Lyrics:
Sitting in my room, watching the time pass
Just let me go without you, so you can be happier
As you go without me, please don't look back
Cause it will hurt me, more than it will hurt you
And I just wanna say that, I don't regret anything that we had
But now, we should move on, start a new chapter
Not looking back

But that did something to me
And I can't find what is missing
And I cant seem to find what is lost
And there's something that is so off

Run it in the ground I can see your frown
You're looking right down, as if I were the ground
Was I that hideous to you?
Good thing I'll never come see you

As I sit here and I lay back, thinking of the time passed
Oh, I wonder, do you ever think about me?
But I guess that doesn't really matter now
Telling all your friends that I don't know how to treat u
Your not even right and girl but u know that
(need to stop lying)
I cry out for help but I guess no one hears me
Such a shame that it got to this
Leave it all behind, now I got to see through this
Could you even give me a care

Acting like you had to do this for a dare
Come I dare you, to look me in my eye
But was it really that hard?
When you got no respect then I guess it is
And I'm not here to teach you any of that shit

Run it in the ground I can see your frown
You're looking right down, as if I were the ground
Was I that hideous to you?
Good thing I'll never come see you

And we should let it end this way
Cause it will let us end this pain
So please don't get in my way


Oh and I
Oh I opened up my life, just so you could help me
Oh but you didn't, oh you just left me here
Drowning in my sorrow,
Oh I'd never borrow any of your heart, just for you to leave me
Oh, it's never your fault, yeah just put the blame on me
Oh "I'll never leave you" But that don't mean none to me
Way that you used me, I can't go much further
No more loving, not in my time now

ground

prod by me
ft. @evergardens
Lyrics:
(oh you never cared)

Get out of my life
I don't wanna see you no more
Tear apart my body, leaving me with sores
Tired of hearing that you're bored
Save your shit for the next, cause I'm not gonna take it
You must be delusional for wanting to take him
But when you text, you don't want to leave me vacant

Now, when you leave are you just gonna call his line?
And, thanks for wasting my time
I never thought you would lead me down
Oh, I'm such a let down
Oh, but that wont bring me down
I'm gonna get that frown off your face
Because that look's corrupting my life
Way that you view me sometimes :(

Tearing all these pictures, I don't want to see them no more
Oh, and i'll leave you at the back-door
Cause I don't wanna see you no more
So i'll leave this place that we call home

What makes you think that i'd give a fuck about you?
Never did you wrong, but I know you cant relate too
Just comes to show, how you're degrading
And now you're just (fading)

As I run between the lines
And no more are we intertwined
I'm glad i'll never see your eyes
Cause you were nothing why'd I try?
I'll never go where you are
even if that meant i'd die

running away from this
leave it in the ditch
all u ever did
lie to me again
u spewing shit to the ground
thats all thats coming out ur mouth
time spent alone
stings a little more now

its fine i think i need to calm down
lose my mind no i cant shut it down
near the end ill make it somehowwwwwwwww

vacant ft evergarden

prod by me
Lyrics:
Why you always looking away from me
Is it all the regrets that you have
I'll try my very best to help you

Cause we're sitting here at this road cross
Will you let me down
And I just wanna know where this will take us
will we go far?
or will we crash somewhere in the field?

Cause my future isn't looking very bright right now
As I sit here, looking out my window
(Oh where did it go?)
Wondering where'd the time go
When all I do is
Care about the things you don't
Tell me that I'm perfect
(oh but I'm not tho)
Oh, and I wish I, could be more to you
I'm nothing but a let down
I turn and see their frowns
And all I do is look down
I wanna leave this town

I lost everything I once had
And to me that's so sad
But there's no time to feel bad
Now its so hard when I look back
Why'd you have to go so soon?
All that I knew is gone
And there's no chance you'll come back
Now you're just another bit of the past
All those thoughts that we had
Promised each other that we'd never go
Oh, but where did all that go?
Cause I'm sitting right here, all alone
Just to gamble whether you'd call my phone
But you only call me when you're alone

And I needed some help in my life
But you weren't there when I
I needed you most, you weren't there
And now I walk this path alone
And now I'm thinking that I never needed you
Cause life right now has been so peaceful
Now I'm wondering if I was a fool
But I still have regrets, that you'll never know
Cause I hide em along the surface that you'll never see
Guess it never crossed your mind, now it's all gone

let down sped up

let down

self prod
ft: @ZAdAzhad
Lyrics:
You always said "You love me too"
There was a time, I had the world
In the palm of my, Hands

Now thats all gone
Time to move on
Felt so close to my 
Heart
Though as the time passed
I can never go back
Tell me, did you mean all that?
Now I gotta go on, gotta move on

Even though you split my world in half
I took the worst of
You don't know cause
You live in your own world, no faults there
Go back to him, that's all you know now
Oh, but when he goes, don't u crawl back
Because i'm not here to pick up all your shit
Cause now i've got this profound bliss
All I ever want, gotta stay calm
No one really cares, hope you'll see that
You always thought that, you can come back
I'm tired of being easy, pain has changed that
Ripping out my heart, I feel like I'm see through
I need to calm down, all is fine now

