+ SEPTEMBER 2024 PART I

prod. DutchRevz
OUT SEPTEMBER 2ND *streaming below*
https://linktr.ee/1endie
time after time
the world spins it doesn’t stop when you feel like it should
how could you be living your best life if you’re always online
when you’re typing line after line
and you go outside
and you realize
the whole world is waiting for you
but now i’m lost

cause i never felt love like that on a first date
breaking my back overthinking is the worst weight
promise i could be your best friend if you let me
promise i could be your best man if you impress me
cause i never felt love like that on a first date
questioning my sanity
but you bring out the best in me
and i cant check my clock
cause i think the time is checking me
then running round the dot
cause i think someone is ahead of me

you can dream of
someone to lean on
the promises you keep up
should never feel wrong
i dont think you know what’s best for you
gotta keep my head on straight
cause i never wanna look back on the past
only 60 on the dash
and i promise it’ll last if you try a little harder
punch 100 on the dash so we go a little farther
while we’re trying not to crash
our car is running out of gas
and its all messed up in a world where your best is not enough
and i’ll always look back
cause you’re all i had

cause i never felt love like that on a first date
breaking my back overthinking is the worst weight
promise i could be your best friend if you let me
promise i could be your best man if you impress me
cause i never felt love like that on a first date
questioning my sanity
but you bring out the best in me
and i cant check my clock
cause i think the time is checking me
then running round the dot
cause i think someone is ahead of me

i never felt love like that on a first date
breaking my back overthinking is the worst weight
promise i could be your best friend if you let me
promise i could be your best man if you impress me

cause i never felt love like that on a first date
breaking my back overthinking is the worst weight
promise i could be your best friend if you let me
promise i could be your best man if you impress me
cause i never felt love like that on a first date
questioning my sanity
but you bring out the best in me
and i cant check my clock
cause i think the time is checking me
then running round the dot
cause i think someone is ahead of me

no one is ahead of me
no one is ahead of me
my head collapse
yeah i knew i would burn and crash
i wouldn’t crash if i knew i would burn
i wouldn’t crash if i knew i would burn
i wouldn’t crash if i knew i would burn
i swear i wouldn’t crash if i knew i would burn
i wouldn’t crash if i knew i would burn

spotify

love like that

@re6ce
prod. grayskies
https://ffm.to/heartatt4ck

lyrics:
Talking for hours
Losing our minds over the phone
Walking in place
Like we don't know where to go
Still don't know where to go
Lay me to rest
Talk over me
Don't breathe in my sleep
Don't sleep till 3
And still wake at 4

I'm falling for you
Please don't let me go
You don't know me
Like you think you know

If you're obsessed now
Say it with your chest so I know
You've been running your mouth
You're testing me I hope you know
I hope you know

Talking for hours
Losing our minds over the phone
Walking in place
Like we don't know where to go
Still don't know where to go
Lay me to rest
Talk over me
Don't breathe in my sleep
Don't sleep till 3
And still wake at 4

I'm falling for you
Please don't let me go
You don't know me
Like you think you know

If you're obsessed now
Say it with your chest so I know
So I know
You've been running your mouth
You're testing me I hope you know
I hope you know

Talking for hours
Losing our minds over the phone
Walking in place
Like we don't know where to go
Still don't know where to go
Lay me to rest
Talk over me
Don't breathe in my sleep
Don't sleep till 3
And still wake at 4

heart attack w/ re6ce

@1bearr - 
Just can't go back this time
I've made up my own mind
A flaw in your design 
Heard what you said, oh my oh my

[@rlvst]
Give me your bag, I left it in the bedroom
Pack my bags, then I'll tell you why I left you
So decieving, girl I try my best to
Trust your words but, I can't ever trust you

What you did you broke me in two halfs
You broke my heart, I can't go back
I'm crying fixed with some Cognac
I take the train I hope to crash
Why do you hate me so passive aggressive
You're the reason I've been so obsessive
Drugs to me, yeah they act so supressive
You're the reason I've been so progressive 

