AT THE BOTTOM OF A DRY PURPLE TREE

He changed his mind,
I don’t know why he keeps on searching through his mind,
Don’t ask him where he’s coming from
He spent the night looking for someone

who believes that it’s not weird,
a kind of problem we all have,
Who believes that we all live suffering from obsession.

He isn’t sure you’ll understand,
He feels his life’s turning upside down,
Like doctor Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde,
full of love and hatred,

He’s deluding himself that his mind is still so clear
But after all, it made him grow…
Grow up more and more

Would ya listen to his words?
Would ya wait fer him even if he don’t want?
Now he’s sitting on his own at the bottom of a dry purple tree

I’m deluding myself that my mind is still so clear
But after all, it made me grow…
Grow up more and more

Would ya listen to my words?
Would ya wait fer me even if I don’t want?
Now I’m sitting on my own at the bottom of a dry purple tree

I don’t hold myself in high esteem
I don’t hold myself in high esteem
I don’t hold myself in high esteem


Upside Down

At the bottom of a dry purple tree

LET'S GO OFF THE BEATEN TRACK

Many chances have gone away 
And I still feel alone,
I feel a loser and everything I start 
I just give it up 
I feel dumb 
And I don't even try to talk to you

Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Nightbird

I'm gettin’ closer, closer, closer to ya 
But I still feel alone,
I graze your soft skin 
And I love so much 
yer deep breathe on me,
The sun is settin’ 
and tomorrow is my today
Cos I don’t give a shit!

Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Nightbird

Come on man don’t be shocked,
You know it’s the way that life goes,
Come on man don’t be shocked,
You know it’s the way that life goes,
Zippin’ around,
Boozin’ around,
Yawning too much..

Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Nightbird

Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Come on, let's go off the beaten track,
Nightbird

Let's go off the beaten track

MOTHER LOVE

Well, I’m ashamed,
Feel guilty too,
Scared of destroying your precious love,

You feel my soul through my eyes and my voice,
You fill my soul with your mother love,
mother love…

Please try to accept my poisoned heart,
Your tears appear in my mind,

Yours is true love,
No need for words,
That was my fault,
Forgive me from now on,
I love you so

Deeply, deeply inside,
I’ve always known your mother love
Makes me feel alive,
Empties my mind, drains toxic veins,
Makes me forget my lost soul and fear

Please don’t suffer for me,
I love you so much
It’s true what I feel,
The rest doesn’t matter,
It’s out of my control many times


Mother Love

PRECIOUS NOTES

I remember when we first began 
Like three brothers then even more,
Everything, dreams too, came by themselves
Leaving time outside the door,
It didn’t matter who we were,
Something was spreading in the air,

Uncontrollable and pleasant,
It made me feel so free,
Guess you all felt the same,
Part of the magic that we shared together through highs and lows,
Like love, it came and went

Doesn’t matter if we're good enough,
For whom or what!?
If it comes it comes by itself,
No prospects, no illusions with your feet on the ground
But keep your head in the sky

As long as you can see the hidden beauty, both bitter and sweet,
Which touches and warms your heart.
I know I’ve struggled and been impatient many times,
that’s true,
But good memories I can’t give up

We filled our souls with some precious notes,
Swaying inside, coming from nowhere,
But there somewhere...

Precious Notes

Precious notes

NOT JUST ANYONE

Sleep deeply my love,
I’ll be there by your side,
I’ll always be there,
Count on me,
However it goes

I think I’ll always love you,
You’re deep within me,
It’ll always be,
However it goes
I’m sure of this,
You’re part of me

You’re part of me,
You’re part of me

No one can know how it’s been,
It’s been so unfair!
But then, who cares?
We went to the ends of the Earth 

And we’re still here,
Our Love’s been real,
And now you know what you mean to me

Not just anyone to me,
Not just anyone to me,
You are the one who saved me from myself,
You’re the one who brought out the best in me

It's an ill wind that blows no good

Not just anyone

WITH EACH ONE WHO'S LOST (EVERYONE IS LOSING)

The only truth’s we’re all the same,
Every birth is a gift from God,
No one’s necessary or useless,
No one more or less in Love rules

All the sane are going backwards
To the point that they get lost,
Cos they don’t know what to do 
Trying to find the answers to all the questions in their minds,
“Who am I?” “What’s reality?”
A balance that you have to find,
with each one who's lost everyone is losing,
Everyone is losing,
Everyone, everyone..

I don’t care what shape it takes,
Love is always the best thing,
There’s a question in my mind 
I can’t answer many times,
I ask myself with tearful eyes and crying heart
“Why does so much pain have to exist? We’re all meant to be alright..”

