Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: @not-a-fucking-hero
Mixed & Mastered by: @regretvalley
Artwork from: https://wallpapercave.com/saddest-anime-wallpapers

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I broke the picture frame 
Cause the stain was too much to take
Feeling fake like brakence with pain 
Caffeine in my veins got me feeling insane 
In my fucking membrane 

[Verse 1]
Floating through space seeing Saturn
Fucked up breathing patterns 
Clothes are in tatters ya
All my particles are scattered 
They used to call me a rapper 
Now I rest with the dark matter uh 

[Sample From Naruto Shippuden]
Rin, Is only Rin... alive.
The shinobi System, the village,
shinobi themselves, they created 
these circumstances, what caused me 
to despair is this world itself,
this counterfeit world. Look at me.
There's nothing in my heart. 
I don't feel pain any longer.
  
[Chorus]
I broke the picture frame 
Cause the stain was too much to take
Feeling fake like brakence with the pain 
Caffeine in my veins got me feeling insane 
In my fucking membrane 

[Verse 2]
Seeing stars as I float by
Bright future was not my life 
Lost sight of my purpose 
Now I'm shadow trapped in space 
Thoughts overlapped now I'm not safe 
Fucked up brain 

[Outro]
I don't know if I'll be safe again 
But if I can just let me know 
Before I break again

Space (Prod. hero)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: @nevrfall
Mixed by: @joshiguess & @regretvalley
Mastered by: @regretvalley
Artwork by: Tokyo Ghoul & @regretvalley

Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I know I ruined our friendship 
A sorry won't ever fix this 
When we were close I felt true bliss 
In my heart 
But now every target I miss
Could never bring back that spark 
In my heart
But now everything falls apart 

[Chorus]
But now I'm turning it to art 
I'm sorry I had to depart 
Had to depart 

[Verse 2]
I miss these long winter nights
In this night sky the stars shine bright 
Have Diamonds in my sight 
Remember when I used to laugh
But since December Passed
I became one with the darkness 

[Bridge]
I could never forget your emerald eyes 
I hate that I made u cry 
Wish I didn't have to leave u behind 
I hope you'll find a way out of this ice 

[Chorus]
I'm sorry I had to depart 
Had to depart 
Please let me restart 
Shocked that it all 
Fell apart so quick 
Now I lie in a ditch 
And wonder will I ever stop this
Letting people down 
Cause I'm such a bitch 

[Post-Chorus]
Will I ever stop this 
Letting people down 
Cause I'm such a bitch 

[Outro]
Fuck 
(I'm sorry)
I don't know what to do
Everyday you just
Stick in mind 
And I fade to nothingness

Burnt Out (Prod pekarot & sor)

Featuring: @wontevergetbetter
Written by: Reapers Shadow & getbetter 
Produced by: irby
Mixed by: @joshiguess & @wontevergetbetter
Mastered by: getbetter
Artwork by: Tokyo Ghoul & @regretvalley

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Gave it a shot
Gave it a chance 
I'm a let down again
And its true 
All I do is lose 
And its true 
x2 

[Verse 1: getbetter]
you got me feelin somethin crazy
yea i don’t wanna be alone baby
so every time you stab me in the back 
i forgive you
i don’t know what’s wrong wit me 
i don’t understand it
yea you said you’d text me 
but here i am waiting
tired of always makin excuses for u baby
i wonder if u love me 
oh i hate that it’s a maybe

yea you just said you love me 
but i think you been feignin it
overdosing on your love 
yea i might end up hatin it
clearly you don’t want me all this time 
you been faking it
and if you felt that way baby 
then why weren’t u jus sayin it

[Chorus: getbetter]
oh i know i’m a letdown 
and that you probably hate me
i know father time ain’t in my side 
cause you ain’t been here lately
oh i could spill my mind now 
but i doubt that you’d want that
oh i could split my crown 
now immediate on contact