@1bearr - 
Just can't go back this time
I've made up my own mind
A flaw in your design 
Heard what you said, oh my oh my
Don't really care what you're saying
Tell me that you love me, i know you're playing
Know you wanna meet, but I'd rather stay in 
My own bed is where I'll be laying

@alkayn 
Its 3pm, haven’t left my bed
Never been the type to reminisce
but there’s this feeling in my chest
and I just can’t stop running out of breath

Holding my own hands, trying not to call
My eyes best friend’s been the drywall
I fucked it up, it’s all my fault
I drown my pain with alcohol
I don’t recognize myself
I keep my feelings on a shelf
I hate my being in itself
I’m sorry I can’t take your help

I’m sick of saying that I’m fine
I wish that I could turn back time
I don’t go up, I just decline
I’m just a prick by my design
Feels like I’m bad at everything 
Just fucking say it, you hate me
You moved on so complacently
My life’s a pot of agony

@1bearr
Both been here before
You saying we should try once more
You're rotten to the core
On your way out make sure you close the door

Just can't go back this time
I've made up my own mind
A flaw in your design 
Heard what you said, oh my oh my
Don't really care what you're saying
Tell me that you love me, i know you're playing
Know you wanna meet, but I'd rather stay in 
My own bed is where I'll be laying

rewind w/ rl + alkayn

is suicide too much?

Spiralée

Willow And Mallow (Daniel Hunt Mix)

Rock Machine

Clover Paradise

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6Tmexwurbyz7nPKtBRslBm?si=NjobR7qdR8OHEPCkW3W3ag
prod: grayskies

lyrics:
I tried too hard to make it right
I wish you'd see things from my side
I care too much
I lost my love

you left my place when I was sleeping
you never told me you were leaving
but it's alright
I'll let you waste my time

I see that look up on your face
you told me I was just insane
It turns out I was right
you left me out my sight

you're everything I ever wanted and that's why
I couldn't stand it when you left me out to die

I'll burn the flame and leave it charred
and maybe one day we'll restart
I'll never be the same
I'll tell you its okay

I'll burn the flame and leave it charred
and maybe one day we'll restart
I wanna blow my brains
I know I've gone insane

yeah it's all way too much for me
all that I say you disagree
you leave me down, I'm on my knees
all these cuts you make me bleed

passed out, think that I'm anemic
my thoughts leak out, I'm losing my reason
that fake facade, you're so deceiving
my days lately have been repeating

and I can't stand it
they stand there laughing
I wish I was somebody else
I keep my feelings on a shelf

and I'm so done with it all
I don't know how we got this far
should've done this all along
I still don't know where we went wrong

I'll burn the flame and leave it charred
and maybe one day we'll restart
I'll never be the same
I'll tell you its okay

I'll burn the flame and leave it charred
and maybe one day we'll restart
I wanna blow my brains
I know I've gone insane

flame

Glimpse

Decline & Fall

ZOMBIE

SCREAMING ALONE

--- lyrics ---

You pushed me away, but that's fine you don't wanna talk anyway
I see the numbers getting to your brain
We gave you too many chances
Still you can't take the blame
It's just wasted potential, the person that you are
Keeping it confidential, and honestly It's sad that
You're so revengeful, to people you know care about 
"How is your mental?" (I feel so dismantled)

Honestly, It was your choice of words
You could've used them better could've made this work
It was your own choice, now you're the one feeling hurt
You're so naive now, don't realize we fell apart

You can't save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't
Save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't

See the crash out, blame it all on me but you're the one that'll act out
You're the one who fired shots first, now you back down
Is it cause you care, or you'll get hurt, by the stats now
Claim we never fell out
It hurts to hear you lie on my name
Wish you would claim what you did but you never take blame
You were the one that started it ignited the flame
Now that you're gone I'm feeling better but it won't be the same

You can't save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't
Save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't save yourself

farewell

psyilocibin mind / im_not_asking for much, just eternal love.

psyilocibin mind

Song Description — “The Bridge of Lumina – The Last Goodbye (AI Version)” by Dean R. Chandler

“The Bridge of Lumina – The Last Goodbye” is an orchestrated rock ballad that blends emotional storytelling with cinematic soundscapes and powerful rock dynamics. It tells the haunting yet uplifting story of a man saying farewell to the woman he loves as she crosses the radiant Bridge of Lumina — a glowing passage of light between this world and the next. As she turns back one final time to smile and wave, he realises that letting go is not the end, but a step toward peace.