A life of bliss,
But life is endurance..

I ask myself with tearful eyes and crying heart
“Why does so much pain have to exist? We’re all meant to be alright”
I ask myself again and again “Why does so much pain have to exist??” 
I tell myself with tearful eyes “We’re all meant to be alright..”

With each one who's lost (everyone is losing)

IT'S AN ILL WIND THAT BLOWS NO GOOD

We’re both facing the extremely delicate and powerful feeling of love,
I’m learning how to love and want to give what I have to you,
I ‘d never have thought I would be so very close to you,
For some things there ain’t an age

You quelled my weakness and were more mature than a seven years’ older man,
You gave me something to think about
And strength to face this ill being,
Life is strange, complicated
but fascinating,
Men and Nature

It’s an ill wind that blows no good,
It’s an ill wind...

I felt real pain and anguish for what happened to ya darling,
The world is so unfair and it seems some things cannot be avoided, no…
These things just happen and leave their mark
And how they could happen, we don’t understand,
Inside ourselves we suffer guilt and shame we don’t feel are ours

All we can do is be as close as we can,
All we can do is be as close as we can 

Make up for lost time, all that counts is here and now,
Everything starts and ends with you,
Almost nothing is written, you’ve got the pen,
You must want to change,
change, change, change, change!

And then you’ll learn to be brave,
I’ll hold your hand,
then you will learn to be brave,
I’ll hold your hand,
It’s an ill wind that blows no good, 
It’s an ill wind...
It’s an ill wind that blows no good, 
It’s an ill wind...

So that night we met at the bar,
One of four nuts dancing in the crowd
And an innocent angel observing at the door,
It’s like I’m living the story of love
I can’t have now, 
I’ve never really had,
I felt some love, 
I’m thankful for what I’ve got

LET'S RIDE THE WAVE

I feel we can make the difference through our songs,
Even in our small way,
Better small than fanatical

We’ll help whoever needs some relief,
Let yourself go
And fly high like birds, yeah!

Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
like birds in the sky,
Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
High in the sky,
Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
like birds in the sky

When the chance came I didn’t miss it and that’s why I’m here now,
When the chance came I didn’t miss it and that’s why I’m here now,
When the chance came I didn’t miss it and that’s why I’m here now

Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
like birds in the sky,
Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
High in the sky,
Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
like birds in the sky,
Let’s ride the wave, let’s ride the wave
High in the sky,
High in the sky,
High in the sky,
High in the sky!

Let's ride the wave

ESCAPE LAND

It seems so hard to go outside,
To find a way to escape from what feels like a cage,
I don’t wanna be locked in a cage,
I don’t wanna be locked in

Too many steps to reach that place, 
Your Escape Land,
Free from rules,
Someone back me up,
I just need someone to back me up,
Honey, don’t look down on me..

Would you see my soul breaking like a bone?
Would you see my soul?

And then at dawn we’re used to drinking a couple of gins
To then get to our Escape Land
To then get to our Escape Land
Why don’t we want to face the truth??

Don’t deny that you have loved her,
All you need is someone to love,
Pureness has disappeared with all the ideals you had

Escape Land

LONELY

Glorification of pleasure,
Stimulation of what it’s gone,
Romanticism, frustration,
You push me to take it more as it comes

Wish I could feel what I can’t control
What a demand , 
can’t free myself from lust,
I don’t expect you to understand
as far as I mostly can treat you with regard

Don’t be afraid,
cos your heart knows
what your mind is trying to ignore,
I’m weak and I can’t control myself,
the fire is imploding and it already hurts

Worst of all is you’re so beautiful,
heart, mind, body drive me crazy,
I can’t stop it, try to get this,
I’m not trying to push ya away from me

It’s true I’m a lot scared,
believe me I’m doing my best,
but I can’t ignore the signs,
I can’t fool myself,
I’ll be somebody you won’t understand
and surely you’ll hate me as everybody else,

Don’t be afraid,
cos your heart knows
what your mind is trying to ignore,
I’m weak and I can’t control myself,
the fire is imploding and it already hurts,
Deny if you feel like
but I can’t anymore,
nothing has changed to me but all has changed,
You mean so much to me I wish we could have more,
but my heart don’t lie and doesn’t whisper anymore,

Worst of all is you’re so beautiful,
heart, mind, body drive me crazy,
I can’t stop it, try to get this,
I’m not trying to push ya away from me

It’s true I’m a lot scared,
believe me I’m doing my best,
but I can’t ignore the signs,
I can’t fool myself,
I’ll be somebody you wouldn’t understand
and surely you’ll hate me as everybody else,
if I continue too long..

