what i listen when i play (・∀・ )

prodd// @at-srd-beatz

i cnt evn go,, i cnt even breathe
this luv is a show,, i cnt evn c +.=
plus its nt enough,, feeln lik a dreem,, 
hate it wen u lie,, its nt wht it seems

last nite i ws feelin alr,, 2dy idek y u say
u care4me but its2late
its2late buhbae,,
bigeyez lukn right @ me
dnt cry,, but im nt srry
no ? y ? cn u stp callin
i knw i might keep on falln

yh im goin all the way
cnt hav it no othr wy
take a step n walk awy
hoodee on n smoke a j

big eyes [prod. srd]

song i md ## a month ago,, ly hwc

hndle me w care,, hndle me 1m scarrr3ddd
smile 4 me,, my <<##33's achinn,,
l00sin vision,, nw ur ## fadinn

call me t1ll the nite ends,, cat gifs onlee excitinnn,,
gt my tamagotch1 wut it wantd,, fnd a dolphin ride it wen 1m ## lightin
roblox hood,, yh im fightin,, y tf u hidin ## hit u w the trident i tried it
handle me w care,, hndle me ## impaired,, 
smile 4 me,, doondi paid me,, crushincrystalz ## y u hatin ???
feeln snug,, f33l the nauseaaa,,

hndle me w care,, [prod. 5v x northeast light]

happee buh day +++)_____+++++++

@distbeatz @kggn

happe bday 2every1111 !!!!! ++ erkko ++ smile 

(((((did this lil song b444 midnighttxx)))

celbrat w me,, do a danc spinnin
sippin on juice,, n im hurtn my kidneyxx
are my 0.0's shining cuz i feel dizzee
ima wait in line4sum fud but its busy buhhh

waitin on,, life ws long,, 
what is nxt,, wtching on
blo out my candlss :*,, imma mk it realxx
dnt kno wut 2wish4,, dnt kno wut 2feel

its my buhdayy,, do my buhday danccee
lukn @ mee,, tak anthr glanccee 0.0
its my bdayy ## do my bday danceee buh
shufflnnn now,, luk at my new pantsxx

bluu bills i dnt kno wut2spend on
gt a new fit tho rockn wit a ## pendant
movn on frum da past,, whers my presnt ??? :P
oldhed,, grown up,, independant

dun,, dun,, dun dun,, i gt monee4clothes
dnt gt monee4fud 
i dnt wnna seem ##rude
i hv nthn 2prov,,
i need2mak a movxx
yh4me n 4u <<##33

i ws up,, i ws up w8n all night
cnt een go2sleep,, yh i try
i cnt evn process my life,, i5
gettn closer2the end,, but i wnt cryy 0.p

bdayy song !!! [p. distbeatz + kuru]

s/o @bokabih @bokabih @bokabih @bokabih !!! ur amazn

[glostarr]
imma run it wut u want rn,, ooo 
i got monee in my jeans rn,, truues
stik around jus seee how it goes,, gluuu
u a clone swear i jus saw u,, whoos who 
// 
whos who,, i got wut i got,, i do wut i do
yo girls a virus n i got da flu,,
my shot is sharp like i got it to mew,,
bitch im fueled up i could go 2 the moon ,,
u are my minions n bitch i am gru,, [buh buh buh]
movin so smooth bitch im movin on que
boy yous a baby,, goo goo,, gah gah,, goo 
//
i dont wanna start slow,, nitecorin my car bro
movin heavy cargo,,  bitch im clean lik barsoapxx
u gon have2rob me,, leav u out2starvy
u cnt even charge me,, make u still like parkeeng
bitch im up there harvey,, bitch u trippin rv
im the boy lik sharky,, stick around like sharpiee
///
doin so much i cant focus i need adderall
u seem fishy,, i cant trust u,, u a mackerel 
i wont listen wut u sayin,, i wont play role
u luk different thru my custom design reticle
u gon have to get assisstance maybe medical 
boy u is so hella fake u is not credible 
//
u freezin up like u mochi
monee got me cozy
i feel emoji 
in a suite like cody 
chilln wit my whoadee
got green like guacamole
u dont really kno me
i b movin lowkey,,
2much like im op,,
drippn jus lik moby 
yo girl trynna2talk2me
annee r u okee,,,,,,

globabee,, glo glo [prod. boka]

art by @nadia_kapusta on ig

spotify
https://open.spotify.com/track/35lGCQ5ASOCgZDN39WSwZn?si=idfpIbzwRbCykCoADJTWtQ

apple music
https://music.apple.com/ca/album/marrow-feat-coldrose-wstdyth-single/1526325930

marrow feat. orchid, wstdyth (kuru+skoolio)

