how did we get here??

Misery Meat

you lost your dog in oceanside 
skin as sharp as a porcupine 
why are we so mortified 
to give it another try

i see you in your mothers eyes 
my skin is sharp like a porcupine 
why are we so mortified 
to give it another try

i don't care
i just want to 
i don't care

sleeping in the garden 
drinking on the weekend
cover me in blankets  
hold me like a secret

standing in the kitchen
everything is broken
wonder what's behind this
door i never open

everybody's watching
no one pays attention
i don't think i'm sick
but i think it's an infection

everything's a pattern
living is a sequence
drowning in a tidepool 
kiss me in the deep end

but i don't care
i just want to
touch your hair
and be beside you 
i don't care
i just like you
i'll cut your hair
i'll run away with you

you lost your dog in oceanside 
skin as sharp as a porcupine 
why are we so mortified 
to give it another try

porcupine

being a teenager can feel like the end of the world. sometimes it's just a feeling. sometimes it really is.

callietown, usa is a collection of grandiose, spiteful anthems, self-reflective ballads, incomprehensible eldritch nightmares, and total social implosions.

enjoy.

dedicated to, inspired by, and regarding @starfury2

epilogue; where are they now?

Trick

Advice

pretend - alex g

1234

I Wait for You

the album "melanchole" by the band "salvia palth"

melanchole

i was all over her

the second album about callie flemming by callie flemming. what a fucking psycho! it took her more than two years so you'd figure there'd be some personal growth, right?

right?

narcissist is. it exists. it inhabits a space. there are themes and lyrics and melodies. if i were to get any less objective, i'd start self-aggrandizing again. and i've been trying to tone that down lately.

if you want to see the lyrics, they exist in this google doc, in order of appearance on the album:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/15CZO-pVchgVKxkcGbcCT0EPdFMFM_Bg-lX9BM24c5dQ/edit

thank you for sticking with me. i think this will make it worth your while.

disaffection

anaheim

freshener

half return

hey folks. im ON that remaster shit because i want my third album to be really good!! i hope you enjoy this one i think it sounds a lot better than the original. if youre new, its about how i fucking hate parties. and how that makes me kind of a loser. thanks again to vesper for guitar parts. hold on ive gotta go upload another one of these

lyrics:
[verse 1]
there is a cloud swelling with rain in the night
it's gonna open, in or out of sight 

like all dark things, there's no way to know without light 

so put on your makeup and get out your plastic plates
for a couple cheap thrills with predatory interest rates

come for the drink and the fun and the friends 
leave with soaked hair and a hand in your dress 

it's one can of mace from a terrible mess
but people have died for a whole lot less 

[chorus] 
i don't mean to impose
but she might like me if i smoked 
and i'd gladly trade a habit for a girl 

so what if i took a drag
would i be pretty when i gag?
all the paths to all the ways i could unfurl 

[verse 2]
there is an outlet loaded with cords for the band
no surge protectors, it's all secondhand 

it comes with the terms of your name on the list
a fire in the room or a chloroform kiss

it's a vice i hated, but i truly missed
to think fitting in could be worth all of this 

[chorus] 
i don't mean to impose
but she would love me if i smoked 
and i'd gladly trade a habit for a girl 

so let me take a drag
aren't i pretty when i gag?
all the paths to all the ways i could unfurl

[bridge]
oh, as if i'd even get the nerve to make it past the door
walk away and lose the battle, stay in bed and lose the war

too cynical to let it be,
too scared to ever try 
cuz loose clothes and lost inhibitions
are how girls like me die 

party-goers party-gone 

[chorus]
i don't mean to impose
i don't even want a smoke 
but i'd get one if i looked more like a girl

my miscarried pretty privilege 
at the hands of my self-image
hy-pathetic-al, but it keeps me from the world

cheap thrills with predatory interest rates [remastered version 2]

ah yes. alcoholism! ive been drinking a lot more this year... due to Events. Situations. its great fun! except for when it's not, which is often. thanks vesper. vesper does guitar. everybody say thanks vesper

lyrics:
[verse 1]
there's a place that i go
where nobody can find me
nothing to feel and nothing to see

but the glow of the bottle
held up to the light 
and the sting of relapsing on a friday night

i should be on the town with the rest of my friends 
but i'm nursing my spite and my loathing again

everclear, my dear, oh,
how i've missed you
there's a voice in my ear
telling me it's an issue, i know

how it goes

[chorus]
and, yes, im aware i made a mess
blowing out my sutures
enough about my alcoholic past,
let's discuss my alcoholic future

[verse 2]
it feels so normal, and that's why i'm scared
was it you? was it me? what the fuck! (who cares!)

i'll save the dissection of all my flaws 
for the day that i step into therapy's jaws

at the end of the day
i've got to nothing to blame
but my selfish desire to feel okay

i know it's unhealthy, but what can i do?
i'd rather not think than think about you 

[chorus]
and, yes, im aware i made a mess
blowing out my sutures
enough about my alcoholic past,
let's discuss my alcoholic future

did i get it from my mother
or did i get it from my friends?
none of that will matter when i'm dead

[bridge]
i promised you the world
but all you got was me 
just a stupid little girl
trying to sabotage her body 

tonight i let me down
just like i always have
swear i'll make these feelings drown 
swear i'll split this fucking scab 

it doesn't really matter 
how many sober years i broke
when you're up there ogling at her
and all i can do is hope 

im hurtling to my twenties
is it really a surprise?
take a good look at me, honey
am i having a good time?

[chorus]
little miss slack-jawed schism
for a while, we thought you really had it
i never struggled with alcoholism
in fact, i think i was pretty good at it

i don't have a drinking problem,
i'd call it a drinking solution 
i feel fine when it's over 
i just fuck up the execution 

does it matter how i got there 
if they like me when i'm done
there's nothing wrong with having just a bit of college fun

nature nurture make her hurt her [remastered version 2]

not my song this is just a re-upload onto here

High School Senior - joxer

Kids

Just Lay Still

Who Really Cares: 

An album about Sex 
Or lack thereof 
And its consequences 
Or lack thereof

Music and Lyrics by Brad Petering 

Mixing and Mastering by Jason Wyman 

Additional Vocals from Amber Quintero and Maddie "Acid" Keaton 

"Cigarettes out the Window" and "For You" feature Frankie Cosmos samples, used with her permission. 

"Not Allowed" features samples from The Yeastie Girlz's "Ovary Action" 7 inch. Used with permission from the Girlz. 

The cover art is a slightly altered photograph taken by George M. Hester. Used with his permission. 

The liner note image with two people on a bed is a slightly altered photograph taken by the late M. Richard Kirstel. Used with permission from his family. 

As a friend once said: Thanks for yr ears
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Broken Girl

August 10

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how did we get here??

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