[Post-Chorus: getbetter]
ima stick to the target
gotta stop movin sideways
ima keep headin for the goal 
but ima do that shit my way
i just wanna stay alive
i hate how i feel at night

[Bridge: Reapers Shadow]
I know I'm a let down 
I Still fight to stay around 
I fall down to the ground 
Not proud or disappointed 
Just concerned about the future 
Will I prevail or put it down 
(Put it down) 

[Verse 2: Reapers Shadow]
Try to be everyone's light 
But it never shines
wonder why I even try
I let my mind get the best of me
Don't know if its destiny
Tryna find whats meant for me
U shook my world up after u left 
That's what made me depressed 

[Outro: Reapers Shadow] 
My universe is cursed like your words 
You let everything go to waste 
You're such a let down 
You're such a let down 
Is what I tell myself 
Is what I tell myself

Cursed Letdown W/ getbetter(Prod. irby)

Featuring: @akiradoves
Written by: Reapers Shadow & AkiraDoves
Produced by: @nevrfall
Mixed by: @joshiguess & AkiraDoves
Mastered by: AkiraDoves 
Artwork from: Fruits Basket 2019
Artwork Edited by: Reapers Shadow 

Lyrics:
[Intro: Reapers Shadow]
Try my best 
But I'm depressed 

[Verse 1: Reapers Shadow]
Haven't felt this way in years 
Haven't felt anything in years 
Consumed by all my fears 
Remember buying clothes from sears 
Now I'm fucking soaring through the next year 
Don't wanna see you no more 
No more 

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Used to feel at home 
Now nobody hits my phone 
They all have a bone to pick 
I don't really give a shit 
Cause they all want me dead
So I take a breath and leave 
I walk through the green 

[Bridge: AkiraDoves]
I know it's hard to find love 
Just holding me 
Close to your heart 
 
[Verse 2: AkiraDoves]
Eliminate all the bad things 
I remember when it was just me and you
We were sitting in silence oh inside of your car 
I remember when you told me 
That you wanna go far
Used to feel like home 
But nobody hits my phone
Your tearing down my fucking soul
No one understands when they go
I can't tell what's right or wrong 
She likes to play me like I'm dumb 
Try to open up whenever I get the chance 
Tell me that's you love me 
Just know that I never can

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow & AkiraDoves]
Used to feel at home 
Now nobody hits my phone 
They all have a bone to pick 
I don't really give a shit 
Cause they all want me dead
So I take a breath and leave 
I walk through the green 

[Outro: AkiraDoves]
I know it's hard to find love 
Just holding me 
Close to your heart

Home W/ AkiraDoves (Prod. nevrfall)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: moneo & idly blare
Mixed & Mastered by: @joshiguess 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I See White skies 
With my blue eyes 
I could never compromise 
I never want to leave anything behind

[Post-Chorus]
So much light shining through the blinds 
Was my life ever truly mine
I know this is not what's you need
(And I know it's cause)

[Verse 1]
Nostalgia is a curse 
Your words are so perverse
You said it was all for the worse 
But everything was just in reverse
So don't lay in the dirt

[Bridge]
Goodbye 
White skies

[Chorus]
I See White skies 
With my blue eyes 
I could never compromise 
I never want to leave anything behind
(Take me away)

[Verse 2]
I wish I could feel peace
But all I have are bad dreams 
Really sucks cause I just wanna sleep 
Losing all the things I could never keep 
But maybe it's things I don't need
Everything is filled with so much greed 
But even still I will succeed

Blue Eyes (Prod. moneo & idly blare)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: @nciku
Mixed & Mastered by: @joshiguess & @heurestal
Artwork from: Oshi No Ko (Anime)
Artwork Edited by: Reapers Shadow & @heurestal

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Tried so hard to make connections
But they fall apart in the end 
Spending too much time 
Searching for the light
That I'll never find
Your words cut me to the core 
This life feels like such a bore 
 