Hope you understand soon and find the strenght to accept
we’re alone and always will be,
this is the truth about everyone,
the only way to learn it is to face and live it,
though it’s much pain,
though it’s much pain,
so much pain,
I’m sorry if I let you down,
I’m sorry… I let you down,
It’s all my fault, my fault…

Short life, Long journey

Lonely

Lonely DEMO

EGO'S LOVE

If lovin’ you means going crazy, 
I don’t love you,
If lovin’ you means going crazy, 
I don’t love you..

I don’t think my love’s enough,
I can’t get through,
Wish I could be more to be there and love you,
All that I find out I can’t really love,
blaming ya of lack of love when I’m the same,
feeling low, as if I’m floating in the air,
Trying to understand what the truth is

We don’t know what’s going on,
We don’t know what’s going on,
Everything’s about to go away,
We don’t know what’s going on,
Everything’s about to go away

If lovin’ you means going crazy,
I don’t love you,
If lovin’ you means going crazy,
I don’t love you..

Pain answers to no one,
Did my best but I could not,
‘round every corner there are the demons of my tale,
The unkown, the secret, the betrayal,
What’s the story? I don’t know…
I punished myself the other night,
hit rock bottom and died for one day
and crawled the next one

We don’t know what’s going on,
Everything’s about to go away,
We don’t know what’s going on,
but I better decide for the best,
We don’t know what’s going on,
Everything’s about to go away,
Leave behind the ego’s love,
a rose with no thorns…

If lovin’ you means going crazy,
I don’t love you,
If lovin’ you means going crazy,
I don’t…

Ego's love

Ego's love DEMO

EMOTION

You and I by the sea,
all alone without beating around the bush,
crouched sound, enjoying the sun,
the sun that heats our hearts
and when I’m down you stroke my hair
and I lean down on your shoulder

Free from all sort of evil
You kiss me on my lips
And tighten me at your heart
Expression of a unique,
unbroken, incredible,
unmissable young love,
don’t let this chance go,
go…

And I fell in love with you,
you are my life,
you are my destiny,
You are my only Love,
I fell in love with you,
You are my life,
you are my destiny

You and I by the sea,
all alone without beating around the bush,
Expression of a unique,
unbroken, incredible,
unmissable young love,
don’t let this chance go,
go…

And I fell in love with you,
you are my life,
you are my destiny,
You are my only Love,
I fell in love with you,
You are my life,
you are my destiny
You are my only Love,
You are my only Love,
I fell in love with you,
You are my life,
you are my destiny

Emotion

Emotion DEMO

RARA AVIS

Might be my big fault,
I make it too easy,
I expect love at my mum’s breast

Know that’s insane
but it ain’t very clear,
in my mind there’s still loads of fear

Every word of refusal is like stabs of a thousand blades,
I’m so confused, 
my feelings wound me,
my teeth gnash

Cuts and holes bleeding all over me,
sucking my vital forces,
it’s indescrible how it feels being more conscious,
a rara avis

Every word moving me away,
it’s like if I’m abandoned by Mum,
I’m still a kid in my mind and that makes me lost,
I think this is the hard core

Rara Avis

Rara avis DEMO

Trance Trip

Trance trip DEMO

FINALLY I CRIED

Punch this wall,
Hurl this bookcase,
All my thoughts are for destroying,
Clench your fists and your teeth,
Choke and shrill screams,
Can’t cope with it.
In my car I burnt my throat,
The pain is too big,
It’s never ending,
Where does all this anger come from!?
I’m so filled up,
That’s not me!!

I hate everyone and everything!!!

Fuck this shit! 
I’ve got an headache,
Finally I cried alone in my bed,
Hunched up in my bed,
Stop this shit, can’t stand it anymore in my head,
I cried in my bed,
Alone in my bed

Where does all this anger come from?
Where does all this anger come from?
Where does all this anger come from?
Where does it come from!?

Finally I cried

CRUISIN' FANTASY

‘bout this loving feeling I’ve had for a while I’m wondering so much,
it’s always been hard to understand who I really want

Don’t want to be on my own anymore,
it’s been far too long, 
I want somebody to love

I tried and suffer and argued and got it wrong,
it just wasn’t the right time,
but all that’s really wanted comes to something,
I feel this is something

Ain’t much to understand,
can’t stop thinking of her,
she’s just so stunning,
pureness in her eyes and smile

But I don’t know how it’s going to be,
she’s got someone else but I won’t give up,
I need to make sure there’s no chance
And only then I’d leave her alone
And only then I’d leave her alone

Took my time to understand,
luckly I didn’t give up into this cruising fantasy and desperate love,
all that could come out of it is pain for nothing,
for nothing

