Don’t you see?
we’re so alike,
I built the way you laugh
you built the way I cry
we built the way we are
even when we were apart

We were so young and created 
the puzzles pieces that we are now
we’re so alike, 
I could recognize you
even from afar,
in a different life

I know what you’re thinking,
I had the same feeling
you don’t have to speak
cause I’m feeling it

Something it’s funny? I know
we can tell the same jokes 

we’re so alike,
we complete the lines
even in different times 
I sing a song in my mind
you continue out loud 

We were writing a story
even in the silence,
building our future
without knowing the guidance

Two souls intertwined
we laugh, we cry,
we live, we try,
I’ll be here till
the end of time 

mirrors

Oh to go back to June
Everything reminds me of you

I remember I said I will love you
till I’m blue

We got back together after a while
January and you woke up by my side

After spending Christmas and new year alone

You called me one night saying “will you come and pick me up?”

I was falling asleep but pretended to be awake. I never thought you would accept what I said

I still have that piece of box from our first coming-back lunch 

I hated to see you so torn

My life was there but wasn’t mine anymore,
you saved me more times that you will ever know 

1617

I make these stupid bets in my head,
Hoping they’ll bring me back to you again. 
If I cross the street when the light is red,
Maybe you’ll love me like you once did.

Every reckless dare, every foolish game,
In my mind, it all echoes your name,
I know I messed up, but I can’t let go,
So I’ll keep playing these tricks, like I don’t know.

If I drink this water in under a minute,
Maybe I’ll find a way back to you,
If I close the door with my left hand,
Maybe you’ll see we’re not meant to be apart.

Running through the rain without getting wet,
If I can do this, maybe there’s hope for us yet,
Each drop a reminder of tears we’ve shed,
Maybe it means we can mend what’s dead.

Walking down the street, counting every step,
Praying each one brings me closer to your chest,
If I touch the lamp post with my fingertips,
Will I feel the warmth of your lingering kiss?

Taking multiple shots, hoping I stay upright,
Every sip a hope you’ll return tonight,
If I can stand without hitting the ground,
Maybe it means we can turn things around.

I know it’s crazy, I know it’s wild,
But these bets keep my hope alive,
A thread of light in a sea of doubt,
Every little dare is me reaching out.

Holding my breath until I nearly pass out,
If I can endure this, maybe we’ll work it out,
Every gasp a silent scream of regret,
Hoping to find a way to you yet.

So I’ll keep betting, keep playing these games,
Hoping someday you’ll remember my name.

bets

Will you forgive me
for holding her hand? 
instead of waking in the bed
we made through the years? 

Making a playlist wasn’t enough,
you deserve someone who
writes you these songs

I know I can’t wash my sins
with lovely words and 
amazing melodies

But I hope you hear them someday
so you can know how I feel

Struggling with my demons 
to find my way back, 
isn’t supposed to be this hard

I want to have more moments like the last one, 
where you intertwined your fingers in my hair 

You checked if I was crying, 
hoping for more
is not that I don’t choose you, 
it’s just that I’m torn

I’m tired to sing about past lives,
knowing you exist here and now 
and I have the possibility to make it right

Why should I wait? 
Time’s running fast
I’m just fucking scared of messing things up 
when I should be fucking you instead,
holding your throat,
keeping you silent

Why should I wait? 
Why should I hold back?
When all I want is you

this side of hell

I’m standing here, in a place we once knew.  
It’s my first time here, but it feels like déjà vu.  
I feel complete, but something's off inside.  
I know what’s missing; I wish I could call you mine. 

If eternity isn't real, I’ll make it for you.  
I’ll weave the fabric of time, just for us two.  
In every heartbeat, in every dream,  
I'll find you always, like I promised I would. 

I’ve been here before, in another time and space.  
Each life we live, we never quite embrace.  
Though I’m whole, I’m still feeling incomplete.  
Like a puzzle missing, our edges never meet.

If eternity isn't real, I’ll make it for you.  
I’ll weave the fabric of time, just for us two.  
In every heartbeat, in every dream,  
I'll find you always, so you can use the ring that I bring. 