[Verse]
Cursed with slice marks on my chest 
Body aches fills me with stress 
At night all I feel is dread
I think I'd be better off fucking dead
(Dead)
Because of the corruption in my head

[Chorus]
Tried so hard to make connections
But they fall apart in the end 
Spending too much time 
Searching for the light
That I'll never find
Your words cut me to the core
(Core) 
This life feels like such a bore
(Such a bore)

Corruption (Prod. Nciku)

Featuring: @akiradoves
Written by: Reapers Shadow & AkiraDoves
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & AkiraDoves
Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro: Reapers Shadow]
I don't know 
What is wrong with you

[Verse 1: Reapers Shadow]
You left me to burn
Another lesson I had to learn 
Fuck all the paper they earn
Just want to end my misery 
Cause its a curse honestly 

[Pre-Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Burning in a sea of Flames 
Broken glass on the window pane 
See red then I go insane 
In my fucking brain 
I don't wanna 

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Fucking fade away 
From the public eye
Now I'm close to suicide 
No healing sore wounds 
Scars on my core 
Liar vultures saying 
They don't want more 

[Bridge: Reapers Shadow]
But I choose to ignore 
Their deception 

[Verse 2: AkiraDoves]
Waking up in the morning 
God I feel like trash 
Ephemeral so terrible 
I need to realize that 
I wanted to spend more time
I just want it to last
The way you looked in my eye
When you said you
Don't love me
I wanted to think that 
It's all make believe 

[Pre-Chorus: AkiraDoves]
She said she couldn't reciprocate right back
I'm Drowning I'm an outcast 
She says she doesn't feel the same 
My hearts about to fucking decay

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Fucking fade away 
From the public eye
Now I'm close to suicide 
No healing sore wounds 
Scars on my core 
Liar vultures saying 
They don't want more
They don't want more
(More)

[Outro: Reapers Shadow]
I don't understand 
The difference of Love & Hate 
When both cause the other
(Cause the other)

Vultures W/ AkiraDoves (Prod. grayskies)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: despairintoashes
Mixed & Mastered by: angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Yeah I saw your face in the mirror 
Everything is another reminder
We had to leave it was dire 
Sometimes I feel like such a liar
(Such a liar)

[Verse 1]
From here earth looks like a glacier
I tried hard but I couldn't replace ya
Pick the cards 
But I'm still a fucking loser

[Bridge]
Too much time
(Ya know) 
Has passed
(I wish that you were still around) 
& I'm still here
(But that's not the reality I live in)
Dying inside 
(You're gone & I have to accept that)

[Verse 2]
Flashbacks of blood dripping everywhere
The roads were so ice cold
They were bare
(bare)
Rooms filled with icicles 
Soon those who ran 
Became one with the shadows
& that was the end of the battle

[Chorus]
Yeah I saw your face in the mirror 
Everything is another reminder
We had to leave it was dire 
Sometimes I feel like such a liar

Another Reminder (Prod. despairintoashes)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Michael Harrison 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & @angelsofsorrows
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Verse]
The way the stars shined in the night sky
Reminds me of how I would sing till the sun rise
Spilling out emotion on a blue yeti 
Will I ever be ready 
To let go of all the pain that burdens me
In every second of my dreams
I wish I could escape my past
But I know my fate is sealed 

[Outro]
It took so long 
To forgive myself
& to forgive this life
& the way It's went
I'm sorry 
I could never be there 
When you really needed me
Goodbye my friend 
Joe Casey

Sunrise (Prod. Michael Harrison)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Sk8miles
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow
Mastered by: @heurestal
Artwork generated by: https://dream.ai/create
Artwork prompt from: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Intro]
We met when we were younger
I know that we both hated summer
(I love you)
They say that time is just a number
But, don't you remember
When I cried on your shoulder

[Bridge]
Tonight you've made me cry
Thought it was love but it was just a lie
Expected me to smile all the time
Never respected my feelings
At all

