rivière bleue

some days i wake and i don’t know how to smile
some nights i pray as my thoughts keep running wild 
i guess Tolstoy knew it best when he said it back then
“if you look for perfection you’ll never be content”

ô rivière bleue sauve-moi
dans l’apathie, je me noie
ô rivière bleue sauve-moi
dans l’apathie, je me noie

most nights i lay awake praying to a god
this temple crumbles the second i step on
i read some Oscar Wilde hoping to relate
i’m just a flâneur ready to bore the stage

river blue save me please
i’m drowning in endless apathy
river blue save me please
i’ve lost hope as far as i can see

ô rivière bleue sauve-moi
dans l’apathie, je me noie
ô rivière bleue sauve-moi
dans l’apathie, je me noie

river blue save me please
i’m drowning in endless apathy
river blue save me please
i’ve lost hope as far as i can see

ô rivière bleue sauve-moi
dans l’apathie, je me noie
ô rivière bleue sauve-moi
dans l’apathie, je me noie

rivière bleue (voice memo)

momentary

dancing in the street just you and me
no one cares to see what’s underneath
puddles at our feet no tears to see
it’s momentary, momentary 

and i had so many fears
and anxious nightmares
filled with hate, forced to break

and i had so many thoughts 
feeling like a lost cause
felt so slick, forced to think

tell me love are happy now
show me dear what a scared frown
hooked on tragedy wow oh wow
it’s momentary, momentary

dancing in the street just you and me
no one cares to see what’s underneath
puddles at our feet no tears to see
it’s momentary, momentary 

and i had so many tears
and righteous hatred
bend and break, it hurts to say

i had so many pains
and hurtful changes
sent from hell, show and tell

tell me love are happy now
show me dear what a scared frown
hooked on tragedy wow oh wow
it’s momentary, momentary

dancing in the street just you and me
no one cares to see what’s underneath
puddles at our feet no tears to see
it’s momentary, momentary 

…

tell me love are happy now
show me dear what a scared frown
hooked on tragedy wow oh wow
it’s momentary, momentary

dancing in the street just you and me
no one cares to see what’s underneath
puddles at our feet no tears to see
it’s momentary, momentary 

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

momentary (voice memo)

problems

Running so fast but I’m running out of time
Try to catch my breath but I can’t stop it this time
I don’t wanna say it but I’m over this lie
I keep on living someone else’s life

So I run, run, run but my mind runs faster
And I pray, pray, pray but god doesn’t answer
Every little thing just pulls me further
I don’t want these problems any longer, longer

And I wrote this song over on my piano
And I hear this song playing through the stereo
Praying to god this is the one, you know?
Maybe this will take me to where I wanna go

So I try, try, try but I can’t get better
And I cry, cry, cry but it’s all just water
Every little thing just pulls me further
I don’t want these problems any longer, longer

Running so fast but I’m running out of time
Try to catch my breath but I can’t stop it this time

So I run, run, run but my mind runs faster
And I pray, pray, pray but god doesn’t answer
Every little thing just pulls me further
I don’t want these problems any longer, longer

So I try, try, try but I can’t get better
And I cry, cry, cry but it’s all just water
Every little thing just pulls me further
It just makes these problems so much harder

Running so fast but I’m running out of time 
Try to catch my breath but I can’t stop myself this time

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

problems (voice memo)

eyes like Lisbon skies
lost in rainy light
loathe your touch i cried 
use me one last time

touch me hard and soft
tell me i’m enough
is it love or pain
won’t you tell me babe?

love me like a doll
own my touch oh god
pound your darkest thoughts
beat my soul so numb

touch me hard and soft
tell me i’m enough
is it love or pain
won’t you tell me babe?

won’t you love me babe?
won’t you love me babe?

mind like Berlin’s grey
watch my hues decay
won’t you tell me babe
grey’s your favorite shade

touch me hard and soft
tell me i’m enough
is it love or pain
won’t you tell me babe?

love me like a doll
own my touch oh god
pound your darkest thoughts
beat my soul so numb

touch me hard and soft
tell me i’m enough
is it love or pain
won’t you tell me babe?

won’t you use me babe?
won’t you love me babe?

love me like your sex doll
own me like your sex doll
tell me like your sex doll
sell me like your sex doll

love me like a doll
own my touch oh god
pound your darkest thoughts
beat my soul so numb

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

sex doll (voice memo)

tell me dear in vacant stares
empty threats and standing hairs
hurling slurs to see who cares

throw some glass and change my words
rearrange my pain with yours
call my shrink for what it’s worth

draped in jeans in your bed
king sized sheets for just one man
seething minds soaked in sweat

strange, how strange
there’s a stranger in my bed
strange, how strange
there’s a stranger in my bed

arise awake right at dawn
imprint your bed with my wrongs
sketches of a painful drawl

guess you drink your coffee black
bet the almond milk is bad
bittersweet to see you glad

i’ll take my time and lay back down
see the future in your frown
get some sleep somewhere else

strange, how strange
there’s a stranger in my bed
strange, how strange
there’s a stranger in my bed

strange, how strange
there’s a stranger in my bed
strange, how strange
there’s a stranger in my bed