Every journey, every path I tread,  
Leads me back to you, the love we’ve bred.  
If we can’t have now, we’ll have another dance,  
In the next lifetime, we’ll take our chance.

So here I am, feeling lost yet found.  
In this familiar, unfamiliar ground.  
I’m a tapestry with colors bright,  
But your shade is missing, in my darkest night.

If eternity isn't real, I’ll make it for you.  
I’ll weave the fabric of time, just for us two.  
In every heartbeat, in every dream,  
I'll find you always, like I promised myself. 

Until we meet again, beyond the stars,  
I’ll keep searching, no matter how far.  
In this endless journey, through day and night,  
You’re the missing piece, If I’d known how, I’d make us whole. 

eternity

I look at you and mom says, 
“you will never get her back again”

I say I know, 
I messed up the first two times
but she’s stuck in my mind,
making me believe she’s the love of my life
I tried to forget her so many times, 
my new one doesn’t get me right

My sisters miss you and my mom too,
they've mistaken your name too

I know you’re feeling better 
with someone that’s not me
you deserve to be happy,
I hope you see

But in my dreams, we’re dancing in the rain
laughing, loving, forgetting all the pain
I can see the smile I used to know
in another life, I’ll never let you go

I walk the streets we used to roam,
every step feels like home
our favorite songs on repeat,
but they sound so incomplete

I see your face in every crowd,
your voice in every sound
time moves on but I’m stuck in place,
memories I can’t erase

I bought a spray that smells like you, 
she doesn’t know it reminds me of you
trying to find peace living my life,
I’m just so bad at goodbyes

But in my dreams, we’re dancing in the rain
laughing, loving, forgetting all the pain
I can see the smile I used to know
in another life, I’ll never let you go

I know you’ve found someone who treats you right
holds you close through the darkest night
but I’m here, lost in the past
Wondering why we didn’t last

But in my dreams, we’re dancing in the rain
laughing, loving, forgetting all the pain
I can see the smile I used to know
in another life, I’ll never let you go


It’s hard to say goodbye,
even after all this time
I’ll carry you with me,
like a shadow in my mind
and maybe in another life,
where the stars align just right
I’ll find my way back to you,
and we’ll be alright

never get

I thought it was love, a fleeting trend
A spark that burns, then meets its end
But every glance, every trace
Proves you’re more than time or space

They called it love, but how could they see?
You’re not just a heart, you’re eternity
In every breath, in every sound
Even when I’m gone, you’ll linger around

Love of my soul, the endless thread
Binding us through worlds unsaid
If one of us mourns before the other
Know I’ll still be there, your phantom lover

The weight of loss cuts me apart
To think one day, we’ll break this heart
But you’ll carry me in every tear
And I’ll hold you close, even from here

In every life, we’ve met before
Through every death, I’ve loved you more
If this is fate, then let it be
I’m yours, through all eternity

Love of my soul, the endless thread
Binding us through worlds unsaid
If one of us mourns before the other
Know I’ll still be there, your phantom lover

In the quiet nights when you’re alone
Feel my touch in the winds that moan
In every shadow, in every dream
I’m the whisper beneath the stream

Love of my soul, where do we go?
To places unknown, beyond the flow
Even if my body turns to stone
With you, my love, I’m always home.

phantom lover

Sorry it’ll be in the next life
For some reason, I can’t feel
Enough in this one.

I think about you and
I miss you.
Then I see you and
I wish I was gone.

Maybe it’s all the things
We already went through.
Or maybe it’s how you stained
Your soul to a point
Where I don’t even
Recognize you.

When did your eyes
Turn so hollow?
When did your voice
Lose its color?

And when I’m alone,
I ache to hold you again.
But when I’m with you,
It’s like I’m holding a stranger’s hand.

Where did we go wrong?
Or were we ever right?
I’m losing my mind,
Is this worth the fight?

Maybe in the next life,
We’ll get it right.
When the ghosts of your sins
Can’t haunt the night.

Maybe in the next life,
We’ll get it right.
But in this one,
We’re just shadows in the light.

sorry i’m gone

Some people change the locks,
But I don’t—and I won’t.
Maybe that’s why I still dream of you.