[Verse]
I guess I can't trust you like I used to
You've changed for the worse
(For the worse)
You're not the man I used to know
Thought I was the sun when I was just a lonely moon
Hiding in the dark

[Chorus]
What happened to us
We used to be so close
But now you hate my guts

[Outro]
I still love you no matter what
I want to be in bed with you
(So just)
Just hold me in your arms
My love

What Happened To Us (Prod. Sk8miles)

Featuring: @angelsofsorrows
Written by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Produced by: shxdy808
Mixed & Mastered by: angelsofsorrows 
Artwork generated by: dream.ai/create
Artwork prompt from: Reapers Shadow 

Lyrics:
[Intro: Reapers Shadow]
FUCK YOU BANDLAB!!!!!

[Verse 1: Reapers Shadow]
Explosions sound the alarms in my head 
Lead pierces through you like butter
But you know I'm better bitch
I'm not the prey bitch I'm the hunter 
All these people trying to keep me under 
Let go of everything 
And unleash your demon
(NO)
See my girl she stab that bitch
Then throw her to the side 
Then boom flash of light 
Like heavens light aye

[Bridge: angelsofsorrows]
i can kill beats whenever i want i can do any genre i desire to do
you can't tell me what to do bitch cause i'm the one making the art
at the end of the day 

[Verse 2: angelsofsorrows]
i don't aim for the charts i aim for the hearts
every song that i make you know i'm putting my all
sike i'm not really putting my all into this is just for fun
but you see the lyrics i can come up with from the top of the dome
and the flows too i'm cold too shoutout koro-sensei cause he told me
everything to do right in life and i wonder would you be down ride or die
would ya be by my side till the end of the line

UNLEASH YOUR DEMON!!!!! W/ angelsofsorrows(Prod. shxdy808)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Michael Harrison
Mixed by: Reaper Shadow & angelsofsorrows
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Blood dripping
On the floor

[Chorus]
I wish I could lets you go
But nothing ever makes sense
Anymore without you here
Crying on your hospital bed
Isabell you were the best
(Why does my heart go like this)

[Verse 1]
Why does everything feel the same
Everyday I don't know why
I want to escape
Made this song hoping you'll rest
The night sky is beautiful like your hair

[Bridge]
Your beautiful pink hair
Made my world so bright
But now your not around

[Chorus]
I wish I could lets you go
But nothing ever makes sense
Anymore without you here
Crying on your hospital bed
Isabell you were the best

[Post-Chorus]
Your beautiful pink hair
Made my world so bright
But now your not around

[Verse 2]
My heart bleeds
Cause your in that hospital
I just sit here & listen to your heartbeat
Losing track of my time
Going through my mind
Of all the memories
We had together

[Outro]
I wish I could lets you go
(Your beautiful pink hair)
I wish I could lets you go
(Made my world so bright)
(But now your not around)

Isabell (Prod. Michael Harrison)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: APC Beats
Mixed & Mastered by: angelsofsorrows
Artwork is AI Generated 

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I missed your face
(Missed, Your) 
but now you're bleeding 
On the ground
 I feel regret
(I feel regret)

[Verse 1] 
The anguish consumes my soul
You were my best friend
but soon you'll be in a hole
(Hole)
All the signs are gone
AND YOUR JUST A MEMORY
All I wanted was to achieve my goal

Tragedy is bound to strike 
Remember riding on that bike 
Blood fills my sight 
And that fight is over 

[Chorus]
I missed your face for so long 
But now you're bleeding 
On the ground 
(BLEEDING ON THE GROUND)

[Verse 2]
I WANNA TURN BACK THE TIME 
BECAUSE YOUR SOUL WAS SO KIND
Why does my mind go like this? 
YOUR DYING EYES SEND A CHILL UP MY SPINE
I can't take another day of this bullshit
I just can't stand another day 
In this fucking dreadful place
I just wanna see that smile on your face again

