i know its hard i know it is
i played my part i lost my grip
until next year im off that shit
want something new im bored of this
and if u find the answer to my question
then let me know im tired of living life unsafe inside my home

mom told me im a waste and everyone tells me the same
yea maybe theres a reason why they left me
my biggest enemy is someone i dont know
im fighting for u back dont think about me

now this is a story i dont wanna tell
its like the end of a movie i havent seen before
ive always lived for attention why cant u see that
im on my knees begging for more

war within

this song is all midi guitar

that's one way to make me feel alone
i won't change until i've found my hope
give me a break (break!)
search for my answers, still at the first stage
i won't break unless they make me change

where does pain come from?
is it you or all the deep cuts
you'll forget me soon, so what
is it me or did you move on 
just to leave me in the dust
i've dug myself into this hole
it's in my head out of control
afraid of death but you killed my soul

one day, i'll stop caring about them
if i knew how to stop i would
my mom asked me "look what you've become"
but she's misunderstood
i'm passing by without a goal
no reason to keep my control
this fucking mental takes its toll

where does pain come from?
is it you or all the deep cuts
you'll forget me soon, so what
is it me or did you move on 
just to leave me in the dust
i've dug myself into this hole
it's in my head out of control
afraid of death but you killed my soul

deep cuts

prod @lyn_u
ft @omgisai

visualizer https://youtu.be/Yere7QrbIG0

lyrics:

(@lyn_u)
smile when the camera starts
i never play my cards right
acting so bizarre
i cant see anyone in sight
(x2)

and now i cant go anywhere
cause i know ull be there
and now i cant go anywhere
cause all these people stare

cause everytime i close my eyes
its you again, you again
and everytime i hear ur voice
i dont know what to do with myself
(x2)

(@omgisai)
who am i to blame
i got hella stories that i need to say one day
yeah i got hella choppas that shit put you in some pain
yeah i got hella bodies
who gon help me dig these graves

yeah who am i to blame
i got hella stories that i need to say one day
yeah i got hella choppas that shit put you in some pain
dont even try lil bro we not the same

(@lyn_u)
and now i cant go anywhere
cause i know ull be there
and now i cant go anywhere
cause all these people stare

cause everytime i close my eyes
its you again, you again
and everytime i hear ur voice
i dont know what to do with myself
(x2)

you again +isai

The moon looks better than it did last year
Or maybe I'm seeing it different now
I never it see that clear

The first time I told myself
that I love me was when I was someone else
The first time I let the ice melt
was when he forced me to break out of my shell

I Was Someone Else

I know I talk a lot
But I still try not to bother
If it was her choice She would end it all (I know it)
Don't know if I'd try to even stop her

Where is it at
What is my head thinking of
do what I have to
Call me selfish all u want
How about instead
next time we talk U just shut up
And hear whats said
and maybe ill get my point acrooooss

Bother

produced by me
made in september 

project next

lyrics:
and its like that 
you don't wanna know about me
I cant fight back
I don't wanna know about you
I don't like that
you don't even know anything
gotta back up
need to run away from you
x2

its all I know
and I cant breathe
I'm letting go
what do you see?
i don't think ill see it through
when the lights run dark
I believe in you
I think that my heads turned blue
think I'm needing you
peel off the glue

and its like that 
you don't wanna know about me
I cant fight back
I don't wanna know about you
I don't like that
you don't even know anything
gotta back up
need to run away from you
x2

its all I know
and I cant breathe
I'm letting go
what do you see?
i don't think ill see it through
when the lights run dark
I believe in you
I think that my heads turned blue
think I'm needing you
peel off the glue

from you

single off the project (3 of 4)

production by me (+50)
art by me

lyrics:
my life is boring
but i like it that way
i cant afford it
i guess i should've kept my change
you're looking at me
im looking at your shoes
i shouldn't be this judgy
we both know I've lost it too

tell me if its ever gonna be alright
i know i deserve it
better off observing (from a far)
will you ever see me in that light
i know that you're hurting
im needing your warning

there's no saving me
there's no saving me
i've lost it all
i've lost it all

observer

production by me (+64)
art by me

lyrics:
ive lost my train of thought
ive lost my brain in an instant
if i talked it out
would even try to listen

hold on again
just wait til may
youll feel again
just one more day
x2

hold on

production by me

sometimes i wish i was someone else
but after all, whats the fun in that
i know i lost my patience last week
but after all, i know you love me back
but after all, whats the fun in that

i wonder how it couldve been
if i had left myself alone for one more night
theres so many things i shouldve said
im leaving myself in the past, ill leave her dead

i cant keep things to myself
because after all, whats the fun in that
and i cant lie sometimes, i want to fall in love
i get so worried that u might not love me back

i wonder how it couldve been
if i had left myself alone for one more night
theres so many things i shouldve said
im leaving myself in the past, ill leave her dead

Learning to love solitude

demo from october 2024, originally for "drafts"
ib the cabs

she dances in the spotlight, i stay in the dark
i trace all my thoughts just to tear them all apart
i start to talk quietly when they get louder

even if i tried, even if you wanted to change my whole life
i’d always end up running in circles
running in circles
even if i died, even if the whole world had turned from my side
i’d always end up running in circles
running in circles

I Was Someone Else

red letter diary

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