You’re here without being there,
A mystery my ghosts can explain.

It feels strange when I wake up,
As if I’ve met a past life in my sleep.
It seems you’re no longer here—
Memories are what keep us alive.

But yesterday, your name was mentioned again.
I was like a mad wanderer,
Searching for you in the wrong place. 

Why is this happening again?
Didn’t I already learn?
When we talk, it’s not the same.
You don’t seem like the one
I seek in my dreams.

It feels different to fall in love in your dreams It’s longing for someone
Who doesn’t exist.

Our love is like a sacred door
That I just can’t close.
Don’t worry—I won’t change the locks.

I’m waiting for someone who’s you,
But not you.
My dreams will never blur…

blur

Please don’t let anyone else 
take you home 
Oh Lord, how I miss those 
chats with your mum 

You all made me feel like
it was worth being alive
All afternoons getting dizzy and high 

All the debts didn’t matter
With your eyes looking at me,
I wish my children someday
could inherit what I see

This is all a mix up but 
I really miss your mum

I will leave such an imprint on your heart 
that anyone you entertain after me 
will have to know me to understand 
hat you think

Please don’t take anyone else home
I still live there around every stuff
that you didn’t throw

It’s becoming harder to
write this
It’s becoming harder to 
remember how you sound
I was supposed to let it go

But still trying to find a way
to make you find this someday
I know how to separate things 
but you saved me so many times
on that bridge 

Thanks for smoking with me
that afternoon on the balcony
I couldn’t even feel my feet
Will you come back to light
the fire in me?

Lord, I really miss your mum

And I try to recall the smell of your clothes
But I’ve learned to breathe in
rooms without you…

I wonder if she keeps my seat,
At the table where our lives used to meet
I wonder if her garden grows,
The one she loved more than she showed

I hope she’s not disappointed in me
nor burdened by my crimes
tell her I’ll always answer her calls

I wonder if she knows I still care,
Even if I’m no longer there.
If I ever come back,
I pray she’s still somewhere around.

I hope she forgives the space I made,
For paths we walked and roles we played.
If I come back, I’ll make it known,
We’re family, no matter how we’ve grown…

mix up

Wait… I thought I was alright
New Year started, I left it all behind 
Why did you appeared on my mind? 
Which kind of spell did you used this time?

It doesn’t feel right, we had our time
Every Monday to Friday past five
Then we noticed it wasn’t working
Four walls and emotions chocking 

I swear I thought about it 
We agreed up on something
Hope you didn’t made it
Cut our names on a paper 

Sorry I didn’t find it earlier
That fucking piece of paper
Now I will never know
It hurts a lot but would you let it go? 

Will you haunt me every time?
Why is impossible to say goodbye?
Please don’t intertwine, your soul with 
someone who just does it right
It’s not meant to waste
I can feel it, and I would love to numb the pain…

papers

Do you think when I die
I’ll be able to see you from the sky?
I know you said, “Not too fast.”

But what about the secrets?
What about all the times you
Made fun of me with your “friends”?
Not to mention you fucked one of them.

I feel dirty, and I can’t see you the same.
Why would you do that for revenge?

All those times you asked me to pick him up,
To drive you both to class…
Did it start there?
How many times did you kiss while I paid for his ride?

This is a betrayal I will never forgive.
All the shitty things he always said
About me—was it just jealousy running through his skin?

What does it matter now?
You said it’s been a while,
But you were his, and
That’s the main reason why
I don’t want you back.

You said we can solve it,
That mistakes can be made,
But it’s not like changing the bed
Will undo the mess.

He touched your skin,
You moaned his name,
And intertwined your legs.

I don’t know how it works…
Dopeheads have feelings?
Oh please, don’t tell me—
He’s still too high to realize
He is still chasing highs ‘cause he’s got none in life

You let a snake crawl into your bed,
Poisonous touch, rotting your head.
Now you’re stuck with the venom he spread.