Now I know how it has to be,
simply the way it is,
No more wonderings, just let Love be
And spread around with no end,
And only then I won’t be alone,
And only then I won’t be alone,
And only then I won’t be alone,
And only then I won’t be alone

Cruisin' fantasy

Cruisin' fantasy DEMO

HAPPINESS

It’s so pretty when you’re serious one moment
And soon after you’re laughing mad,
I’m yawning at this life,
not many thrills make me feel as you do

But now my soul is sick of all your behaviours,
feelings won’t mean nothing
"Regrets make you unhappy more and more,
the sun is rising on you"

Don’t you think we’re just throwing our lives?
Would be better if we just didn’t mind,
we’re wasting time defending our pride
but I’m sure I’ll be happy again

Again, I’ll be happy again if I leave you alone
Again, I’ll be happy again if I leave you alone
Again, I’ll be…

And now my soul is sick of all your behaviours,
feelings won’t mean nothing
"Regrets make you unhappy more and more,
the sun is rising on you"

Don’t you think we’re just throwing our lives?
Would be better if we just didn’t mind,
we’re wasting time defending our pride
but I’m sure I’ll be happy again

Again, I’ll be happy again if I leave you alone
Again, I’ll be happy again if I leave you alone
Again, I’ll be…

Out of my mind I feel fine,
Out of my mind I feel fine,
Out of my mind I feel fine!

Happiness

MARTYRDOM 

Don’t come to tell I play the victim,
No, I am..
I hate this role, I feel helpless
But there’s no choice,
Wherever I turn there are tigers to scratch,
I’m surrounded,
I’m losing but I’m not so lost,
Cling as much as I can

I’ve never devoted myself to martyrdom,
All and nothing, more nothing, never stable,
Layers of masks to peel like the black bits in a peach,
I’m not scared of death but of dying without… 

..having lived,
I want to feel,
Cos many times I’m empty and dry, 
Feverish and uncontrollable and too high,
Goggle-eyed,
I shake inside and feel just way too insecure,
Got no words,
all meaningless…

I’m sick of apologizing for no reason
Cos in the end the doubly screwed one is me,
But no escape requires a release in any case,
The uneasiness would kill me if I did not distort...

..even though I don’t want to,
I have to, to stay afloat,
I have to hide from you and myself,
Split in two I bleed from within,
I fight every day and every moment to set me free,
Sometimes I wish I had a normal life…

Cross to bear

Martyrdom

Remorse in front of a fireplace

Crossa to bear

The fire of Love

Fire of Love (Jody Reynolds COVER) DEMO

BRAIN STORM

Some of my thoughts are like a fly
Hitting the window,
Unable to find a way out
Stupidly hitting again and again
I’m so fucking fraught
And torn inside, paranoid, agitated and sick

I just don’t wanna give a damn about many things
Get the force of nature and pleasure
I need humour, a smile,
An injection of love, of good memories
To be thrown into a happy state

As long as it can last
As long as it can last
As long as it can last

Away from my brain storm,
At least for a while…

Brain storm

A BITE OF THE HARDEST PAST

Life is boring and scary in so many ways,
Play your modest game to fulfil yourself

Walking down the street
my head’s locked in thoughts,
The more I think the more I hesitate,
Trust me, never ever think too much
Trust me, never ever think too much

I wanna talk to someone now,
Don’t know what about,
I don’t wanna bother anyone,
I’m too confused

I wanna lean on cars that stop to let me through,
When I am confused I get so vulnerable

Eyes express it clearly, a sense of loss inside,
On the edge of madness,
Thoughts rove in my mind,
It’s so easy to fall not to stand up,
It’s so easy to fall not to stand up

It has been a bite of the hardest past,
It has been a bite of the hardest past,
It is all in my mind
Till I come up against something to remind me

Life is boring and scary in so many ways,
Play your modest game to fulfil yourself,
It’s so easy to fall not to stand up,
I’m scared of losing myself again...

A bite of the hardest past

A bite of the hardest past DEMO

BLOOD IN MY HEAD

I’m sorry mate I didn’t mean to hurt you that way,
So unfairly,
I spat poison with blood in my head
I could not reason,
I felt my work was just a joke to ya, 
My songs are like children,
Forget the judgements based on nothing
I wish I’d never made them...

Blood in my head

Before the unconscious, there was Rock music in all its splendor and damnation.
I suddenly realized that what I was writing was truer than what I felt inside and out.
I owe a good part of my search for truth to music.
Rock, Britpop, Psychedelic Rock, Punk Rock, Folk Rock, Singer-Songwriter.

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