This version is an AI interpretation — a creative reimagining that offers a glimpse of what’s to come. The official non-AI version will be released in January 2027 as part of Dean’s upcoming concept album, A Human Odyssey.

While this rendition uses advanced AI orchestration to explore atmosphere and tone, the final studio version will feature live instruments, Dean’s own vocals, and an organic arrangement that fully realises the song’s original cinematic vision.

Think of this as a teaser from another dimension — a shimmering reflection of what’s on the horizon, bridging technology, emotion, and the timeless power of music.

The Bridge of Lumina, The Last Goodbye

“Tome of Stars” is a 100 sonnet journey, equal parts art, therapy journal, and exorcism, both a celebration and an elegy, a single narrative arc tracing the birth and death of a relationship. All poetry by Stargazer. The verse and accompanying synthetic art and music are public domain, CC0, with no restrictions on use. Nothing is monetized. See below for links on how to access the print, PDF, audio, ePub, video, and music files. 
Website: https://www.tomeofstars.net/

In the classical margam of bharatanatyam, the varnam is the recital’s centerpiece, its longest and most emotionally charged performance. In “Tome of Stars“, the varnam appears as the twenty-nine-poem section “Senescence”. Following the exaltation of Anthesis, the beloved as a celestial goddess, love now descends from the stars into the gravity of human frailty. 

This sonnet concludes the “Once Upon a Time” quartet by chronicling the poet’s ultimate failure to escape the psychic inheritance of his past. Framed in mythic diction and dark fairy tale motifs, the poem articulates the moment when the poet’s inner defects (learned self-betrayal, compulsive guilt, emotional paralysis), drive away the only force of redemption he has ever felt: the Stargirl. She departs not in tragedy but in judgment, her magical grace revoked. The tone is accusatory but inwardly directed; the poet owns his doom not as random misfortune, but as the inevitable result of a life shaped by shame and self-annihilating loyalties. This final rupture is mythologized as a fateful and irreversible exile from the light.

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Lyrics

A baleful hex, a yoke of darkest wight,
Ensnared his mind in chains of hateful lies.
This wrath of lunacy recoiled from right,
Lest he condemn himself in his own eyes.

Past cancer poisoned, through his spirit chewed,
Excreting slimes of toxic empathy.
The tears of others drowned all he breathed true,
Thoughts paralyzed by noxious sympathy.

Thus, Stargirl—magic’s child—arose in flight,
Aggrieved he loved her less than love’s just claim.
His heart, too frail to stand, too quick to blight,
She judged unworthy—pierced, forever shamed.

His doom complete, he reaped fate’s final spell.
Her light was gone. The portal shut. Night fell.

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Internet Archive
Book of sonnets:
https://archive.org/details/tome-of-stars/

Music:
Item 1, Anthesis: https://archive.org/details/Anthesis/
Item 2, Senescence: https://archive.org/details/senescence_tomeofstars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://archive.org/details/Sporogenesis_TomeOfStars/
Item 4, Anemochory: https://archive.org/details/Anemochory_TomeOfStars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://archive.org/details/Quixotosis_TomeOfStars
Item 6, Scripture: https://archive.org/details/Scripture_TomeOfStars

Bandcamp:

Item 1, Anthesis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/anthesis-item-1-of-tome-of-stars
Item 2, Senescence: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/senescence-item-2-of-tome-of-stars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/sporogenesis-item-3-of-tome-of-stars
Item 4, Anemochory: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/anemochory-item-4-of-tome-of-stars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/quixotosis-item-5-of-tome-of-stars
Item 6, Scripture: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/scripture-item-6-of-tome-of-stars

ZOMBIE

re6ce (@re6ce)

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