Maybe you all deserve this rage…

poisonouz habits

I remember when I asked
If I was the only one
Who wrote you beautiful letters
With all my heart

You laughed and said, “no.”
Then I started to write you songs
But you already ruined
Jack Johnson for me
My thirteen songs can’t compete

I always thought that I was wrong
When I said you were the one
Who had to wait for me
Because I always run away
But The Neighbourhood doesn’t
Sound the same

But the thing is, you are so mature
Then you are so naïve
I don’t know what’s wrong with us
Or who should’ve grown first

But damn, I wish I was the only one

You told me love was patient
Then you lost your faith in time
Said you’d never need a reason
But I watched your seasons change

I tried to read between the lines
But your words were never clear
Maybe you just loved the idea of me
More than who I‘m meant to be 

ruined

How do two water signs feel?
It’s tricky when I don’t like the sea,
But it doesn’t matter, let’s go
To the mountains and feel the breeze.

In this moment, I don’t feel
Like you are out of my league.

Girl, you’re not slowing me down,
The reason I keep going is you.
Don’t you feel it? It’s in the air,
Ironic how we went our separate ways.

Bought you that vinyl with
Music that you like.
“Amnesia” is playing on it,
For what I can recall.

Trying to find where we lost control.
Your name on my lips, but I let it fade,
Some things are meant to slip away.

I cried so much to that song,
But now I can’t remember how it sounds.
Time to time, my feelings haunt me,
And I’m about to cross the door—
Where I know that I can find you,
But we’re not teenagers anymore…

anymore

And I’ll never be mistaken for
Saying that I love you more
More than anyone else ever could
It’s not selfish to say the truth

And I’m sure this isn’t love
If she needs a kidney,
I’d still save mine for you

And I’m defenseless when I think
That you are the right one for me
I keep remembering your perfume
Trying to recreate it when
I can’t seem to understand
Why I am still here

I was thinking of getting you a gift
But my mind told me you’re better alone
Without me—trying to control me
Trying not to reach

Every time I fight the urge
To write your name, to send a word
I remind myself it’s over
But the silence makes it worse

Loving you is like a game I can’t quit
Even when I know I’ll never win

But what if you forget about me?
I could never, your initials are carved
Into my whole existence

Babe, please just don’t reach to say goodbye
Selfish would be praying that I’m the first one to die

And I do, and I do 
I could never exist without you 

And I do, and I do
Your name lingers in my head

And I do, and I do 
People don’t know about you 

and i do

There’s something I didn’t tell you,
But I know you know it too.

The truth is,
I don’t want to marry
Anyone else than you.

I pictured myself seeing you
At the altar with someone else.
I felt proud, then I felt…
It should have been me instead.

I’m fine with that idea,
I can’t make you wait longer,
But I’m not sure if I’ll be back.

But if I do and you are dressed in white,
I’ll be just a few rounds afar,
Smiling at you from the crowd,
Mocking your husband with your mom.

And I know me enough…
And I know you enough…

Let’s meet each other at the back door,
I’ll be waiting with my sport shorts,
Ready to run!

You’ll say you’ve mistaken me
For somebody else.
And I’ll say that I know, don’t worry,
I brought your favorite clothes.

I’ll hold you…
“I never loved like this before.”
The idea of running away—it’s yours.

I know us enough,
The seven-thirty curse.

But the truth is…
I found out that…
I don’t want to marry
Anyone else.

We’ll be smiling,
because it’s never too late. 

i know that you don’t
want to know
and that you never
listen to my songs 

i know that you’ve 
even forgot, the names 
of all the songs 

and i think that’s okay
being vulnerable 
is not my way
this project was mine
anyways

i write but nobody listens
never cared about my feelings 
you will be surprised to know
that whatever i wanted 
i have achieved it (or not)

i reached my goals and
I’m growing 
life feels different with
all the sleepless nights 
Sunset Boulevard was nice 

From time to time i try to 
Remember about you
You are fading and so 
Are your curls

I spend my whole life
Looking for you 
Promising that I’ll be meeting you 
But here’s the truth 

You are fading away
I’m sure i am too
It’s time to forget 
It’s time to let go 
Promise I won’t chase you anymore 

fading

I wonder if you still care
About that girl
Who cast you a spell
The one who killed her boyfriend—
He fell and broke his neck.

