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old demo from november last year :)

days pass
ur back
and im still not giving up
ur just 
like glass
u never really gave a fuck
u dont care enough
but im in too deep now
i ran outta luck 
but im in too deep now

she wants everything from me
and i can barely breathe
tunnel vision i cant see no more

days dont feel right
when im not by your side 
and ive got stress on my mind
that im trying to hide
and if ur ever feeling low 
you can hit my line
triple seven triple six
im leaving demons behind
she tells me its all alright
yea its gonna be fine
now we’re alone and its night
kissing by the lakeside 
we’re skipping rocks 
as we talk
and the timing is right
triple seven triple six
im leaving demons behind

im walking home
its cold as fuck
i can see my breathe 
right infront of us
we pause for second
and look at the sky
ur staring at stars 
like a moth towards light
im free tonight 
ur free tonight
lets do some dumb shit 
like go light a fire
then sneak back in home
get told off then repent
then lets go next weekend 
do that shit again 

she wants everything from me
and i can barely breathe
tunnel vision i cant see no more

days dont feel right
when im not by your side 
and ive got stress on my mind
that im trying to hide
and if ur ever feeling low 
you can hit my line
triple seven triple six
im leaving demons behind
she tells me its all alright
yea its gonna be fine
now we’re alone and its night
kissing by the lakeside 
we’re skipping rocks 
as we talk
and the timing is right
triple seven triple six
im leaving demons behind

but ill always remember you and i think thats the problem

out on all plats
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3E6yQkIDGNAIPpNBS1e38u?si=8e6e166a5bed45fe
p: @shadeaway

lyrics:
I see your eyes around the corner
I splash my face into some water
Yeah, paranoia, and disorders
It's not safe, I tried to warn her

She didn't listen 
yeah she was fuckin' gone in an instant
I start to lose cognition
It's gone along with my vision

It's hard to see, it's hard to breathe
I feel the shivers in my teeth
I think I'm dying, I start to grieve
My thoughts all kill me silently

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

I lead my mind into a ditch 
think I might pop my fucking lid
They tell me I'll go far and I'm just a kid
I know, but I don't really want to exist

It's so damn hard to stay awake
Bad thoughts, and all of these headaches
My minds a glass, about to break
Overthink about every step I take

It's hard to see, it's hard to breathe
I feel the shivers in my teeth
I think I'm dying, I start to grieve
My thoughts all kill me silently

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

haunted

Chasin Lights

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/05H7DFe2YnGGrIokYRhAnG?si=8_dJSMLYQ8qMqEzGoBV5dQ
art by visualsbykura
prod: grayskies

lyrics: 
Hold me close
I need you right here by my side
I just can't seem to get this right
That's how it goes
I try so hard but I always find a way to sabotage

So won't you tell me what I did wrong
Spent so long tryna find out where I belong
Fucked up from the way you string me along
I'm so fuckin sick and tired of the love songs

I don't want your love, but I need it
Thinking about my past gonna leave me steady grieving
I cared so much, don't give a fuck if you believe me
I've never been smart, so it's not hard to deceive me

and I know it's all my fault
now I'm on my own

I hate you
You say you want me dead, I don't blame you
I don't get why this is what it came to
I don't remember one time that you came through

So save your words
It'll be a long time till we mature
My brain is fogged, my visions blurred
I guess I got what I deserved

I can't stand to be alone
Like why won't you pickup your phone
You break me down, and leave me broke
Yeah, all the pain that you invoke

Did I even love you in the first place
How can I wish someone the best in the worst way
I miss putting my arms around your waist
I hate seeing your face on the worst days

and I know it's all my fault
now I'm on my own

Hold me close
I need you right here by my side
I just can't seem to get this right
That's how it goes
I try so hard but I always find a way to sabotage
(so won't you)
Hold me close
I need you right here by my side
I just can't seem to get this right
That's how it goes
I try so hard but I always find a way to sabotage

dissonance

the original before being rebuilt.
spotify: https://spotify.link/jRGmXUfTgJb
prod: grayskies

lyrics:
Stressed out, yeah I'm feeling anguished
You turned all the lights out, darkness is a blanket
I don't wanna talk now, can you really blame me
She don't know a thing about me, don't know my language

and I
Haven't felt good in awhile
But I don't think I wanna die
But I don't wanna be around

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

Silence fills my head but it ain't peaceful
Used to feeling mislead, you're all deceitful
Constantly I bleed, it's getting lethal
The way that I'm perceived, yeah I'm not needful

Cover up my ears, don't wanna hear what they're saying
It's never been clear, but I don't wanna say it
Time's up for us my dear, I'm slowly fading
and I can't seer the things that you're portraying

and I
Haven't felt good in awhile
But I don't think I wanna die
But I don't wanna be around

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

anguish

thank u all i love u

[Lyrics]
(Verse)
Honestly I'm tired
It's the same things
But I'd rather die than let you go & change things
I know
Time is wasting
And everything's been weighing on me lately
I know

(Hook)
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
Turn the blindest eye to everything we know
But it's the end of times, I oughta let you go
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
It's a dotted line I wish I never signed
But it's the end of times, I let it pass me by

(Verse)
Do it get lonely down in Auburn
You'll miss the sun if you don't get up in time for it
Heaven sent , Heaven paralyze me
Look into my eyes till the end of time
Said that I'll be fine by the summer time
Wait until that dust settle down
I was out in LA trying to make it off the couch
I done lost so many folks, that's getting hard to count
But I swear it never hurt, you could check the bank account
I'm in last and in first

(Bridge)
I can't be alone
It's hell
I can't be alone
It's hell
I can't be alone
It's hell
(I should've known, that's the way it works)
I can't be alone
It's hell
I can't be alone

(Verse)
I hope
I see you when it's done
I've seen the way it ends
It ends
It always ends
The same
The same
What're you waiting for
What're you waiting for

(Hook)
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
Turn the blindest eye to everything we know
But it's the end of times, I oughta let you go
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
It's a dotted line I wish I never signed
But it's the end of times, I let it pass me by

END OF TIMES

END OF TIMES (patrick o'neill kbl wishlane)

köln

Don't die

me+u against the world

is suicide too much?

❥attack

No upstream

apartment

--- lyrics ---

You pushed me away, but that's fine you don't wanna talk anyway
I see the numbers getting to your brain
We gave you too many chances
Still you can't take the blame
It's just wasted potential, the person that you are
Keeping it confidential, and honestly It's sad that
You're so revengeful, to people you know care about 
"How is your mental?" (I feel so dismantled)

Honestly, It was your choice of words
You could've used them better could've made this work
It was your own choice, now you're the one feeling hurt
You're so naive now, don't realize we fell apart

You can't save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't
Save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't

See the crash out, blame it all on me but you're the one that'll act out
You're the one who fired shots first, now you back down
Is it cause you care, or you'll get hurt, by the stats now
Claim we never fell out
It hurts to hear you lie on my name
Wish you would claim what you did but you never take blame
You were the one that started it ignited the flame
Now that you're gone I'm feeling better but it won't be the same

You can't save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't
Save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't save yourself

is suicide too much?

re6ce (@re6ce)

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