art by 8485

prod @degenerate69

backing vocals by grandee

SPOTIFY https://open.spotify.com/track/5YlSM6ZWbzCfigJzZdcPNU?si=aEljvQ4nTZud-Au20w8h4Q

take loop (dgen)

prod by me:)

lyrics:

i wait till u say something
feel worthless when it rings
i check up 2 nothing
it's getting tiring

and i only want you when it's late at night
and i only want you when you hold me tight
and i only want to talk jus another time and in another life we'll be quite alright

jeez won't u let me free
i'm looking for
peace and serenity
find me my

four leaf clover and i won't hold back
till it's over never sober i won't hold u back
but it's tearing me up
i'm over all of that but honestly i might jus keep on

thinking about when you kissed me all over
i'm sinking to pieces jus looking for closure

wish u didn't see that side of me
was looking endlessly for any sign 2 leave
and u're the only one that wouldn't set my mind 2 be what it wants 2 be made u my enemy cuz

i wait till u say something
feel worthless when it rings
i check up 2 nothing
it's getting tiring

and i only want you when it's late at night
and i only want you when you hold me tight
and i only want to talk jus another time and in another life we'll be quite alright

pieces     :)

prod & performed by me:p
mixed by me & my brother^_^(@nathan_dagum)

lyrics:

lay
in bed
it's been three
past ten
i've been faking death
when there's no one around

jeez
i've been staring at my phone for
years
i can't man up n face my
fears
i've been holding back half of my tears i'm so lost

okay, i'm fine, girl i'm solid
she say, she like my nail polish
black paint, i dropped out of college searching for the person i wanna be

i feel so stupid for letting go
hindsight i swear that i didn't know
if i could i'd quit the chemicals sooner than you'd evr know

i've been browsing seeing similar faces
looking at past messages to find all the traces
of every little instance where u said that u hate me
i don't blame u i've been missing u lately

broken mistreated
believed all ur reasons
and i've been so beaten
i'm trying again i've been

okay, jeez

w/ @januaryyy
https://soundcloud.com/mansionboys/mansion-clips-1

( ¬_¬'')ノﾞ⌒☆ﾐ(o _ _)o  +@januaryyy

credits:||
@taydoxia
@poorconnection
@i9bonsai
@heavenindaclouds

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Credits://
@tdundere
@bodygaard

Notes://
I need a miracle...
you're my only hope...

Lyrics://
i need a miracle
i’m never letting go
don’t let the past decide on why i can’t be with you

you're looking so beautiful
and i’m getting fearful
hold in my tears i hate when i get emotional

i’m tryna float
to the star above
it’s getting harder cope
with the loss of your love

said you gonna find me
i’m still hiding in the cut like it’s surgery
do you see the stars i see
B.B. (Simons®) belt on looking like a galaxy

i can’t breathe with this anxiety
grind my teeth i’m off ecstasy
we can’t meet i got priorities
let me sleep for all eternity

you call my phone
i can’t find the words to say to you
just take me home
take me home
just take me home
take me home

✧༺❤️️༻∞angelic singing∞༺❤️️༻✧

Forgive & Forget (prod. tsundere)

(prodheavn)
@blackwinterwells
https://app.matter.online/tracks/67750

Stream

end it +blackwinterwells

prod me
mixed by me & my brother(@nathan_dagum)

sampled ichika nito^_^
shoutout ked for finding da sample lol

lyrics:

ring my phone i won't pick up
toss ur text across my room

cuz i'm sick and i'm so tired
i try i can't acquire
what i seek what i desire deep down inside

i find my head stuck between a hard place
won't leave my bed i'm stuck inside the hallways

of doubt and of sin and i sing to the hymn of the birds as they chirp i'm wide awake

rotting away like the tree in the
back of my house all the leaves
fall so quickly on fire bring me away

oh and nirvana's what i'm searching
dissect me like a surgeon
tear me right to pieces
i don't feel a thing

nirvana

free vbux 
shoutout : https://soundcloud.com/blackwinterwells n https://soundcloud.com/misakufoxx 4 being vry dope n cool n ghood at muzik 

and shoutout https://soundcloud.com/1vessel n https://soundcloud.com/prodkaito 4 being da best producerz ever :DD

lyricz:

fuck. fuckkk \. fuck fuck fuck

i throw it all up.... i throw it all up. 

please pinky promise, till we frolic 
got a lota bands, throw em up, like its vomit 
guess this is a [process, just gotta follow it 
im eatin some frog legz, im in thailand 
n honestly, ima do what i want
noticed that a couple ppl rly jealous (of) wat i got
swear i rly see tha evil, in every single 1 
swear dis mp rly lethal, carry it everywhere i go. 
everywhere i go! 