[Outro]
But it's gone 
(Oh)
It's gone

Your Smile Still Haunts Me (Prod. APC Beats)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: RONINCLOUD
Mixed & Mastered by: Kurama SD
Artwork: AI Generated 

[Chorus]
Only ice I got in in the freezer 
Cause I don't need it ya
Try to offer me a smoke 
I'll never concede to it tho
They always saying my vocals don't hit 
But I don't care cause I got wit
Every fucking night yeah uh

[Verse]
I only share with the ones that got my back 
Not the ones tryna put a knife in it 
I was worse and I still made hits 
Life can be a curse that's why I make music
Every fucking day yeah yeah
Everybody tryna to bring up the past
When they were trying to bury their own
I'm done playing nice get out my zone
You fucking bitch

[Interlude]
Dude wtf 
You tryna use my name for clout 
Just to get a feature with my friend 
I think you needa shut the fuck up

[Chorus]
Only ice I got in in the freezer 
Cause I don't need ya
Try to offer me a smoke 
I'll never concede to it tho aye
Concede to it tho aye
They always saying my vocals don't hit 
But I don't care cause I got the wit
Aye yeah yeah

[Interlude]
I'd advise you 
To keep my name 
Out yo mouth mf

[Verse 2]
We take everything for granted 
Then we regret it & the hill get slanted 
Never join a group 
cause I wanna be the one to man it
Don't fuck with me because I'm the one 
Who planned this

Night (Prod. RONINCLOUD)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Boyfifty
Autotuned by: Reapers Shadow
Mixed & Mastered by: @akiradoves
Artwork is AI generated 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I just don't know 
Where I'm going lately
But maybe one day
You could help me figure it out

[Verse 1]
Always talking shit in the late nights
But they never understand 
What is going on?
I just wanna make my music
But they always talk shit
Behind the scenes
Now It's Halloween 
One of my favorite days
Everybody mocks me 
But they never understand me

[Chorus]
Remember those old times
When we would laugh 
With the family
But now they've disappeared 
Into the ether 

[Verse 2]
I'm so done with negativity 
I miss positivity
I'm so sorry for being so anti social
I just wanna laugh 
Like I used to
But for now 
I'll take it at my own pace 

[Chorus]
Remember those old times
When we would laugh 
With the family
But now they've disappeared 
but I'm still fighting for you
Even if you're gone

Halloween (Prod. Boyfifty)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Jang0
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I just want somebody here for me 
But nobody is ever around 
This past summer was hell
& I don't know why I feel like this 

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming 
& I feel a breeze

[Verse 1]
My persona has changed 
& so has the rate of my descent 
From this mountain top
This rage inside won't ever stop
At this rate I'm boutta drop
Like six stories
I don't know 
If I'll get up in time

[Bridge]
If only you would've found me 
I could've lived
Now I've hid all my feelings away
Cause I'm worthless anyway 
At least that's what I think 

[Verse 2]
The memories are still haunting 
But I can't be losing anymore time
Hope one day 
I'll find someone to love me
The song I wrote you in June 
Means a lot to me 
It's time to become the real me
& accept my femininity

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming & I 
Breathe slowly

The Summer From Hell (Prod. Jang0)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: afterlife 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
 
Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I left everything in my past
Reminiscing on the past 
But now it wants revenge 
& I might just let it get it
To be honest
I just want peace

[Verse]
Living Anti Social forever 
(Ever)
Levers lifting me to the top
Ghosts of hatred parting ways 
I miss the brutality of the words you say
(You say) 
Stuck in this life I made 
I live in the rain everyday
I only have one lane
Sign says wrong way
At this rate I'll be in an early grave

 [Chorus]
I left everything in my past
(Past)
But now it wants revenge 
Beat me till there's nothing left
I tried my best 
But it broke the heart in my chest
The regret eats me from the inside out

[Outro]
I'm broken 
& a waste of space & energy
I live the same way
& I can't change 
No matter What I try