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

stranger (voice memo)

blue

cellophane on cigarettes 
char my throat with sheer regret
blast some Blue and fill a glass
a case of you ‘til i forget

running for the roses, god
shoot the horse out in the yard
racing toward the finish line
applaud the boy i still want

i’m blue, for a voyeur’s use
i’m blue, no matter what i do
i’m blue, so fucking blue
i’m blue

golden boys in mindless numb
smokey rooms filled with dust
naïve eyes burn with hate
faggots forced to hesitate

sing for me a throat-less song
play my chords for anyone
compare my heart to your screen
tell me dear what do you see?

i’m blue, for a voyeur’s use
i’m blue, no matter what i do
i’m blue, and so sick of you
i’m blue, ‘n choking your truth

i’m blue, so fucking blue
i’m blue, so fucking blue

cellophane on cigarettes 
char my throat with sheer regret
blast some Blue and fill a glass
a case of you ‘til i forget

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

blue (voice memo)

sex doll

eyes like Lisbon skies
lost in rainy light
take me for a ride
use me one last time

PC
touch me hard and soft
tell me i’m enough
is it love or pain
won’t you tell me babe?

C
love me like a doll
own my touch oh god
pound your darkest thoughts
beat my soul so numb

PC -
won’t you love me babe?
won’t you love me babe?

mind like Berlin’s grey
watch my hues decay
won’t you tell me babe
grey’s your favorite shade

PC - C -
won’t you use me babe?
won’t you love me babe?

love me like your sex doll
own me like your sex doll
touch me like your sex doll
sell me like your sex doll

PC - C

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

blue

cellophane on cigarettes 
char my throat with sheer regret
blast some Blue and fill a glass
a case of you ‘til i forget

running for the roses, god
shoot the horse out in the yard
racing toward the finish line
applaud the boy i still want

i’m blue, for a voyeur’s use
i’m blue, no matter what i do
i’m blue, so fucking blue
i’m blue

go-go boys in mindless numb
smokey rooms filled with dust
naïve eyes burn with hate
faggots forced to hesitate

sing for me a throat-less song
play my chords for anyone
compare my heart to your screen
tell me dear what do you see?

i’m blue, for a voyeur’s use
i’m blue, no matter what i do
i’m blue, and so sick of you
i’m blue, ‘n choking your truth

i’m blue, so fucking blue
i’m blue, so fucking blue

cellophane on cigarettes 
char my throat with sheer regret
blast some Blue and fill a glass
a case of you ‘til i forget

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

stranger

tell me dear in vacant stares
empty threats and standing hairs
hurling slurs to see who cares

throw some glass and change my words
rearrange my pain with yours
call my shrink for what it’s worth

draped in jeans in your bed
king sized sheets for just one man
seething minds soaked in sweat

strange, how strange
a stranger in my bed
strange, how strange
a stranger in my bed

arise awake right at dawn
imprint your bed with my wrongs
sketches of a painful drawl

guess you drink your coffee black
bet the almond milk is bad
bittersweet to see you glad

i’ll take my time and lay back down
see the future in your frown
get some sleep somewhere else

strange, how strange
a stranger in my bed
strange, how strange
a stranger in my bed

strange, how strange
a stranger in my bed
strange, how strange
a stranger in my bed

(c) 2025 Renn Marcel Béliveau

fool

you know i called
i keep driving past your street
writing letters just to burn 
oh it can’t get much worse

but i’m in so deep
and the voicemails sounds so crazy 
but your voice makes things hazy
i’m such a fool baby, im such a fool

and i’m in so deep
and our moments flee my mind
it’s a benevolent crime
i’m about to lose it all and that’s just fine

that’s just fine

your friend said you’re fine
she said you just needed time
and i’m singing sorry on my roof
i wish i was singing to you

cause i’m in so deep
and the voicemails sounds so crazy 
but your voice makes things hazy
i’m such a fool baby, im such a fool

and i’m in so deep
and our moments flee my mind
it’s a benevolent crime
i’m about to lose it all and that’s just fine

keep fighting til they call the cops
strung out on the asphalt
i’m just a fool for you, you know it’s true
i guess im not enough for you

cause i’m in so deep
and our moments flee my mind
it’s a benevolent crime
i’m about to lose you babe and that’s just fine

i’m just a fool who lost his mind 
and that’s just fine
that’s just fine

(c) 2024 Renn Marcel Béliveau

renn

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