this is actually one of my top albums of the year its so good

trans amirite haha

~☆~Lyrics~★~

The mirror in the morning light 

Leaves my body feeling like 

I just drank some pesticide 

I cant see my face inside 


I'll try my best to paint it on 

This body I call a prison 

There's a girl inside a cage 

While a boy takes center stage 


Like an actor on TV 

Never been the real me 

But changing right now seems like hell 

So I'll just learn to hate myself 


If you insulate 

the self hate 

It's now a part of you 

You have to kill that too


It's cutthroat  

I keep choke- 

Ing on this feeling deep inside 

Somethings wrong  

I know what it is 


But I'm too scared to admit 


That I'd rather fail at being a woman 

Than go on being a man 

If you remember him could you please try to forget if you can 


Pray every day Ill wake up in the body I belong  

Sometimes I don't know if I am even real at all 


I only hope I find the girl inside but even then 

If god wasn't a cunt she'd cut me up and try again 

    

Romantic Vivisection  

Kill me and then go to heaven 

Take me apart and put me back together 

As something beautiful forever


Romantic Vivisection

Featuring https://soundcloud.com/murrumur
Beat By https://soundcloud.com/maknaeslayer


~☆~Lyrics~★~


(Rat Jesu)

Aw shit 

Saw it 

Think I'm getting nauseous 


Cautious  

Watch this 

Delete Everything off it 


Jpeg 

You're dead 

Poison yeah its blood-red 


Light head 

I dread 

Body like it's full of led 


Adderall 

end it all 

Slit my throat and set me free 


Estradiol 

Will it stall 

The poison that's been killing me 


Missing Link 

I just think  

It's better not to ask 


If this could make me normal 

Could I ever be normal 


Always something to remind you what you look like 

Sheer the skin here's hoping that you'll look right 


Cause it all gets frozen in a jpeg 

Bit off and you'll want a bullet in your head 


Try to down a few pills to forget it 

Take it long enough and maybe you'll transmit 


Can't change the past or your blood 

No arc to save you from the flood

(Murrumur)

Tried so hard to dry the rain from my skin 

Stuck in the dark, couldn't soar when I was flightless 

Do my best to kill the signs I had a twin 

Can't restrain all the time I was deprived with 

Can't scream with the body full of poison 

The lock's jammed and the door won't open 

The molly didn't work so I'd never be rollin 

Now I'm like a cat the way I'm living in the moment 

Half dead angels, slits in wings 

Thrown up to the wires, wrapped around by my shoestrings 

All I want is bliss with the way I sing 

Spiritual unwrapping of my threads like I'm stone free 

Physical form without the name they know 

Midwest woods, get my flesh torn by a wendigo 

Faceless corpse just like Jane Doe 

I'm just putting on an act and I feel like a puppet show 

(Rat Jesu)

Aw shit 

Saw it 

Think I'm getting nauseous 


Cautious  

Watch this 

Delete Everything off it 


Jpeg 

You're dead 

Poison yeah its blood-red 


Light head 

I dread 

Body like it's full of led 


Adderall 

end it all 

Slit my throat and set me free 


Estradiol 

Will it stall 

The poison that's been killing me 


Missing Link 

I just think  

It's better not to ask 


If this could make me normal 

Could I ever be normal 


All of a sudden  

I don't feel so good 

I thought you understood 

But I fucking doubt it 

But the way your acting 


It's interacting in my gut 

All these meds I fucking took 

This might be the big one 

Am I finally done, Here 


Might have one or two more years

Poison.jpg (feat. Murrumur)

Co-Prod. https://soundcloud.com/dsa-sfsafds

~☆~Lyrics~★~


Something's standing in the way 

Done with all apologies 

Go and blame me for your sins 

I have nothing left to give 


All my soul I gave away 

Out my skull like Kurt Cobain  

A body left without a Ghost 

An empty shell a doll at most 


Can't die yet cause I'm too scared 

But I know that If you cared  

about me you'd be gone  

Leave me be like everyone else 


Floating here I lost myself 

Think I finally hear the bells 

A blinding light the music swells 

Come and drag me down to hell

Euphoria//Nothing Left To Give

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/vesselcore & https://soundcloud.com/camwhore