i stay hot, wherever, im meltin all the snow 
u talk big behind the screenz, but i kno u always choke (ur a keyboard warrior) 
just think like this, we r all imposterz 
n whenever we see u walk in we all laugh at u n joke 
im laughin on the slope 
im dancin in my coat 
im only happy cus im thinking bout these bands im finna smoke 
n i see that u lost hope, ur rly not alone. 
i relate, but i'd rather just sit back n gloat (IM AN ASSHOLE)

throw it all up 
throw it all up 
give a fuck ab tha cost bruh 
ur honestly.. looking pretty lost bruh


please pinky promise, till we frolic 
got a lota bands, throw em up, like its vomit 
guess this is a [process, just gotta follow it 
im eatin some frog legz, im in thailand (international)  
n honestly, ima do what i want
noticed that a couple ppl rly jealous (of) wat i got
swear i rly see tha evil, in every single 1 
swear dis mp rly lethal, carry it everywhere i go. 
everywhere i go! 

(wells) 
hang me up and then just leave me in the cold, like you always do
hurt my heart and left it cracked and scarred, like you always do
everything i touch just falls apart, like im midas but its even worse
i detect no meaning in your words
you just chat like a chicken with its head cut off
think i might just batter and fry you up
like im hannibal, everytime that you get hurt
its like a miracle
i dont wanna talk
think that you should take a walk somewhere that's far away
i dont wanna see your face


please pinky promise, till we frolic 
got a lota bands, throw em up, like its vomit 
guess this is a [process, just gotta follow it 
im eatin some frog legz, im in thailand 
n honestly, ima do what i want
noticed that a couple ppl rly jealous (of) wat i got
swear i rly see tha evil, in every single 1 
swear dis mp rly lethal, carry it everywhere i go. 
everywhere i go! 


(misa)
like uuuuughh... i’m so gooooone-
heh, wait-
hop outa the car, hop into the frame, on her knees like ima prince, sippin purple rain!
please don’t hit me up unless it’s about some money, funny, i think that they funny, it’s really fuckin funny
how u talkin shit but u gon smile right in front of me, my life’s a summary, but it’s yet to get in front of me
keep to myself, that’s my bad, feel so short i can’t stop being mad, Nd it’s my life but it’s your fad, i can’t take the things to the gravee tht i had ... (fuck)



please pinky promise, till we frolic 
got a lota bands, throw em up, like its vomit 
guess this is a [process, just gotta follow it 
im eatin some frog legz, im in thailand 
n honestly, ima do what i want
noticed that a couple ppl rly jealous (of) wat i got
swear i rly see tha evil, in every single 1 
swear dis mp rly lethal, carry it everywhere i go. 
everywhere i go!

vomit w/ blackwinterwells & misakufoxx (4am + kaito)

among us cypher

made this album with a lot of my friends for fun

art by 8485 who i love

https://open.spotify.com/album/0tYqX7syTyiaW6UHgFcVu1?si=gIloS9_WTl2ZCQ-7ovgDcw

until i break feat. dolly (kaiden)

slipping (angelus+4am+dolly)

algae feat. dolly (okthxbb+lyustra)

prod & performed by me^_^
guitar by @ayyitsryo
mix by me & @nathan_dagum
cover art by @kayzelledagum

lyrics:

autumn
won't u
see me
in my
bed i'm tryna not to fall asleep but i jus watched the sun rise

step thru broken glass shards on the floor
i ignore
every text
on my iphone

and i dip my legs
once again in ur bed
and u say it's alright
but u won't tell ur boyfriend

leave him cuz i'm better than
won't sleep till i'm feeling alright
pop two i need ambien
stay up i be thinking all night

i repeat my thoughts
leak thru tweets and pot
hard 2 take my losses while i sit and rot

autumn (st jimmy + ryo)

lyrics:

kiss my homie spark the lizzo
i can make that p**** drizzle
cody luv came up yeah that's official
XD-45, finna shoot ur boyfren
jk bish i dont have a gun bish
if i did then he'd be on the run bish
in broad daylight, catch him in the sun bish
can you grove to this, lets have fun bish
i wanna make u my bes frend
babygirl lets make it till the very end
take ur mask off i dont wanna play pretend
ex man trynna get in the wayyyy
let me turn this show into a raaave
me and my big bros payyyed
and i cant have it any other wayyy
old friends they so damn fake
they dont fucc wit my soundcloud page
they tried to get in the way
this an expensive waiste
look inside my cup and you can call it expensive taste
this tris come frum the baby bottle hidden under my waiiist
throw my life to waste
bish i hate my ways
you the one that could save me
bish jus please behave 
in the bnb stay wit me
cuz the outsides too scary
and all the people out there hate me
they throw me on the pavement
"cody luv where ur payments?
cuz you behind on your payments"
im just trynna make a statement
im just trynna make a statement
when they ask me what im doin
i jus wanna make a change
lets all keep our heads up on move on to the next phase

what i listen when i play (・∀・ )

jay