Ghosts of The Past (Prod. Afterlife)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Tores & T57thetank
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & JoshIGuess
Mastered by: @joshiguess
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
So many things 
I wish I did for you 
But I never did never did them
When you needed me too

[Chorus]
Make believe that I'm in love
Give me that smirk 
Lay me in dirt 
Cause I'm poisoned 
Every time you talk to me 
You say I'm annoying 

[Verse 1]
But I'm just a little stubborn babe
You get me blushing with just a stare
Reeling me in with your pretty eyes 
Your jealously makes me feel alive

[Bridge]
Is it just too much
To ask you 
(To) 
To love me
For who I am

[Verse 2]
I just wish I could find the one
But I always fail to talk
Socially anxious is all I feel
I just wish I could just feel some love
Like everyone else does 

[Chorus]
Make believe that I'm in love
Give me that smirk 
Lay me in dirt 
Cause I'm poisoned 
Every time you talk to me 
You say I'm annoying

[Outro]
Everyday I just think about 
The same shit
But
For some reason I can't help 
But imagine that 
You're out there somewhere
One day I'll find you
& I'll hold you close

I'm In Love (Prod. Tores & T57thetank)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Idealism 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Been so long since I saw you
I don't know how you are?
Or what's going on but
I wanna let you know I miss you
& I hope you're doing alright 

[Chorus]
Too much bullshit in my head 
Everyday I'm closer to the edge 
One more step then I'm off the ledge 
Just wanna lay in my bed 

[Verse]
I'm just a shadow that feels dead 
But still I know 
there's always a light 
In every Shadow
Wish I could get away 
To a meadow
Cause my thoughts are 
Suffocating me

[Bridge]
Everyday I live 
A worthless existence 
But I still go on 
To do my best 
(Got way too many plans)

[Verse 2]
Moving to another planet 
I know you haven't planned this
Why can't you move away 
To another day
I hate this place
Why can't it be somewhere else 
Other than in my head 

[Chorus]
Too much bullshit in my head
(I don't know man, It feels like) 
Every fucking day I'm closer to the edge
(I'm suffocating every fucking day 
& I don't know what the fuck to do) 
One more step then I'm off the ledge
(But for now, I'll just have to do what I can to deal with it)

One More Step (Prod. Idealism)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Michael Harrison 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork Edited by: angelsofsorrows

[Chorus]
Looking at you with feminine eyes
Through my eyes
You'd easily rate a ten
But I know through yours
I barely make a rating of five

[Post-Chorus]
I'm just another person
Breathing the same air
But you and I would never pair

[Verse]
Still I won't say life isn't fair
(Fair)
Because I haven't even moved a hair
Everyday I wanna change the type of
Clothing I wear
My parents wouldn't like it So
I don't dare change a thing
Never gonna have a ring
On my finger
Because my confidence
Hasn't gone any higher
I wish I wasn't so shy

[Chorus]
Looking at you with feminine eyes
Through my eyes
You'd easily rate a ten
But I know through yours
I barely make a rating of five

I Wish I Wasn't So Shy (Prod. Michael Harrison)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: sk8miles
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

Lyrics:
[Intro]
What happened to us
We used to be so close
But now you hate my guts
I still love you no matter what
I want to be in bed with you
Just hold me in your arms
My love

[Chorus]
Autumn wind blows through the air
Rain falls a top the trees
Wish this life would stop playing me
Oh Oh
Nostalgia been killing me inside

[Verse]
All I want is to go back to
Carving pumpkins with my family
Hanging out with my cousins laughing happily
Now everythings so in between
Sometimes I wonder if they all hate me
I really do

Regardless I want to see you all
Years go by & all I do is reminisce
I hate thinking It will never be that way again

[Chorus 2]
Autumn wind
Blows through the air
Rain falls
A top the trees
Remember going to
The cider mill
I miss it all
& It kills me to know that
It's gone forever now

[Outro]
These Autumn Memories are
So special
You're gone but just know I
But I will never forget you

