Lyrics on: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vL6BLVpzi4

yenom - Single

yenom (prod. BMTJ)

Lyrics:

Sitting on a bench, and hopping onto beats, I feel my thumbs chilling up, ah choo 
Open up my eyes and see you lying down, doodling into your sketchbook 
I try to just stick to my side, every now and then I sneak a glance to my right, girl 
Then one time I just met her eyes, couldn’t get the hazel sights out of mind, yeah 

The morning wind was blowing cold 
Felt some sweat dripping down to my ear lobe 
Heard a sound from the right, think she’s getting close 
I could hear my heartbeat, bass boom, overload 

She asked if I minded her sitting there 
Said the grass was muddy, muddy brown like her curly hair 
I said, the spot’s free I don’t really care 
Took a seat right beside, my cheeks are rosy red 

Girl you make me feel nervous 
Like when my phone got no service, oh
Are you pretty? Am I tipsy? Cause I never want this high to go, I’m feeling gold
(pretty, pretty)
I’m feeling gold
(pretty, pretty)
I’m feeling gold
(pretty, pretty)
I’m feeling gold 
(pretty, pretty)

feeling gold - Single

feeling gold (prod. Riddick X Beats)

Holding on, I’ve been climbing this rope, for years and a little to come
Growing tired, I know I’m reaching the end, but it ain’t so clear
I been feeling so much of this pressure
Coupled with so much of impatience
I don’t wanna leave, I don’t wanna fall
Ima just hold cause I can right now

I’m the kinda person that loves gauging my happiness quotient
Was I better off last year? And the year before that?
I just need to know I’m growing, or else I’m moping
Cause I’m the validation for my parents’ moving
To this country, away from India, our home
I’m not saying that it was all bad for my folks
All the things that they did, some of them straight goals
But even so, being away, they do feel alone
While I’m just a vagabond, way I spend my time
I’m at home, or not, it doesn’t matter, I’m on my line
Writing rhymes, riding miles, engineer and design
With my boo, with the squaw, LSD, all mine
Point is, I fit in, I think I made it, no kidding 
I got no plan to leave America, but who am I kidding?
Not a citizen, the decision, is not up to me
So every year I think I get a little weaker with fear

Holding on, I’ve been climbing this rope, for years and a little to come
Growing tired, I know I’m reaching the end, but it ain’t so clear
I been feeling so much of this pressure
Coupled with so much of impatience
I don’t wanna leave, I don’t wanna fall
Ima just hold cause I can right now

Careless, I been wasting away
Time never stopped to play
Here I am prepping to chase
I need to bolt like Usain

Keep me sane or keep my pace, I can’t afford to double date
For the longest while I been tryna hol’ onto every dame
One makes me happy, and the other saves me the pain
Of facing conflicts with my father, don’t put me to shame
You never know, what a mind might be churning inside
All the advice that you gave, maybe already tried
I’m seeking a guide, but all I got is numerous lines-
Of why I just don’t listen? The fault’s mine
I know that I ain’t got the mindset for it
Want a Jay Rock, but I’m just Isaiah on the mix
I wanna runaway cause I don’t wanna throw a fit
But I really wanna stay so I gotta raise my chin 

Holding on, I’ve been climbing this rope, for years and a little to come
Growing tired, I know I’m reaching the end, but it ain’t so clear
I been feeling so much of this pressure
Coupled with so much of impatience
I don’t wanna leave, I don’t wanna fall
Ima just hold cause I can right now

prism panes

rope (prod. ThatKidGoran)

Back on my old town road
But it ain’t never been remixed by Montero
In fact, this was when we was hid by the cove
And 19, I was to be in the winter cold
Although, what’s reminisced is summer in Bangalore
I left for a visa but that was put on hold
If you listened to April, you on track with the lore
The reason’s not important, here is what followed
For a quarter of a year, the boy visited home
I had to drop a class, required me in land
That’s okay, online, the others that in hand
Unpacking my bags, in my old cabinets, it’s unreal, the way it felt like a time cap-
-sule, I was pooling up on Asthalins
I’m not asthmatic, but wheeze sometimes like Carter, dig?
It’s these lines that formed in that time of 2021, the birth of rathim