Just so you know,
I’m still paying for that mail.
You never text me back,
But I still wait.

It’s funny to think
That you remember everything,
While I’ve lost my mind
And the essence of
Who I used to be.

Honestly,
I don’t recall a thing.

It’s incredible how it works—
You recite every word,
All the details I forgot.
I lost myself
On the way to becoming who I am.

Everything’s dizzy around here,
Too many problems
Rewriting my memories.

Honestly,
I don’t feel a thing…

And the people from my past
Keep reminding me who I was.
We’re just grown-up kids
With confusing memories.

Is this the price I pay
To let my traumas fade away?
Or was it you
Who held half my life in their hands?

I don’t care—
I just know it’s not the same.
But apparently, it’s the breeze
That still remembers my name.

Was it you who cast the spell,
Just to break the ties so well?
You were scenes inside my head,
Now you wish they stay unsaid.

I understand, I really do,
But why erase my values too?
I climbed so far to get this view,
Don’t make me lose what still feels true.

I really don’t want to forget
How I got here.
And it’s okay
If you forget about me.

But don’t make me lose the last bits of me…

memories

I remember when I said
It was only one of them
That’s naive for me to say—
I know it was never just him

I had to sneak out the door
While your best friend laughed
And said, “She does this a lot”

I think he never found out
He just wanted you back
To make things alright

How were the classes
Back in high school?
Did you take notes
Or just pass them around too?

But you always said
They were nothing like me
“They’re all so empty,
No depth, no spark”
You called them noise
While I was your art

And don’t lie—
You always smiled when it burned
You made sure it hurt
Every time I returned

You knew me too well,
At least that’s what you liked to say
So how did you lose
What you claimed you could never replace?

Now I’m left with
Your recycled confessions
And a heart full of
Secondhand questions

He was your friend too
And so were the others
I don’t have enough fingers
To count all your lovers

How were the classes
Back in high school?
Did you learn guilt,
Or just how to be cruel?

You used to tell me
“They’re nothing like you”
That no one could match
The chaos I bring
Yet you still chose
The empties, dirties souls

You said I was different—
Not like the rest
Then let them crawl
Into my place in your bed

You always smiled
When it all went to hell
Lit the match
And wished me well

You told me I was rare
That you couldn’t 
Get me out of your chest

You watched me
Turn dust into plans
While they wasted their nights
Trying to dance for your hands

I remember when you said
“No one makes me feel like this”
You’d stare like I was made of gold
And they were made of mist

You’d laugh at all their lines
Say they try but never hit
“They’re boys playing grown-up”
I made the jokes, you repeat 

You said they had no depth
No fire, no fight
So why’d you let ’em touch
What you swore was mine?

They could never be me—
And you knew that

You said I set the bar
Too high to reach
But now you’re crawling
Back through the dirt
Just to feel some heat

They could never be me
But you tried anyway

You danced in circles
While I built a home
Now you sit with strangers
Wishing I’d pick up the phone

They could never be me…
But now, 

neither……
can…….
you…..

(me)ht

Everyone remembers
their seventeens.
But wow—
when I was sixteen,
I could tell you stories
you’d never believe.

The world was new,
and I could never
forget the smell
of your perfume.

Uniforms off,
and afternoon teas.
How could I forget
that delicious sour cream?

Your brothers fighting,
we were underneath the sheets.
I can’t bear
that it’s just a memory—
not our reality.

Your mom’s laugh was loud,
and I was happy just being around.
Your grandma never liked me,
but I’m glad we got to meet.
I’m grateful I met Lita,
and that she always asked about me.

Now it feels like a dream,
like a life I watched on TV.

I still hum that song
you played on repeat—
some indie band
with sad guitar beats.

Time didn’t warn us
it was running out.
We were too busy
making plans we’d never carry out.

Now I wake up sometimes
with your name in my mouth,
and wonder if somewhere,
you’re dreaming me now.

Everyone’s lost in
seventeen dreams—
mine started
when I was just sixteen.

making promises
we never meant to keep.

sour

I finally get it.
You warned me once.
I kept saying I’d changed,
But you told me to shut up.
I didn’t get it back then.
You were angry—
Because I changed,

But not with you.