Autumn Memories (Prod. sk8miles)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Prod. 4lexf & Daniel Saint
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

[Verse 1]
I just wish I was pretty
Never going to the city 
I don't think my family
Would really accept me 
So I hide myself away
With broken dreams and promises

[Chorus]
My sense of self 
Is a mess
& I'm screaming out for help

[Verse 2]
Body hair is a torment to me
Sorry for never showing you 
My identity 
To be honest judgement is so scary
Using these songs as a diary

[Chorus]
My sense of self 
Is a mess
& I'm screaming out for help

My Sense of Self Is A Mess (Prod. 4lexf & Daniel Saint)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: sk8miles
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Reapers Shadow
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

Lyrics: 
[Chorus]
Sometimes all I got is myself 
Writing lines about 
My mental health 
Who Will I be with 
A guy or girl 

[Verse]
Regardless they'll know how I felt 
Cause of the lines I belt
I'm not perfect I got some welts 
I gotta take care of myself 
To be able to share the future I build
Falling back to old memories
Your beauty is unmatched 
People expect too much from me 
Then get disappointed
When it doesn't work out
I apologize 
But I know that's the reason that 
They've gone on their way

[Bridge]
It feels like a wave
Is taking me away 
& I wish I could've changed

[Chorus]
Sometimes all I got is myself 
Writing lines about 
My mental health 
Will I be with 
A guy or girl

All I Got Is Myself (Prod. sk8miles)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Boyfifty 
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Embers in the jackolaterns 
I fade into the ether 
Now it's Halloween
For the second 

[Verse 1
Second time
Autumn tree &
Bittersweet breeze in the sunrise 
Your presence is still missed 
You'll always be in my heart 
Till the end
Everything will coalesce together
 
[Verse 2] 
In the endless echoes from beyond
I can feel your heart beat
Beating quick & so beautifully  
Hope you found peace and serenity in the afterlife 
Finding hope despite your tragedy

[Outro]
Let this go away
I don't stay 
If it means I have to lose you
I don't wanna leave you
But I know I have to
I know it down to my core
I'll just have to accept it

Halloween Pt 2 (Prod. Boyfifty)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: 4lexf & Daniel Saint 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & JoshIGuess 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Only hair I want is long & pretty going past my shoulders 
Pressure crushes me with these ingrained ideals 
These wounds run deep & can't seem to heal 
Maybe one day love will find me 
But till then please stop trying to fix me 
Your words just torment me

[Chorus]
I can't sleep at night 
If you're not by my side
Suffocating deep inside
Why'd you leave me 
Drowning in my tears
Drowning in my tears
Hope is lost & I hate it here

[Verse 2]
It hurts It burns & It twists 
My perception of the world 
Life is a continuous downward spiral
Goodbye for now to the ones 
I loved once upon a time

[Chorus]
Why'd you leave me 
Drowning in my tears
Drowning in my tears
Hope is lost & I hate it here
(I hate it here)

Drowning In My Tears (Prod. 4lexf & Daniel Saint)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: decago, hartfxlt, & akura
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & JoshIGuess
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)
Sample from: Oregairu (Anime)

[Chorus]
You've make me shine 
You're the light of my life 
You four are my guiding light
Staring at the night sky
Reflecting on when we first met
Your words are like a warm embrace

[Post-Chorus]
I'll live a life of bliss 
Because your presence is near 
(I don't know how to say yeah)

[Verse]
You four make me shine
I got blush lines on my cheeks
Crying tears of joy
Cause you're by my side
When you compliment my songs
Long term sadness turned to happiness
It leaves me so speechless 
I get embarrassed 

[Interlude: Sample Hachiman's Youth is Evil Speech]
If failure is truly the designated mark of ones youth
Then would it not be considered abnormal 
For one not in his youth to fail at befriending anyone
But I'm sure none of them would admit to that picture 
They only define youth to their own benefit 

[Chorus]
You've make me shine 
You're the light of my life 
You four are my guiding light
Staring at the night sky
Reflecting on when we first met
Your words are like a warm embrace

[Outro: Sample Hachiman's Youth is Evil Speech]
In conclusion I leave you with this
All you fools that delight in youth
Drop dead...

