Bass boosted version -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0aFcmPbqJQ&t=815s

no one really likes you when youre sad
all you wish is that they'd understand
no on really likes you when youre sad
i wish they understood, try to hide all but they can tell
im good, oh well...

you can miss me with the bullshit
i dont have the time and i dont have the headspace either
why you acting like you know what its like
why you acting like you know what its like

i dont really feel well kick me while im down
i dont want youre pity watch me while i drown
going through the motions swimming through an ocean of shit
closing off too much nobody likes me anymore

i just wanna dream life away sleep sleep sleep
(idfc)
there aint a doctor that can give it back my life's fucked up anyway

nobody understands, gimme a chance i wish they got it
aye yuh im just tryna be me, self love - it dont really work much,
whatever i dont care (skrrt)

no on really likes you when youre sad
i wish they understood, try to hide all but they can tell
im good, oh well...

you can miss me with the bullshit
i dont have the time and i dont have the headspace either
why you acting like you know what its like
why you acting like you know what its like

i dont really feel well kick me while im down
i dont want youre pity watch me while i drown
going through the motions swimming through an ocean of shit
closing off too much nobody likes me anymore

ocean of sh!t (rinne)

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Through the breeze past the trees can you hear me
calling calling for a remedy
you should know better, know  better stay away
everything I love turns to stone knowing im in this alone

heartbreak yeah you take just a part of me
in your pocket keep me close as you fall asleep
cut me down cut me down like im nothing
please just stay away this will never be something

so what do you know what do you see what do you feel
are your emotions just for me yeah are they real
blame my mental state for reasons why im not enough
blame the chemicals for why you ignore me a lot

learn to not let anyone in, I know its toxic, no
it hurts everyone I call a friend
but its the only way I know I won’t be let down again
so we just repeat the cycle of me just building up my walls until they come crumbling down

piling the up drugs to numb myself
you don’t like competition so you leave me on the shelf
until your ex-boyfriend hits you up asking where you’re at
yeah I don’t get it why I was used, I don’t understand why you think it’s ok

just to abuse someone who had best intentions
I didn’t get it but I tried to be there whenever you mentioned that
you were going through hell I wish that you could just tell
me what was really on your mind when you said I was empty

Cast Aside Time

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Tears Ran Dry

Don't Be Scared

whered you go? i miss you so
seems like its been forever
and i think that you should know
i miss you so
and every part of you ya didnt want to show
whered you go? i see you there
you seem think its nothing guess i shouldnt care
whered you go, whered you go?
seems like its been forever
ive missed you so

dont be a stranger come round and see, not like the others and theyre not like me
please dont be frightened my senses are heightend from this emotional ptsd

my p's my q's i probably forgot 'em
dont need em from you dont need to remind me
binoculars strapped backpack on with a pen and pad	
way back when, when they didnt care
i remember i remember
so why dont you?

whered you go? i miss you so
seems like its been forever
and i think that you should know
i miss you so
and every part of you ya didnt want to show
whered you go? i see you there
you seem think its nothing guess i shouldnt care
whered you go, whered you go?
seems like its been forever
ive missed you so

Whered U Go? (lil biscuit)

thank you @morganwylder for spicing up the beat <3

Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering I'm surrendering to clarity
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering to clarity
Don't worry I'll be here until my time is up
My time is up now who'd have known?
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering I'm surrendering to clarity
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering to clarity
Don't worry I'll be here until my time is up
Until my time is up, my time is up now who'd have known? 
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering I'm surrendering to clarity
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering to clarity
Don't worry I'll be here until my time is up
My time is up now who'd have known?
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering I'm surrendering to clarity
Slowly I stop looking back
I'm surrendering to clarity
Don't worry I'll be here until my time is up
Until my time is up, my time is up now who'd have known?

