life
just accept we didn't get it right
and pack it up in boxes
I just want it outta my sight 
Divide the blame into yours and mine
and pack it up in boxes
pack it up in boxes

Do you remember when
we would lie together on a twin size bed
And stay awake for hours laughing fantasizing 
about moving west
Pack what we can fit in the car and give away the rest

I wanna forget this part of my life 
just accept we didn't get it right
and pack it up in boxes
I just want it outta my sight
divide the blame into yours and mine 
and pack it up in boxes
pack it up in boxes

Nothing turned out quite the way we planned it
Between your diamond eyes and my 
rose colored glasses

When you thought we could have it all
and you still saw the good in me
Back when taking your hand 
didn't feel like stealing 

Before we got the bigger house
and the California king
There might as well be
miles between

i wanna forget this part of my life
just accept we didn't get it right
and pack it up in boxes
I just need to get it outta my sight
I'll take the blame if we can skip the fight
and pack it up in boxes
Pack it up in boxes
Pack it up in boxes, yeah

Boxes (Kate Pillsbury)

ripped from YouTube for a SoundCloud upload

Lyrics:
Fill me up, pour me out, wash her name out of my mouth, 
I am ready to be clean
Burn my lungs then she was gone, long before the lights came on
God I hope she's done with me

Do you beg? do you pray? Tell me how you get away
From the voices in your head
I am lost, I've been done
Long before the lights went on
Someone please put me to bed
Cause I, I am not well
And she knows, she knows, she knows how
To bend me to her will

Calling out in the street, have you got something for me?
There's a hunger to be fed
There was ash in my mouth 
Long before the lights went out
But I don't recall just what I said

Do you gamble? Do you beg? Can you risk the life you have
For a temporary high?
Shaking hands, it was done
Long before the lights went on
Did it leave you satisfied?
Cause you, you are not well
And I know I know I know how
To bend you to my will
Yeah, you know you know you know I, I am not well
And I'll give you what you want
So take what you will.

So calm down, come down with me
Come down with me
Fill me up, pour me out
I am ready to be clean

Before the Lights went Out (Emilee Petersmark)

hi I mostly post niche solo songs from the members of the crane wives that I've dredged up from Facebook lives and various streams.

I just think they're neat :)

please excuse the quality of a lot of them, as I said before they're usually ripped from lives and stuff.

Lilac Sage Dever

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