Flashbacks to a simpler time
All I did was work on my rhymes
Black hair, brown eyes, but then a little too carefree for a life 	
Flashbacks to a simpler time
All I did was work on my rhymes
Black hair, brown eyes, but then a little too carefree for a life 	

Too carefree for a life
Nah, I was living dreams of the whole damn pie
Escaping to the outskirts, starry skies
But more importantly I was living a lie, with no repercussions
No repercussions, no pushes to be so steady
Out of my lane, out of the whole damn country, boy
That shit felt like paradise

And it was
I was penning a verse
Everyday like it ritual, that my kinda church
The one that spark flames in my temple, it ain’t no hearses
I was turning it up, in gramma’s turf
It felt like I finally found a reason to breathe and do something for me
That’s a little dramatic, but in essence, truly
I was always the one to do nothing but what assigned
But then I did see the signs of the flower path that I ride

Flashbacks to a simpler time
All I did was work on my rhymes
Black hair, brown eyes, but then a little too carefree for a life 	
Flashbacks to a simpler time
All I did was work on my rhymes
Black hair, brown eyes, but then a little too carefree for a life

flashbacks v2 (prod. markmywords)

Tag along voyager
Don’t feel right at all
But I know why I’m here
Won’t come up short
Just breathe voyager
Don’t feel right at all
Bet you know why I’m here
It’s formula

Take me back to when we played all night
I didn’t even like the game
No oh, just wanted to feel more closer to y’all
Felt more worth it then
Now…
I got too much on my mind
Overwhelmed with these timelines
Overburdened by all reminders that I’m in need of a sponsor
Been oblivious to my status
Been sheltered like Finneas
Past habits don’t feel safe no more
Like
I been thinking I’m a drake mixtape but I don’t got no lust for life
Been coasting, boasting my throat’s sorcery to cope with all of my petty strifes
With myself, my rebranding, sometimes I can’t recollect the child
Losing touch with the black hair and the brown eyes

This time their mine

Tag along voyager
Don’t feel right at all
But I know why I’m here
Won’t come up short
Just breathe voyager
Don’t feel right at all
Bet you know why I’m here
It’s formula

voyager interlude (prod. nitcho)

It’s that time of the month
Alarms ain’t waking me up, but it’s the sun and a few beans, black in that cup
Scoring up the queue on the app, gotta find the soundtrack
What’s the mood? I’m going to brush
Feeling the same as last night, I was drowned in some studies, so my head a little heavy
Still I gotta finish that report for that bootcamp, resourceful, but really cause dad paid a hefty
And then I need to read up on some batteries
How do you keep cool a dude, overheating?
Take a shower, then I got a little meeting
The missus outta class, and the time we be needing
Cause the boy just can’t make enough off of it
Ask Kona or Joe, they the prime victims
And they just tryna talk, but I don’t call
Cause I cannot get the truth out my system

I been pushing myself for something I can’t understand, maybe it’s not meant to be, so what?
The ones I keep close, can’t relate, I can’t with them, either, we getting cold, so what?
Think I might not get hired, I’m not the best at what I gotta do, so what?
The world don’t got love for nobody, much less an immigrant, prolly gon have to start over, so what?