I was saying, “You should see me now,”
“These are the things we always deserved,”
Thinking maybe you’d be proud.

I didn’t see you were sad and hurt.
For me, it was about fixing myself.
But you just saw that it wasn’t for you.

I never looked at it that way.
Because I never cared about her.
She was just a step
I thought would lead me back to you.

I was learning, and you were listening,
But I never asked what it felt like for you.
Now I’m 25,
And I’m starting to get it.

I’m sorry your shoes didn’t fit me.
And I know I can’t go back.
I don’t think meeting again later
Would fix anything.

(Not even years from the beginning)

We are the things that happened to us.
That’s just how it goes.
You’re the only one I know
Who’d still pick up the phone
Thirty years from now.

And I think about us
(Why I think about us?)
What it could’ve been
(What we might be)
Maybe is not too late
(Did I lose my chance?)
To hold your hand again
(If my place hasn’t been replaced)

confession

Dreaming of you again
Holding your hand feels strange
It’s nice to see you smiling
But I can’t share the same grin

People are watching
We’re wearing strange clothes
Our choreography is thrilling
But we’re heavier than our thoughts

I know it’s you
But it’s just a dream
And I don’t feel the need
To have you next to me

I woke up and thought
“I shouldn’t forget that tune”
I’ll hold you down…
Forever…
And ever…

You might even receive a letter
Another piece of my soul
I should’ve known how to
Fix that hole on my own

But there I was
Telling you I’m bad at goodbyes
But I don’t need you close
And the longing I knew is gone

“I should write her a song”
“A letter is never enough”
“A playlist doesn’t make sense”
“That vinyl will fade away”

I dream of songs
While dreaming of you
Pieces I’ll never compose
I’ll hold you down…
Forever…
And never…

dreaming

Coping by writing you songs
Every time a track reminds me of our youth
Of how you made me feel back then

Writing to fight the urge to text you
To ask if we could meet again
Like I’ve done too many times over the years

Why do I still feel the need?
I want to drop everything
Because nothing makes me feel complete

Then I hit the wall because
We’re not like I recall we used to be
And our teenage years are no longer here
We’re no longer those kids

I just want to feel those things
And fill the voids we left behind
I’m so sorry we are apart
Living different lives
Drifted and torn apart

I still feel you in my ribs
And maybe I will love you forever
Love you till you hate me
Hate that I still love you
And I know you hate loving me too

I want my old life again
When I used to wait for you
At school, downstairs
I miss playing those Sega games

Everything I have and the good moments I share
I confess I still see you there

Oh, the old youth years
Everything is yours till I’m dead
The kingdom we left behind
Would you like to get it back?
Blasting tunes in my ears
Until I decide the entire world is mine…

teenage years

I started to wonder if you think of me
While listening to certain songs
Do you still love me enough, and regret letting me go?

Am I part of any of your thoughts
When you’re scared of growing old?
Does that make you think of us?

Are there many things that remind you of me?
Or is it just the little things and all we used to dream?

I just wonder if I cross 
your mind now and then
I thought I moved on
but you’re still here

We live in the same city, 
yet we never cross paths
I still remember the last time we said goodbye
Holding each other tight
Knowing it was actually the last
“last time”

Nothing feels like 21 — lost so much
But had you back
The party was ours, but we missed our chance 
(Ialways hated to dance anyway)

I thought I had already moved on
But I might need more time
I don’t want to be healed 
if that means letting you go
(I would’ve burned the city for you)

The things I used to enjoy 
just don’t make sense anymore
I guess it’s because you’re no longer here
Just like you were supposed to be

And I could never be your friend
I know what you do to them
And how you never stopped them from playing with your head

Time to pop that bubble you always lived in
There’s danger out there — you know I always meant it
I imagined false scenarios in my head
Just to warn you and keep you safe
But you never listened
“It’s just a two-year difference”

(don’t worry it’s on me)
(I never showed you all the memories that I still keep)
(I kept the door open)
(But forgot to hold tight)
(Hope you’re safe in the wild)

stuck

Don’t want to ruin your peace
Just wanted to know if
You think of me?