When We First Met (Prod. decago, hartfxlt, & akura)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: 05alagen
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & AkiraDoves 
Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

[Intro]
Just why did you have to leave
You're me & I'm you
So don't fucking 
Leave me behind 

[Verse]
Back in 2018 and 2019 
They'd fight every night 
Locking myself away 
In my safety chamber
Drowning ears with 
9tails, guardin, hk, nothing nowhere, and NF
Music was my life line
 
[Chorus]
Still have insecurities 
I'll never give up hope just to die 
That's your funeral 
But I won't take the cyanide
I'll live past unlike you

[Bridge]
Somehow I found love within friends 
I can call mine
Made a song for them 
Called Make Me Shine

[Chorus]
I still have insecurities that I hide
Still I'll never give up hope just to die 
In the end 
That's your funeral 
But I won't take the cyanide
Trying to find the truth 
Within these Polaroids

Insecurities (Prod. 05alagen)

Written by: Reapers Shadow & JoshIGuess
Produced by: Papapedro Beats
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: PixAi
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime 
Now you're standing in line

[Verse 1: Reapers Shadow]
Yeah it's Christmas morning 
Fuck up on the fucking rain pouring 
Just wanna get my presents fuck yo presence 
Don't want no one but myself bitch 
It's Christmas so do your best 
To give instead of take 
Like it's thanksgiving 
Nobody wanna be themselves nowadays 
Just wanna get paid then steal from the weak

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime 
Now you're standing in line
But just know you'll find your way

[Bridge: JoshIGuess]
You'll find your way, you'll find your way
I pull up in Santa's sleigh 
The way you gon treat me today
Better watch my fucking weight

[Verse 2: JoshIGuess]
Sweetie making sweets that's so sweet
Then the sweet in the sheets i'm complete
Hehe, eat the pussy
Sitting through the night like it's milk and cookies
Binging all of these christmas movies once again

The laptop i'm making this with 
It's getting more fucked up by the day
Got it for Christmas 9 years ago ayy
I'm lucky that it's actually working 
Song in process for a year you fans are deserving this

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime 
Now you're standing in line

Holidays W/ JoshIGuess  (Prod. Papapedro Beats)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: withoutu!
Mixed & Mastered by: @joshiguess
Artwork by: PixAi 
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics: 
[Verse 1]
it's the end of the party 
These days nothing ever get better 
Still chilling in my dark Grey sweater  
Fought those monsters off in September 
Friends I've created distance from
(Distance from) 
Just to satisfy myself with creating 
Despite my mental health being is so intimidating

[Bridge]
Don't you let yourself fall into this hole
Like I have done 
All my life I feel the same 
Broken and in pain
I don't want to lose you
But sometimes life doesn't go 
The way you want it

[Verse 2]
Nowadays I'm not conceding to more than just weed
But pulling them out of my garden 
To plants seeds of inspiration for everyone
Once again it's December 
& I lost myself in this fucking hell
I don't want to lose anybody else
But my fucking self in this fucking hole
(Yeah)
Fuck everything I don't claim to be
I just wanna be myself
& do it properly

[Outro]
My friends been distant
I get it, It's life
But it doesn't make it any less hard
I wish you all a great Christmas peace

December Pt 2 (Prod. withoutu!)

The meaning behind my name is "The idea of the Reaper is cool yet scary to me & I live within the shadows of everyone and everything"


I make music about my struggles, frustrations, & Passions
I play video games, watch anime, & Chill with my friends when I'm not making music

@angelsofsorrows l is my close friend and mixes my songs along with my other close friend @joshiguess huge shoutout to them wouldn't be able to pursue music without their help

Reapers Shadow

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