So what?
What I’m gon do?
Lemme tell ya
Yeah

I can’t afford to complain, gotta get paid if I wanna stay in the states, man it already late
I got that appointment, for the visa, in like 14 days, and for the context, that an ace of spades
The lady been watching over me for the last 20, but now I gotta acquire a taste for the chase
My uncle said the grind is something I gotta embrace
I get it, really, but I’ve been fiending for a break
It used to be a weekend’s a chance to get away, and I ended up shopping greens like 9 miles away
Remember, high school, when I walked back with Vam
All we talked about is games, had no plan
Now, we here discussing our lives like we got some spouses, what I mean is the boy is a man
What if I get too old to listen to Brockhamtpon?
Yeah that’s the biggest issue anyone got on hand

Like
San Jose got the homeless by my garage, and I’m too tired to be getting As
Some people been saving up for college for years, and I’m annoyed cause I can’t serenade
Mom has to transition the company through countries, for the EAD, America, gon make her wait
And I’m too afraid to fight for a place to dream
It’s pathetic, bruh, there gotta be some change

There gotta be some change in my mentality, I gotta harden like a James
Harden like a diamond, on my way
The key to this is most of my feelings, invalidate
They gon say that’s bad, but so is the health care
Besides I said most, not all of them, not ‘prem’
Corny but I gotta develop it for me
Maybe then I’ll finally get rid of the self pity 
Do you get the message behind the track name? 

I been pushing myself for something I can’t understand, maybe it’s not meant to be, so what?
The ones I keep close, can’t relate, I can’t with them, either, we getting cold, so what?
Think I might not get hired, I’m not the best at what I gotta do, so what?
The world don’t got love for nobody, much less an immigrant, prolly gon have to start over, so what?

So what?
Is that it?
Nah, man
See

A lot of y’all might be thinking that the moral is self loving
I wish it was, but in reality it about, uh- self numbing
You don’t know what you want, but you know what you don’t
Where you wanna lunch?
Not enough people got the time to be playing hide and seek, maybe money enough to buy the cookie
Yes, I follow routine, but it got me loopy
I don’t wanna be, so I turn on a movie
That gave me false hopes, and so many sorrows
And a sense of wasted minutes when it finish
A shroud so dull by the time it turn seven 
Still I’m on the clock, I brew ginger lemon
What’s that saying? The world gives you lemons?
Well tell me what’s more refreshing than my cadence?

so what (prod. OSVMA)

And it’s been like 16 months
The boy picked up the pen, let down some friends
Cause of demons
Yeah, now it’s getting real, can’t stay in a slump, like
Playing catch up on every Friday, but it ain’t no fun, no dawgs in the house
Dozing off right on the couch
Ain’t it the hustle that I wanted?
Yeah right, I fronted
Maybe if a boy was strumming
But I just been studying some pressure, modeling a gusset, and coding a snake long as a summit
I been so cunning
Way I been tackling all this shit
Honestly, it ain’t really helping
Mental on a stumble
Been taking shots at my confidence
The blame game, call me a legend
No sign of penance

And yet I wanna stick to my tenets
What can I say? It’s just my upbringing
Gotta do the right thing cause my dad said it
Oh wait that’s fear of being judged, no winning in this game, only constant is my indecision
So, I let the man next to me take the wheel, not my seat, picture how awkward is the scene
Reason why I’m seething

Woah
I know the fault’s mine cause I’m prone to lying more- 
And more 
But I wanna flip the script, for my girl, I’m trying so- 
Much more
Never cared enough for myself, that’s the truth, I know- 
Now,

All I know is I gotta go forward
Dipping in pockets of serotonin
Only indulging in something boring
Never been one to start smoking
But I’ve been sipping on some potions
And I moderate nowadays, but I feel I’m coasting
Feeling so burnt out, spirit been toasted
Waiting for that splash in my face, keep holding
That’s my motto, keep holding on

I’ve never been in better form
Rhymes on a 10 and I flow like a vet
Pink skies, you know I can do falsetto
Honing the tongue, it a stiletto
They usually drop the act in like 90 days, those who remain get up on the stage
Got no fans but I am still here and I will for the coming days so be aware

Still I am here, walking on and on, Baduizm 
I got a lot of regrets and for sure, I can’t have my music be one
I’ll keep recording my life in these songs, yeah I know that it’s worth to be told 
Still I am here, walking on and on, Baduizm

rathim

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