Should I press send
Or just stay away?
Maybe it’s a sign that
You haven’t reached back

Letters written in the present
And sent to the future
What a silly way to
Destroy the love of our lives

I go blurry and I miss you a little
But I should have known
That doesn’t mean that
I have to ruin your day

I underestimate everything

I’m going through every playlist I know
Just to blur my senses
Every time it gets worse
Your name in embroidery in every line

Will you come through?
Should I wait a little bit longer?
Wanting to hear from you

…but not really…….

Where are we supposed to gooooooo?

Part of you knew……

Feeling provocative and
Remembering your lips
Kissing for hours straight
Without taking a break
You were my first everything

And I don’t care if
These lines don’t make
Any sense………

I’m on a stranger’s sofa
Writing about you
And you are maybe in
Somebody’s arms

But I don’t caaaaaareeeeee

I hope you know you can text me
When you are missing me too………

dear fucking me

My friend knows his friends are your affairs
They talk about you every day
And how well you fit in their hands
They even know your last, last name

Is it silly to think I ruined everything
And you’re behaving like this because of me?
Is that so narcissistic to think?

I always wanted to keep you out of that world
But you were jumping through the window
While I closed the door, turning the TV on

You were younger than me
And you always used to say
That after our 60s we would be parting ways
I never understood it
My life was in your hands
Didn’t want anyone else
To kiss my forehead

You said we would get bored
And I never understood
Until your name was mentioned
In everybody’s mouth

Little red-haired girl
I always speed up to see if it’s you
Holding the hand of a stranger
Whom you will disappoint too
After the satisfaction….

.…of your freckles and perfume….

affairs

I think is hard to write
with the empty heart
My body is here
But my soul faded away

I’m just using this beating 
To see if it can match my feelings
What if my mind goes
La-la-la-la

But your toes says 
hey-hey-hey

I’ll do what it takes 
To keep me awake-hey-hey

I saw your eyes
I didn’t remember they were so red
But I’m not scared 
Just wait till you see my face-e-hey

red everything

You said once,
“If I ever have a daughter
I’ll give her your name,
even if we’re not the same anymore.”

I laughed.
It felt poetic.
Now it just feels
like losing twice—
softly, slowly, permanently.

There’s a part of me
that wants her to be magic—
To carry the best of you,
and a trace of me
that she won’t understand.

Every time she smiles,
she won’t wear my smile,
but something in her eyes
will carry proof
that I was there for a while.

She’ll walk around
And she’ll never know
why you say it with that look in your eyes.

What if she ever asks
where her name came from—
will you tell her the truth?
Or just say,
“It’s just a name I always liked…”

She won’t know the nights
you said it like a prayer
when you missed me so bad

You stitched a version of us
into something you haven’t said

And if she laughs like you,
I’ll probably look away—
Not out of pain,
but because some echoes
aren’t meant to stay.

Will she have curls like yours?
Will she hate sleeping alone?
Will she write notes in her books
and bring people home?

If she ever breaks
like you did, like I did—
don’t tell her
love should hurt this much

And when she calls out in a crowd,
when she says that name—my name—
I’ll turn my head, like instinct,
thinking maybe it’s you again.

But I’ll see someone
half my height
with wide eyes
and a gentle fight

And I’ll smile,
because that’s how ghosts say hi
when we’re not allowed to stay

She won’t know me,
and she shouldn’t
This isn’t my story,
but I’m still part of the footnote

You turned love into lineage,
and I became
an echo inside her throat

Her name is not mine
But it once lived in your breath
You gave it to her gently—
a soft inheritance of regret

And maybe one day
I’ll hear it at the store,
and turn around
like something out of lore

And when I see her,
I won’t say a word
Just a nod
for the version of me
she’s never heard

She’ll walk away,
but I’ll stay a moment more—
Remembering
how even if love didn’t stay,
my name still echoes
in the life you made.

my name

Just a project born from a storm of thoughts that were never meant to be heard. 

No names. No faces. Just frequencies wrapped in memories.

red unicorn

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