Feel like you never cared
All your secrets are spewing out the vent
Oh this world, wasn't meant for all ur shit
And nothing changes my bloody fists
U better learn to keep ur mouth shut
I'm not afraid to throw these hands
I will spin ur jaw
Dickhead learn to seal ur lips


I used to say, i love you
All down the drain, cause there's no 'you'

Sent a text now but u were scorn
Feel your warmth hand even it's been long
All i ever want gotta stay calm
Even when it's gonna cause harm

Pain is so hard
without you
So i change my card 
From red to blue

I'm ready to fight
U have no clue
This is my life 
I don't need you

world

prod by me and jacob vallen

wont eat for a while
my stomaches been aching
and im not myself 
not as of lately
few months ill heal right? im hardly inpatient
its not feeling real, counting cracks in the pavement
takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now
 
dont tell me "people change" like you look down on me
you always said "its nothing" its alot to me
started turning heads, wont look back at me 
was just more of the same a little differently
giving nothing back 
its not important now
things u take for granted 
let my anger out 
i just cant grasp it
nah, its not important now

takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now

for a while

stethoscope

self prod
Lyrics:
I don't really know where to go
Stuck feeling like I got vertigo
It's not gonna be that easy


Feeling like I got nowhere left to go
And you don't really know what to do
But really, I have everything I need
As long as you're here with me
I'll be there soon my love
I promise I'll take care of you
Even when it gets dark, we wont fall apart

(And you won't get a scar, and that's with all my heart)

It'll be worth it I promise, just wait a bit
And even though I'm not that perfect
I'll work on myself till I'm something
Even that I know that I've made it this far
I can't really say that I'm proud of myself
I have all the marks to prove it though
I don't really think of myself too kindly
You say that you'll love me no matter what
My insecurities, can't deal with this

I don't really know where to go
You are my only lifeline
I'll be there soon
One flight down

lifeline

self prod
Lyrics:
Trying to find where I fit
Because I’m not like you or anybody else
Now I move in silence
My whole body’s shaking
Something doesn’t feel right
Missing from my side
No it doesn’t feel right
Without you here by my side
I feel like I’m not serving
No it doesn’t feel right

My whole body’s shaking 
In your absence 
Feel like I’m not there all the time
I’m not mentally present 
Does that change your outlook on me
(Me, me, me, me, me, me)

All the time I thought I had
But it slipped right out my grasp
Now my hearts aching
Because you’re not right here now
Do you ever feel this?
Your arms round my shoulders
Now I need you right here
Because I’m losing my mind

It’s all gone, man I cannot believe this
Opened that box, that u told me not to open
All I found inside was some half written lies
This is so out of character 
Even for you
I’m slowly breaking down
I can’t function normally 
But you didn’t have to lie to me
I know you found someone else
I know I’m so replaceable 
It would’ve helped if you’d of just been honest

If we’re being honest,
Did you just use me?
That’s what it feels like,
I don’t wanna go on
All the time I thought we had
But it’s gone in the trash
That’s another aspect, that I look out.

It’s all in the bin and man,
I don’t even want to know u
You could stay behind,
That’s how it feels when u can’t breathe
Losing all my peace and mind
Wish you’d keep your mouth shut


All you’ve ever done is just control me,
And I don’t want that.
Just be honest, if you even had a heart
It’s stuck on my mind.
Was this planned from the start?

aching

self prod
feat: @jules-303731902

Lyrics:

Is this all a fever dream?
Or what
Feel like it’s out of my grasp now
Did you ever try?
No, you never have done
You’re looking at my eyes, like you really hate me
If I were to die, would you try and save me
I look down at my arms,
It’s torn to bits and shreds
I’m not very valuable, it should have been me

You dragged me up, just to bring me down
I hope you feel good about yourself
Cause what I’ve been through, has left me shaking
I’m sorry that I,
Let you down :((

My body’s slowly decaying
Fear the worst, I cannot breathe
Was it all a facade?
Did you just use me?
That’s not very kind
I don’t have room to trust
How can you say you love me, then go do this
There’s a whole war outside, I’m still laying in bed

Wondering if this meant anything to you
How could I be so stupid
To think that I was ever enough
Was everything a lie?
Oh god please no,
I can’t handle this

All I gave to you, is everything I had
Like usual, it wasn’t enough
All the time we spent
All down the drain
cause I wasn’t good enough
Gave u all I had, just to get a fraction back
Do you feel happy with yourself, with the way u treated me

(Me, I have a life too)

U broke me in two :((
Might as well pour salt on the wound
I feel so abused
Was I really used?
I cannot withstand this
Did u just use me, is that what you do?

Looked into the empty sea
There's nothing left for me
Except for the broken hearts
That I left when I was free
Now silence screams my name
And drags me into the deep
So now they comfort me
But leave me here to sink

experiment 02

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