~☆~Lyrics~★~ 

Indisposed  

I wish I saw in photos  

what I feel in my soul 

I wish I could be beautiful 


I wish I had some Adderall  

Focus and forget it all 

Kill the clouds and drown the sun 

Bury it and everyone 


Forgets  

She exists  

Never heard of her Not a word ever 


But I'm Still chasing mirrors  

In my dreams  

Only place she's real it seems 


I wish that I could forget 

I wish I wouldn't regret 

The time that I never knew I lost 


Pink clouds obscuring the sun 

Set, Memories of a son get 

In the way like the window frost


I wish cute makeup and clothing  

Could stop the door from closing  

Could be her longer than a night 


But when I see her again 

I'll make the mirror my friend 

Able to pierce through the morning light 


I wish that I could forget 

I wish I wouldn't regret 

The time that I never knew I lost 


Pink clouds obscuring the sun 

Set, Memories of a son get 

In the way like the window frost 


I wish that I could forget 

I wish I wouldn't regret 

The time that I never knew I lost

Manic Goth Hoe... I Wish I Was

Territorial Pissings

Featuring @murrumur
Co-Prod Schizoscriptures 
(check her out here)https://scsc.bandcamp.com/

~☆~Lyrics~★~


I see how you look at me 

Like something dead bringing disease 

An awful stare I hardly breathe 

To be repaired indefinitely 


You always notice when I'm near 

Your eyes tinged with hints of fear 

Or maybe it's disgust 

Being human's way too much 


I'd rather be a blob of flesh 

A contraption built for death 

I'll be the monster that you see 

Everything you don't want me to be 


Covering my eyes when I'm outside 

Cold ice cold stares penetrating every angle 

I can't take it 

I can feel your  

Words 

They're just words  

They're just words  

They're just words  

They're just noise  

They're just spiralling out into wars 


I was never wanted there and so i disappeared 

They could kill me if they wanted but for now they just stare 


Like a nail inside my skull 

An image pierced through the steel hull 

They string me up by the wrong name 

Can't feel the pulsing in my veins 

I only feel the stares 

I wish I didn't care 


Failing to remember any day, any week, any month phasing out, falling down under blur 

Feels like it's implanted in my head so to speak pacing round and round in circles while I'm eaten by the birds 


Buried off the backroads 

Overexposed 

What's the color of my hex code? 

What's the color of my hex code? 


I wish I was a frog 

I don't wanna care about you 


I'd rather be a fairy than an alien 

Winged like an avian, glowing like a gradient 

Ditch another alias and find a new ingredient 

Lilith full of lithium and seroquel just let her in 

And it works like clockwork 

Sew together patchwork 

Pulling teeth from the sleepers 

I promise it could always get worse 

Can you tell me when it's over? 

Can you tell me when it's over?

Frogs (feat. Murrumur)

mixed by kenzie.brg

follow kenzie.brg: https://soundcloud.com/user-708059890

follow CYBERGOTH: https://soundcloud.com/cybergoth2002

blood ft. kenzie.brg (kenzie.brg+ CYBERGOTH)

bella

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ggZPs_rQu4

Originally Titled "#FinalChapter @ FriendChannel"

All Track IDs In Description

twitter.com/anglwntr

Performed Live: June 9th, 2023

Tracklist:

Angelwinter - Final Chapter
Korn - Daddy
Omerta - ANTIAMOROUS (ft. JOHNNASCUS)
Finch - Letters To You
Failure - Stuck To You
Quannnic - Life Intimates Life
Creed - Higher 
Fuel - Shimmer 
Empire! Empire! (I Was a Lonely Estate) - Archival Footage
Angelwinter - Reflection
Apistat Commander x Have a Nice Life - Bloodhail
Drake - Madonna
Thaiboy Digital - Nosebleed (ft. Ecco2k)
Coheed and Cambria - Blood Red Summer
Camping In Alaska - there's no "brian" in team
JPEGMAFIA - Once They Build A Starbucks It's Ova
Hi-C - ViewtifulJoe
Carissa's Wierd - Brooke Daniels' Tiny Broken Fingers

Angelwinter #FinalChapter @ FriendChannel

@anglwntr
https://soundcloud.com/mimideathh
https://soundcloud.com/thexevilxcoast

down bad, down bad, i don't really get that
what's really wrong man, what's really wrong man
i don't understand that
you could tell me, anything you wanted

i just really wanna help you out man
rise above and really make it out man
i know they're not looking in your direction
just keep making songs, begging for a mention

down bad, down bad, i see you're losing interest
this music shit, it's not so precious 
people really like to get jealous
people really like to cause damage 
people really like to get under your skin, clawing at the gate cause they wanna get in
making you hate yourself and all your friends
they really never wanna see you win

DOWN BAD (prod. MIMIDEATH)

she/her
1/3rd of https://soundcloud.com/drixxolords
https://soundcloud.com/dsa-sfsafds https://soundcloud.com/meggothrasher

Manic Goth Hoe... I Wish I Was

Rat Jesu

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