Clarity (skgotthesauce x yeezo x morgan wylder)

Agoraphobia (prod. ibrandy x Arkhiv)

Crave My Touch

Lyrics
You Know That Shit Hurts When You Lie To me
My Head Is Full Of Anxiety
Can't Go Out Cause I Know That They'll Judge Me
No One Likes Me , I Swear That No One Likes Me

You Know That Shit Hurts When You Lie To me
My Head Is Full Of Anxiety
Can't Go Out Cause I Know That They'll Judge Me
No One Likes Me

So I'll Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

It's Been A Rough
Couple Of Months
Stayed Inside
For Most Of The Time
That's Where I Hide
That's Where I Stay
I Won't Be Remembered When I'm In The Grave
That's What's On My Mind
That's What's On My Mind

Barred Out Mind
I Can't Think
That's Why I Like Taking Pills
Xanax Bars, Alprazolam 
I Can't Think When I'm On Xans

Barred Out Mind
I Can't Think
That's Why I Like Taking Pills
Xanax Bars, Xanax Bars
I Can't THink When I'm On Bars

So I'll Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

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Anxiety (Prod.Playdead)

I've Been Smoking Ciggs In The Dark
So Tell Me What We're Living For 
Take What I Can When I Want
I Was Never One To Pay Upfront No

So Tell Me What To Do In My Sparetime
Cause I Got Nothing To Do Now
No I Got Nothing At All
Time Is Ticking I Got Nothing At All

She Broke My Heart So I Stay Indoors
Drinking And Smoking I Ain't Showing Remorse To You, Or Myself
I See A Shooting Star But Nothing Really Helps

So Tell Me What We're Living For
When All I Do Is Stay Behind Closed Doors
Time Is Ticking But I'm Stuck In Reverse
My Head Is Crowded Yeah I Think I've Been Cursed

Nothing Fucking Helps Please Give Me Some Help
I'm Crying Out Loud While I'm Drowing By Myself

Nothing Fucking Helps Please Give Me Some Help
I'm Crying Out Loud While I'm Drowing By Myself

So Tell Me What We're Living For
When All I Do Is Stay Behind Closed Doors
Time Is Ticking But I'm Stuck In Reverse
My Head Is Crowded Yeah I Think I've Been Cursed

So Tell Me What To Do In My Sparetime
Cause I Got Nothing To Do Now
No I Got Nothing At All
Time Is Ticking I Got Nothing At All

She Broke My Heart So I Stay Indoors
Drinking And Smoking I Ain't Showing Remorse To You, Or Myself
I See A Shooting Star But Nothing Really Helps

So Tell Me What We're Living For
When All I Do Is Stay Behind Closed Doors
Time Is Ticking But I'm Stuck In Reverse
My Head Is Crowded Yeah I Think I've Been Cursed

Nothing At All (Prod.Youngkxge & Misan)

Check out my homie: https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals



Rivilin:

What do you want, 
what do you need,
Nothing much, nothing more Left to rot on the floor
Stabbed in the throat, bleeding gushing everything is fine

Lost in my dreams
So numb I don’t feel a thing
Breaking bones, just to wake up, Now im feeling so just stuck
In my dreams, smothering me till I won’t wake up

how do you define my personality
am I to you just another insecurity
we can walk right through me, left the house that we built
where we thought that we never existed

down the ally is where I roam prescription ghost is how im known
it was evident that you never notice I was even their
you built support rafters of disgust underneath my skin
a pedal stool for emptiness that seeps through scars on my chin

no heartache without me, just tension in between
of places I love, the ones I hate, yeah now im your fiend
watch my life from the soapbox, won’t you come and let me rot
im sick of hanging onto strings that don’t seem to ever move

can I call this living, more sleep then im awake
becoming a paperweight for my sheets I feel like im lost in a state
crack in the crown won’t mend back on the drugs again
ash on my fingernails I think its time to leave

RIPTHEPETALS:

Laying In my bed, colour in my tattoos
I love your face when your in a bad mood
These pills fuck up my lust
Girl hold me close I want your touch
I don’t really care what they think
Blossom Boy till I lay down 6 feet deep
Loser kid they all hated Jamie
The petals up from this pit I lay in

Run it up cut my wrist when I cry, yeah
Hate me, bury me, amphetamines in my stream, OD, yeah
Cheating hoe, get out of our scene, ayyo
You wanna be the fucking kid, put some work in
We the Coven, don’t fuck with the clique, ayyo
Suicide in our minds, so we’ll die for you

WHAT DO YOU NEED (FT. RIPTHEPETALS)

NY Cap , Nike Pants

Vibe supplier

Thanks for listening <3
Stay Safe

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Tears Ran Dry

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tired of trying

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