this feels like the end
for me
yea i feel my lips turning blue
i might already be dead
a zombie walkin back and forth 
stuck on what i said to you
“i loved u” what u said to me
its like u knew it’d break my heart
i bumped into u the other week
just another many times i’ve felt gross in your eyes
don’t look at me
no, don’t look at me now
u know i said it’d be better if we were apart
so don’t look at me
no, don’t look at me now
go find another reason to go n break my heart

shteppi - dont look at me.

this song was completely performed by shteppi :3

the smell
of the rain
takes me back some moons
and stars
oh i 
can’t refrain
from cutting loose
and falling in your arms

your eyes
so unbothered 
i stare at you as you glace off to me
reminds me of my interest
how the water
evaporates, then comes back down
puddles up and trickels off 
the leaves

in love 
with the way
your glasses match the color of your hair
“they get 
in the way”
is what you say whenever you catch me stare

and you get embarrassed
cuz you don’t think they look good on your face
no no

but if you ask this gal,
what she truly thinks
they make your eyes reflect like puddles
reminds me how much i adore the rain

shteppi - this weird girl really likes rain.

oh nephew,
you’re going through some changes
my presence feels outdated to you
nephew 
i’m sorry i look different 
its a shame we’ve grown so distant its true

but your auntie
is no longer that boy thats you looked up to
and i’m sorry if that cuts you
where it hurts
but your auntie
doesn’t feel good in her body
she’s just coping how she ought’ be
to be her
and she hopes you understand 

oh nephew, 
i’m going through some changes
we not having too many exchanges no more
oh nephew
its not that i love you lesser
i’m just changing out my dresser 
you can have my hand me downs 

cuz your auntie
is no longer that boy thats you looked up to
and i’m sorry if that cuts you
where it hurts
but your auntie
doesn’t feel good in her body
she’s just coping how she ought’ be
to be her
and she hopes you understand 

oh nephew, 
we’re both going through these changes
i promise that i still got love for you

shteppi - nephew.

the moon tells me its morning i woke up 2am
stuck alone to ponder why i’ve wasted days on end
the world seems scary and disturbing up outside of my bed
so i’ll just sit here hiding, covers lifted over my head

cuz my pillow can’t hurt me like the people do
headphones on my head to block the people out my eardrums
not gon leave my house unless theres a reason to
but i’m too busy ignoring the world for there to be one
i’m sick of seeing myself every day
at the bottom of my shower staring up through my reflection 
i don’t look good enough to see my friends
i don’t want the humans i avoid to realize what i’ve become

♫

walkin through the trees and moonlight tells me i’m looking good
nobody round to judge or ask why i don’t sound how i should
so as i sit and pluck  these strings atop a bridge made of wood
i’m harmonizing with river singing bout what i could… do to be social

cuz the moonlight can’t hurt me like the people do
headphones on my head to block the people out my eardrums
not gon leave my house unless theres a reason to
but i’m too busy ignoring the world for there to be one
i’m sick of seeing myself every day
at the bottom of my shower staring up through my reflection 
i don’t look good enough to see my friends
i don’t want the humans i avoid to realize what i’ve become

shteppi - pillow.

shteppi - my new sweater.

shteppi - weepy ol girl.

im getting jumped in a Wendy's parking lot

completely performed by shteppi

(lyrics:)
tell me again
what was ur name
i must’ve missed that
shit just don’t feel the same
it feels like you died but
we talk every day
i think i’ve just grown to hate
who we’ve both became

shteppi - one way. (demo)

lyrics, vocals, and mixing by shteppi
production by 1prodave & prodbyyty

(chorus:)
i’m fallin for u
oh, if u knew the things i would do
if i, if i
could have u under my roof
inside my room
what i’d do
what i’d do
do for you
in my room

(verse:)
oh girl i know u like this
you talkin to me like this
i know you, you can’t hide this
i’ve seen how you get time and time
i know deep down you’ll find this
to think about when night hits
as soon you flick that lightswitch
you see me in your dreams like i see u
real life i don’t say whats true
cuz i ain’t tryna fuck up your mood
your mood
she tryna link witta bitch real soon
i hope she feelin just like i do
we both know that we’ll prolly never fess up
or maybe, baby, you jus tryna travel west up
she comin over tellin me she gotta rest up
so when we link why she gettin all dressed up?
maybe she don’t fuck wit women she like men huh?
we bein’ real i’m only woman from the chest up
oh what i’d do to have u chillin in my bed just
once

(chorus:)
i’m fallin for u
oh, if u knew the things i would do
if i, if i
could have u under my roof
inside my room
what i’d do
what i’d do
do for you
in my room

shteppi - in my room.

sampled this:
https://soundcloud.com/user-472027417/in-the-summer-we-just-had
@user-472027417

i love you anatole muster

liquor in my cup 💯 (in the summer we just had)

LET IT BANG ON YA! (PROD. BUCKX2)

all the rent songs that didnt make it to main (usually for pretty good reason)

im getting jumped in a Wendy's parking lot

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